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I was warm, so warm. My body tingling with a feeling of contentment, a good feeling that I hadn't experience before, my skin was warm, my body naked against the soft cool sheet that draped over my bed. I hadn't felt this good in a while, I was rested but I also had the strangest feeling growing in my stomach. A swirling hot feeling that grew with each second I led there with my eyes tight shut, I didn't want to wake up, didn't want to leave this moment but I had too. I had work.
"No don't let Quil touch it" A gruff voice broke through the silence around me, it was muffled but it was Embry's. My body knew that instantly, the hot feeling in my stomach spiked again causing a light dropping sensation rippling through me. My legs shook a little and my skin shivered at the memories that flooded my brain. Last night, I didn't know whether to be embarrassed or happy but a hot flush crawled over me none the less. I had slept with Embry; I had gone on a date with him and then slept with him. My friend, a man I could never truly have yet I had him last night.
"Jake I swear to god you let Quil go near it and" He stopped again, my body going tense waiting to hear his voice, waiting for the shiver it sent through my spine. "I don't care if you're in charge, you are not letting Quil near it and that is that. No, tell him to tell her I'll be back in a few days. Fuck Jake it's only a fucking washing machine, the old one they have works fine. Whatever, I have to go, yeah sure, speak later" His voice was getting closer, the shivers crawling over my body getting more violent with each beat my heart was taking.
I didn't move or open my eyes, I just waited and listened as his footsteps became clearer and the door to my bedroom creaked open. He was coming in, and with the opening of the door he brought not only more ripples through my body but the most amazing smell, not his smell which was also pretty damned good but the smell of food. Chocolate and toast, coffee. The smell of it made my stomach growl in hunger, a hunger for both the food and the man that was bringing the food in.
"Leah" His voice went softer now, far softer than it had been on the phone and my bed dipped and squeaked as he sat beside me, but still I kept my eyes shut and my face buried into the pillow that was covered in his scent. "Leah, you have to wake up for work. I brought you breakfast" The bed dipped again but the dip this time brought a scorching hot hand over my back, the fingers tickling at the bare skin that wasn't covered by the draping sheet. My eyes couldn't stay shut any longer; my breath caught itself in my throat so harshly at his touch that my eyes flew open and straight onto his face that was peering down into mine, his handsome face that was smiling at me as if I were the best thing he had seen all morning. "You have an hour, you aren't late" He whispered again and I nodded at him before attempting to roll over.
His hand on my back halted me though, if I rolled over the sheet would fall and he would see me completely naked. Although, I don't think that mattered after the things he did to me last night, dark or not, he could see every bit of me thanks to his wolf eyes. Another hot flush erupted deep in my stomach and crawled itself to the surface turning my already flushed cheeks even redder. As if he understood the reason for the blush he snatched his hand back leaving my body colder than it had been a few seconds before, I watched as he shifted slightly on the bed and simply looked at the other side of the room, allowing me freedom to roll over and adjust the sheet so that my body wasn't on show.
"You're safe" I tried speaking normally, playfully, anything that wouldn't bring light to the fact he was making me go weak but it came out in a whisper, a whisper that cracked and sounded somewhat frightened. His head shifted back to me and his body fell down into the bed more so that he was led beside me, he was fully clothed and I couldn't help but feel disappointed at that little fact. He definitely had not been fully clothed when he woke up this morning.
"I got breakfast" He added in quickly and nervously, his hands flying out to grab the tray that lay on the side of the bedside table. My eyes scanned it and I frowned, pancakes with bacon and syrup, he would need a stove to cook those things. That means he fixed it, he was leaving when he fixed it. He told Jacob on the phone he would be home soon. He was leaving. My heart picked up, an erratic thumping that gave me away instantly. "I went out and got it, the stoves still bust" His voice was quick to respond and the thudding in my chest calmed back down. It was ridiculous how attached I was getting, he would have to leave at one point.
"You didn't need to do that" My voice, although not as frightened, was still quite as I shuffled myself upright and took the plate Embry passed me that held two pancakes, two bacon rashers, a chocolate pastry and a bowl of berries. He had gone all out, I couldn't handle this for my breakfast I only ever had a small bowl of coco pops.
He shrugged giving me a lopsided smile as he took his own plate that had twice as much food as mine. "I wanted to treat you" Was all he said but I rolled my eyes.
