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Another chappie for my fans!

Hope u like it!

H. Dormé

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Chapter Thirty-six

Arriving through the closet you survey the small room around you. Sitting slowly with a sigh at the small mirrored table you gently brush out your messed, tangled curls.

Looking down at your soiled dress, observing the tears you made to bandage Obi-wan you feel overcome. You break down and weep. You weep for your husband, for the child he had that you never knew and now can't find, and you weep because the feelings you began to have for another man make you feel as if you betrayed your husband.

Looking at your reflection you wipe the tears from your dirt marked face and attempt to compose yourself. In your eyes you see all the things that have been robbed from you, your husband and family, your life, your happiness. It all seems too much and you begin to cry again.

Resting your head on your arms against the table you cry until you fall asleep.

Beep, beep, beep.

The harsh sound invades your private thoughts.

Beep, beep, beep.

You try to roll over, to block the sound out and crash onto the floor.

Sitting up you again look about your small room, the day before flooding into your consciousness.

Blocking it out, you stand and silence the alarm.

Hurriedly you shower and dress, this time in the simple robes of your position, a handmaiden.

Walking back through the closet you gently wake Padmé. While she stirs you return to the closet and select a simple purple garment and place it on the bed.

Smiling at her as she wakes you head off to collect her breakfast and check you position.

Returning a few moments later you find her seated at the large glass desk placed on the far side of the room.

You place her breakfast beside her and gather the days required data pads.

"Dormé" Padmé begins.

You continue to work.

"Dormé, please stop a moment." She says as she indicates the chair beside her.

"Sit please" she orders, more than asks.

You oblige her.

"Could you please stop? I know you must be suffering and I would prefer if you would talk to me about it rather than ignore it."

You smile gently tears beginning to form in your eyes. "I will, but for the moment I need to keep busy. We will reach Coruscant within the hour."

With that you stand and head back to your room.

Sitting gently on your bed you attempt to gather yourself. You hear Padmé approach from behind you and you break down again.

She sits behind you and places a hand gently on your back.

You fall forward onto the bed and bury your face in the covers, sobbing softly as she tries to gently comfort you.

"I've cancelled all my appointments on Coruscant for the next week and a half. I'm going to visit Anakin at the Jedi temple whilst he's in hospital and then I'm going home for a small break. You should probably do the same. Take some time off and decide if you still want this life."

You sit up and turn to face her. "You can't cancel your appointments because of me, it's the senate, the galactic senate. Events in the galaxy don't stop simply because I need a break and neither should you."

"Dormé, you're my best friend, and while I love you like a sister I'm taking a break because I need one just as much as you do, and besides, the chancellor will probably force me to once we arrive."

You smile gently and nod. "A break does sound good" you admit.

She smiles at you and gently rises from the bed. "well be arriving soon, when we do, you may take you leave as soon as we land. You're free to do as you please."

You nod gently and she exits the room.

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Not too sure that I liked this one. Don't bbq me! Lol

It WILL get better, I PROMISE!

R&R

H. Dormé

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