Chapter 35. Hope you enjoy. Again more Jared drama. Happy reading.
Jared was sitting alone outside Sam and Emily`s. Away from the others. He couldn`t share in their easy conversation anymore.
Empty. Emptiness. Loneliness. Would physical pain be any better? Jared would gladly swap this feeling for the worst pain imaginable. It was not that he couldn`t feel anything. It was the feeling of knowing the purest love possible and having it snatched away. He couldn`t see the object of all his hopes and dreams. It was if she had never existed. But she did exist. She was just out of reach. She was a memory that haunted Jared. It tormented him trying to remember her face. Or anything about her. His memories came and went in flashing images. He couldn`t remember her but he could. The only place he could see her was in his dreams. That was when she came to him. That was where she let him touch her. Let him kiss her and make love to her. It was the only place where he was happy. She lived on in his dreams. His beautiful Kimi.
Jared and the rest of the pack had spent weeks searching for her until the bloodsuckers decided to cause more trouble. Sam had called off the search with great difficulty. She didn`t want to be found. Jared knew that it was all in vain. Kimi wouldn`t be that easy to trace.
What got to Jared the most was the strange behavior of Joanna. She didn`t respond to any of his emotional manipulations. Emily had fessed up pretty quickly when she discovered what Kim had really done, whereas Joanna kept stubbornly quiet, as did Aliyah. Danny had no clue. Kim wasn`t stupid enough to tell her brother her plans. He would have stopped her. Jared made the Pack swear that they wouldn`t tell Kim`s parents or the other elders the full extent of Kim`s actions. They would have went of full freak out mode. Nobody wanted John Carrillo that angry. He was scary as fuck when he was being nice. Danny agreed with him. It would cause more trouble.
Danny confronted Jared soon after about what happened. To say he had been furious would have been an understatement. Jared didn`t put up any type of fight. He wanted to feel the pain. He let Danny pummel him to a bloody pump. He had yelled at Jared to fight back. To be a man. Jared told him just to kill him. A life without Kimi was no life worth living. Danny had regarded him after that with new eyes. He had told Jared that she would come back. She was his sister. She was nuts but she was predictable. He could never kill the one true love of his big sister. It was like he had finally proven to Danny that he loved Kim more than anything. Their relationship was still a bit strained but Danny let him see his memories of Kim to help him see her face, remember her. When they were younger and she was a cute child. Her awkward adolescence with her goofy brace smile. Her blossoming into beautiful womanhood. All the things he didn`t know about her. Like how she could do a perfect cartwheel five times in a row. Or how she once confronted some girls who were trying to bully Aliyah a year ago. It was the greatest gift anyone could give him during this, the bleakest time of his life.
If he only knew where she was. He would go and find her. Claim her and bring her home. He would give her anything to make her smile. He would even be content to just be friends if it meant he could just see her and hear her voice. He was hollow, but he put on the bravest face he could. He still had to protect La Push and the tribe. He would deal with it best he could until she came back. If she came back...
Two months had gone. It seemed like years. Everything went slowly. It seemed like time itself was mocking him. Making him suffer more by prolonging the agony of the separation. He would suffer it. He deserved it. He started to even welcome it.
"Emm Jared?" He was broken out of his chain of self hating thoughts by Aliyah. He looked up at her dumbfounded. She hadn`t spoken to him in months. She had refused. His mind worked quick. She was shuffling nervously from one foot to the other. Something that Kimi did when she wanted to say something that was important.
"Tell me Aliyah. Is everything okay?" Say where Kimi is. Say Kimi is going home. Aliyah gave a frightened glance over her shoulder and handed Jared a letter quickly.
"It`s not from Kimi. But I think it will help." She gave him a small smile and went back inside. Jared watched her go then opened the page with Aliyah`s neat, girlish handwriting. It was only a couple of lines.
GotoOldwomanEsther`s.ShetoldKimithings.Theother`scouldn`ttellmemore.AllIknowisthatshegottheideatoleaveaftershewentthere.I`mnottellingyouwhereKimiwent!Sodon`taskme.ShesaidshewouldcomehomeandIbelieveher.
Old woman Esther. The medicine woman. The wise woman. It was said that she could see things. Show people things. What had she told Kimi? What did Kimi see to make her leave? Why didn`t he think of going there before? He put Aliyah`s letter in his pocket. He would be eternally grateful to the child. If she could shed some light on the situation than Jared was intelligent enough to go see her. He got up and sprinted towards the old woman`s house. It took him all of five minutes.
Esther was sitting outside on a low stool weaving a basket. Her silver hair contrasted starkly with her withered brown skin. She looked up at Jared with no hint of surprise. It seemed like she could see could see into every nook and cranny of his soul with her dark, penetrating stare. She started to speak in Quileute to him. Her voice was ageless yet wise.
"I`ve been waiting along time to for you to come Jared Cameron. Shapeshifter. It seems like your imprint was the more clever out of the two of you."
"Where is she?" Jared asked sharply. The old woman raised her eyebrows at him.
"You don`t command me. You don`t command her either. She doesn`t command you." Her riddles were worst than Kimi`s.
"Please, can you help me?" Jared offered instead. The old woman contemplated him.
"Do you know what the butterfly signifies Jared? Do you know what it show`s us?"
"What do butterflies have to do what this?" Just say where she is!
"Tell me Jared. What does Kimimela mean? The name of your beloved." Kim. Kimi. Kimimela. He remembered her telling him what her pretty name meant. Butterfly.
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