Chapter 36 the confrontation
10 am two days later In Jade's room
"so what are we here for" says Ashley
"for this, Carly found these items last week when she was getting ready to sound proof our old suite" says Cat as she pulls out the items
"why would she do this to herself, I mean I saw the signs but I thought I helped" says Ashley
"she never went through with it, the knife was under the mattress, which is exactly where she was looking when I walked in before she choked me" says Cat
"never the less we need Cass here she helped ashes when she needed her" says Jade
"I've been trying to contact her but she isn't responding" says Carly
"I think her and Robbie may have studied for the first-time last night, she has been spending more and more time with him I just hope she doesn't get addicted to him, she wasn't even at the wedding and she was psyched to be here for it" says Ashley as Robbie enters
"this is about tor and the items found right, someone leaked it, tori won't leave the room, also Carly, Cass knows you have been trying to get in touch with her, she was at the wedding but had heard the possibility of items found regarding tori and she may have had a few too many drinks and when she tried to get to Tori's room to get her out of there so you could set up the confrontation she may have twisted her ankle, jack is looking at it right now, someone needs to get Tori out of her room she is becoming very nervous, Jade maybe you could do it" says Robbie
"ok thanks for letting me know rob" says Carly
"I'll be right back guys, keep discussing how you want to play this" says Jade as she runs out of the room and over to Tori and Cat's suite
"tor I need to talk to you" says Jade as she walks into the suite
"you're already here so I can't stop you, this is about the items that Carly found in our old suite right" says Tori clearly crying
"yes and no tor, you need to get out of this room, you know she thought for sure that you had no secrets from her and was hurt when she found out and found the items, she wants to rip this wound off and heal it properly, can you at least tell me about if it goes farther back than that incident" asks Jade concerned
"… she never even asked me, I knew that Jack knew and knew he'd mentioned my suicidal state but she never asked me anything, yes it goes farther back, all the way back to elementary school but I could never go through with it" bawls tori
"dare I ask if you were bullied, I was at least until I started intimidating people like I did to you when you first started at H.A, I actually went through with self harm but knew people would ask so I always hid the scars" says Jade as she goes over to hug tori
"yes I was bullied, I think I have a bit of OCD because I always had to do things a certain way but wasn't bad enough to get a diagnosis, it's the reason I felt suicidal in elementary school but my one friend always had a way to talk me out of it, there you have my reason now I want to have lunch with Sandy but not Andre but they are apparently both waiting for me so heeding your advice I will go meet them" says Tori as she hugs Jade then leaves
5 minutes later back in Jade's room
"wow you actually got her out of there, I wasn't sure you would be successful" says Cat
"I mean we left the door open so she knows we are talking about it but I mean we can head there now so let's go" says Beck
"not yet I need to explain what I learned, plus they will be gone for an hour and a half so we have time" says Jade
"wait she told you something" says Cat surprised
"yes I asked if she was bullied, I didn't actually expect a response from her but she said she always had to do things a certain way and she was made fun of for it, she was laughed at but I also explained that I was bullied too and actually self harmed because of it, she said her ONE friend always stopped her from going too far" says Jade kind of crying
"ok now let's go, we need to plant everything perfectly" says Cat as she leaves with the knife and noose
"we better follow her" says Beck
45 minutes later in their suite
"Sandy just texted me, tor was getting emotional and wanted to head back early so they are on their way" says Cat
"ok guys where is Cass she needs to be here" says Jade
"they are on their way, it wasn't as bad as she thought, jack had a splint for her so she can walk on it at least" says Robbie as Cass shows up in the doorway
"sorry I wasn't here for the talk guys but tor is down the hall walking down slowly, she must know what is coming" says Cassidy as she eyes the items on the bed with fear
"yes she knows" says Jade
"who leaked it, this is such sensitive info" says Cassidy
"I don't know but I intend to find out, I just hope it doesn't get leaked to the papers, on another note my dad is at the airport awaiting the arrival of a special something for tor and cat" says Carly
"…. So the rumors were true then" says Cat as her mouth drops open as tori finally arrives at the door
"I-I-I can explain" says Tori completely afraid of the items she sees on the bed
"Jade already explained it to us tor but I need to know how we will work if you keep this kind of thing from me, you could have confided in me you know that so why didn't you" asks cat on the verge of crying
"I didn't know how to explain it, so much had already happened I didn't want to put more on your shoulders" says Tori as she drops to her knees then cries as jack shows up
"tor you know when it comes to you there is nothing on my shoulders, I'd hold the world up for you, hey Jack maybe you can help tor see my side" says Cat
Flashback
"cat you know she feels really bad and is feeling suicidal right now, when we were talking I saw it in her eyes, now tell me what was going through you're mind two days ago" says Jack
….
