The Crooked Knife
By CKBarGuy and BrownEyedBluez
We don't own Twilight. We have a dent in the wall where New Moon hit it.
Chapter 36
1/11 – 1/12
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BrownEyedBluez
good night, my lion. you are braver than you know. x
CKBarGuy
We shall see love, I have several surprises for you later today. Goodnight Bella my love. x
BrownEyedBluez
maybe i won't be the one forgetting things...
CKBarGuy
I'm always up for a challenge love. Especially a challenge that involves your lips, your hair, your hands, your legs, your hips, your body.
BrownEyedBluez
hm, awfully sure of yourself, aren't you? ;) sounds like a challenge to me... x
CKBarGuy
I'll be sure to remind you of everything you've seem to have forgotten. Although you might question your name now and again. x
CKBarGuy
I cooked earlier after classes. I'm in bed now. Don't worry love I won't let you forget anything else in a few hours. x
BrownEyedBluez
hold up. you said you are cooking, but then you said you'd have to get dressed to come over.
BrownEyedBluez
i'm glad. i love to make you smile.
CKBarGuy
Bella, that just put a big smile on my face and in my heart.
BrownEyedBluez
i want to hold you right now, so much. i want to kiss you and erase every bad memory. i want to make new, beautiful memories with you.
CKBarGuy
Not horrible at all love, I feel the same way.
BrownEyedBluez
is it horrible of me to be a little glad she was so stupid? i hate that she hurt you, but now i get to be with you. sorry i'm so selfish.
CKBarGuy
I will do everything in my power to make sure that happens Bella.
CKBarGuy
I still have more to do tomorrow, I haven't made the pasta yet. I just cooked the beef.
CKBarGuy
So I got a little bored this afternoon and I started cooking. It didnt help I was concerned about chatting with you about this.
BrownEyedBluez
if she does come, she would be better off avoiding ME.
CKBarGuy
Thanks love. x
BrownEyedBluez
oh, God, baby! how could she do that to you? you're the sweetest man alive!
CKBarGuy
Two years of my life Bella, two fucking years and that bitch just laid on her back and fucked me over.
CKBarGuy
I confronted her, she told me it was my payback for not paying enough attention to her. I was always more worried about school than her.
CKBarGuy
I'm not sure I would know now, if it hadn't been for the fact that she tried to get with Jazz. Then he heard around what was going on.
CKBarGuy
She slept, scratch that she fucked 7 of my mates. Yes you read that correctly 7. Over the span of 3 months.
BrownEyedBluez
go on, do it
CKBarGuy
Fuck, I have to get it all out Bella.
CKBarGuy
The conversation that we had about Jazz cheating on Alice, where I believe I overreacted, it was due to this situation.
CKBarGuy
her eyes. She was forever trying to parade me around.
CKBarGuy
Now for some truth serum. You know how I hate the touchy women at the pub, they remind me of her. It was like I was some sort of trophy in
CKBarGuy
She has no claim to any part of me love.
BrownEyedBluez
Edward, she doesn't matter, unless she still has a claim on a piece of your heart. otherwise, there's nothing she can do but look like a fool.
CKBarGuy
avoid her, if she does come. x
CKBarGuy
of 4 projects to finish my degree. She said I wasn't showing her enough time. WTF? She's fucking evil Bella, it would do us both good to
CKBarGuy
And move to NYC to finish my school. The amusing thing is with what she did to me, she blamed me for all of it. I was in the middle
CKBarGuy
If she even sees you. Please know this, I left her, not the other way around. She caused our break-up. She caused me to leave my Mum & Dad.
CKBarGuy
As I stated before I don't want there to be any surprises if she does come. She will lie to you I'm sure and tell you things to hurt you.
CKBarGuy
Bella I have asked her not to come, I have told her I want nothing to do with her, but that doesn't mean she will listen to me.
BrownEyedBluez
i guess sometimes the past just won't stay there, no matter what we do.
BrownEyedBluez
i get why you said this here, and you have no idea what it means to me that you wanted me to know.
CKBarGuy
lol I believe you would love, but you might have to get in line. Jazz is likely to kill her as soon as she gets out of customs.
BrownEyedBluez
if she has the balls to come here, where you have built your own life, she risks getting them kicked. and i have just the heels to do it.
CKBarGuy
I will forever be indebted to Jazz for all he has done for me, for this reason I call him my brother and mean it in every way.
BrownEyedBluez
i love jazz for standing by you. there are very few people who call themselves friends who would do what he has.