"You treated me last night" He went stiff as he went to grab his pastry, his eyes popping open slightly and his calm russet skin turning red. Shit. "I meant with dinner" I choked out as I realised what I had said, I hadn't meant what he did after dinner but it was obviously playing heavy on his mind. I followed suit and blushed before pushing myself back down into my bed hoping the sheet would swallow me up. He didn't respond, he just nodded and forced the whole pastry into his mouth dropping crumbs and flakes onto my bed sheets in the process.
Neither one of us spoke again until Embry polished off his entire plate of food and sat back sighing and rubbing his stomach through his shirt as he gulped on orange juice straight from the carton. Even the way he did that made my stomach drop and the butterflies swoon. I had barely touched my own plate of food, my body felt tense with him being so close yet me not being able to feel his skin on mine. I liked that feeling, I wanted him closer yet a part of me was telling me the proximity already between us was too close.
"Rebecca rang" He suddenly glanced over at me catching me watching him, I tried to look away but his eyes seemed to hold mine and I couldn't. I just stared across at him and nodded. "She wanted to know if we could go to their house for dinner tonight, I told her you would ring her later" I nodded again but stopped, that had been Jake on the phone.
"I thought that was Jacob?" My voice wasn't as quite now but it was filled with sleepiness, Embry's face fell into a slight smile and he nodded.
"So you were awake" He chuckled a little before reaching across and taking the piece of bacon I had left uneaten on my plate. I had left the bacon and one pancake, I could tell he wanted the pancake to but he just nibbled at the bacon. "Becca rang whilst I was out, that was Jake when I got back. I can't seem to shake these Black siblings off this morning, I had Rachel text me telling me that her and Paul were having a girl, oh yeah they had their scan yesterday it's a girl" He looked back up at me before reaching for the pancake he had been eyeing up. The smile that grew on my face wasn't a forced one; the information about Paul actually made me smile. I may not be the best of friends with the guy but it was nice to know his family was growing and he was happy, I wanted the guys back home to be happy.
"That's good, Paul will have her locked up until she's thirty no doubt" I could see Paul being rather overbearing of a daughter, he had a lot of anger issues. Embry nodded in agreement.
"But then again, I think I would too with my daughter. No boyfriends until she's at least twenty five" It was a simple comment but one that made my stomach drop, his daughter. He wanted kids. It shouldn't affect me because it was a normal thing, people had kids. But the idea of Embry's kids, it sent my heart fluttering again. Then the jealous heat came, clenching at my chest. He would have kids with her, his imprint, the one he would love more than he could ever love someone else. I knew my heart was going crazy, he could probably sense every emotion in me right now.
"Uhh any news on Kim?" I spluttered over the berries filling my mouth as I asked him, desperate to rid myself of the feelings he gave me at the mention of kids. He shook his head this time, Kim was coming up to her due date and no arrival had come. Apparently she was huge now, and very grouchy. Jared had slept at Sam's house last week because Kim kicked him out for not putting the toilet seat down. I knew all about pregnancy hormones, in my last few weeks being pregnant with Max I had been a nightmare. Solomon once slept in the garage in his car because I was so emotional he couldn't stand being in the house, he wasn't even my partner so that shows how bad I was. "What did Jake want? Is everything ok?" I looked down at Embry who was now led across the bed.
"To tell me that Claire's parents want their new washing machine fitted and that Quil was going to look at it. I've been doing their house for about a year; they are renovating and asked me to do a lot of the work so it's a pretty big job. Anyway, that washing machine is a damn good make and expensive, if Quil tries to fit it then" He stopped and glanced up at me, it went without saying. If Quil tried doing it then it would get broken. Quil couldn't do anything without breaking it. "You should start getting ready; Becca said Max was fine last night. If you don't mind I need your car again today, so I can drive you to work" He sat upright now, his eyes not meeting mine but just staring at the sheet that covered my legs, he wasn't looking just staring. Something made me feel he had become sad in the last couple of minutes, like he wasn't happy about something but I had no idea what it could be. I hadn't said anything.
Unless it was about work, he was missing work to be here and Quil was messing with his work. Maybe he needed to get home, I didn't want him to go but he had a job. "Embry, if you need to go back for work then I can get Solomon to do the stove, there can't be that much left to do on it. You're job should come before my stupid stove that my own kid broke" He stopped as he walked across to the door and simply shook his head.