"b-b-but her and Jade aren't friends, I guess from what jade told me about Ashley and her past it scared me how similar it was to mine, but I could never see tor killing herself" says Cat feeling a pain in her heart
End flashback
"as you no doubt figured out, I told cat about how I knew you were feeling suicidal and how you felt so close to actually doing it, when I said that you were feeling that way believe me she was shocked, when she realized that she couldn't bring you back she felt like you betrayed her, she was willing to die, she didn't say that but I could tell from the look on her face that it was what she was thinking, you both have shown incredible strength, the fact that Cat is handling it this well shows her strength, she will be here for you when you need it most" says Jack as Jade suddenly realizes the full extent of cats feelings in that instant
"tor talk to me please" says Cassidy
"only if everyone but you and Cat leave" Says Tori
"fine they know what to do anyway" Says Jade as she pulls everyone out
"cat, my dad hopes you two can make it to the airport tomorrow , I will update him on the situation" says Carly as she waits for cat's response
"it's not a plane is it, Trina said there were rumors about it" says Cat as she sees both tori's mouth drops open and Carly's expression go blank
Flashback
"Hey guys, I hear a lot has happened since you got here, I heard that you all got signed to do music, I watched all the concerts by the way, they were awesome, apparently by the way I heard that pear is sending you something big, I don't know what it is but I heard it was expensive, the ten million was only to show that they had something in the works and that they supported your cause, or at least that's what I heard, there were rumors of a plane decked out in pink and purple being built in co-operation with the Canadian army, but why would the army need a plane with pink and purple interiors, what's for lunch" says Trina as it is 11 am now
End flashback
"no, no totally not he has a different surprise" says Carly totally mentally cursing Trina and her stupid big mouth
"ok bye then, we will be there" says Tori as she glares at Carly
"ok I will let him know you will be there, he wants you guys there for noon ok" Says Carly as she quickly gets out of there
"ok" says Cat before Carly is out of earshot then closes the door
"girly can you please explain why you had these items" says Cassidy as she envelops Tori in a hug
"I was starting to doubt that Cat and I should get married or be together at all, especially after that incident, I was afraid, I didn't like how easily I broke when cat wasn't there so I bought a knife and made the noose, and without anyone to sanity check me I felt like cat would be better off if I was dead" Says Tori
"tor…." Says Cat both confused and sad and grabs Mr. Purple
"girly, you should have come to one of us, how do you think cat would have reacted if she saw you hanging or bled out" says Cassidy
"I-I-I-I" says Tori completely unable to fathom how cat would react
"tor I would kill myself and you know that full well, I battled the same things when I put my uncle and Carly in the hospital, I was tempted to kill myself but with tor visiting so often when I was detoxing, I knew she would catch me and would make everything worse" says Cat
"Cat were you really tempted to kill yourself" Says Cassidy unable to imagine cat actually considering it
"yes there were a two times when I felt like it wasn't worth living anymore that was one the other was the whole Danny thing, I could barely deal with the stress when I was on those stupid pills but after I hurt Carly and my uncle I saw myself as a monster not deserving of anyone's love but tori and Sam proved that I was not a monster in the end" says Cat
"when did this start girly, when did you feel like it wasn't worth the effort to keep living, Jade mentioned it was around elementary school, I feel like it's more than that" says Cassidy prodding for information
"… Cat how didn't I catch that, I should have caught that" says Tori
"look tor you hid something bigger from me, mine was situational and in a time of extreme physical and emotional pain, now answer Cass" says Cat
