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GRAY"S PROV

It had been four days since Valkyrie and I had been taken to the infirmary, in those four days Valkyrie had daily healing sessions from Wendy and Porlyusica. Wendy said that her throat was healing well though Valkyrie still hardly spoke. She hadn't eaten more than a few bites because if she ate to much she would instantly throw it all back up.

Porlyusica said it was a side effect of being starved; the stomach when deprived of food for too long will apparently shrink and need time to adjust itself back up to what it used to be. Valkyrie also insisted on showering multiple times a day and I often was jerk awake, from my place in the chair next to her bed, by the sound of either one of her nightmares or the shower turning on several times in the night.

The cause for Valkyrie's on-going pain and symptoms was hard to explain; the best Porlyusica and Wendy could tell was that they were mostly in Valkyrie's head, brought to life by her traumatized and damaged subconscious.

After Wendy's first session of healing, Valkyrie's body was physically heathy and undamaged; minus her throat injury. Yet She had symptoms of starvation, broken bones, and even some internal damage. Meaning that because of her memories returning all at once the way they had added with the trauma and type of abuse she had gone through, she was now reliving all the after effects and all at the same time.

I sighed as I turned and looked at the bathroom door, hearing the water running once again as Valkyrie took what had to be her forth shower in three hours. I clenched my teeth as I sighed internally, feeling helpless.

"How is she doing today?" I looked up as Lucy walked into the room holding a bundle of clothes, which I figured were for Valkyrie. It had been decided that she was ready to leave the infirmary today. I had been cleared the night after Wendy had healed me, but had insisted I stay at Valkyrie's side ever since.

"She is in the shower… again." I glanced back at the door seeing the hot cloud of steam coming from underneath the door and frowned. "She always comes out with red skin." I murmured, Lucy followed my gaze, worry lines deep on her weary face.

"She is trying to wash away the memories, Gray." I turned to her as Lucy walked over to the night stand near me and gently laid the clothes down. "Levy and I did some reading into rape victims."

I closed my eyes at the word, feeling my heart crack. I hated hearing it, hated that it had happened, and hated that Valkyrie had to deal with it all… again.

"It is a behavioral symptom to increase bathing…" she paused and looked at me. "because they feel tainted or unclean."

"But that's not true." I snapped, Lucy laid her hand gently on my forearm till I looked her in the eyes. "No. It's not, but she can't help what she feels right now. She needs us to be patience and to just be here for her."

We both turned to look at the bathroom door at the sound of the water shutting off and I quickly made sure I still had all my clothes on. My stripping habit was even more awkward now and made Valkyrie go into a pale-faced shaking panic. So, I was constantly making sure I was properly clothed. "I am going to head to the house, I have to stop and get the stuff for dinner. I'll see you both there later." Lucy gave my arm a small squeeze before turning and leaving.

It had been decided that Valkyrie needed to have space yet couldn't be alone; she also still flinched and panicked around any males, but there was no way I was leave her side soooo… a new apartment was rented out: A three bedroom, two bath near the edge of the city; Valkyrie, Lucy, Natsu and myself would be living there together. Natsu and Lucy would share one room while Valkyrie and I got our own rooms.

I stood slowly as Valkyrie walked out of the bathroom wearing a black long sleeve shirt and a pair of dark blue sweat pants. She was toweling out her long pink hair as she lifted her eyes she hesitated for a moment at seeing me then gave me a nod.

I smiled at her and put my hands in my pockets, something I had noticed helped her relax, if just a little bit more. "Feel a little better?"

She walked to the opposite side of the bed and gave me a small smirk and slight nod. "Lucy brought you some clothes, I nodded to the pile on the night stand.

Valkyrie's mouth turned down a little before she gave a nod and extended her hands toward me. I blinked before moving slowly to pick up the clothes and hand them over to her. She sucked in a harsh breath and jerked her hand back, when our hands touched and the clothes fell onto the bed between us.

Valkyrie instantly covered her face and shook her head in apology. "Hey, hey it's okay, Val. Don't worry about it." I said as calmly as I could. She peeked out over her hands and I gave her a smirk. "It's alright, really."

She looked down at the clothes and frowned again before picking them up to look at them. Lucy and Natsu had already moved everything into our new place, with help from the guild of course. So, the clothes Lucy had brought were some of the things Jess had made for Valkyrie.

