Rolling In The Deep
Carly's p o v
I can't believe how gorgeous he is Sam
Yea he's hot Carly just ask him he'll tell ya
Aw Sam what have you got against him?
Nothing
So why you so hard?
Cause I had to be I just don't trust him yet he seems cool but that's what they do
Who ?
Guys..
Aw Sam what am I going to do with you?
Love me feed me pet me
Sam your not a puppy
Maybe I am and you just don't know it
Your no more a puppy then Gibby is a mermaid
He is to a mermaid!
He is to how else do you explain it!
Sam go to bed!
Fine but I'm right and I know it..
Good night Sam
Night..
She huffed I rolled my eyes as I turned off the light sighing remembering how his lips felt on mine, how his touch made me feel alive. His smile filled my head as I lay there trying to get some sleep.
I had been so pissed at Freddie when I stalked off I thought I would explode but TJ was so calm as he held me and let me vent till he pulled me close and kissed me. I melted as soon as his lips were on mine. We fell on the blanket next to Sam who was still fuming her eyes watching Freddie where he sat alone on the prier he looked so sad I almost softened a bit I know it was a had day for him but that was no excuse he crossed a line spying on me. How many times did I have to tell the boy I wasn't into him that way?
My body relaxed when I felt TJ giving me a massage and soon I was puddy in his arms . Sam's head was in my lap and we watched the fireworks as we remembered all the lives lost on 9/11 .. years before.
We talked softly ..
Do you remember where you were?
Yea Sam I do I was in Washington D.C
What? Both TJ and Sam looked at me as I spoke..
My voice almost broke as I closed my eyes feeling TJ's hand stroking my hair as Sam grasped my hands. I smiled at both of them.
Mom had pulled me out of school I had a dance competition that morning we had to be there by 7am
I was on stage when the plane hit the North tower doing a solo..they had the TV's on in the back. We didn't know what it was at first you know but I remember feeling so nervous cause I thought I had screwed up my dance I was pissed and kept beating myself up over it. Mom she kept telling me I had done amazing but I was so sure I had screwed up I was being a brat ..
Carly a brat?
No way I can't see that..
Shut up Sam
Feed me ham and I just might
I hit her lightly she could always lighten the mood.
I was throwing a fit crying and yelling at my mom who was just trying to help me...I remember thinking I have to do better then Amber Tattle she was the champion and she was my main competition but I was sure with that score I would fail.
I remember another girl was throwing a fit cause her mom refused to let her lose weight and get diet pills she was only 10 but she wanted to lose weight so bad so she hit her mom. I remember looking at her and thinking she was ugly..I sized her up and knew she was no threat ..all I cared about was winning.
I was on stage at 9:37 when the plane hit D.C the whole building shock and cracked I fell and I was trapped under rubble with Amber. I remember fearing I could die and I would be next to her...I remember being there for a long time in pain scared ..and all I could think about was I going to lose?
Amber was so calm during the whole thing she prayed and she kept me talking so I wouldn't black out you know I hate small places she made me laugh and we got to know each other.
We were there for almost two hours I suffered a broken ankle ...I thought it was the end of the world that I would never dance again...I cried like a baby..then I found out Amber's father had been in the pentagon when it was struck ...he died...I felt so ashamed like somehow I caused it...
Amber she was really sweet to me she sent me flowers and a sweet get well card and I was too scared to ashamed to send anything back she lost her dad and I was too busy stewing in my own misery to see the bigger picture.
We lost contact when she moved away but I wish I had gotten it then just how precious life is and how we shouldn't waste it with silly worries and self fish needs.
You know I'm sure you could look her up on MyFace reach out to her
That's an idea TJ I just don't know what to say to her I'm embarrassed
You were 7 Carly I'm sure she gets it just try it
Maybe I will thanks TJ
I kissed him long and hard.
What about you TJ?
Me? Well I was at home in La with my mom we were getting her orders ready she's a very busy women and I was helping her in her office when the news broke that the North tower had been attacked, I remembered her clients joking that the pilot was probably drunk, they were joking while these people were dying it was sick..then the next tower was hit and suddenly everyone stopped talking and they started crying and gasping suddenly it wasn't so funny. My mom panicked she grabbed us and made us go into the cellar she was sure we were all under attack. I had to hold my youngest sister so she wouldn't crawl away it was tight and dark and stuffy and I hated it we stayed there till my dad came home at 7 to tell us we sat around watching the news.