"They can survive without a washing machine a few more days, besides, I would rather be here" He looked back at me, his eyes finally meeting mine causing new flushes to crawl over my skin. "With you" It was a whisper but I heard it, my heart heard it and immediately began jumping whilst my skin tingled at the memories of his hands on me last night, of his lips. I wanted him here; I didn't want him to leave. He said nothing else; he just turned and walked out of the room leaving my hot body to flop back against the mattress. He was going to be the death of me.
The ticking of my clock brought me back from my Embry filled thoughts and I glanced up at it, I had twenty minutes. I ran to the bathroom, ignoring the soft aching of my thighs and hips, it wasn't a bad feeling. Quite the opposite, it was an amazing feeling, a good ache if that made any sense.
The hot water pelted down against my skin, shadowing the heat that covered me in the bed but it wasn't the same. I looked down over myself as I smoothed in my raspberry shower gel and my heart fluttered again, he had marked me. My left thigh held a bite mark, a soft bruise on the upper inside of my thigh. My stomach somersaulted as I remembered it; he had placed kisses all over me, nipping at me here and there. Right there, nipping me before he crawled further up. My eyes followed the trail I remember him taking, glancing up to my stomach I saw another one, on my hip, further up right at the top of my cleavage lay another soft bite mark, he had marked me. As I jumped from the shower I looked in the mirror checking my neck, I remember when I first phased the guys liked to mark their girls, Emily always had bite marks on her neck as did Kim and Rachel. My neck was clear, he had kissed me there, sucked, but he didn't mark me there. I was grateful for that; I couldn't go into work with bite marks on my neck. But marking was always a thing the guys did to show that the girls were theirs, I remember Kim going mad at Jared because she had to go to school with bites on her neck, they hadn't even slept with each other at that point. Why did Embry mark me? I wasn't his.
Wrapping myself in my towel I tried fighting the memories off, they made me go weak all over again and I couldn't spend the day blushing with a racing heart. I could hide the bite on my cleavage easily but I couldn't hide my crimson blush or hot flushes quite so well. Both came biting back at my body now as I walked into my room, my eyes scanning what I hadn't seen this morning and the blush was back as was the hot flush. My dress lay on the floor beside the bed, my mind crawled over the way he tore it from my body, with greed yet still with softness and care. Then I found the remains of my underwear. My 'fuck me' underwear as Rebecca called it were ruined, he had practically ripped the bra from me, I had heard the clasp ripping, the same noise my panties made when he ripped those from me. But even with the harshness of his pulls he was soft with me, sexy and needy. His own boxers were screwed up amongst the sheets on the bed, my heels now separated, one lay on the floor and the other at the foot of my bed. He liked them, a lot. My stomach growled not in hunger but in desire. Desire for a man I once loved to annoy.
When I left La Push he was nothing more than a boy, a boy with a kind heart and a kind smile, goofy and playful like the others but he always held that compassion and care for everyone around him. Even the bitch who would shout at him every chance she got. But he wasn't that boy anymore, he was nowhere near that boy. He was a man, a man with the same kind heart and kind eyes, the same playful grin and youthfulness about him. But now he was a man, a kind, compassionate, sexy man that had captured that bitches heart. Fuck, he drove me crazy.
"LEAH WE GOTTA GO" The sudden call from behind me made me jump; I had been stood here for what felt like forever just staring at the evidence of last night. It wasn't just a good dream, it actually happened and every bit of it felt amazing.
"Two minutes" I didn't need to shout, he would hear me if I whispered. He could probably hear my heart beating like crazy right now, my breaths struggling to come out. I turned and began rummaging for an outfit, anything. And without giving much notice to my hair or make up I got ready, only applying mascara to my sleepy eyes and scraping my hair into a high ponytail before slipping my work heels on and running from the room. I was late, the fourth time this week I had been late and although he hadn't directly caused it, it was always because of him. Because I was too warm around him to move, too comfortable in his arms, too wrapped up in my thoughts. I was going soft.
He didn't say much on the drive over, he still seemed slightly upset but every now and then his hand came over the gap between us to brush my bare thigh or squeeze my hand but he didn't say anything. He just told me he would get Max from school then come for me. But then as I tried getting out of the car his hand took its place in mine and pulled me back in, sliding me across the seat until I was practically sat on the handbrake.