"For starters the friend I mentioned to Jade was a girl named Annie she was very cute, we were in grade 5 and I always had to do things in a certain order and I was laughed at for three years, Trina didn't help not really anyway, in grade 6 it didn't get any better but Annie was always there to keep me calm, in the same way Cat does now anyway me being laughed at essentially killed my self esteem and self confidence, then Annie had to move in grade 7 but then I met Danny and he helped me a little bit but then we broke up and I was unsure of how I'd handle everything which is why I didn't want to take Trina's place in the big showcase as well as going to school at H.A" says Tori
"wait did you like Annie?" asks Cat seriously
"I couldn't tell, did either of you know who you liked in grade 5, and besides she was the only one who even tried to be my friend so my view may have been coloured yes, I haven't seen or heard from her in forever, I'd love to tell her how well I'm doing I think she'd be proud" says Tori
"I mean you hid things from me and you had a knife and a noose, I don't think she'd be entirely proud of how you are handling things" says Cat
"I mean it was great until everything went wrong…" says Tori lowering her head in shame
"if I showed you a picture could you confirm if it's Annie, also girly it wasn't your fault if you had learned the right techniques the whole Carly incident could have been avoided and it didn't help that she ignored your plea for her to stay and she knows it's her fault not yours" Says Cassidy as she shows Tori a picture
"yes that's her, wait how do you have that picture" says Tori
"she does look very familiar, she was here two days ago at our wedding, she was with the setup crew" says Cat
"yes she was, she had moved here the same time I did two years ago, she mentioned how she missed her friend but she didn't think she would remember her or even want to see her, if I remember correctly she runs the wedding planner business here in Hawaii with her dad" says Cassidy
"….. Does she still sing, she had an amazing voice similar to cat's and Ashley's, maybe we could visit her today" says Tori hoping they can
"wow you really perked up, I don't think she does sing much, I'll see what I can do" says Cassidy
2:00 pm – hey Annie I know we haven't talked much but I have someone here who wants to see you if you aren't busy – Cassie
2:15 pm – it was Tori's wedding right, does she really want to see me, no I'm not busy I can be there in 10 minutes if she really does want to meet me – Annie S
2:16 pm – yes she really does, can you really sing she was saying how you have an amazing voice – Cassie
2:18 pm - ok I'll be there asap, yes I can sing but she helped me open up and when I was unsure about my talent but when I moved and didn't have her to reassure me so I stopped – Annie S
"she is on her way, I wonder how she will react to you being married to cat" says Cassidy
15 minutes later
"TV, I didn't think you'd remember me considering I was forced to leave ya when I know you needed me" says Annie as she runs toward tori on the beach
"TV?" asks cat confused
"tori Vega, she was always finding ways to shorten my name in funny ways, she once called me VV for Victoria Vega" says Tori as she hugs Annie
"This is my wife cat Valentine, sing a song, show us your strong voice please" says Tori expectantly
"oh I don't know Victoria I don't know if I can out here, also I knew you liked her, when I moved out to new York I was sad for weeks, missing how you always encouraged me to sing any chance I got, when I finally got to come back it was only because my mom and dad were hoping to find some unknown to join the wedding planning business so they heard about the big showcase and when I saw you nervous to get up on stage I knew instantly why, my dad said isn't that your friend Victoria, I said yes it was but I didn't expect you to look right at me and raise an eyebrow, my hair was so different I didn't think you'd recognize me" says Annie as she sees tori perk up at being called Victoria
"yea I wasn't sure if it was you, you had auburn hair when I saw you last but when I saw you at the big showcase you had blonde with red streaks so I didn't really understand but I recognized your parents, now please if you don't want to sing out here come into the hotel and sing in our suite, I may or may not have slipped on my promise to you to stay away from suicidal thoughts but unfortunately I couldn't control it" says Tori lowering her head in shame as they lead Annie to their suite
"what do you mean you may have slipped…." Questions Annie as they pass Carly and Carly tilts her head slightly