I was too young to grasp it really but my mom and my aunts were crying. I didn't understand what he meant. I just remember seeing these two shiny towers falling down like snowman on the first day of spring. I thought it would reappear when it was time. But as the years went on I started to really see what it all meant and how it affected us.
Sam what about you?
I had skipped School
Her eyes avoided me she was lying about something I could see she was nervous but I stayed silent she would tell me when she was ready.
I was hanging with some local kids on the corner we were uh well never mind um I was hungry so I was trying to find something to steal ...there was some action on the corner so I went to check it out and I was shocked to see that several gang members from different gangs had come together to say a prayer they told us what had happened but I didn't understand. So one of the girls showed me a TV I stared at those images till they were burned into my brain and I just thought wow how powerful these people must be if they got all the gangs to declare a peace for even a day just to pay respect to our country.
She shrugged I felt a chill America had been under attack and she was worried about gangs and food only Sam.
That night we had walked back to my apartment Sam was beat so she went to bed but TJ and I went to the roof we cuddled as we watched the stars. He tucked his arms over me...We talked about Freddie about Sam about how we felt growing up in a post 9/11 world. We talked about music and what concerts we wanted to go to, I laid my head back on his chest as he kissed me softly I relaxed into his arms.
What's wrong baby?
Nothing just tired
Don't lie something's bothering you
You miss Freddie don't you?
How did you know?
Cause I know you Carly Shay
Yea well we've been friends for years we did everything together school projects hanging out we worked our butts off on iCarly for years and ..
iCarly? What's that?
I cussed to myself should I tell him? Lie to him? Yea lying always worked so well for me ...Not ..I cracked and told him he listened carefully.
I can't tell you what to do but I can say listen to your heart it won't stir you wrong
Aw thanks TJ
Yea sure no prob
Carly Shay get your butt inside it's 1am on a school night!
Aw man busted
Busted yes your also grounded two weeks
Grounded! Aw man that's not fair Spencer
Fair? I was up worried sick Sam's so worried she's throwing up you didn't tell anyone Carly we thought something had happened but here you were with your boyfriend who I haven't even met yet on the roof ..your lucky there's windows around so people can see or I swear to god kid ..
Spencer stop! Spencer please just calm down
Spencer this is TJ ..
TJ Spencer Good-night..
I tried to sneak past holding TJ's hand Spencer stopped us he motioned for me to go in and TJ to stay..
I groaned this wasn't going to be good Spencer made me go all the way inside I staked to my room pissed. Two weeks of not seeing him that was so unfair!
I was fuming how could Spencer do this to me? He was acting like I was a little kid.
Carls you okay?
Hey baby god Spencer makes me so mad
Why baby?
What did he do?
God Sam he came tearing outside yelling at me like I was some kind of two year old he started threatening TJ it was a awesome evening Sam I didn't want it to end but damn Spencer had to be all up in my business..
He loves you Carly he's just worried about you this is hard for him to watch his little sister grow up and start being on her own...
Does he have to be so rude? TJ's so sweet
Carly you've only known him for a month or so Today was the first day you met him there's a lot of freaks out there who will take advantage of a girl your nature
What nature is that?
Your sweet and trusting guys love to betray that and take what they can..
TJ's not like that!
How do you know?
I just do and besides when did you become so ..so this..
I waved my hands frustrated ..
Aren't you always the one telling me to grow up?
Yea since when did you start to listen?
We all grow up sometimes maybe it's just my time
Well stop it I want my Sam back!
I'm right here
No I mean the one who would agree with me and threaten to kick Spencer's ass..
Why would I do that he took me in and believed in me when my own mom didn't he helped me he gets me to relax he makes me realize that if I try I can be alright..
Sam he grounded me! Two weeks!
Two weeks I can't see TJ! I can't talk to him!
You'll be fine Carly IM him call him during school
But will be in class!
Stick with me hun I'll take care of you baby
But what if he takes my phone?
I still have mine put his number in it just in case
I was shaking as Sam grabbed my phone and programmed it as she handed it back to me ..
He's coming fake sleep
How do ..
Shh...
She shoved me down turning off the lights.
Next Day
Sam are you sure we won't get busted?
Shh Carls how many times do have I done this before and I have never been busted
I don't know but I am afraid to ask
Never mind I won't tell
She handed me her cell which I almost dropped from shaking so hard.
What if we get caught?
