A/N Okay let's start off with a review note. I got a couple reviews saying I am anti Lexa and that the story is now irritating or boring or the reader is bored or even that I am skipping over the biggest issue with Lexa lately. I never intended for you to feel that way but if that is the case I suggest you not read anymore because it's not something I would want to burden your life with. Not intending to sound rude.
Next I have written in the last two chapters that Lexa wanted to "FORGET" the world. I am not skipping over what has just happened to her but I know when I went through something similar I didn't want to approach it or my feelings for like two weeks. It's a struggle to open up when your world is flipped upside down. I felt like trust was the last thing I wanted to put in someone. I threw myself into anything and everything so I didn't have to think about it or talk about it and that is how I wanted to write Lexa. I wanted her to be the strong and silent type at first. Also she did approach the first step to it with Raven in the car after she yelled at Gustus, but if you disagree once again stop reading.
With that being said regarding Clarke being a bitchy girlfriend and how it's all about her side of the story and feelings. Or how everyone has sided with her. So far personally I don't think Octavia or Raven have sided with just Clarke but maybe it comes off that way. Also on how you would break up with Clarke if you were Lexa. Well I also was cheated on by my girlfriend and it was regarding just one kiss and it turned me into a jealous raging insecure bitch for like a month. I obviously am cutting Clarke's issues down to a few chapters and I have used Lexa wanting to forget the world to focus on Clarke and what had happened. Anything to not think of the real issue and being with Clarke does make Lexa stronger. If you dislike that as well then I would suggest you stop reading.
This is a Clexa fic and yes it is heavy on the Clarke side sometime because I relate myself to that side of things but I do not hate Lexa if anything she is my favorite on the show.
I am writing and inserting certain parts of this fic from experiences regarding my life and how I would conclude things. I have had this chapter written for awhile I was just building up to it with Lexa finally breaking down some and opening up but I obviously put it out a chapter or two late hence the reviews I just addressed.
Either way thank you for your reviews good or bad I will still continue to write my fic the way my feelings push the story. This chapter is regarding Lexa and her finally cracking a little. She will continue to spiral a little but that will come with the more I write and hopefully you make it that far.
Enjoy! xoxo
Clarke woke up reaching across the bed for Lexa she realized the girl wasn't there. Feeling the cold sheets she realized it had been awhile since Lexa hadn't been in her bed. They had come home and tumbled into bed with each other. Savoring every touch and feel between each other. It was slow and torturing but both of them loved every second of it. Propping herself up she couldn't see a light on in the bathroom, she wasn't sure if Lexa had got up and left so she climbed out of bed throwing on a t shirt she cracked the door open to her living room. Spotting Lexa sitting on a stool looking out her window. She wasn't sure if she should interrupt the brunettes thoughts but she walked out of the door anyways heading towards her she grabbed the other stool and placed it down next to Lexa taking a seat. She didn't speak she just looked out the window with the brunette seeing the moon and the stars she could hear Lexa's breathing a little uneven like she had been crying. Curling her feet up under her she took a deep breath feeling Lexa reach out and grab her hand. Clarke squeezed back letting her know she was there. She could hear Lexa start to cry again so she slid off the stool wrapping her arms around her feeling Lexa's arms wrap around her as she stuck her head in the crook of her neck just letting the brunette cry till she couldn't cry anymore. Clarke brushed her hair back kissing her on her temple she rocked the girl in her arms a little till her breathing started to even out.
"Clarke." Lexa coughed out feeling her throat was dry from crying.
"Come here." Clarke gripped Lexa's hands leading her to the couch before making her sit down as she turned to grab a bottle of water out of her refrigerator. Coming back to the couch she climbed behind Lexa letting the brunette lean back against her.
"Thank you." Lexa cleared her throat after taking a drink of the water.
"Shhh why didn't you wake me up?" Clarke rubbed circles into Lexa's palms trying to relax her a little more.
"I'm just not ready. I haven't been ready." Lexa knew she had told Clarke she wanted to forget the world in the last 24 hours and she had done just that but it was finally catching up to her. The truth was finally flooding her brain.
"I know Lexa, but this isn't going to just go away. Maybe it's time to talk even if it's just a little bit." Clarke felt Lexa squeeze her hands again.
"I think I always knew." Lexa spit it out. She had questioned it a few times in her life on who Gustus was to her.
