~written by Noah~

"Cassi?" Pippin called, still waking, into the empty motel room, "Cas?" Silence settled and absorbed into the ugly retro wall paper, she stood up and walked cautiously through the dark to the window and looked out into the chilled winter air. She'd been awoke by a nightmare of that battle that was coming in the morning, anxiety filled her as she realized he wasn't there in the room. Pip gasped in surprise as she saw Cas standing outside in the snow and looking up to the grey night sky as snow fell down all around him. The one damn time he wasn't wearing his trench coat, he stood in the snow with snowflakes sticking to his cobalt tie.

"Cas!" She quickly grabbed her boots and his coat and slipped out the door, immediately running to him. He jumped when she grabbed his shoulder.

"Pip? What are you doing awake?"

"Really Cas? What am I doing? Me?"

"I..." Cas shrugged. "I was feeling anxious." He admitted, looking to the snowy ground, causing his unkept hair to fall in his face. Pip sighed, draping the coat around his shoulders before taking his hand to lead him back to the motel. His hands shook in hers, he felt like ice, she wondered how long he's been out there thinking.

I found God I found him in a lover When his hair falls in his face And his hands so cold they shake

A lot had happened in the last few months. Castiel had finally been restored from Godstiel, which left a rift between them as Cas felt heavy guilt for his actions as Godstiel. Making him distance himself from her at times, she'd finally pulled him out of that when suddenly they found themselves at another crossroads. Something was wrong about this hunt they were going on tomorrow, but Cas refused to give any information on why it made him so anxious. But he'd been acting weird ever since Sam and Dean found the case, she couldn't get a reason out of him though.

"I feel like you're really playing Devils Advocate with me here Cas, tell me what's so horrible about this hunt." Pip said worried as they closed the door behind them, she could still feel how freezing his hand was.

"I can't say exactly, but it's black." He said distantly,

"Black? So demons'?"

"No, something new." He said, voice far away before turning his attention back to Pip. He gave her a reassuring smile and put his cold hands around her waist and kissed her sweet as tangerines. He was freezing, but she still melted under his touch.

I found the Devil I found him in a lover And his lips like tangerines And his color coded speak

"I can't tell you because I don't know." Cas admitted, embarrassed at his anxiety.

"How bad is bad?" Pip asked after a moment.

"Very. Very bad." He said, Pip sighed.

"Okay... Well, we'll kick its ass. Don't worry, Cassi. You're freezing, come on." She ordered him to go back to bed, cuddling to him to try to get him to warm up faster and to make sure he stayed put.

Now we're lost somewhere in outer space In a hotel room where demons play They run around beneath our feet We roll around beneath these sheets

But Pip couldn't fall back asleep, even eventually when Cas did. She felt afraid too, worried Cas was scared because he would have to do something like Godstiel again. Sacrifice himself, she didn't want that again. She didn't want him to have to pay again.

I've got a lover A love like religion I'm such a fool for sacrifice It's coming down, down, coming down It's coming down, down, coming down
I've got a lover And I'm unforgiven I'm such a fool to pay this price It's coming down, down, coming down It's coming down, down, coming down

Pip jumped awake when Cas stirred, in a slumber stupor she grabbed his arm.

"Sorry, I thought you were leaving or something." Pip muttered, letting go of his arm.

"I didn't mean to worry you with what I said last night." Cas said, apologetic.

"It's fine, Cas. I mean it's scary." Pip sighed. "Just promise me you won't martyr yourself anymore okay? You've done more than enough to make up for anything you've ever done wrong."

"I'd never martyr myself." He said.

"Cas, you've done it over and over again."

"Pip, I won't do anything I don't have to do." He said solidly.

"And what if I have to do something? To pay for my crimes the way you always do?"
Cas didn't answer her. Instead he pulled her into his lap before kissing her deeply.

"Not going to happen." He said.

I found a martyr He told me that I'd never With his educated eyes And his head between my thighs
I found the savior I don't think he remembers 'Cause he's off to pay his crimes And he's got no time for mine

"Cas? Pip?" Banging came from the door as Sam and Dean where trying to make sure they were ready.
Pip rolled her eyes, "Little busy, asshats." She muttered, Cas chuckled.

Now we're lost somewhere in outer space In a hotel room where demons play They run around beneath our feet We roll around beneath these sheets
I've got a lover A love like religion I'm such a fool for sacrifice It's coming down, down, coming down It's coming down, down, coming down

"Finally, you guys. What took so long?" Emmy said impatiently, Dean had made her wait for them to go get coffee.

"Tell you when you're older kiddo." Pip said, raising an eyebrow at her.

"Pip!" Emmy said, annoyed and betrayed that she'd had to wait for coffee for that. "Seriously?! That's it. Never waiting on anyone for coffee again."

"You'll forgive me!" Pip said laughing.

"Never!" Emmy said in mock hurt, before walking out the door.

I've got a lover And I'm unforgiven I'm such a fool to pay this price It's coming down, down, coming down It's coming down, down, coming down

Pip glanced at Cas, "Still not sure what's so wrong?"

"No, I'm not." She took his hand and tried to shut out the anxiety growing again.

Every single night pray the sun'll rise Every single time make a compromise Every single night pray the sun'll rise, but
It's coming down, down, coming down He's coming down, down, coming down

Emmy, coffee in hand and the universe balanced, looked at Pip.

"I'm worried about this hunt too... I have a really dark feeling about it." She said quietly, as if she had read Pip's mind.

I've got a lover A love like religion I'm such a fool for sacrifice It's coming down, down, coming down It's coming down, down, coming down

"I don't know why... Cas is really freaked out." Pip said.

"So am I, Dean says it's okay though... So it probably will be okay." Emmy smiled shakily.

"Anyways, what's the worst that could happen-"

I've got a lover And I'm unforgiven I'm such a fool to pay this price It's coming down, down, coming down It's coming down, down, coming down

"Hey guys, I've got a lead." Sam interrupted. Pip peaked with interest, still holding Cas' hand.

Every single night pray the sun'll rise Every single time make a compromise Every single night pray the sun'll rise, but

"You're not going to believe what we think it is." Sam said.

It's coming down, down, coming down He's coming down, down, coming down

"So you guys have found something?" Emmy asked anxiously, Cas looked tense.

It's coming down, down, coming down He's coming down, down, coming down

"We've never faced it before, we weren't even sure they existed until Bobby found some stuff. it's..." Cas paled.

It's coming down, down, coming down He's coming down, down, coming down

"...Leviathans."