"You really are the most beautiful person I have ever met" He came closer to me, growling slightly as he breathed down on my face and my body did a new series of flips and flushes as I met his eyes. I had nothing on his beauty, he was out of this world handsome but I didn't deny the compliment, he made me feel beautiful. His free hand came up and stopped at my chest, it took me a minute to realise what he was doing because it looked like he was about to grope me. Instead his finger reached out and flicked down the shirt I had on, I had managed to hide my cleavage for work with a knee length pencil skirt and a blouse but his eyes flickered down and saw the mark that sat at the top. The darkening bite mark that he had put there was standing out even against my tanned skin. He looked at it for a minute and I prayed to god he didn't go looking for the others but he let the fabric ping back into place hiding it and his eyes looked back up at mine. "I don't regret last night Leah, now you know how much I want you" He whispered more and my heart felt as if it stopped beating. He was actually speaking those words out loud to me, things I never thought I would hear any guy say to me especially Embry Call. I didn't regret it either, I knew I should because I shouldn't be letting myself fall for him but I couldn't find an ounce of regret. It was too good to regret.
"I'll see you later" Was all I could whisper back and he pulled me back into him, giving me a final kiss on my already searing hot lips he let me go and I stumbled from the car not quite able to support myself. He made my knees go weak, it was the type of thing you read about in mushy love stories but he literally made me melt.
I couldn't remember coming into work, or the first few hours of work. I was on autopilot walking around the office, taking phone calls, typing emails; I even got through an entire twenty minutes on the phone to Becca without me getting angry at her or even biting back at her curiosity. Nothing stuck in my mind except his words, his lips. I was acting like a lovesick teenager but I couldn't stop it.
"Leah" A voice called over me and I glanced up to see Simon staring at me from over my desk. His eyes held a sparkle to them, almost a teasing sparkle. "Stop smiling so much you're scaring the other workers" He chirped now and offered me a wink. I realised then that I had spent the whole morning just smiling, for absolutely no reason I had walked around grinning.
"Oh shh" I barked back playfully not quite able to really feel embarrassed about how I had acted all day. He chuckled slightly and shrugged.
"Now you really are acting like my thirteen year old. Good to see you smiling though Leah, any chance you will tell me the reason or do I have to guess?" He leaned on the desk now, waiting for me to spill on what it was. He never seemed interested in my life but the recent change in my attitude had hooked him. He asked everyday why I was so happy. "No no don't tell me, is it the 'super hot body builder guy with the perfect jaw line and bedroom eyes' that Kacey was gushing about in the staff room this morning?" He put on a girlish tone as he spoke and my cheeks blushed instantly. Embry had a perfect jaw line, but bedroom eyes? Well maybe. "AHA I knew it, I so knew it was him. The guy from the court house the other day, Kacey saw you in your car with him this morning. It's nice to see you smiling Leah" And with that he stood up and walked off, a smile still on his face. I had been rumbled. He knew about Embry which would make it awkward as hell when Embry left because the questions from Simon or the other girlish man whore assistants wouldn't just leave.
I wanted to slam my head against the desk but my cell began ringing distracting me from the fact the other girls in the room were all watching me. I glanced at my phone and proceeded with my head banging on the desk but this time not from the fact Simon had discovered my crush but because Sam was ringing me. I contemplated not answering, but then I knew I had to answer. I couldn't just ignore him forever.
"Hello" I grunted down the phone and was met with a just as grumpy hello back from Sam. "What do you need?" I tried not to sound rude but my feelings for him had yet again soured after Embry's revelation last night that Sam was trying to get involved in our...freindship? It was hardly a relationship, but then it didn't seem a normal friendship.
"Uhh yeah, I just wanted to ask you how Max was doing at school. You mentioned at the weekend he was playing up so just thought I would check he was better" He had an edge to his grumpy voice, an edge I knew all too well. He wasn't ringing about just Max.
"Yep, he is doing great. Anything else?" Again I sounded rude and snappy but I didn't care because I wanted Sam to know that just because we sorted our differences out and were being civil with one another, he could not just go around getting involved and warning Embry off. My life had nothing to do with him.
"What does he want for Christmas?" You. I winced as I thought it, I shouldn't focus on that. It just upset me more but I couldn't help it.
