Chapter 34

Gibbs followed McGee to a bench outside the building. Tim was seating, elbows on his legs, holding his head on his hands. Gibbs sat beside him and didn't say a word.

They sat for several minutes, in silence.

" I can't do this Boss. "

" Can't do what, McGee? "

" Every minute, every turn, there's something else. She can't catch a break. I fell like I'm in a bad script or something. How can I help her? I'm not equipped for this. And now this: this ' man '. " He sighed. " We spoke to him Boss. I didn't even suspect anything. "

" The best ones are the ones you don't see coming. "

Tim was quiet for a minute.

" You know Boss, I always thought about having kids. A family. I could picture myself with grandkids too. Just never like this. " He took a deep breath. " I always thought that I would meet someone, and fall in love. Get married. She would get pregnant, I would tell my family, my friends. We would buy a house, with a backyard. We would have this silly arguments about how to decorate the baby's room. I would be with her at every doctor's appointment. When the time came to the birth, I would freak out. But after it, I would hold my baby in my arms, I'm sure I would start crying too. I would sing the baby to sleep. I would count the fingers and toes. I would ask Sarah to be the godmother. I would teach my child to ride a bike. I would be there at the first day of school. I would show all my favorite books. "

He ran a hand through his short hair.

" I would raise my child, I would be there. He or she, would be my child because I would raise him or her. Noelle, she's all grown up. And she doesn't even know me. I don't know her either. And she's just 18-years-old, and she already has kids. I already have grandkids. And they are the kids of a monster that victimized her. They are my blood. My responsibility. And they're strangers. As I am to them. "

Tim sat up, looking ahead.

" McGee, you can have your breakdown later. Now your daughter and grandchildren need you with your head straight. "

They sat in silence.

" We're gonna find them, aren't we Boss? "

" Hell ya. But you need to get in there and do your work. "

Tim took a deep breath and stood, walking back to the building, Gibbs right behind him.