Changing the song name to "Gashina" and stealing that catchy af song so if you wanna know the song and choreo search gashina on YT!
Ding ding ding
My alarm clock screamed from my bedside. I clicked it off easily. I had been up all night sitting and thinking. I ignored the conversation Jimin was trying to have with me through the door. Pleading with me to open it, telling me not to do anything stupid asking if I was okay asking if we could talk. I also ignored Taehyung who talked to Jimin quietly outside the door.
I thought and cried all night. About a lot of things that had been brimming up inside me. Lin, Taehyung, Jungkook and Jimin too. I thought about how badly I had treated Lin. How immature I had approached it and blocked his number. I didn't even break up with him like a normal person. Now it had been months since we'd talked.
Taehyung who had been a good friend to me was lost over a stupid stupid thing. And now he hates me and I don't belame him. Jungkook and I were best friends but now its going to be an awkward mess. The jealousy is the worst part. I'm such a jealous human, I can't ever be happy for others. I was jealous whwn Taehyung got with that bar maid. I was jealous everytime I see Jungkook with Minseo. But I should be happy. Jimin loves me so much. He tells me everyday. He thanks me for coming into his life and I'm still here being jealous. I hide it and try to forget it but its always there at the back of my mind. That bored feeling. That feeling of wanting something new. Theres nothing wrong with Jimin and I love him but this horrible immature part of me always craves someone new. I'm begining to wander and I hate it.
Knock knock
"Yoona? Are you alright? You know what day it is today right?" I hear Namjoons homely voice.
I nod in answed before realising he can't see me. "Yes." I reply.
I her him sigh in relief. "Do you want to come out?"
"Yes." I nod quietly as I brush invisible tears off my cheeks and go over and open the door. He smiles comfortingly.
"You okay?" He rubs my shoulder. Namjoon is so deep I can tell he knows its so much more condense then just some jokes made at a table.
I shake my head slightly. I'm really not.
"Come on, you must be starving." He offers his arm for a link. I hesitate slightly but then link and we head down stairs. My feet feel cold on the stairs. The same Tshirt and knickers both dirty but one from tears and sweat and one from Jungkook.
Everyone looks up slightly in relief when they see me. Everyone looks extremely worried and a bit disgusted by how I look. My hair is knotted and tangled. My face unclean and gloomy and my clothes are filthy dirty. Jimin rushes over to hug me immediately. His hands protect me and hold me tightly. "Please don't scare me like that again." He whispers in relief into my hair. I open my eyes and look at everyone from his shoulder. Jungkook looks down at his lap guiltily and clenches his jaw. I feel tears pricking because I know how awkward its going to be from now on.
We break apart slowly and I smile reassuringly. "I won't" I whisper as I let go of his hand. He looks at me unconvinced slightly but I head off to the fridge to get some food. I feel everyone looking at me as they continue their normal conversations.
I head to the table with my yogurt and sit beside jimin as I rest my head on his shoulder and spoonfeed myself.
"Nervous?" Jin smiles at me across the table.
"Oh- uhm yeah yeah so nervous." I laugh awkwardly. In truth I was. I hadnt seen the girls in two days and I felt like I just needed to be with them now. "You'll be fine don't worry." Hoseok nods as he eats his banana.
"Jungkook ah was the same so nervous, weren't you Jungkook."
"Mhm hm." Jungkook answers as he looks guiltily at his phone. "Minseo - I've got to take this." He doesn't look up as he leaves the table with his ohone ringing. I look down guiltily at the table.
"How strange." Taehgung says suspiciously as he catches my guilty look. I turn away to hide my extreme guilty blush.
"Whats so strange." Jimin asks.
"Jungkook he just - doesn't seem himself."
"Probably probably stayed up too late." I sniff trying to end the subject.
"Ohmm wonder what he was doing." Hoseok smirks. Namjoon gives him the dirtiest look I've ever seen.
"I better get ready." I finish as I blandly leave. I head upstairs slowly and tiredly.
