KatePOV-

They're not even that cute together. Blair and I were much better together.

I never really lied to Blair, if that's why she doesn't want me. I eventually confessed I'd been cheating.

The couple I was house sitting for when I had that party said I could have another one, but what I really need is to show Blair how much better she'd be with me.

How much she belongs with me.

We're at a holiday party Harmony's parents' restaurant, and Blair and Ryder have been cuddled up, whispering and giggling the whole time.

I know what he sees in her. She's beautiful, smart, funny, talented and kind. What I don't get is what she sees in him.

Well, I never knew what she saw in me, but I know I could be good to her.

I check the clock, and notice I've been here for three hours.

And so far I've only seen the girl I love kiss her boyfriend several times.

And that should be me.

''Hey, Harmony,'' I grin walking over to her ,''This is a great party.''

That's a lie.

''Glad you're having fun,'' she beams.

''The thing is, my dad is coming to see me for Christmas. So I have to go now. He'll be here tonight.''

That, and I want to go home. I can't stand seeing her in his arms anymore.

''Oh, I get it. Well, the coat room is that way. Have a great holiday!''

I walk towards the front to get my gray coat.

''Hey,'' Blair says, walking in a few minutes later.

''Hi,'' I smile at her ,''Heading home?''

''Yeah,'' she nods, grabbing Ryder and her coat.

''Can I ask you something?''

''Sure,'' she nods, and I help her with her coat.

I can be nice, but mostly towards her and my dad.

''What made you fall for me?''

''You...were so nice. And smart, and ambitious. And talented. I looked up to you, and then I had a crush on you, and I fell for everything else about you.''

''And what about Ryder?'

''He's...sweet. And he doesn't really judge. He's smart, whether he believes it or not.''

''So you're in love with him.''

''Kate, don't do this. What you and I had was real, but it's over now.''

''I know that.''

I move some hair from her eyes, and she takes in a breath.

''I'm not gonna ask you to cheat, beautiful. I just-''

Her lips are on mine then, and I'm not gonna push her away.

She pulls away then, and covers her mouth as tears form.

''I-I'm...I didn't-''

''Hey, Blair, what's...hi, Kate,'' Ryder says, walking in ,''What's up?''

''Um...I-''

''Blair was just giving me advice on what to get my dad for Christmas,'' I cut her off.

She looks at me, a smile beginning to form.

''I think you're right Blair. A gift card is best. Well, I'll see you later, guys. Have a nice break.''

Walking out of the restaurant, I can't keep the smile off of my face.

Now, maybe it would have been better if I let Blair tell Ryder she kissed me.

He'd get mad, storm out of there, and I'd be there for Blair.

I want to win Blair back, but not like that.

I want her to come back when she finally realizes who she belongs with.

BlairPOV-

I'm the worst girlfriend ever.

Ryder is lying on my bed with me, an arm wrapped around my waist as he kisses me.

And the whole time I'm kissing him, I can't stop thinking about that kiss with Kate.

Not even that it was a good kiss, and as good as kissing Ryder is, that kiss was great, too. I finally realize why though.

I missed it.

I missed the feeling of Kate's lips on mine the moment we broke up. The kiss at the party was forced almost, because if I refused everyone who knew we dated would make it awkward. Not intentionally, of course, but still.

I kissed her, this time. Because she was right there, and her lips looked so soft, and she was so beautiful.

But if Ryder kissed Jordan. I'd be hurt.

He lifts my shirt a little, but I'm not into this kiss.

It's like in the Katy Perry song ,Thinking of You: Because when I'm with him, I'm thinking of my ex.

And thinking of Kate more doesn't worry me as much as it should when I have moved on and am in love with Ryder.

I love Ryder, I really do.

But I can't stop thinking of Kate.

KPOV-

''Kurt!,'' Carole beams, giving me hug as soon as I open my door.

I hug her back ,''I told you guys I'd come get you from the airport.''

''Don't worry about that,'' my dad grins, hugging me ,''We're here now, that's all that matters.''

''Where's my grandson?''

''At a holiday party. He'll be back in a couple of hours.''

Carol yawns then.

''You guys will be sleeping in my room. You can go in there if you want, Carol.''

She thanks me, and I take their bags to their room,

When I walk back out, I see dad looking at the picture of Rory and Blair that they got Blaine and me for Christmas.

''They look related,'' he smiles a little, and I nod.

''They got Blaine and I copiess for Christmas.''

''How is Blaine, anyway?''

''Great. He got offered to stay at Darren Everett and he accepted it.''

''You know,'' my dad begins, setting the picture down ,''You seem pretty happy, considering he's just a friend.''

How did he even figure that out?

''We've been dating for almost a month.''

''He's treating you right, I assume. You smiled the moment I mentione him.''

I sit next to my dad ,''He treats me right, dad.''

Even though I don't deserve it.

''And you really care about him.''

''Is it that obvious?''

Even though I don't have a chance of him staying with me after he figures out he can do better.

''I saw the way you looked at him at Thanksgiving. It's the same way I used to look at your mother, and the way I look at Carol. If he makes you look at him like that, he must be a keeper.''

If only he looked at me the same way.

''So, how serious are you two?''

''They're aren't going to be any weddind bells soon, if that's what you're asking,'' I joke.

''Give it time,'' he laughs ,''It's only been a month.''

Yes, but sooner or later, he's going to realize I'm not worth his time.

I hope that it's later.

Because even if the heartbreak is inevitable, I can enjoy my time with Blaine while it lasts.

''I know you probably don't want my opinion,'' dad begins again ,''But here it is: I know you've been treated badly before, Kurt. But I think you should let yourself fall for Blaine if you feel the same way. It's your life, you're gonna do what you wanna do, but there it is. That's just what I think. You do whatever your heart tells you to.''

Listening to my heart got me hurt before.

''Alright dad. Now, tell me how work is.''

He talks about the mechanic shop, and I listen intently.

Well, I half listen. I'm too busy mulling over his comment in my head.

The thing is I fell for Blaine.I told myself I wouldn't fall for him, but I fell anyway.

And boy did I fall hard.

Something I promised I'd never do again.

Now, I fall for him more and more everyday.

I can only hope that he continues to catch me the more I fall.

Because I don't think I'm done yet.

BPOV-

Blair is sitting on the couch eating a bowl of cereal when I walk into the apartment.

''Hey,'' she murmurs, not taking her eyes off of the television.

''Hi. What's wrong?''

''I kissed someone that wasn't Ryder.''

''Blair-''

''I just need help, dad.''

I sit next to her, and she lays her head on my shoulder.

I remember when her biggest worry was whether she'd get school out for the day beause it snowed.

Now, she has boy problems, girl problems, and is growing up way too fast.

''Honey, just tell him.''

''I don't even think he'll be mad I kissed someone.''

''What do you mean?''

She shrugs and looks at the TV ,''Nothing. I'll tell him.''

I move some curls from her face, and she sighs.

''Relationships are confusing.''

''Tell me about it.''

''I think I'm gonna go take a nap. Can we watch a movie or something later?''

''Sure,'' I nod. ''Feel better.''

She thanks me, takes her bowl to the kitchen, and goes to her room.

Normally, I'd call Kurt and see if he wanted to do something, but he's with his family.

I pull the velvet ring box out of my pocket and smile at the promise ring.

Just the thought of giving it to Kurt terrifies me, and gives me butterflies at the same time. Because I want him to like the ring.

But I want him to love the inscription.

Disclaimer-glee belongs to Fox and Ryan Murphy, not me.