We won't Carly
How can you be so sure?
Cause I do this chiz daily baby take a deep breath kid
She dialed his number since I was shaking so much taking a deep breath like she sighed heading to the brick wall.
I kept a close eye on the doors I was sure that someone was going to come through these doors at any moment and throw us into the Principal's office. We were under a canopy at the side of the school,a few kids were around mostly just hanging out a few kids were making out Sam was talking to two kids Terrell Jackson and Shankia Renee King seniors as well .. I waited as the phone rung pick up TJ. I prayed please Pick up..I tapped my foot impatiently glancing every so often at the school.
Hello?
TJ Thank God!
Carly Baby girl I am so glad to hear your voice how are you calling?
Phone duh..Silly
Your too cute Carls
Sam lent me her phone
Aw somehow I knew she was behind this
Aren't you suppose to be in class?
Were skipping
Carly!
What TJ I had to I had to talk to you I was so worried what did Spencer say to you?
He laughed
Aw Carls your too cute baby girl relax I'm still standing he's just worried like any big brother he's cool girl he loves you he just told me to keep my hands off of you to respect you ..
Well he needs to mind his own business cause I like when your hands were on me..
Whew baby girl has some spark
When can I see you again?
Right now is good for me but I don't want you skipping classes Education is important stay in school
Crap when can we meet?
After school Carls?
No good I'm grounded he'll be watching
How long?
Two weeks it's jank man
Yea that sucks but you have to obey what he tells you he is your guardian
Why's he gotten so mean all of a sudden?
He's just looking out for you
Don't groan Carls two weeks it's not as long as you think will make it
I don't know if I will TJ
Will video chat Carls
He took my computer
You got your pear pod?
Yea
Use this app called Face Talk
Cool I'll have to try it out TJ thanks babe
Sure can't wait till I see your face again
Thanks TJ
For?
Being you
Well I can't be Fred Astaire so I gotta be me
Don't laugh Carls
Carly try to relax and focus on school there's just two weeks it'll pass by so fast between school homework dance choir and all of Sam's stuff then will go on a real date I promise
Yay I can't wait!
Thanks TJ I feel better
Take care baby girl
I will you to
My heart felt it would break in half as I heard the click .
Relax baby girl I'll help you through..
Sam threw her arms around my shoulders I turned to her and started crying she held me rubbing my back .
I miss him already
I know you do I'm sure he misses you to sweetie but you'll see him soon enough..
Not soon enough Sam!
You know what I meant
Sam held me for who knows how long till I calmed down enough.
How are we going to get back into class?
Come on Carls I'll teach you a lesson or two
Somehow I don't think this is what parents mean when they say go to school to learn
She laughed we found who she was looking for Rip off Rodney.
Puckett what can I do ya for?
We need late slips
What will it cost ya?
She flashed him something I didn't want to look but he must of liked it cause he grinned they exchanged items. I closed my eyes she winked as I closed them.
The next few days passed by so slowly to me. Sam slept in all our classed so I spent every second copying notes for both of us.
Freddie seemed to want to talk to me he kept looking over at us but I refused to even look at him . Kids kept asking about iCarly but I couldn't tell them anything new.
Every night at her therapy session I used her cell to talk to TJ and we talked through the whole session expect Friday. That was killing me all day Sam even faked being ill in class so I could sneak off but I chocked and chickened out, So she pretended to faint and I had to react.
Mrs. Buttburn freaked out big time but I got Sam to wake up and convinced her to let me take Sam to the nurse. Sam had a ball making the Rn get Popsicle's water, juice lemon ice a basin to puke in when she ate all that crap. As she was doing all of this I called TJ.
Thanks Sam I owe you
Yea you owe my stomach and my bladder it won't be the same
We giggled
How's lover boy anyway ?
I blushed hitting her.
Were not ..I mean don't call him that ..we haven't ..
What Carls say it ..
She poked me I shock my head biting my lower lip hanging my head my checks were blazing.
You haven't what?
You know
No I'm stupid at least that's what grownups say so explain it to me
Sam stop your not stupid!
We haven't mad love okay you happy?
Good Yes I am
Well I'm not
I pouted she hugged me laughing
Your too cute when you pout Carly Girl
Stop Sam your too much
My face fell into her hair which smelled amazing , my heart overflowed with love and gratitude for her at that moment.
I'm lucky to have you Sam thanks
Well duh Carly Girl and your welcome I'm the lucky one..