"When I met you I actually thought you two were related." Clarke leaned up putting her chin on Lexa's shoulder she felt her take another deep breath.
"I love him Clarke. I love him like a father and that is what scares me because in all truth he is my father." Lexa felt Clarke start to massage each hand causing her to sigh.
"I can tell." Clarke kept it short she wanted Lexa to keep talking.
"I was so rude to him today Clarke. I never expected anything like that to come out of my mouth towards him. Maybe my father but not Gustus." Lexa felt the tears start to fall again.
"He won't hold it against you Lexa you know that." Clarke knew Gustus had expected a lash out he deserved it.
"I yelled at him for being by my side when my father couldn't. I yelled at him for buying me ice cream and taking me to the park and doing everything a father should do. I thought to myself my whole life why my father didn't love me and why wasn't he the one doing those things with me and this whole time he actually was. It makes so much more sense now on why my father loved me from a distance because he watched us. He saw how Gustus and I were together." Lexa took another deep breath consuming it all.
"It's just all so much Clarke. I talked to my father and he told me the whole story and I understand but I don't but he told me he was willing to let me know when I turned 18 and Gustus had refused. He didn't want to ruin what we had already but it makes me feel like he didn't want me to know." Lexa felt Clarke wrap her arms around her tighter.
"I don't know why he made that choice Lexa but I am sure when you are ready he will be willing to explain." Clarke all but whispered.
"What if I am never ready Clarke." Lexa was afraid it could be true.
"Then you won't be ready. No one is going to hold that against you Lexa. We all love you." Clarke knew it was true everyone did love Lexa. Even her friend had become accustomed to having her around all the time.
"I thought that I could handle it. I thought I would be able to face him and not break down but all it took was him looking me in the eyes being his usual stoic self and I just snapped. I can't even tell you what I was expecting because I don't even know myself." Lexa thought it over like what did she actually want from Gustus.
"I think that you two are alike even if you hate hearing that right now. You both put up this mask and this front when you are hurting the most and don't want to approach it till you can't hide it anymore." Clarke had been waiting for Lexa to break down and talk to her, she had told herself not to push the brunette.
"Have you seen him cry?" Lexa was curious.
"No he won't put me in that position. He knows I love you Lexa and he knows the damage he has done between us because of his choices. He does love you though that is something I could see even before all of this." Clarke rocked back and forth a little with Lexa in her arms.
"Why is it so much easier for me to let my father off the hook Clarke." Lexa leaned down kissing Clarke's arm feeling the blonde not let go of her.
"Your father was always about the business Lexa, you've even said that yourself. You love that life but that life isn't you and because of that you leaned on Gustus to show you the rest of the world." Clarke was going off of what Lexa had shared with her.
"My father told me he lost sight of my mother because of work and that is how all of this happened." Lexa told herself she would never be that person.
"I hate the way this came out Lexa but I am not sorry for how it happened. If it didn't happen that way I wouldn't have you." Clarke kissed Lexa on temple again.
"I won't do that. I refuse to work to the point of losing my friends and family and the person I love." Lexa vowed she wouldn't put work before the people who mean the most to her.
"I know you wouldn't Lexa. That isn't you and all the people you love and care about know that too." Clarke was happy that the brunette was finally talking about it all.
"I know you relate with him like a father figure as well Clarke." Lexa started to compare.
"Lexa he isn't my father and yes I care about him but this is about you. I made a mistake but my world wasn't turned upside down like yours. I've been holding back and waiting for you to open up to me. I know you and I knew you wouldn't talk till you were ready." Clarke hushed Lexa just a little letting it sink in.
"I know I've seen it in your eyes. Your plea to get me to talk but I just wasn't ready." Lexa couldn't help but love the feeling of Clarke's body molded against hers.
"I love you Lexa. If I had to wait a lifetime for you to talk about it I would have. I know I haven't been perfect or fair lately." Clarke huffed knowing it was the truth.
"Umm insecure bitch, isn't that what you stated earlier." Lexa felt Clarke lean her head against her own.
"Yeah that does explain it pretty well." Clarke felt Lexa laugh a little it made her smile.
"I just don't know what to do Clarke." Lexa leaned back pushing on Clarke so they were laying down a little more.
"I don't know Lexa. I think you need to do what your heart tells you to do." Clarke felt Lexa start to mimic her motions earlier feeling Lexa draw circles on her palms.