"you will see when we get there" says Tori as she runs ahead then stops dead at their old suite cries a little then heads to their new suite
"why did you stop dead at that room V what happened there, is that where these items were found" says Annie concerned
"yes that is where it happened…..." says Tori crying at the memories
"what is this it she is referring to, please someone help me here" says Annie as Carly walks up behind her
"it's where I forgot the shower anti-slip mat that started her dangerous slip and fall down this path as well as where because of Me she almost killed cat here, which is when she created the noose and bought the knife" says Carly
"….. So, you let your protective nature take hold then as well as let your anger loose" says Annie
"it turned out that she needed to be protected from me not me protecting her, basically I gave into my anger too easily and because of that I created mistrust between cat and Carly because she wasn't used to dealing with me she made a wrong decision on how she thought would help me keep it reigned in, but Jade saw me upset and scared and confronted Carly to set the situation straight, but it doesn't stop there I during a certain situation that cat needed to be detoxed I told Sam bitterly that if cat didn't make it through and still love me that I'm done and Carly can weep and that I should have been in the hospital not Carly, creating friction between me and Sam but then Carly decided that she couldn't handle the tension between her and cat so she wanted me to tell her but that she'd be leaving Sam in charge for three months but Cat didn't know when I told her that that Carly was already gone so she went searching for her all night to mend the pain she caused and felt, but when she didn't return I kinda broke and when cat finally came to see me because Andre and his big mouth decided to tell cat what kind of state I was in I was too far gone for her to bring back and I almost killed her, luckily Jade and beck came and saved her from me and beck having dealt with Jade for years knew exactly what to say when I was in that state to pull me out of it" says Tori
"so basically this is all my fault because I didn't force my parents to let me stay with my cousins so I could help you cope" says Annie a little regretful
"no A, it isn't it didn't help but it wasn't your fault, it was everyone who made fun of me in elementary school's fault, I have to accept the result of my actions though, it is my fault that I let it get to me, I shouldn't have let Carly's honest mistake make me mad, there are many things I did wrong that I should have done better, now can you please sing, your singing always did wonders to calm me down back then" says Tori
"fine what do you want me to sing, Faster than boys perhaps" Says Annie
"how do you know that song, it never left Hollywood Arts" asks Tori
"you really think I wouldn't have a way to find awesome songs to sing, also I know people in the music Business as well as some teachers at Hollywood arts, you remember Shaun Quincy, well he may or may not have contacted me around that time you met him, lets just say my parents have a far reach when it comes to Singers and music producers" says Annie
"I actually really liked that song tor I really want to hear her sing it" says Cat
"ok, Carly do you know that song" says Tori
"I've heard it once when Andre and Jade were helping pick out the songs for the wedding, when Jade wanted me to come hear something she would text cat instead of me so cat would have an inkling of what was going on" says Carly
"so am I singing it or not I don't have all day here Victoria" says Annie
"yes please" says Tori expecting Carly and cat's Jaws to drop
"ok then here goes nothing" says Annie as she starts singing
"tor I think she is better than all of us combined" says Cat as her jaw drops in amazement
"yea definitely better than Jade but really butting up there with Ashley for sure" says Carly as Jade and Ashley drop by in awe
"the thing is this isn't even her at full strength this is basically her when she started singing, she could literally blow people away with the power of her voice back in elementary school" says Tori
A/N this is longer than I was expecting but just imagine someone better than cat, tori and Jade when it comes to singing, did you like the background of tori here, I know I was fishing but hey its never mentioned how exactly she meets Danny so I figured I'd find a way to do so while having a way to explain why tori had issues and where they started