The car ride over was silent. Gavin was trying to process everything in his mind.
Connor was trying to push down his growing emotions.
He hated this. He knew that Gavin still loved him.
So why couldn't they just be happy and be together?
-x-
They both exited the car. Arriving at Gavin's house.
Connor quickly made his way to Gavin's side and took his hand, interlacing their fingers. Gavin allowed him to do this as they walked up to the door. Thankfully Niner had left it unlocked.
The pair stepped inside, Gavin closed the door behind them. Connor still had his hand in his.
"N-Niner?" Connor asked in confusion, his LED going yellow.
"Hello, Connor. Gavin." Niner had suspected that Gavin would bring Connor home... He looked at Gavin, "I apologise for not asking for your permission, Gavin... But I hope you don't mind that I have borrowed one of your shirts. My sleeve was covered in Thirium and I needed something to wear after I cleaned my wound."
"Yeah. That's fine."
Connor retracted his hand from Gavin's, "You and Niner!? Why didn't you tell me!?"
Gavin rolled his eyes and grabbed onto Connor's hand, "No. You are not thinking that. I am not sleeping with Niner. I told him he could stay here tonight because Lara is being abusive."
Niner grimaced, "That sounds awful. No offence, Gavin but... I would never have sex with you."
"Thanks...?" Gavin said.
Niner then looked between the two of them before he spoke, "Oh please. Please don't tell me you two are going to perform sexual activities together whilst I am in the same house. Anything but that."
Gavin chuckled, "No, Niner. I won't put you through that pain."
"I appreciate it." he paused, "Is there anywhere I can go into sleep-mode comfortably? It is required for me to self-repair at a faster and more efficient rate."
"Uhh... You can take my room. I'll stay down here with Connor."
"Are you sure?"
Gavin nodded, "Yeah. I'm sure."
"Well. Thank you, Gavin. Thank you for letting me stay here tonight."
"No problem. I will speak with Oxton at work tomorrow."
Niner nodded before heading up the stairs.
Connor's hand had tightened around Gavin's overtime. His LED was still yellow. Gavin lead him over to the couch so they both could sit down. His thumb caressed the android's knuckles in order to try and calm him down.
"There's no need to be jealous, Con." Gavin smirked.
"I'm not." Connor looked away from him.
Gavin brought his free hand up to Connor's jaw to turn him back to look into his eyes, "Yeah you are." he winked. The two were extremely close to one another, Connor could feel Gavin's warm breath ghost over his lips.
"Look I know it's weird... Me lettin' someone who looks exactly like you stay over. Someone who looks like my ex." he paused, feeling Connor's fingers tense around his. He brought the android's hand up to his lips before dropping it back into his lap, "But he is being abused. This is just the next step in me accepting androids. Niner is my partner. My work partner. And I won't let Lara do shit like that to him. Just like how I won't ever let anyone like Fawkes do anything to you ever again."
This made Connor feel more at ease, his LED slowly fading back to blue, "I don't want you with Niner."
Gavin chuckled, "I'm not going to be with him, Connor. He's started to fall for Chloe by the looks of things. And besides. I've already fallen for someone else."
"Y-You have?"
"Yep." Gavin nodded, "Definitely. They own my heart."
"D-Do you mind me asking who?" Connor wondered, worry clearly in his voice.
"That would spoil the fun."
Connor's eyes drifted away from his, "Oh."
Gavin's thumb caressed the android's cheek, making Connor look back at him. He sighed heavily "It's you, Connor."
"Me?" Connor asked in slight shock. Was he mishearing Gavin?
"I know I know. The famous android hater has had his heart stolen by an android!" he paused, "I still love you too, Con. But I can't be with you."
Connor's LED went red. Anger and sadness washing over him, "Why?!" he tried to fight back the tears.
"You know why, Connor..."
"You say that you don't want to hurt me. But you're hurting me by not being with me."
Okay. Gavin hadn't thought of it like that.
He was effectively hurting him more this way.
"Connor-"
"I know you said that you wanted to get rid of all your anger and hatred beforehand... But I can't keep waiting. My systems are constantly going crazy and overheating. My stress levels are always high and it's extremely hard to stop myself from self-destructing." he straddled Gavin's lap without warning, wrapping his arms around the man's neck, "You're putting me through a lot more pain than you think you are. Kamski doesn't seem to be helping you either."
Gavin shook his head, "Connor, we can't-"
"I love you, Gavin. Please." he leaned forward and pressed his face to Gavin's neck, "I need you."
Gavin's eyes closed as he let out a sigh. His hands came to rest on Connor's waist, "I'm not sure about this, Con."
"I know we always say 'one last time'." Connor paused, "But I want more." he placed a soft kiss to Gavin's throat.
A groan escaped Gavin's throat, "Connor, I'll hurt you again-"
"You're hurting. Me. Now." he said, pulling back to look into Gavin's eyes. Connor then started to think back to when they were last at Kamski's, "I heard everything you said to Kamski. When you took me there to get fixed. That was when you hurt me the most." Gavin's hands tightened on Connor's waist, "When you said that you didn't mean it everytime you said 'I love you'... That hurt. But you not being with me right now is causing me an even worse pain."
"I was trying to convince myself that I didn't love you, Con. I thought it would make breaking up with you easier. But it didn't help. If anything, it made things worse between us." he moved one of his hands up to Connor's cheek, "But I do love you. I love you so fucking much."
"Then say you'll stay with me." Connor leaned into his hand. His eyes never leaving Gavin's.
Gavin just chuckled, "Hank is going to kick my fuckin' ass."
"And I'll help him if necessary." Connor smiled back.
"Wow, thanks, Con. Knew I could trust you." the smile remained on Gavin's face, his thumb rubbed Connor's cheek gently.
Connor turned his head to kiss the palm of Gavin's hand, "Please. I want my heart to stop hurting. It's too much."
He was putting this android through so many emotions that he wasn't able to control properly. It had to be extremely overwhelming.
Gavin's hands wrapped tightly around Connor's waist, pulling him in close. He pressed his face to Connor's neck, "You really want to do this, don't you?"
"Yes."
Gavin thought about it. His hands rubbing Connor's back as he did. The thought of being in a relationship with Connor again was amazing. Just being able to go to him for comfort whenever he needed it. Being able to be intimate with him whenever he felt like it. Just being able to talk to him comfortably sounded nice.
"As long as you don't bring up your crush for that fuckin' FBI agent... I think we could work something out."
Connor couldn't believe what he was hearing.
"I won't ever bring him up. Ever again. Unless it is absolutely necessary." he said. His eyes fluttered closed at the feeling of Gavin's lips pressing against his throat.
Gavin ceased his actions.
He couldn't do this.
Could he?
What was the right decision?
He moved his face away from the android's neck.
"Oh, fuck it." Gavin said. What was the harm in trying again?
His lips crashed into Connor's. All their bottled up emotions pouring into eachother. Connor's arms tightened around Gavin's neck, his systems going into overdrive. But the good kind of overdrive. If there even was such a thing.
Connor groaned as he felt Gavin's tongue slip into his mouth.
"G-Gavin?" Connor asked pulling away, clearly understanding where this whole situation was going, "Wh-What about Niner?"
Gavin pressed his lips to Connor's once again, craving more and more. Missing his touch already, "He'll get over it." his hands came up to push Connor's jacket off. The android's arms instantly coming back around Gavin's neck.
And besides... Traumatizing the poor bastard sounded kinda fun...