"You won't hate me if I can't talk to him." Lexa asked the question she was afraid of.
"What? Noooo Lexa I could never hate you. This is your choice you have to do what is right in your heart and if that means you can't talk to him for months that is not going to affect us. Our relationship is just the two of us Lexa. Not a third or fourth just us and that is why we have to be on the same page." Clarke scooted a little to the side so Lexa could see her face.
"We need to figure out Echo." Lexa huffed out a breath knowing that was part of the problem.
"No you need to relax and take things one step at a time." Clarke knew with time Echo would reveal her plans.
"I know but that is a step Clarke. Between her and Finn something just isn't right." Lexa turned snuggling down into Clarke.
Clarke thought about what Lexa had just said while feeling Lexa curl up into her on the couch. Reaching over she grabbed the blanket pulling it over Lexa rubbing her back hoping she would fall back to sleep because she needed to rest.
"Echo and Finn." Clarke whispered under breath.
"Hmmm." Clarke heard Lexa hum at her with a drowsy voice.
"Shhhh just rest Lexa." Clarke leaned back thinking it over again. Maybe that was the answer. It had been thought of they had all said it but no one had ever accused it of actually being the point of their problem. Thinking over the pictures the apartment Echo was standing in looked way more like the one her and Finn had shared. His style had always been upper class and from what she knew Echo had lived middle to average. It just seems like it would be to easy to simple if those two had actually started working together or if they were dating now. Finn had gotten his money from Lexa's father and Echo was getting money from her own mother and maybe that was the tell. All of this was about money. They had been hired for different reasons but knowing Finn he would take advantage of anything and Echo seemed to be the same way. How to prove it would be a problem if that really was the case.
"Stop thinking Clarke." Clarke jumped hearing Lexa randomly speak.
"How did you." Clarke started to ask the question.
"You tap your fingers when you're thinking." Clarke looked down at her hand and she had been tapping her fingers on Lexa's shoulder.
"Okay commander." Clarke smiled sinking down into the couch with Lexa she closed her eyes. She would run it by Lexa later but right now the most important thing was making sure the girl she loved was okay.
Lexa woke up a couple of hours later feeling Clarke still partially underneath her. She was warm and comfortable and the feeling of Clarke breathing told her the blonde was still asleep. Turning slowly she faced Clarke, she was adorable in her sleep. She had her head up on the arm of the couch with her legs tangled in with her own. Leaning on her elbow she studied her features. Clarke's blonde locks hung wavy down in her face and her lips were slightly parted. She could see a tiny small scar on Clarke's face she had never noticed before. Carefully pushing Clarke's hair behind her ear she felt the girl stir just a little. She had managed to pull Lexa closer and snuggling into her neck a little more. Lexa took advantage of running her finger down the scar wondering how she got it.
"Octavia." Clarke murmured out.
"Hmmm." Lexa hummed hearing Clarke say something.
"Octavia, the scar she gave it to me when we were little." Clarke had felt Lexa push her hair out of her face waking her up slightly.
"I'll make sure to ask her how." Lexa smiled feeling Clarke pull on her to make them closer even though there was no room between them.
"She hit me with a beat up wore down soccer ball." Clarke laughed just a little bit thinking about it.
"Hmmm and here I thought she punched you." Lexa slid her finger down Clarke's nose.
"Pshhh." Clarke peaked her eyes open with the feeling of Lexa tracing her face.
"You're eyes." Lexa murmured.
"Hmmm." Clarke opened her eyes a little more.
"When we first met you had sunglasses on and I was praying you would lift them so I could see your eyes. I never got my wish till you came up to my bar that night." Lexa traced her thumb over Clarke's lips.
"Mmhmm you asked for my ID." Clarke smiled thinking about the moment.
"Deep ocean blue. That is what I told myself when you finally looked at me." Lexa watched Clarke open her eyes.
"Well my blue eyes met your green ones." Clarke wiggled herself awake to meet Lexa's eyes.
"You were fun to tease." Lexa felt Clarke kiss her finger because it was still resting close to her lips.
"You were such a jerk back then." Clarke bit her lip thinking about the back and forth game they both went through before everything spilled out.
"You had my attention from day one." Lexa knew it was true it only took that one look they shared arguing over coffee and she knew she was in trouble.