I studied Valkyrie's face as she studied the clothes; it was the exact outfit that Valkyrie had tried on that day in Jess's shop. The swirling galaxy leggings, small black shorts, and grey t-shirt that said, 'coffee, books, and rain' I felt myself smiling as I remembered the way Valkyrie had lit up in the new clothes spinning around with a smile on her beautiful face. I blinked and frowned as I took in the teary eyes and quivering lip Valkyrie wore now.

"Val?" I asked quietly, causing her to shake her head and then grab one of the bags Natsu had brought yesterday and start quickly shoving the clothes into it before zipping it roughly and staring at it as if it was a snake that would strike without any warning.

"Val?" I said again, she jumped as if she forgotten I was there. Then turned to face me her eyes still shining with unshed tears. She opened her mouth then closed it and dropped her head, "s -sorry." I heard her voice squeak out the word.

"Hey." I said gently and she looked up and watched me as I slowly moved around the bed toward her, I watched her tense up as I moved toward her and I slowed my movements till I stood just in front of her. Her jaw was clenched tight, eyes wide, and her hands were held so tightly together at her chest that her knuckles were white. My heart ached, knowing she was trying to keep from shaking or flinching away from me.

I gave she a reassuring smile and bent my knees so I was eye level with her looking straight into her weary eyes. "Remember what I said? No more sorry's, okay. Everyone is here for you, I'm here for you. You take all the time you need, don't feel like you have to rush anything alright?"

She watched me closely before giving me another nod and just the ghost of a smile at the corner of her mouth for a second made my heart flutter. My own smile widened as I moved to grab her bag for her slowly as always so I wouldn't startle her.

She moved to the chair on the opposite side of her bed and pulled on socks and a pair of plain white high tops. I noticed her choosing to stay in the too large sweats and long sleeve black shirt, I watched as she also pulled on an oversized dark gray hoodie, tucking in her long hair into the hood as she pulled it up over her head.

I moved to the door of the infirmary and put my hand on the handle before turning to look back at Valkyrie. It was clear she was trying to hide inside the clothing, she turned her gaze to the door and I could see hesitation and fear in her big eyes.

"I'm here for you, Valkyrie." She looked up at me a little paler than normal, "Whenever you're ready, k?"

She gave a nod and I watched her take a few deep breathes before stepping closer to me, she paused a moment before biting her bottom lip and dropping her head a little, then she surprised me completely by slowly reaching her hand out and grabbing the sleeve of my sweater.

I held my breath as I waited to see what happened next not wanting to shatter the moment. My heart thundered in my chest so loudly, as I tried to focus on not moving so I wouldn't scare her, that I almost missed her question.

"Is this alright?" she head was still down and her voice was so quite I barely heard it.

I smiled at her letting myself relax, "Of course Val. Whatever you need, I'm here for you I promise. I am not going anywhere."

Valkyrie took another deep breath before lifting her head, her eyes flashed with determination, as she gave a nod. I smiled at her proud of her inner strength as I turned to the door. "Alright here we go. I'm right here with you."

VALKYRIE'S PROV

My insides were a nauseated queasy mess as I clutched at Gray's sleeve while he led me through the guild. Once we turned the last corner into the great hall my heart started to thunder in my chest; there were so many people. To many, everywhere. I started to feel the panic rising in my chest and my feet turned to stone making me unable to move forward. Gray felt me stop and turned his kind eyes on me. I wanted to smile at him to reassure in that I was ok that I was the normal old me, not the freaked out panicked basket case that I actually was, but my face was frozen in fear.

I felt myself break out in a cold sweat as my eyes stayed fixed on the great hall full of all the people I was friends with. No one had noticed us yet and I watched as they all moved about the large area, sitting at tabbed laughing and eating or jumping around fighting one another while laughing. It should have relaxed me, should have made me feel safe but inside I felt out of place, afraid and weary of them.

I jumped slightly when I felt Gray's cool finger tips touch mine on his sleeve. I looked up at him wide eyes but didn't pull back, at this moment, faced with all the other people before me, Gray felt like my anchor.

He smiled gently at me before slowly, very slowly, taking my hand and gently looping it around his arm so I could cling tightly to him. I surprised even myself by instantly attaching myself to him in a death grip that I am sure was going to leave bruises on his pale skin. But Gray only smiled wider down at me before whispering, "I got you."