"I-I'd love to come babe but I can't I really really can't." I pause outside Jungkooks room as I head to mine. I gently press my ear up against the bedroom door.
"I told you why - yes - I told you I have practice all day tommorrow."
I furrow my brow. Thats a lie, they all have the day of tommorrow. I lean in closer.
"You have to listen to me - Minseo, stop , You knew before we started this whole thing that I'm tied to my work-pah!" Furious steps towards the door. I gasp as I jump back and walk quickly imto my bedroom to prepare my shower.
Jungkook POV
"Bitch." I whispered to myself as I made my way out of my room. Minseo can be so indeniale and immature sometimes. I glance at Yoonas room thinking I heard footsteps but dismiss it. I stomp downstairs.
"Those stairs are not made of paper and theyv'e had enough damage these last few weeks." Jin disgusts at my stomping. I sigh, "Minseo," I can't finish my sentence before everyone sighs in understanding. "She won't stop on at me about this dj thing she's going to and how she wants me to go." I roll my eyes and sit down.
"Well why don't you?" Tae presses. "Why don't I?"
"Go?"
"Oh," I shift uncomfortably. "Uhm I'm busy." I lie. "I'm meeting up with some friends tommorrow. They all furrow their brows. "I do have friends." I add before anyone can make a sly remark.
"Sureeee." Yoongi grins.
"So uhm, what are you going to do about this Yoona situation then?" Jin sips his tea and eyes us all up.
I look down at my phone and pretend to be busy.
"What do you mean?" Tae asks him.
"So we're going to act like she didn't lock herself in that room for almost a full fucking day then okay whatever completely normal behaviour." Jin runs out of breath and reduces to a whisper. He massages his throat and coughs.
"Jungkook, did you apologise?" Tae turns to me.
"Huh? Oh yeah - yeah she wasn't - wasn't too happy about you telling me though."
He creases his brow disbelievingly. "What!? So she's angry at me now too?"
He slaps the table lightly. I shrug. "Dunno."
"Jimin, whats your take on this." Namjoon asks Jimin who is too avoiding everyone.
"Well," he sighs. "I think she's just not in the right headspace today.I mean come on, you guys remember the day before we debuted right? I felt like locking myself in the closet!"
"Mhm yeah you haven't came out of it yet." Hoseok prepares for an attack and blocks his path to Jimin with his hands which doesn't stop Jimins slaps.
"I think we all just need to move on, stop acting different and it'll all go back to normal and calm her down."
I blink my input. Just as I do her footsteps coe down the stairs. She's dressed in a knee lenght light blue flowing dress and wears the thick black gucci belt that Jimin bought her as a debuting present. Her black tights hide her legs from the cold and her pullover white cardigan protects her shoulders. Her long black hair curtains her face and her makeul is minimalised to a dap of light red lipstick on her perfect lips.
I hear Taehyung sigh slightly as he sees her. Partial jealousy runs inside me.
Jimin rushes to her side like a love sick puppy and tells her she's beautiful. No one can ever keep their eyes off her.
These crazy feelings I have for Yoona started a while ago actually. It started at the beach those many months ago. I felt the first bud of jealousy grow. Knowing she slept with Jimin just made me a bit jealous. It just grew from there. Im not crazy about her I just, envy Jimin? I close my eyes in guilt as I remember last night. I took advantage of her. I physically had her in my grasp and I she emotionally wasn't there and I almost kissed her. Jimin popped into my mind before our lips touched. I thought about how Jimin would feel if he found out and although it was difficult, I pulled away.
I remeber seeing her accidentally exposed. Her black underwear on display. I covered her modesty if anything to distract myself. I lay in my bed all night regretting everything, from upsetting her to almost kissing her. I love Minseo do I? I really love her really? And I'm now just being selfish.
"Alright, I'm off to the studio." She tells us as she grabs her bag. Today she's debuting. The MV is released in two hours and the live performance on Inkigayo is in three. Everyone stands up.
Yoona POV
Jimin kisses my lips and hugs me as he whispers he loves me into my ear. I smile in response but don't say a thing.
