Forbidden Love
I sat on the couch at Bobby's with a book on my lap but I wasn't reading it as Sam and Dean sit at the table.
"Well, you know what, at least you tried." Sam says to me
"Yeah, fat lot of good it did. Why did he even come, right?" I asked and Sam shrugged then I slammed the book shut, "Well, Samuel's journals are pointless. I mean, I'm sorry, but uh, Jebediah Campbell has squat to tell me about how to stop Cas from cracking Purgatory." I pointed out and Bobby walks in, carrying a large envelope.
"Well actually, it's not about the journals we have, it's about the one we don't."
"Meaning what?" Sam asked him
"Well, that's the bad news. Our pal Cas didn't stop in last night just to mend fences."
"What did he do?" Dean asked
"Stole something."
"What?" I ask
"The journal of one Moishe Campbell."
"Moishe?" Sam asked him
"Of the New York Campbells."
"Well, uh, so we gotta get it back, right?" Sam asked
"Yeah cause Cas will hand that right over." I said getting up and poured some scotch into my glass then sat back down as Bobby held up the envelope handing it to Sam
"Or just read the copy I'd already made." He says and I looked at him, "Hi, glad to meet you. Bobby Singer. Paranoid bastard."
"I think I zeroed in on something." Bobby tells us reading from the journal and I took a drink of my scotch
"What do you got?" I asked and Bobby hands me the page.
"Went to talk to Howard Phillips about the events of March 10th." I read out loud
"That's March 10th, 1937." Bobby pointed out
"Alright. So who's this Phillips guy?" Dean asked
"Phillips ain't his last name. It's Lovecraft." Bobby said and both me and Sam looked at him
"Wait, H.P. Lovecraft?" Sam asked and Bobby nods, "Let me see that." Sam tells me and I hand him the paper
"Am I supposed to know who that is?" Dean asked and I looked at him
"Horror writer. At the Mountains Of Madness, The Call of Cthulu?" I asked him
"Yeah, it's - no, I'm - I was too busy having sex with women."
"Gross." I said
"Well, anyhow. There's one notion that comes up over and over again in his stories. Namely opening doors to other dimensions and letting scary crap through." Bobby tells us
"You don't say." Dean says
"Wait, so you're saying you think Lovecraft knew something about Purgatory?" Sam asked
"All I know is Moishe paid him a visit."
As we all sat in the study Dean's phone rings and he answered, "Ben?" He says and I look at him, "What?" He asked and there was a pause, "What are they?" He asked, "Did you see their eyes? Teeth?" He asked and I looked at Sam then back at Dean, "This is important Ben, I need to know." He tells him and paused, "Okay, where are you now? Can you get to your mom's closet? I left a shotgun in there." He said, "Okay, Ben, listen to me. Go to your window and jump. Any bones you break won't compare to what they're gonna do to you, Ben. You've got to jump." He told him and looked at me, "I'm coming right now. I'm coming to get you and your mom, I promise. You with me, Ben? Ben? Ben?" He asked and took the phone away then quickly put it back to his ear then stood up, "Crowley, let 'em go now or I swear..." He says and my blood begins to boil, "I am going to kill you." He tells him then paused, "I'm telling you, last chance to let 'em go easy." He said then took the phone away
"What's the story?" Bobby asked him
"He said Lisa and Ben keep breathing as long as we sit on our thumbs."
"You think Cas knows about this?" Sam asked
"We gotta assume he does." I pointed out
"So what are we gonna do?" Sam asked
"I'll tell you what we're not gonna do: sit here. I'm going after 'em."
"I'm coming with." I tell him
"No Lexi. You, Sam and Bobby stay on the Lovecraft thing, okay? Cas is already way ahead of us."
"You gotta be nuts if you think I'm gonna let you do this alone. Bobby and Sam can take care of the case." I said
"No, guys." Bobby says standing up
"Bobby, this is a big ball, okay? We can't drop it now." Dean told him
"Fine. But how are you two gonna find Lisa and Ben?" Bobby asked and I thought about it and sighed
"I have an idea, but me and Dean can do this. Sam you stay with Bobby, you know more about Lovecraft then I do and I'm not leaving Dean without back up." I tell them and Sam sighed then nodded and I looked at Dean.