"I know my horrible sailors mouth." Clarke laughed thinking about her saying fuck is what got Lexa's attention in the first place.
"Irresistible." Lexa leaned in giving Clarke a quick kiss.
"I think it was meant to be." Clarke watched Lexa smile hearing her say it.
"You're beautiful, strong, educated, loving and even with your last name you care. The money hasn't changed you. Just everything I've learned and everything you've shown me Lexa is just a part of why I love you." Clarke was the one now tracing Lexa's face with her finger.
"I'm lucky to have you." Lexa whispered out.
"We have each other." Clarke tipped up Lexa's chin seeing her open her eyes.
"What were you thinking about earlier." Lexa had wanted to ask earlier but she was too tired.
"Something about what you said earlier got me thinking." Clarke felt Lexa shift causing her to lay her head on the girl's chest.
"What was that?" Lexa ran her fingers up and down Clarke's back hearing the girl hum in approval as she felt the blonde wrap her leg around her..
"You said between her and Finn and it got me thinking. Echo and Finn. I know we all have said it and we all have thought it but what if that really is what it is." Clarke opened her eyes thinking it over again.
"What do you mean?" Lexa wasn't sure she was understanding.
"Echo and Finn. Maybe it's them together. They admitted to knowing about each other. It also seems so obvious that it can't be true. It's why we all have skipped the obvious. I thought back to the pictures. The inside of that apartment almost looks like the one Finn and I shared in the past or the one I frequented often" Clarke rolled her eyes thinking about living with Finn but not living with him.
"You think they are dating?" Lexa cringed thinking about it.
"Knowing Finn I wouldn't doubt it." Clarke knew that part was true.
"Same with Echo." Lexa could see them being a couple thriving off wrecking others lives.
"So you think that might have been Finn's apartment I was in and not actually Echo's." Lexa thought it over and how when she first stepped in the apartment she thought it looked a lot different than what she expected from Echo.
"I mean it would explain why Raven says that isn't her apartment. It could mean a lot when it comes to them both having one up on us all the time." Clarke shrugged her shoulders looking up at Lexa who was thinking it over.
"We need to find that other apartment and even then we have to prove it somehow." Lexa was the one tapping her fingers now.
"Well between you and Raven I have a feeling Echo would fall for the world if we played our cards right." Clarke knew it was true.
"True but I don't want to involve our relationships into this." Lexa didn't want to have to put her or Raven in a situation that would lead to drama at some point.
"What are you thinking then?" Clarke couldn't think of something they could do to find out if it was true.
"What would Finn get out of all of this though?" Lexa asked randomly.
"Well money is one which he got from your father and Echo is obviously getting a check from my mother so that is a mutual interest. It could easily be driving them along with sex. Echo still wants a chance with you even if she sidelines for Raven's attention." Clarke heard Lexa cut her off.
"You." Lexa bit her lip thinking about it.
"Huh?" Clarke was confused.
"Finn he is in this for you. That's his side of it." Lexa thought back to the rose on Clarke's door and the notes. How he looked at her and how zero of it was ever to truly hurt Clarke it was all a ploy to take her own life down making Clarke push or walk away like she had with him.
"He knows there is no chance." Clarke sat up now looking at Lexa.
"Think about it Clarke. The rose and the confession and how he wanted to tell you about the investigation. He was worried it was a way at getting you alone and even at the dinner he never took a shot at you. It was all at me and my life." Lexa watched Clarke think.
"He was just spilling the facts that he found out about the investigation." Clarke thought to herself that Finn couldn't be that stupid.
"What would be the best way to break us up Clarke. It could be to get you back or revenge but having you push me away or walk away like you did to him when your father passed. Then to have a personal meeting with you to tell you Gustus secret and then to show up at the dinner party knowing we would be there." Lexa watched Clarke line it up.
"Then he busted it out knowing you'd flip out and leave and I'm sure Echo wasn't just in the car garage by accident." Clarke looked at Lexa.
"Is it too easy though?" Lexa met Clarke's eyes.
"Echo might buy into you right now but Raven is out of the picture but I bet I could get Finn to open up to me if this is all true." Clarke watched Lexa disapprove immediately.
"We should talk to Octavia and Raven first about this all." Clarke looked around for her phone.
"Octavia." Lexa spoke up.
"What about her." Clarke was confused.
