A/N: The person who thought the Lusitania was the Titanic's sister ship wasn't even a kid, they were an adult, what an idiot! To my number one fan, I make things sad? Oops, XD, sure you can go to Belfast sometime, it's the ultimate place for anyone who likes Titanic!

Chapter 34

Jack's POV

I was so tired; I put my head down on the table due to exhaustion. I had just written down an ice warning that we had received from a ship called the 'Caronia', but I was far too exhausted to leave it to the bridge. Harry had gone away to get food, he had stayed up most of the night with me, helping me to fix the wireless, I had known what was wrong with it, one of the coils had burnt out from all the usage, but annoyingly I could not remember which one, this meant that the whole wireless had to be taken apart until we could find the broken one. The repairs had taken so long that I didn't get any sleep.

"Hello, Jack," I heard Rachel's voice but I kept my head down on my folded arms on the table,

"Are you awake, Jack?" she asked, she was tapping me on the shoulder,

I groaned at her, making her laugh,

"You are awake then," she giggled.

I sat up slowly, stretching as I did so, Rachel smiled at me.

"Could you…" I started with a grin,

"What is it, my love?" she asked, looking hopeful,

"Leave this wireless message to the bridge for me?" I said, I saw the disappointment in her face.

"Sure," she said, taking the message from the 'Caronia' out from under the ship in a bottle.

"Did you sleep well?" I asked her, worrying that she would be too tired, like me, to endure the long night ahead of us.

"I did," she said, smiling at me, "But that doesn't mean that this can't be my last day…"

"Look, Rachel," I said, attempting to be calm, "You aren't going to die."

She shrugged and smiled, as if she knew more than me.

"You are going to get on a lifeboat, then get on the 'Carpathia', it's not that hard…" I said, fearing that I would lose my temper, I was tired and stressed, I didn't need this,

"Oh yeah," she said, a sneer on her face, "I'll just get into a lifeboat and let you die! That's what all the good girls do."

"You have to, you know that," I replied, looking away from her, "Besides it is only right that a lady gets into a lifeboat and the men stay behind."

"What a load of shit, Jack." She said, glaring at me,

"Well," I looked back at her, "that is the way of it in this day and age,"

"You really can't expect me to…" she started,

"Expect you to?" I interrupted her, "I don't expect anything, I know, I know that you will survive tonight, you must, I tell you now, you will."

"Don't be so sure that you know everything," she said, still looking deeply annoyed, "I think I can still surprise you…"

She smiled before walking out the door with the wireless message. I sighed to myself, I had handled that badly and I knew it.

Rachel's POV

That had been awful, Jack just didn't seem to understand, I mean, how could he expect me to stand by and let him die? I couldn't do that. I wasn't like that. Besides I was a wireless officer and I felt as if I had a duty to both him and the people of the ship. I knew that Jack would tell me that it didn't matter, that the people weren't real, that they were dead anyway, that he was dead anyway, but I couldn't feel that way. After what I had seen, it was impossible to think about going back to my normal life after what I had seen. Everything had been changed by what I had experienced in this place, I was a different person. I went up to the bridge and handed the message to an officer that I didn't recognise; I didn't even feel up to asking him his name.

"Thank you," he smiled,

I nodded before quickly walking off, by the time I got back to the Marconi room, Harry was there as well, and so Jack and I could not continue our argument. We ate breakfast in silence, Jack glancing over at me occasionally. Eventually Harry seemed to get annoyed at us,

"Right," he said, looking between the two of us, "what are you both so gloomy about?"

"Gloomy? I…" I started, not knowing how to explain the situation,

"It's nothing, Harry," Jack said, forcing a smile, "I'm just very tired and I'm sure Rachel is too."

"Yeah," I said, forcing a laugh, "that is it exactly! I was so excited about my engagement that I forgot to sleep!"

"Yes," Harry sighed with a smile, "I am very tired as well! It was a very late night last night!"

"I assume tonight can only be worse," said Jack with a slightly evil looking smile, that frightened me slightly,

"Why would that be?" Harry asked, obvious innocence in his eyes,

"Oh, we will have a lot of passenger messages to send, due to the fact we got barely any done last night with the wireless breaking and all that," Jack said with a sweet smile, his eyes closed,

"Yes," said Harry, looking downwards, "since you are so tired I will take over for you early, at twelve instead of two."

"That is very nice of you, Harry," Jack said, a genuine smile on his face,

"Anything for a friend!" Harry laughed; he was a truly kind person.

I sat with Jack for the next couple of hours, we barely said a word to each other, at around quarter to two, just before he got off duty, we got another ice warning, this time it was from a ship called the 'Baltic', so Jack sent me off to the bridge again. This time I was able to see officer Lightoller.

"What is it this time?" he asked me as I handed him the message,

"Another ice warning, sir," I said, trying to sound really calm,

"You sound worried, Miss Sparks," he said, obviously I hadn't sounded as calm as I had wanted to,

"Slightly," I admitted, letting my nervousness show a bit more,

"Why ever so?" he asked, looking confused at me,

I had to think of an excuse quickly, "My first voyage, sir, and I have heard that ice can damage ships awfully."

"Well, Rachel," he smiled, "This ship is very safe, I could not imagine anything happening to it."

"As you have told me before, sir," I smiled, it amazed me how sure he was, but then again, the Titanic sinking really was the unthinkable happening.

"Have a nice day," he said, before waving me off.

Within a few minutes I was back in the wireless room and Jack was nearly ready to get off duty,

"I got another ice warning," he said, looking up at me as I entered,

"Do you want me to leave it to the bridge?" I asked,

"Don't bother," he said, waving his arm, "Harry can deal with it."

"Okay," I said, sitting down next to him.

Jack went back to sending passenger messages without speaking. I rested my head on my hand, disappointed at how Jack was acting; I thought that he would understand. Fifteen minutes later we were out on deck and Harry had taken over the wireless. Jack and I leaned on the railing on deck and stared out to sea, the sky was cloudless and strongly blue, matching the ocean that stretched endlessly in every direction. Jack still wasn't speaking.

"I really wouldn't mind," I said, my speech seeming sudden over the silence, there was no one around,

"Wouldn't mind what?" he asked, finally looking at me,

"Dying with you," I replied, forcing a smile, pretending to be brave,

"Well I do mind," he said, glaring slightly, "then all of this would have been for nothing, we will have wasted so much if you don't live, you have to live."

"But this has been like living!" I tried to explain, "I haven't ever felt so alive! It is amazing being here with you, it won't be right without you!"

"But, you see," he said, looking back to the sea, "you have to go back, to your family, to everyone that cares about you."

"I know, but…" I tried to speak,

"But nothing!" he protested, turning to me again and grasping my hands in his, he had a frantic look in his blue eyes, "I love you and you have to live, I'm doing this because I love you and you deserve to live!"

"You can't make decisions for me." I said, trying to sound as if I had authority,

"You know that's not what I want to do," he said, sounding quite sad.

We both fell silent, still holding onto the other's hands.

"Remember not to tell the 'Californian' to shut up," I said, smiling again,

"Ah yes," Jack smiled, "I'll not make that mistake again, it was awful rude of me."

A/N: Well that's all for today dear readers, I would like to shout out to my good friend Louise, who actually reads this, she is an amazing friend and she puts up with so much crap from me. I look forward to seeing you at school tomorrow Louise, see you then! XD Hope everyone survives until my next chapter, because stuff is going to get pretty exciting!