Sam and Bobby drive off then me and Dean summoned Balthazar who appears with a drink in his hand and looked at us, "I'm sorry, do I look like a man-servant to you? No? No? Then quit ringing for me, please."
"This is important, Balthazar." Dean told him
"I was drinking '75 Dom out of a soprano's navel when you called. That was important."
"Crowley's alive." I tell him and he looked at me
"Well you've been scooped. Cas already told me."
"Well did Cas tell you that he is Crowley's butt-buddy, you smug little dick?" Dean asked him
"Excuse me?"
"Handshake deal. Go halfsies on all the souls of Purgatory. He fill you in on that?" I asked him
"Well, yes, yes. Yes, of course he did. Yes." He said but I could tell he was lying
"Oh, yes, of course. we can read it all over your face." I point out
"Look, Crowley and Cas took two people who are very important to me." Dean tells him
"And I care about this because?"
"Because maybe there is a shred of decency underneath this - this snarky crap. They're innocent people and I'm asking for your help." Dean said
"Hmmm. I see. Fair enough." Balthazar says then disappears.
"Son of a bitch!" I said then looked down
"Let's just call Cas. Maybe he doesn't know anything about this." Dean tells me and I looked at him
"We are not calling Cas."
"Yeah, but Lexi..." He started to say
"We're not calling Cas!"
"So what then?" He asked me and I sighed.
"Lovecraft tried to jimmy a damn dimensional door. Idjit." Bobby tells me over the phone
"So what happened?" I asked him
"Well, nothing much. Except, we dug, and every guest invited to the hoedown, dead or disappeared inside a year."
"Wow, um, so where are you off to now?" I asked
"Have a chat with one of the guests."
"Wait, didn't you just say that everyone there died?" I ask
"Yeah, everybody Lovecraft invited died. Seems the maid had a nine year old boy. He was there."
"So, he'd be what, 83 years old now? Where is he?" I asked
"Same place he's been ever since the big night. Locked in a mental ward." He tells me and I hear fighting the the garage behind me
"I see, um... Well, keep me posted, huh?" I tell him
"Okay, stay in touch. How's things going there? You got a lead on Lisa and Ben?"
"Well, um, we're making a few inquiries. Slow going." I mentioned
"How's Dean?"
"About how you'd expect." I tell him and looked back at the garage
"Dean." I said walking into the garage as he takes a drink of whiskey
"Yeah?"
"Look. You - you're running on what, uh, whisky and - and coffee and whatever else you're taking." I point out to him
"Yeah, and?"
"And we're grasping at straws here, man." I tell him
"Look, I kill enough of these demons, eventually one of 'em's gonna tell me where Crowley is. So we good?"
"Well look, you've been at it for a while, why don't you at least let me take over? You deserve a break." I said
"No thanks." He says and walked forward but I grabbed his arm
"Dean."
"Lexi, back off. Lisa and Ben, wherever they are, that is a hundred percent on me. And if they are hurt..." He says and paused, "I'll yell if I need you." He tells me and I walked outside and sighed closing my eyes.
"I know I'm gonna regret this." I said to myself and cleared my throat, "Cas, it's um..it's me. Um, so look, I don't know if you're in on this whole Ben and Lisa thing, but if you have any heart whatsoever, or if you some how care for me at all, bring 'em back to us. Please. I'm begging you. I am begging you, do you understand?" I asked then looked around but nothing, "I guess I have my answer I said and walked away.
Cas POV...
I stood there hiding from Alexis as she prayed to me, she prayed to me. I don't know if that means anything or not so I stayed hidden. It took everything I had to not show myself to her, seeing her so broken it...it hurt me. I left and went back to the lab where Crowley was and he looked at me, "Sweetie. You look tense."
"You took Ben and Lisa."
"Oh. That." He says and walked over to the exam table.