Namjoon and Jin hug me and tell my goodluck with Jin ruffling my hair. I giggle. Hoseok high fives and hugs me and I laugh along. Yoongi surprisingly smiles at me with a goodluck making my eyes widen and my heart race. Taehyung smiles slightly and whispers good luck. I quickly hug him tightly and enthusiastically. I want him back so bad. "Promise me you'll watch me on inkigayo." I look up at him from his chest. "I promise." He smiles. I feel his soft lips on my forehead and I close my eyes.
I break apart quickly and sniff. I lost myself there for a second and realise Jimin is still here. Jungkook hesitantly makes his way over. "Uh.." he says lowly, hands behind his back. "Good luck, I know you'll kill it." He smiles.
"Thanks Kookie." I whisper into my knuckle. He opens his arms for a hug and I step in. My chin rests over his shoulder eyes closed. I feel his finger fiddling with my zipper. In a nervous way not anything else.
"Can we forget everything." I whisper so so quietly into his ear. "Yeah." He answers slightly hesitantly.
We break apart and I smile. He smiles too. I punch him in the chest slightly and run past him. "Bitch" he calls after me as he laughs.
"Bye!" I call to everyone as I head out the driveway.
Its a long way to work! I think to myself as I set iff in my journey. The nerves burning in my belly.
We arrive at the inkigayo studio aftee three hours of tiring practice. Jisu and Hana hold my hands tigthly as I'm in the middle and Soomi sits infront twiddling with her thumbs.
My phone beeps and I break hands to get it from my bag.
Good luck tonight ? Fighting!
Lalisa
I gasp in surprise. "What is it?" Hana asks curiously as she peeps at my phone. Lisa and I never talked since she gave me her number. I was too nervous to start and she was probably too busy. I thought she had forgotten in all honestly. All the girls see my phone. "I wish I went to that party." Soomi sighs from the front. I smile to myself as I know she more then likely wouldn't have been allowed in.
"Didn't miss much." I smile weakly with nerves as I rejoin hands.
"Can you set me up with Taehyung?" Jisu bounces excitedly.
I shoot her a disgusted look.
"I'm not close them guys, not at all, actually I never talk to them ever." I snap quickly. I hadn't told any one them about BTS. I trust them dearly but just not enough to tell them. Not even my parents know. For all they know I'm still with Lin.
"But you get to help teach them their choreography." Soomni pouts. "We just get to work on our debut while your off having fun."
I shoot her a look of disbelief. "Uhm." I answer slightly annoyed at her.
"Hey can you guys stop fighting like please?" The driver turns to us. "We need chemistry and no hostility on stage okay."
We all sigh and sit back in our seats trying not to make it awkward. Five minutes later we arrive. The nerves hut me and as I get out of the car I wobble on my knees.
"Whoo!" A familiar face catches me. I look up to see Baekhyun. "Baekhyun!?" I ask in disbelief as I smile. It had been so so long since I seen or heard from him.
"I-I hi!" I laugh in disbelief and smile. Its like he's not real. "Hi." He smiles back as he fixes my pre made up hair.
"I came to wish you good luck." He breaks the smiley silence.
"Oh, thanks, well you could have rang you know you didn't need to go to all this hassle." I laugh.
"No hassle at all! Besides if it were my debut I'd want my friends here in the flesh."
"Uhm yeah, yeah." I smile slightly. I realise he's right and a sadness hit me.
I know the boys are busy and 'work comes first always' but, a small part of me is dissapointed that they aren't here.
"Uhm...I gotta go." I sigh and smile as I slowly head off following the girls.
"I'll be in the audience!" He calls after me.
"I'll keep an eye out!" I smile back.
Our makeup is retouched and our hair and makeup adjusted. I look in the mirror at my outfit. Short and tight black shorts with dimonte studded fishnet tights underneath. Thick black heel boots which I still after many practices question my ability to dance in. A blue corset top and a black lace body suit underneath that covers all my arms and up to my chin. Makeup is smoky on the eye and dark on the lips. My hair is sleekly pulled back into a high pontail and my ear piece and mic suits around it. I sigh nervously as I look at the other girls who are dressed quite similarly but in my opinion my outfit is the prettiest.
