"Huh? Yuu.. YUU-CHAN?!"
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"..Usagi?!"
"What are you doing here?"
"KANDA!"
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"Coincidence, hm.."
"ALLEN IS..?"
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"WHAT HAPPENED?"
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It's completely black. I can't see anything. Why? Why can't I open my eyes? Where am I?! WHERE'S KANDA?! Kanda! I can't move my body.. Wait.. voices.. I can hear.. faint.. voices.. Wait-.. is that Lavi?
"Kanda, what happened back there?", Lavi asked with a serious look on his face.
"That's none of your business, rabbit", Kanda grunted.
And that.. Kanda..? My.. Kanda.. Why can't I MOVE?! My body isn't listening to me.. as if I'm frozen on the spot. I can't feel anything either. Am I laying? Standing? No, obviously laying.. I can't feel the pain of my wounds.. What happened to me?
"OFCOURSE IT IS, WE'RE ALL FRIENDS, AREN'T WE? HOW CAN IT POSSIBLE NOT BE OUR BUSINESS WHEN ALLEN'S BEEN DAMAGED THIS MUCH? YOUR WHOLE BACK IS SOAKED UNDER HIS DAMN BLOOD! Even his body was.. and the wounds on his body.."
"..Shut the fuck up". Kanda closed his eyes and sat down on a chair, arms crossed. He didn't want to hear anything about it any further.
The fact that they were at Bookman's store, - Bookman was a pro in healing injuries with secret ancient methods - , having the bean sprout in some sort of coma on a bed with doubts if he'll wake up or not, has driven Kanda's suffering over its limit. He hasn't been able to wash all of the blood off of his back, nor did he want to. He was tired, haunted by the weirdest thoughts and worries. Lenalee had asked him a couple of times if he needed anything- no. He didn't, from her atleast. He wanted the bean sprout to wake up. It's already been a whole day.
"Kanda..?", Lenalee carefully entered the room with a cup of coffee, nodding towards Lavi. She wanted to give Kanda and Allen a bit of space- more or less time to spend together. Her eyes pleaded for Lavi to leave the room for today, he simply obeyed when their eyes met.
Lavi was anxious. No- not only Lavi. Everyone. Even Cross, albeit he doesn't show any care, was asleep on the couch like a lazy asshole, completely drunk from all the wine he drank. Kanda showed it by being angry.
Lenalee? LENALEE.. I'm right here! Kanda, Lavi! I'm here! Why can't I speak?! I need to answer them, I need to see them. I'm fine now, everyone, why are you worried?! I'm scared.. why am I unable to do anything? Kanda.. ?
The samurai snorted. "The hell you want now?"
"Ehm.. I brought you some coffee. You've been up since the moment we've arrived here. Maybe you should drink that, then try to rest some..?"
"I refuse to rest until he wakes up", he immediately responsed as he opened his eyes.
Lenalee placed the cup of coffee on the wooden side table. "But Kanda, aren't you-"
"Enough".
"Sorry, Kanda. Even though we're trying to support you, we're completely useless..", Lenalee left the room with a sad face.
Kanda? Don't have to be sad, I'm here right..? Why can't I see you.. I want to feel you Kanda. Are you on the left side, right side? Where do I have to look to see you Kanda? It's so dark..
The samurai decided to sit down on the bed, next to Allen. Looking at Allen's exhausted body didn't ease his worries at all. It only made them worse. There was nothing he could do, nothing to rewind the time. Nothing to erase the images of the pain he caused his bean sprout in his mind. On top of that, he tought left his katana, Mugen, in the building. Mugen was nowhere to be found after Kanda had returned normal. Well, for him it didn't matter. Kanda never wanted to touch it again. He hoped for it to have perished along with the building that collapsed soon after they had found their way out.
"Moyashi..", Kanda whispered to his lover, desperately wanting to hear his voice again, he hoped to receive some scolding in return for calling him a bean sprout. "Moyashi... moyashi..".
"Kanda", said Lenalee from behind the door. "Nii-san, Lavi and I are going to leave. It's already late, Bookman will come up with the results soon, so please tell us if you know them. Promise me you'll rest a bit later, okay? Please don't worry.. we're here for you if you need us, okay? Whatever happened in the building, don't worry Kanda. Allen will be fine, I'm sure of it".
"Che".
"So.. bye, okay? Take care of yourself".
He heard their footsteps and some murmurs, then a loud sound caused by the closing front door.
"Why won't you wake up?"
I'm awake! Just my body won't move.. Kanda what's happening?! Why aren't you able to hear me.. Kanda.. I'm scared.. I'm..
"Why.. why did I have to do that shit to you?"
Stop blaming yourself Kanda.. No one's blaming you for anything..
Kanda tempted to hit the wall until there was a hole in it. His hands were shaking.
"I'm.. not strong enough".
Kanda.. don't become insecure.
"You can't die.. But on the other hand, you're so stupid I bet you'd forget to die if you get killed, right?"
Maaaah! I'm not dead Kanda, idiot.. Your voice calms me down..
Kanda sighed and started talking randomly. Bookman told him people in a coma or something like it, might be able to feel your prescence. "You know bean sprout, long ago, I ran away from home".
..Eh?
"That's because I didn't really like my life. I was caged. I was jealous of all the other kids that were able to play outside and go wherever the hell they want, especially my siblings. I was supposed to inherit my father's Dojo, but.. I hated it. I always had to train. Each and everyday, the same. I wasn't allowed to go outside, have friends.. I had to become a samurai he would be proud of", Kanda sighed again, "Now I think about it, I probably could've easily chopped my father's head off- but I was young. I inherited Mugen, it's supposed to be some sort of.. 'ancient katana waiting for its bearer'. "Mugen" means "Fantasy", did you know that, bean sprout?"
Kanda closed his eyes and continued talking. As Kanda spoke and spoke, Allen was slowly able to move his fingers.
"One day I was allowed to go outside, and met a weird boy. You idiot really look like him. I called him a.. white.. flower.. or rose.. or anything. I don't really remember. Che, whatever. Just wake up already idiot. I've made a promise to myself though- to find him one day and tell him what I meant. It sounds kind of impossible.."
Wait.. WHAT?! You're.. you're that.. indeed that.. boy from..
"Even so", Kanda continued, "he made me decide to run away, I guess".
Kanda that was about to open his eyes, got embraced by two fragile arms. The samurai was surprised at first, then alot of mixed emotions he had no idea how to deal with rushed inside of him. "Mo..moyashi?"
"It's Allen..", Allen simply responsed as he hugged Kanda as tight as he could in his weakened state. He wasn't sure what to say, what to do. He was overjoyed.
Kanda clenched his bean sprout tightly, somewhere feeling a bit annoyed.
"You fucking bean sprout", he snarled as he kissed his bean sprout on his forehead with a faint blush on his cheeks.
"Eeh, what's that.. Kanda..? Aren't you happy? A moment ago you were all waah waah waah about your past as if I'm someone close to you! But I am your lover.. right?", Allen smiled.
The samurai chuckled. "Hmph. I'm just pissed about the fact you brat always need to make me worry".
"Sure, sure.. Kanda.."
Is it fine if I never let you go after this, Kanda? We'll never be separated again, right? Even when the sun stops burning, the oceans are completely dry, the world is about to meet its end- you'll be with me for eternity, right..?
And its fine if later on I'll.. ask you what you once meant, right?
enjoy xp I'm on a nyan cat spree..