Tuned In

"There are hundreds of different radio waves being broadcast all around you from distant stations. At any given instant, your office or car or living room is full of these radio waves. However if you turn on a radio, you can listen to only one frequency at a time; these other frequencies are not in phase with each other. Each station has a different frequency, a different energy. As a result, your radio can only be turned to one broadcast at a time. Likewise, in our universe we are tuned into the frequency that corresponds to physical reality. But there are an infinite number of parallel realities coexisting with us in the same room, although we cannot tune into them."
Professor Steven Weinberg, Nobel Prize in Physics (1979)

"However, what if we could tune into a parallel reality? What if?"
Silverwing013, author on fanfiction (2011)

Written Monday, October 1, 1990 of this world

So… I kind of figured out a couple weeks ago the flute controlled demonic bugs inside human zombies…didn't really just disappear like I thought when Yusuke defeated the leader of the Saint Beasts, Suzaku. (Sazuku, Suzuka…I think Suzaku is right) I meddled after Keiko called for help, who then told Botan about my involvement once Yusuke was awake to answer her questions.

I blame Yusuke, yep, completely.

Yet he seemed to be more pissed at me for making a double of him without him around, now pestering me to 'double' him on the days he attends school.

Wow, how did I guess from when he first asked at Master Genkai's all those months ago? (Can you hear my sarcasm?)

Although no one yelled at me for doing this waaay early…like my brother and I yell at mom for doing so… I messed around on my own (which I was punished for by major rock climbing, I shudder at Master Genkai's amusement) and made not something or someone show up, but music surrounding me. Lord, very hard to picture music, but so worth it to hear "Jingle Bell Rock".

I tried to picture a radio or boom box, but they only wound up playing stations and music from here oddly enough. I cannot imagine the people behind the songs, at least, not for all of them, so it became a matter of my zoning out not to picture an object and movement, but hearing the sound. And then it just…is.

I went nuts.

So did Megumi. Haruka was laughing harder than I was at Megumi's enthusiasm to listen to as many as she could, picking up her own voice by the second chorus. Shigeru yammered happily along with his sister.

Can't I just stay in those happy times and ignore the story I know going on around me?

Yusuke versus Toguro, with me on no clue how it winds up, well, mostly. The first part of the Dark Tournament I know, but not the end. I worry for him and Kazuma and Keiko. I worry for Kurama…but more so for Shiori. She has already come unknowingly close to losing her son. And Atsuko, Yusuke's mother.

Koenma is very much pressuring me for answers he knows I have now that the time has come, he fully realizing why I said Yusuke was the main character now. As a bonus, he's not very pleased with my hand sneaking into their lives. Which I didn't do anything harmful, Keiko is supposed to be alive and well. Ditto on his assistant Botan.

It's not as though I can give him much, besides my continued promise to keep the shiny bracelet on my wrist. At least I know what it does now. I can't be tracked in this world, or any of the three by him, since I am not of this realm.

I'm very much worried at this point.

It becomes starkingly real when Master Genkai handed me two sets of tickets, Kazushi to be invited by proxy to keep an eye on me when she cannot because of Yusuke. Off to the side was Yukina. So much closer to what I have known for so long to happen, step by step, but without knowing how he fairs.

At least I know my books. Who sets up a main character, the hero, for failure?

He's so young and Yusuke has come very close. Losing Keiko in a fire, if not for that small catch; a fluke to defeat two of the three thieves from Spirit World, the third willing to give up without a fight; only being able to win against Rando by collapsing on the guy; and not being killed by Toguro in the first place do to some agenda…

It's nerve racking on this side of the book… Lord, I have a tear rolling down my cheek.

I don't want to be there.

But I have to be.

Thanks to yyh-ygo-fma (you changed your name, nice), OhhTaylorJade, and starchilds.