I turn to the swinging door as I see Bang Pd entering. I adjust my already perfect hair nervously.
"Girls." He calls us around him sternly.
We waddle in like lost chickens.
"Don't let me down out ther okay?" He warns us.
We all nod in response and fear. "I'll be watching." He smiles and nods.
We all nod once again.
He leaves the room with his hands closed behind his back.
We sigh a huge sigh of relief when he goes. We all form a circle with our heads together. "Okay, we can do this."
I sigh shakily. "Fighting!" Soomni squeaks.
We stand in the curtain at the side of the stage. I peek out at the crowd as we
wait. Theres about two hundred people. Its not much compared to what BTS face but I'm still scared.
The camera and broadcasting crew fiddle around for ages before they start.
"And were live in 3..." I gasp sharply.
"...2..." Hana squeezes my hand.
"...1...Hello everyone, welcome to Inkigayo special stage, today we have a very exciting debut, Bighit entertainment debuts their first girl group to the new generation, I present to you DDD performing their debut 'Gashina'" I sigh rigidly. The lights dim and the crowd claps and cheers as we're ushered on in the complete darkness. The stage is so pretty. It looks so expensive. I can't believe I'm standing here. My in ear piece buzzes and the music starts flowing. I close my eyes and slow my breathing being thankful its not me who has the first line.
The drilled into my head choreography comes so easy to me. I execute every move as easy as a hot knife through butter. I sing the best that I can but I'm not the best singer in the group so I'm outshined. I just hope my dancing can make me stand out. I keep my eyes in the camera and off the crowd because I feel like I might literally piss myself if I catch sight of anyone even if they are complete strangers. The whole world seems to move in slow motion. For those three to four minutes all my nerves dissapear. When it ends and we finish in our final pose and the light dim and the cameras pan back to the sound proof studio box where the presenters will comment on us I let my breathing go. We group hug as we pant and curse happily. The crowd stands up to cheer. I look out at them in shock and amazement. This moment is one I've been waiting for for years. I never thought I'd see it so quick.
I feel tears prick my eyes but blinj them away.
"Uh..." Soomni starts. "We know our group hasn't had much- well any publicity actually," she sniffs throygh hard emotions as we all join hands.
"So we are so greatful for you guys who are cheering for us."
"We really hope you enjoyed our performance and that you will continue to support us!" I smile as I take over. The crowd replies with a simple
"We will!" As they keep cheering and clapping.
"Thank you" we all answer together as we bow and wave ourselves off the stage. The loud calls of the crowd don't die down and I can still hear them as we enter our dressing room backstage.
Soomni immediately runs to the sink and vomits down it. We all wince in disgust but we quickly recover and embrace eachother as we squeal and jump up and down.
"D-did we j-just do that!?" Hana wipes tears from her blurry eyes. "Like really?" Jisu covers her red face.
"Yeah!" I gasp as I too feel tears prick my eyes. "I love you guys!" I gasp in tears as I pull them all closer and we all "Awhh" as we hug and cry.
The door clicking open catches us by shock and we all catch a fright as we turn to see Bang Pd with a stern look on his face. My heart stops and falls heavy. I thought we performed well..I really thought we did.
His lips curl into a pleased smile as he claps his hands together once. "Well done girls." He laughs slightly in what sounds like disbelief.
"Thank you." We all sigh in relief as we cup our hands in blessings and bow to him.
"I will leave you with this news , the music video released an hour ago is already coming up on 75million views,"
My hands cover my mouth as I gasp. He simply cannot be talking about us.
"Promotions will be starting in four days!" He tips his cap and with that dissapears from the room with his hands in his pockets.
I turn back to the girls who are just as shocked as me and our jumping and crying intensifies.
* this will continue to next chaoter sorry its sooo long ugh*