CKBarGuy
it wouldn't be. This is why I needed to tell you. Tanya is a fucking bitch and she is very conniving, I dont put anything past her.
BrownEyedBluez
i'm not sure i want to know what she did to you to hurt you like that.
CKBarGuy
You don't have to say anything love. I needed to get this off my chest. I want tomorrow to be perfect, and having this on my mind
BrownEyedBluez
i'm not sure what to say.
CKBarGuy
free to ask. Alright, I'm done. x
CKBarGuy
I will tell you anything you want to know, but will not openly throw it at you. If you have any questions about any of this, please feel
CKBarGuy
relationship with anyone after what she did to me. I am hoping that all of that is going to change, with you.
CKBarGuy
I dont want you to feel sorry for me Bella. I've grown and moved on, but there is still the fact that I haven't been able to have a real
CKBarGuy
Jazz is the only person that knows the extent of all that happened between myself and Tanya. I'm not sure how much to tell you.
CKBarGuy
But there was never anyone serious. I just havent wanted to put myself out there, I havent been able to trust anyone, until you.
CKBarGuy
Then I met you Bella, and everything changed. I stay away from all of the women that come in the CK. I've dated a few women here and there.
CKBarGuy
lurking around a corner. So I work, I go to school and I live my life here in NY.
CKBarGuy
to our parents. I try not to go back home that often, to the fact that our parents all run within the same circle. I fear that she might be
CKBarGuy
We both got accepted to NYU and this is where we chose to finish our schooling. As far as possible away from her, but still somewhat close
CKBarGuy
It took me a long time to adjust to what she did to me. Jazz and I both found it would be best to get the fuck out of the UK and move on.
CKBarGuy
Bella, when I say never, I mean NEVER EVER going to fucking happen.
CKBarGuy
about. She is planning on coming over here in the spring and wants to try to work things out, this will never happen.
CKBarGuy
I don't want to go into too much detail with you over her, but she emailed me a week or so ago. That is what Jazz and I got into the fight
BrownEyedBluez
jesus, edward.
CKBarGuy
Knowing what I know now, I can't even see what kept me with her, but then I guess I was blinded by what I thought was love.
CKBarGuy
Bella, she fucking ruined me.
CKBarGuy
While I was in University in England I met and thought I fell in love with a girl named Tanya. We lived together for almost 2 years.
CKBarGuy
I need to explain to you what brought me and Jazz to the US. I dont want there to be any secrets or anything that can come back and hurt us.
BrownEyedBluez
ok, what's going on?
CKBarGuy
Bella there is something I need to discuss with you, please let me know if this is alright. I need to get it out in the open.
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CKBarGuy
Goodnight Bella, sweet dreams love. I will see you soon. x
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy good night Edward. x
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez I am also. On that note love,I am going to let you get some sleep, since its already morning. Trust me your going to need it
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy i'm looking forward to it.
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez It be there at 11:40 am sharp.
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy the car, right! walking would probably be a very bad idea. knowing me, i'd fall down in the snow & be lost until spring.
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez Onto better conversations, i'm pleased your first day was brilliant. I can't wait for 11:40 am tomorrow. x
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez I replied.
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy Dm
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy no, no second- guessing. there's no good time or place for that. and i understand why you did it like this. believe me, i do.
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez I should have waited till you were here, for that I am truly sorry. x
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy i'm fine. ok, no, i'm not, but you don't have to come over. i will be.
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez Your alright?
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy no, i'm glad you did. you needed to say it.
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez Bella tell your alright or i'm getting dressed and coming over now.
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez Don't cry Bella. Maybe I shouldnt have said anything.
BrownEyedBluez
sweet baby Jesus! i can't stop crying.
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy Edward? is everything ok?
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy they had a piano teacher before, but she married & had a baby. they aren't beginners, & that's great!
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez Good! I'm glad that it all worked out. You have a DM.
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy oh the tourism was this morning. the children were actually a very pleasant interlude. polite, attentive, & i think we'll have fun
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez I was talking about the children, not Angela.
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy only just. i think i can safely say i have seen every major tourist attraction in nyc now.
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez Hmm...we shall see about that love.
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez So tell me, how was today? I take you survived.
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy of course, calvin. x
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez Wow love that's a lot to forget, did you at least remember my name?
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy i think i need reminding
BrownEyedBluez
CKBarGuy i did. i forgot how your lips feel & how my hand fits in yours. how silky your hair is & what my name sounds like when you say it.
CKBarGuy
BrownEyedBluez Did you forget about me today?
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