So the next chapter is the last one! I can't believe this will be over soon, i'm not sure how long this one will be but I apologise if its to short! Again thank you for reading and leave a review! It means a lot to me! :) i thought i would be kind and double update you (early too) so you get this chapter and the last!
Stile's pov
Two months later.
I look from left to right as i stand by Lydias locker at college. We still haven't really got back together, i guess thats what it is, but she's definitely getting better, shes replying to my texts now, sometimes she might let me come around hers, or she comes around mine. But around a month ago she came around, and we spoke then we started kissing, i wanted to stop it, but it had been so damn long since i had tasted those lips of hers. Then she started crying, proper baby crying, so we spoke some more, she told me everything, about how her mother left her 2 million, how she doesn't intend to be part of her dads life in a months time, she told me she could hear her mother. That freaked me out, only for a brief second before she told me it comforted her.
I slip in a letter through the slanted vents, it only reads, I won't give up on us, just a reminder that i still love her, that i still want there to be an us. And after numerous arguments i actually understand what She means by the fact she doesn't want to me to get hurt, because i thought about it, if it were her, or if it were Scott, or my dad. Maybe i would do the same.
Exams are finally over, but it's a long three weeks for the results, i tried my best to study Although I was used to studying with Lydia, how she used to explain things to me so easily, how long hard words poped out of her mouth so fluently that it made me understand work again. But without her strawberry blonde hair at the edges of my vision, or her steady heartbeat that lets me focus or her bright voice it was harder to study. However i did manage it, no matter how long it took to sink in.
I walk off to my lesson and take my seat, there isn't much point in listening now, all we ever do is go over the things we've already learnt. Jacksons head bobs up and down as he scribbles notes down. I don't see the point though. Issac went back to france, only to finish off college there though, he's going to Birmingham just like the rest of the pack, we were all so happy when he told us, i think i even saw happiness in Lydias eyes too.
At lunch, Kira, Scott and Lydia are sat at the same table, Lydia has her head down, working, a frown on her face. Her collar bones sticking out as they do now. I try to make her eat, but she doesn't want it, she says it makes her sick. I guess it's a grieving thing. I haven't missed how she often tucks her top in as it falls out due to the bagginess of it, her wrists are small, they've always been small but now i can wrap a hand around it. It's definitely not right, but as often as i can, or as often as she'll let me i will try to make her lunch, or make her snack on something, even if it is a fruit salad. Today i bought a chicken mayonase sandwhich, i know she likes them, i'm hoping i can give her some, i know Kira has been trying to help her eat more, but Kira is too soft with her, she gives in when Lydia says no thanks.
And Scott, Scott is doing well, he thinks he aced his exams, but the issue between his mum and my dad hasn't resolved. After they had that night together they haven't spoke, i know my dad calls her a lot, to make sure shes okay but the conversations last for about two minutes. But they'll get there eventually. Me and Scott are working on it.
"Hey," i say siting down, next to Lydia, she doesn't look up when i join them, but Kira and Scott greet me, "Man i'm so hungry"
"Is that a chicken mayo? YOUR dads chicken mayo?" Scott exclaims, I don't know whether he does this intentionally or not, but it gets Lydias attention either way.
"Mhmm" i say nodding, setting it out. Lydia looks at it, dropping her pen. I found this out now, you don't offer it to her you wait until she asks.
"Can i have a bite?" She says as i finish the first half, i nod and gesture to the food. She picks it up and takes a massive bite. I watch her, trying to fight off the smirk from my face. My plan worked. She places it back down as she mumbles ,"Thanks"
"Are you sure? You can have the rest of it, i'm kinda full" i say shrugging. It stays on the table for ten minutes before she picks it up and starts shoving it down her throat. At least i can assure shes had one meal today. Her dad doesn't seem to care shes turning anorexic. As lunch goes by, i notice something in Lydias chemistry book. A note, my note. I smile a little. We may be becoming closer, however small the steps.
Because the truth is i miss Lydia, i really do. I knew this process was not going to be easy but I didn't realise she would grow this distant, but i understand her reasons.
"Anyone got a free?" I ask the table, Jackson came to join us with his hirlfriend Mia, who he actually seems to become a little bit better of a person. I'm still happy he's not going to university though. Everyone, except Lydia shakes there head. She carries on working, like shes in her own world. She probably is. She does this a lot, i think her head helps her escape her reality. And ever since her eyes turned black shes been trying to master controlling it. Shes almost there.
"Lyds?" I ask, she looks up her eyes wide and focused, she raises an eyebrow in question, "Do you have a free?"
"yeah," she says, nodding then she goes back to her work. She tends to stay right until the end of college. Even if she can go home, I don't think she likes being in that house, knowing her mother was there...
When its time for peoples lessons, she puts her pen down.
"Wanderlust" she blurts out, i look at her, there seems to be a smile playing on her lips.
"Wander what?" I ask, she turns her body so shes facing me, a flicker of excitement in her emerald eyes.
"Wanderlust, it's the desire to travel, explore the world" She says, her eyes are lit up.
"You wanna see the world?" I confirm, she nods.
"So bad, i wanna get out of this place, all this death, i wanna go somewhere exotic, and i wanna appreciate nature, and i wanna lie on the bech and i wanna sit in a crappy hotel room, as long as i'm out of here," She says, her eyes drifting somewhere else.
"Well, maybe after university you can do that, you can see everything" i say, playing along in her fantasy.
"Yeah, and i can go hiking, and try to learn some other laungages," She continues.
"And you can go scubba diving, like you always wanted" I chime in, I don't want to wash out that fire of hope in her eyes.
"And we can go swimming with the dolphins!" She says, holding onto my arm, she said we.
"Of course you can do that," i say smiling, "and you can visit what was the Berlin wall, you have always wanted to see that"
"Yeah," she says nodding, then we stay like that for a while, staring at each other, then Lydia turns around in her seat, suddenly looking grim.
"Hey, hey look at me," i say gently, "whats wrong?"
"I wanna do all those things with you, Stiles, i wanna see the world with you" She says her bottom lip trembling, a surge of warmth and love runs through me for the girl. Shes so lost and low on love at the moment. I pull her into a hug and for the first time in, well... For a while now, she hugs me back, really tight with her hands digging into my back. We stay like it for a while. I don't ever want to let go.