I felt my own insides melt a little at his words but the feeling was quickly doused in cold water as Gray moved to walk through the great hall.

I held my breath as the people closest to us tuned. But I felt myself start to breathe again when it became clear no one was going to approach us. I got a lot of smiles and waves as we made our way to the guilds main entrance, but everyone seemed to understand I wasn't ready for much more than that. I gave small nods to the guild mates I recognized as Gray lead me forward quietly whispering encouragement to me until we made in outside.

Once outside I felt my skin chill and goosebumps raise under my clothes at the cold October air. My breath came out in a wisp of white vapor as Gray lead me down the street. "Are you alright?" Gray asked me I turned and looked up at him.

"Fine." My dry throat choked out I reached up and rubbed at the irritation, and flinched slightly when I felt the scar on my neck. I took a deep breath to try and calm my nerves. My throat still felt sore and raw thou at least I couldn't taste blood anymore and the memory of getting the dark guilds mark burned into my skin was slowly lessening.

Gray watched my movements closely but didn't say anything as he led me to what would be our new home, with Natsu and Lucy. I tried to pay attention on how to get there but my mind was to fuzzy, I had the hardest time focusing since my memories returned. I usually felt lost in a fog like my mind was completely blank but when I did have clarity it was the horrors of my past flashing through my mind.

Porlyusica said it was post-traumatic stress disorder, common in victims of abuse. She had given me a few books about it but I had been unable to bring myself to read them yet, I just felt tried mostly and when I wasn't tried I was scared.

Gray stopped snapping me out of my thoughts and causing me to panic and quickly look around for the danger. "It's alright." Gray quickly said as I took in the scenery. We were standing on a bridge. The same bridge from all those nights ago when Gray had taking me ice skating on the water below.

"Oh." I breathed out in a puff, it was all frosty and chilly, as we looked out over the water and onto the trees and embankment. My eyes widened when I saw that one tree was frozen solid. The tree Gray had punched the night I told him everything about my past with… Tray.

I felt my eyes sting and a few tears slipped out and silently rolled down my cheeks. Gray moved beside me making me tense slightly as he slowly moved our linked arms to slide down and gently hold my hand giving it the slightest of squeezes. I let out a small breath and looked up at him, "Your so…" I stopped to clear my throat, "…kind to me."

Gray smiled down at me before gently tugging me forward to keep walking over the bridge. I watched as the scenery changed it felt like we were walking toward Mirajane's house but we kept walking passed her dirt road deeper into the trees.

I started to feel panic again Trey had found me in the woods, his own house was set deep in the forest, and I practically lived in fear in the forest on the run from the dark guild most my life. Gray noticed and gave my hand a squeeze again and I started to breath in threw my nose and out threw my mouth, working my way through my panic attack. I was thankful that Gray didn't say anything just gave me my space to focus while gently rubbing my knuckles with his thumb for encouragement.

Gray then move to a small dirt path that led to a smallish cottage just as sweet looking as Mirajane's except without all the flowers. The cottage was two story, with brown shingles and tan siding, there were brown shutters and flower boxes on each window and a red brick chimney on one side with smoke rolling out the top. I took in the sweet little cottage so unlike the dark rickety shack Trey and I lived in and I felt myself breath a loud sigh of relief.

"Do you like it?" Gray asked from beside me as he led me to the large front door that was the only pop of color on the house, a bright red.

The color made me smirk slightly, Gray noticed, and raised an eye brow at me, "What's so funny?"

I pointed at the door, "Natsu?" I asked and felt myself smile at the thought of Gray living in a house with a bright red door that my hot-headed brother picked out. I looked at Gray and my breath caught as I watched his own eyes lit up when he saw my smile.

I blushed and quickly looked away, "That's the first real smile you have had since your memories came back." Gray's words were practically a whisper, making me turn to look at him. He looked surprised then his face morphed into a bright full smile that made his eyes crinkle at the sides. "You're ganna be okay." He said it as if he was telling himself, or rather letting himself finally think it was possible.

I watched all his emotion dance across his face and I felt my own heart give a single flutter. I took a breath for courage before squeezing Gray's hand and giving him a small nod.