"I told you -"
"Not to touch Sam, Alexis and Dean. And I've respected that. I'm merely exploiting the obvious loophole. As long as I have the woman and boy, your fop-coiffed little heroes will be scouring the earth for them, therefore not you, and not me. Everybody wins." He told me
"You should've talked to me first."
"I'd rather ask forgiveness than permission." He says
"Where are they, Crowley?" I asked him and he makes a motion of zipping his lips and putting the key in his coat pocket, "You are not to harm them, do you understand me?"
"You know what? You're all maxed out on putting humans out of bounds. I'll do with them as I please. Want to stop me? Go find freaking Purgatory!" He said and I hear someone talking in my head, "Call on the bat-phone? Never call during business hours, do they?"
"I'll be back." I tell him and left only to arrive in a forest and I saw Nalthazar standing there
"Cas, Cas, Cas. So good of you to come."
"Balthazar. Why'd you summon me here?" I asked him
"Can I ask you a direct question?" He asked me
"Of course."
"Are you in figrante with the King of Hades?" He asked and I looked at him How could he know?
"Of course not." I lied and he laughed
"Always were such a terrible liar. So it's true. Alright then, why?"
"It's a means to an end. Balthazar, you understand that" I tell him
"Oh, absolutely. But what's the end here exactly? You know, raid Purgatory, snatch up all the souls?"
"Win the war." I mention
"And I can only assume that you'd be the vessel, correct? Suck up all those souls into yourself? All that power?"
"It's the only way." I said
"Or too much juice for you, in which case you explode, taking a substantial chunk of the planet along with you."
"That won't happen." I told him
"Sure, sure. Of course. Just - just tell me that it's entirely risk-free."
"I'm sorry that I didn't tell you, but I need to know. Are you with me or not?" I asked him
"Ah. You know, you may be certifiable, but fine. In for a penny, in for a pound."
"How'd you hear about this anyway?" I asked
"Oh, your howler monkeys of course. See they're just a touch worked up about that kidnapping business, you know?"
I appear where Dean was just in enough time to see a demon pinning him against a van choking him so I put my hand on the demons head and smited him then Dean looked at me, "I didn't ask for your help." He said catching his breath
"Well, regardless, you're welcome."
"Why are you here?" He asked me as he walked past.
"I had no idea Crowley would take Lisa and Ben."
"Yeah right." He says picking up the broken strap
"You don't believe me."
"I don't believe a word that's coming out of your mouth." He told me
"I thought you said that we were like family. Well I think that too. Shouldn't trust run both ways?"
"Cas, I just can't..." He began to say
"Dean, I do everything that you ask. I always come when you call, and I am your friend. Still, despite your lack of faith in me, and now your threats, I just saved you, yet again. Has anyone but your closest kin ever done more for you?" I asked him and he looked at me, "All I ask is this one thing."
"Trust your plan to pop Purgatory?"
"I've earned that, Dean." I tell him and he scoffed, "I came to tell you that I will find Lisa and Ben, and I will bring them back. Stand behind me, the one time I ask."
"You're asking me to stand down?"
"Dean.." I began to say
"That's the same damn ransom note that Crowley handed me. You know that, right? Well no thanks. I'll find 'em myself. In fact, why don't you go back to Crowley and tell him that I said you can both kiss my ass." He said to me and walked away and I left.
Lexi POV...
I sighed and walked into the kitchen and poured myself a drink then took a sip, "Drinking your feelings, Lexi?" I heard someone ask and I turned to see Balthazar standing there, "I thought that was your brother's bag."
"Stressful times." I tell him
"Well, we need to talk."
"Why?" I asked
"Because - I know I'm gonna live to regret this - but I'm officially on your team. You bastards."
"And we should believe you why?" I heard Dean ask as he walked in
"Would you believe I had a shred of decency?"
"No." I tell him
"Oh. That hurts. Okay, you're right. It's survival. You see, I asked Cas some questions and I disliked his answers. He seems awfully sure of himself for a man who wants to swallow a million nuclear reactors. I mean, these things can get a bit Chernobyl, you know? So, voilà. Consider me your double agent. Oh, and I took the liberty of searching for your friends. Uh, took a while. Crowley's a clever one."
