Greetings! I know I haven't been around for quite a while, and last time I promised to keep this story alive and continue writing it, just that I would restart it, add more topics and ideas to the aspect. Well, I still have the intention of doing that. But I've grown so much as a person and definitely as an author. For one, my writing is a lot better than it used to be, and secondly I have certainly matured. I'm able to explore more explicit ideas. (I'm still a baby so don't expect to much)
This is one of my favorite stories I've ever written. I put so much time and thought into it. But I do believe I portrayed all my ideas wrongly and rushed a few things. I'm trying to improve the overall quality of the story by rewriting it.
Saying that, I want to publish chapters as long as 10,000 words. But with large chapters comes lack of updates, and it will take me a few weeks to a couple of months to finish with something somewhat manageable. I think that's the best way to go in all honestly. Rather than having over 40 chapters I can bring it down to 10. Somewhere along the lines of that.
I'm sure many of the people who read this either lost interest in my book or lost interest in the series. I'm so sorry to all of those who stuck around, and I'm not expecting much input from this anyways. Thank you very much for reading Petals. This story helped me grow as not only a person but as a writer as well.
Since I last updated I've changed so much. More than you believe. When I first started writing this I was confused and lost, I had many things going on. But now I'm learning to become happy with who I am. I'm not confident per se, but I'm getting there. I think back then, writing something tragic for a character and putting them through suffering made me not feel so alone and isolated. This might sound stupid, or sappy, whatever, but I'm so much more open and not afraid of sharing my thoughts. I will truly miss the original context of this story, but right now this is probably the happiest I've been with myself.
Continue writing!
~Kenedi