"She is the one who sets off his temper. He got his teeth knocked out and she dented his manly hood. If we're going to get him to talk or him to believe you still stand up for him a little she is the one who has to start it." Lexa knew she was right. She had only seen Finn get edgy when Octavia was in his face.
"Trust me she'd have no problem handling that." Clarke laughed a little.
Dun Dunt... Dun Dunt...
"Ughhhh." Clarke groaned.
"Umm what is that." Lexa followed Clarke's gaze.
'That would be my cellphone and that would be my mothers ring tone." Clarke closed her eyes putting her head in her hands.
"Classy with the jaws theme." Lexa laughed hearing Clarke groan again.
"Don't you think you should answer that." Lexa laughed but she wasn't sure what Clarke's plan was with her mother.
"Not really. I mean eventually yes because I need to figure out her reason for flipping a bitch at the dinner party but right now this and us is more important." Clarke grabbed Lexa's hand.
"She is going to have to be apart of us too you know." Lexa knew that Clarke loved her mother and she looked up to her even after all of her mother's faults.
"I know I know." Clarke climbed up off the couch listening to Lexa she grabbed her phone to answer it.
"Hello." Lexa heard Clarke answer the phone with attitude right off the back. The blonde didn't even try to be nice but Lexa could also hear her mother's tone coming out of the phone and it made her laugh a little thinking about how much their personalities were alike even if Clarke refused to ever admit that.
"Why are you smirking." Clarke turned partially listening to her mother she spoke to Lexa.
"Nothing." Lexa laid back down on the couch watching Clarke make her way back over to her.
"Yes mother Alexandra is with me." Clarke rolled her eyes at the question while straddling Lexa to sit down.
Lexa watched Clarke nod her head up and down and side to side to her mother's questions or statements. She couldn't tell if the conversation was good or bad because Clarke hadn't said much to give anything away as well.
"I don't think another dinner or party is the smart idea for us." Clarke looked at Lexa seeing her staring at her.
"Mother I agree that we need to talk but I don't think involving Lexa or dinner or a party is the smart way for us to handle this." Clarke bit her lip getting frustrated.
"I understand that mother and I know you want me to come to the party for the hospital. I know that you need me to make a good impression on contributors but I don't think it needs to involve my girlfriend." Clarke tipped her head back closing her eyes.
Lexa was a little shocked hearing Clarke's part of the conversation. Clarke's mother wanted her to come to a hospital function. It was an odd request on top of what could also be a huge disaster like the last time.
"One week." Clarke looked down at Lexa.
"If you want me to make an appearance at this fuction mother then we need to talk before hand so pick a time to meet and I'll be there." Clarke changed her tone almost demanding an explanation before realizing her mother had agreed and hung up without another word.
"That was abrupt." Lexa looked at Clarke.
"She has always been straight to the point." Clarke tossed her phone down looking at the brunette.
"Function?" Lexa questioned the convo.
"I guess the hospital is having a function or a fundraiser or something and she wants me to be there because a daughter following in her mother's steps shows a grand image." Clarke knew what it was all about.
"You are an art student though?" Lexa was confused.
"Now I am but my record shows med student." Clarke let her fingers play across the bottom of Lexa's stomach where she could see her abs hiding behind her t shirt.
"What does all that have to do with me." Lexa flinched a little feeling Clarke's hands.
"Voss and Taylor." Clarke smirked seeing Lexa roll her eyes.
"Ohhhh my last name." Lexa laughed feeling Clarke poke her stomach this time tickling her.
"Sounds perfect to me Voss and Griffin the two infamous daughters." Clarke laughed watching Lexa go serious.
"What's wrong?" Clarke got worried.
"My last name." Lexa thought about her last name and then Gustus.
"Listen to me. Alexandra Voss is your name. Nothing will ever change that and even if Gustus is your biological father I can tell and I know you know it but your father does love you. I might have yelled at him for his disapproval of you but even if my mother or your father don't agree they still love us." Clarke knew it was true even with her mother.
"They love us in a crazy way." Lexa sat up hugging Clarke bringing her back down against her body because it had helped talking to her. It had helped finally getting a little bit of it off her chest.
"I love you in a crazy way." Clarke smiled hearing Lexa laugh.
"I love you too." Lexa felt Clarke push back seeing the love shining in Clarke's eyes.
