Chapter 35:
TRIS POV:
Tobias heart has stopped. I'm huddled in a corner of the room, legs not moving, not wanting to turn and face the scene in front of me. A few nurses packed around Tobias's lifeless body, struggling to keep him alive.
I hold Andrew tight to my chest, knowing that he needs me to try and be strong. Trust me if Andrew wasn't here I would be screaming for the nurses to do something.
I know he may not make it the doctor said that when he told me that If Tobias had another heart failure he was basically done for. But I'm having a rough time thinking of a life without him.
That's when I feel one of the nurses lightly touch my shoulder. She leans down and says, "I'm sorry Mrs. Eaton but...he didn't make it."
That's when it all clicks in my head. The horrific images of a life without Tobias. I will never see those memorizing deep blue eyes, or his cute smile. I will never feel his soft lips again, nor hear his sweet laugh. I will never have another child that has Tobias written all over them. I won't have the chance. I won't have them. I won't have him. He won't be able to see Andrew grow up, masking his father in the way he acts and looks.
The only thing I have left of him is Andrew, developed from our love. Who now has to grow up without a dad.
"Time of death; 7:46." A nurse standing by the bed says as she puts the shocking equipment away. I can see as she looks at me with sympathy in her eyes, probably feeling bad for me. I am now a single mother, the love of my life just. . . died.
I break down into gigantic sobs, shaking my whole body and Andrews because I'm hugging him so tight.
I can't help but look at Tobias's still body, memorizing his shape, and figure. This is the last time I will physically see his body. I lean over and set Andrew on the ground walking over to Tobias's form.
I'm about to give him one last kiss when I hear it. The first beep of his heart. Then the second. Then the third. And it keeps going and going. I watch in awe as his whole body begins to do light twitching, not shaking but twitching.
Nurses that were just walking out the door are watching just as I am, shock lacing their expression, and that's when his beautiful ocean blue eyes snap open.
"Tobias?" I sniffle quietly so the nurses can't hear. His eyes focus on me and then they focus on the nurses in the background. "Tobias? Can you hear me?" I whisper again.
His eyes shift quickly back over to mine again, obvious that he heard me. He lightly shakes his head, his face softening. He opens his mouth as if to speak but nothing comes out.
"It's okay. You remember me right?" I question, a few tears still sliding down my cheeks.
He shakes his head, yes, a light smile playing at his lips, however it doesn't reach his eyes. His eyes read, sorrow, pain, and guilt, forcing his smile to look fake.
"I love you Tobias, I always will." I say kissing his forehead, looking back into those eyes I never thought I would see again.
One Week Later…
TOBIAS POV:
I've been doing better lately. Having just got my voice back after a full week without it. I've been having to motion words and still they usually wouldn't understand.
Today is the first day I get to see my son and be with him since the "accident". Tris said she would bring him around later this afternoon after my doctors appointment.
I'm lying on my bed waiting for the doctor to come, when the door is opened wide. In walks my doctor.
"Hello Four. How are you feeling?" He asks almost to polity.
My voice is rough from disuse, "Fine."
"So I understand that you did die, but miraculously came back...without nurses help I might add. Now today I just want you to answer a few questions. Do you think you're up for that?"
I nod my head slightly, not really caring.
"Okay, what happened while you were in the coma? Were you aware?" He starts off.
"Yes I was." I answer simply, not wanting to talk to anyone but Tris.
"Did you remember anyone?"
"Some...not from past years though." I say and he writes it on his clip board that he brought.
"Were you aware that you died when you did?" He asks.
"Yes."
"And finally how did you do it? How did you come back." He asks finally looking up with curious eyes.
I hesitate not really wanting to answer this one so I say simply, "I don't know."
Right when he finishes, the door is opened and in walks Tris with Andrew. The doctor looks from me, to my son, to Tris then quietly gets up and leaves.
"How are you doing Tobias?" Tris asks carrying Andrew up to my bed, kissing my forehead after setting him down.
"Fine." I say looking up at her. "He's grown a lot since the last time I saw him."
"I know. He's getting words into sentences already and is learning to walk. I just want to wait till your home so he can learn something from you." She says softly.
"I love you." I say randomly looking up into her bright blue eyes. "And I never apologized for dragging you into the mess with my dad. You didn't deserve that."
"Tobias I don't care. Marcus wasn't the one who did the horrible things to me." She says rather quietly.
"What? What happened?" I ask sternly. I never knew something else happened. All I know is that it involves Peter, I only remember bits and pieces of that night, and I do remember Peter's dead body.
"I will tell you when you get out of here. You don't need to be worked up right now." She says with concern in her eyes.
"Tris I want you to tell me what happened right now." I say in my intimidating Four tone. I feel some regret when her eyes water a little.
"Peter tried to rape me. He didn't though but he took off a lot of my clothes." She sniffles, keeping the tears in her eyes.
I can feel as my face instantly softens and I pull her in for a hug. I keep her close to my body once she's there and she just sniffles once or twice.
"I promise to never let anything like that happen to you again. I love you so much." I say gently.
"I love you too."
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"Mommy!" Andrew yells from the living room.
"What do you need?" I ask as gently as I can while frustrated. I have to pack a bad because Tobias is finally getting out of the god dang hospital today. It only
took a whole freaking month.
"I wan to go swe daddy!" He says stumbling over a few words.
"We will leave in a minute." I say back packing the last few pieces of clothing he needs to wear. "Alright let's go." I say grabbing his hand and taking his armpit in the other. I pull him into my arms.
Andrew is definitely going to be tall, he's growing so fast, I can barely hold him anymore.
When we get to the infirmary I walk into Tobias's room and he is already standing. I walk up to him and kiss his forehead handing him the bag so he can go change in the bathroom.
When he is out, I sign the release papers and we make our way back home. Half way there my arms begin to get sore and Andrew begins to slip. I place him gently in the ground and Tobias offers to carry him. He picks him and grunting.
"You've gotten bigger haven't you." Tobias asks in the voice he uses specially for Andrew.
Andrew laughs and claps his hand. "Wes!"
"I think he needs to learn to walk, I already taught him the fundamentals so all he needs is the final project." I explain and Tobias nods.
We make it back to the apartment and Tobias sets Andrew on the ground. Helping him into a standing position. Andrew stays up just like I taught him.
"Wow Tris, you did pretty good." He mumbles and holds onto Andrew tiny hands.
"Andrew do you want to walk towards me." Tobias says backing up a little.
"Wak?" Andrew asks confused.
"Walk." Tobias repeats and Andrew looks at him weird. Tobias gestures for me to get up.
"Andrew look like this." I say while walking casually towards him.
"Wak." He says while taking one weird and awkward step. He tries again and almost falls on him but before Tobias caught him.
"Slow down! You don't have to go so fast." Tobias says.
"But mommy walks fast." He says innocently.
"It's okay just try it more slowly." I says supportively. He smiles softly at me and stands again on his own. He takes a few steps forward, and a few more until he is leaning on Tobias.
"See you did it buddy!" Tobias say proudly, as he looks at his son with so much happiness I almost want to cry.
There is no way on this earth would Tobias ever harm Andrew. And now I'm positive, like I always am.
I'm so so so sorry I haven't updated in months! I feel horrible... I've had a lot going on, and I started a new story called Fate Happens, if you've seen it. I'm so sorry, and I will try my hardest to update as often as I can. Never forget I love you all so much, thank you for everything. Hopefully updates coming soon. Please review!
~divergent24-7