"Not sure, just get him a toy or a superhero movie I haven't even started shopping yet so I have no idea Sam" I sighed now and leant back in my office chair, I didn't want to speak to Sam.
"Any idea of when I can see him next? Can I ring tonight?"
"Nope, you can ring him tomorrow night after school but tonight he's at Becca's" I grumbled as I flicked through the emails on my screen, scanning each one to see if they were of any importance.
"He was at Becca's last night though wasn't he? Rachel said she babysat for you, is he at Becca's most nights?" I stopped scanning the emails and my hand clenched around the phone. Such an ass. Why do the people back home seem to like discussing things with everyone else, first Seth sells me out and now Rachel is obviously going over every conversation she has with Becca to Sam. It could have been Paul, either way they were talking and it was bugging me.
"No Sam, we are all going to Becca's tonight for dinner if that's ok with you. Yes last night he was there because I went out because I too have a life. Anything else you want to ask about my life?" I snapped, he hadn't even said anything that bad but he just pushed my buttons. Especially over this Embry thing.
"You went out with Embry, is Embry going tonight?"
"Yes Sam, I went out with Embry, yes he is coming tonight and before you ask yes he is staying at my house. But you probably know that already from the amount of gossiping that happens between you boys." I tried not to snap but it came out harshly anyway.
"We don't gossip, it's just passing conversation Leah. And I didn't know Embry was staying with you, how come he isn't in a hotel?"
"You know what; none of this is anything to do with you. You can ring me about Max, that's fine but don't start asking questions about Embry and for god sake stop telling him to stay away from me as if I'm the damned plague. It's absolutely nothing to do with you, so stop trying to interfere" I hissed into the phone trying not to let the other people in the room here me but try to ensure Sam did. It was silent for a few minutes before he finally spoke, his voice off guard and a little tense.
"I only asked if he was going out with you Leah but while we are on that subject I am not trying to pry into your business, I am simply telling him to be careful. You've been hurt enough by a careless wolf Leah, it's stupid that he's allowing it to happen all over again when he knows the risks"
"I know the risks Sam, fuck. Do you not think I've thought about the risks? It's my life, you don't have a say in my life anymore Sam, and Embry is not the same as you, he is far from it. He doesn't have his head so far up his ass that he would ever be as cruel to me as you were. So stop texting him and don't ask me about anything if it's not to do with Max, we may have made up but we are not friends. So don't think you can sit there acting all high and mighty and try to protect me or whatever it is you think you are doing because I am not the same naive teenage girl I once was." I got louder now, drawing the attention of a few people on the desks around me but I didn't care. It felt damn good to tell him straight, maybe I had gone a bit too far because he hadn't said anything directly about me and Embry to me but he had to Embry and that was enough to fuel the fire within me.
He was silent again, the tension seeping through the phone and onto my slightly shaking body, he really wound me up.
"I know you aren't Leah, I know you aren't stupid but I also know that you are falling for him just as hard as he is falling for you. He's like my brother, I know him and I know what he is feeling. And you may not remember it but I know you pretty damn well too. I want you to be happy Leah, I really do but" He stopped, my heart was thudding at this point, he could tell from one phone call that I was falling for Embry. Was it that obvious? "But you and I both know that in our world it isn't as simple as loving one another"
No, it was never that simple in OUR world because our world was different to the one around me, our world was full of things the people around me knew nothing about. Love meant nothing in our world unless it had the word imprint to go along with it, that's what Sam meant. And it was true because I had felt it, all those years ago I felt love for Sam and I saw how it meant nothing once that one fucking word got thrown into the mix. But I didn't love Embry; I wasn't in love with him. I wouldn't let myself get to that point; I wouldn't let myself get hurt like that again.
"You can ring Max tomorrow night, I'll see you soon Sam" I snapped my phone down without waiting for an answer from Sam. As petty as it sounds I had to have the last word. He was right in what he was saying, partly. But I couldn't let him think that he was getting to me. I understood he thought this was a mistake, part of me did too, I shouldn't let myself feel this way for a guy I could never truly have but I've made mistakes before and eventually I got over that mistake, so if this was another mistake then I would get over this one too. If I had learnt anything from Embry since he's been here it is that I am stronger than I think I am, I've come through a lot and I'm still standing. I'll be standing well after Embry too, it would hurt but I would get through it.