"I'm sorry." Clarke knew Lexa wasn't going to understand and her expression showed it.
"I've said a lot Lexa and I've shown a lot and I have proved a lot lately regarding myself and my actions and I just want to apologize for the parts that haven't been fair to you." Clarke cupped Lexa's face leaning in to give her a kiss.
"Hmmm apology accepted under one condition." Lexa watched Clarke scrunch her face up.
"What is that?" Clarke waited for it.
"You owe me a beer and food because I'm starving." Lexa smiled.
"That's not serious Lexa, for real I need you to take this seriously." Clarke pouted a little.
"Okay Clarke Griffin I accept your apology for being a jealous bitch." Lexa hid her smirk when she watched the blonde swallow the truth.
"Pizza and beer." Lexa watched Clarke meet her eyes seeing the slight disappointment in herself.
"I'm being serious Clarke. I forgive you but it's something I hope you don't stress anymore." Lexa grabbed Clarke's hips squeezing them some so she got her point.
"Okay but you could have gotten that anyways." Clarke pushed Lexa back into the couch trying to keep her there.
"What?" Lexa looked up at Clarke kind of confused.
"Pizza and beer." Clarke leaned down patting Lexa's cheek before climbing off the brunette.
"Should we invite Raven and Octavia over to discuss this theory of ours." Lexa looked over the edge of the couch at Clarke popping off two beer caps walking one back to her.
"Octavia never turns down pizza." Clarke shrugged her shoulders leaving it up to Lexa.
"I want the real pizza like the ones we had on our first date here in your apartment." Lexa couldn't help but laugh seeing Clarke raise an eyebrow.
"That requires us going to the store because we're going to need some toppings." Clarke took a drink of her beer thinking it over and watching Lexa's face.
"Plleeeaseeee." Lexa faked pouting knowing she'd get her way.
"You're lucky you're cute." Clarke watched Lexa as she walked back over to her picking up her phone she felt Lexa slid a hand up the over sized t shirt she had on.
"No no no none of that." Clarke stepped back seeing Lexa pout again.
"Hi Raven, I see you are the one answering Octavia's phone now." Clarke laughed hearing Octavia yell something in the background about a tv show.
"Lexa would like to know if you two want to come over and make pizza's because we have something we want to talk to you two about." Clarke felt Lexa wrap her hand around the inside of her thigh pulling her closer.
"Mmhmm." Clarke swatted Lexa's hand away giving her the look.
"What time Lexa since this is your idea." Clarke looked at the brunette who was currently creeping closer to her.
"Lexa." Clarke kicked her a little trying to make her pay attention.
"Go ahead and come on over in like 30 minutes guys." Clarke hung up the phone grabbing Lexa's hand.
"Why just 30 minutes I need like an hour." Lexa glared at Clarke.
"You're getting in the shower stinky." Clarke laughed hearing Lexa huff out her breath.
"What about you? I'm sure your stinky too." Clarke turned to see Lexa raise an eyebrow at her.
"Fine I'll join you but no funny business for now." Clarke warned her.
"Ughhh okay mother." Lexa pouted stripping off the little clothes she did have on hearing Clarke start the hot water.
Stepping into the shower with Clarke she felt like maybe this was the first step to coming to terms with what had happened with her family. She felt Clarke rub the lathered soap across her back and down her body while the water sprayed down on her face. She had cracked open just a little leaning on Clarke finally wanting to talk about it.
"I'll always be here Lexa." Clarke had a feeling Lexa was thinking and she wanted to make sure the girl knew she wasn't leaving.
"I know Clarke." Lexa turned in the shower bring the blonde in close letting the hot water hit them both.
BANG BANG
Out of nowhere Clarke heard pounding on her door and next she heard Octavia yelling something completely inappropriate outside her door.
"You've got to be kidding me." Clarke jumped out of the shower hearing Lexa laugh.
Grabbing a towel she walked into her living room swinging open her front door seeing Raven and Octavia standing in sweats and hoodies with a case of beer.
"I told you they were having sex." Octavia laughed squeezing past Clarke.
"Actually we weren't but I also didn't expect you two to be over here in ten minutes rather than 30 minutes." Clarke slammed the door heading back to her bedroom.
"Who's making the pizza?" Octavia yelled to Clarke who had disappeared into her bedroom.
"You never listen." Raven bumped Octavia's shoulder knowing they should have waited a little longer.
"Pshhh you know how many times she has interrupted me having sex." Octavia laughed opening up a beer.
"We weren't having sex and if we were I wouldn't have let her out of the shower." Lexa walked out of Clarke's bedroom towel drying her hair.
"Ohhh commander I've missed you." Octavia walked over to Lexa punching her in the arm before giving her a big hug.
"I've miss you too Octavia." Lexa laughed saying hi to Raven.
"I know Clarke she enjoys a quickie." Octavia laughed hearing Clarke yell from her bedroom.
"Octavia now let's go." Clarke walked out in sweats and a hoodie just like the other two girls. Lexa was the only one just wearing shorts and a tank top and Clarke had no idea how the girl didn't freeze.
"Where are we going?" Octavia took another quick drink of her beer before sliding it to Raven.
"We're walking to the store we need a few things to make these pizza's" Clarke watching Lexa sit down opposite side of Raven watching them interact it made her smile knowing they had bonded.
"Okay but I require pineapple on mine." Octavia said opening the door heading out of the apartment.
"Do you two need anything specific?" Clarke asked the two who were obviously not paying attention to her or Octavia.
"I'll eat whatever Octavia makes." Raven watched Clarke roll her eyes.
"Lexa?" Clarke looked at the brunette who was staring her down.
"Whatever you're having." Clarke glared at both of them as they laughed.
"Impossible I swear you two are impossible." Clarke shut the door behind her watching Octavia slide down the railing of her apartment.
"You're going to fall on your ass one day doing that." Clarke shuffled down the steps to catch her best friend.
"So did you talk to Clarke?" Raven asked Lexa seeing as you could still tell the girl had been crying not that long ago.
"I did and at first it wasn't so great but we ended up at some line dancing bar afterwards it was actually a lot of fun. Also they get the party started earlier in there" Lexa grabbed the beer Clarke had opened for her earlier.
"Awww she brought you to see Monty and Jasper." Raven laughed thinking about how that must have looked.
"Yeah those two are crazy." Lexa sat down again across from Raven.
"So did you talk to her about anything else?" Raven didn't want to pry but she had hoped Lexa talked to Clarke about Gustus.
"Yeah I talked to her about Gustus some. We talked about a little of everything and it helped. I think I'm finally ready to accept it rather than just ignoring the world. I know I am used to just being strong for myself or having Gustus to lean on but having you three now makes a big difference" Lexa sipped the beer.
"Good I'm glad you know Octavia and me are here for you as well" Raven watched Lexa nod her head.
"Yeah Clarke had mentioned that everyone loves me I figured you two were included." Lexa laughed watching Raven's expression.
"So what is this pizza and beer plan you two brought us over here for?" Raven was curious.
"Ohhh did we interrupt you two having sex?" Lexa laughed at Raven.
"Actually." Raven was cut off by Lexa
"Nope don't tell me because if Octavia finds out you told me she will be bug me to death wanting to know about mine and Clarke's sex life." Lexa stood up shaking her head.
"Haha no we were watching this show called The 100 on Netflix." Raven shrugged her shoulders.
"Ohhh yeah Clarke watches that too. She is actually addicted to it and has been bitching about season two not being on Netflix yet." Lexa watched Raven laugh.
"No wonder why they are best friends." Raven spun the bottle around on the counter.
"Seriously that commander girl. I swear Clarke drools over her more than me." Lexa and Raven both laughed thinking about their girlfriends.
"Octavia is the same way. I swear she ships like three different couples on that show." Raven watched Lexa look confused.
"Ships?" Lexa asked Raven.
"Yeah like she loves certain characters together she ships them." Raven watched Lexa shake her head still not understanding.
"They are weird." Lexa laughed.
"We love them for it." Raven lifted her beer.
"Cheers to that." Lexa held up her beer clinging it to Raven's beer with both of them shaking their heads.
A/N Hopefully this chapter enlightens everyone a little more. Or at least when I wrote it that is what I was hoping for. Lexa will come face to face with Gustus soon causing a bigger break in her strong mask she has been trying to hold onto. I'm between another chapter for this story and a chapter for my other story so I am not sure which one will be updated first. Please review good or bad like I said earlier I appreciate the time you all have taken out to read, review and support me. Thanks. xoxoxo