"You found them?" Dean asked him
"Well, the upside is yes, uh, the downside is no, I can't get them for you."
"Why not?" I asked
"Because Crowley's angel-proofed the whole bloody building. I guess he doesn't trust Cas. Seems that marriage is going swimmingly."
"Okay, well get us as close as you can." Dean told him
"Sure. But then you're on your own." Balthazar said and teleports us outside a building, "Alright, boys. This is where I get off. God be with you and what have you." He says and leaves then we move forward. A demon exits the building and Dean stabs him in the chest with Ruby's knife then pushes the body over the gate to me and I leave the body on the ground then enter the building. I'm carrying a shotgun while Dean is carrying Ruby's knife and a duffel bag containing other weapons.
"Alright, be careful." Dean tells me and we split up. Dean walks down some stairs while I go around a corner, shotgun aimed. I hear a noise and turned around. seeing nothing then faced forward again but a demon jumps down and knocks me unconscious.
Dean POV...
I start to fight the demon that was outside the door and killed him followed by the other ones that came out then kicked one through the door and struggled with the other until I killed him and kicked him over the banister in the room I saw Lisa and Ben in. I pulled the knife from the demon and went over to them, "Oh, Dean. Thank God." Lisa says to me as I cut the rope around her hands
"Still gotta get you out of here." I said and cut Ben's hands free, "Okay. Okay. Alright, Ben, c'mon, let's go. Let's go." I tell him when suddenly Lisa grabs him and my knife holding it to his neck
"Brat's not going anywhere. And neither am I." She said and her eyes go black and I feel my heart sink, "Crowley thought you might come, so he had me jump this hot little piece of ass for insurance. Can't go losing our leverage now, can we?" He asked and I moved forward, "Ah. Another step. Free appendectomy." She says and I stopped, "You know she's awake in here, your mom. I can hear her thinking." She tells Ben
"Don't listen to her, Ben." I tell him and he looked at me
"What? I was just gonna him that you're his real daddy." She tells me and I looked at her as she laughed
"Just kidding. Who knows who your real dad is, kid? Your mom's a slut."
"You shut your mouth." I warned her
"Oh what, you're her white knight now? She wishes she never met you, Dean. You're the worst mistake she ever made. Second worst, after keeping you." She says to Ben
"It's not your mom, Ben. She's lying."
"Says the C-minus lay with 10 miles of daddy issues. Whatever gets you through the night, Tiny Tim." She said and I moved forward again, "Uh uh. Back off, cowboy. You know she's begging me to kill you. She says you hold her back. Never had a lick of fun since you were born." She tells Ben and I take a flask of holy water out without her knowing.
"Ben, look at me. Look at me. You're gonna be just fine." I tell him as he looked at me then I throw the holy water at her face and she screams and lets go of Ben, "Go!" I tell him and he runs past me as the demon goes for me with the knife but I pushed her against the wall and she drops the knife, I kicked it away, "Ben, knife!" I tell him and he picked it up.
"What's the matter, Dean? Hit me! Oh, you don't wanna hurt poor Lisa." She says and laughed
"Exorcizamus te, omnis immundus spiritus.." I started to chant then she punched me in the face
"Shut your mouth."
"Omnis satanica potestas, omnis incursio infernalis adversarii, omnis congregatio et secta diabolica, " I continued and she struggled to breath, "ergo draco maledicte," She grabbed me by the throat, "Ecclesiam.."
"Stop it." She says
"Tuam.."
"I'm warning you." She tells me
"You can go to hell, you black-eyed bitch." I said and she grabs a straight razor from a table then lets me go and steps away as I catch my breath
"You sure about that?" She asked me then stabbed herself
"Mom!" Ben yelled and the demon laughed.
"Exorcise me now. She's just a dead meatsuit. Now what was it you wanted to say?" She asked me and I looked at Ben then back at her
"Securi tibi facias libertate," I continue to chant and she starts to bleed from the mouth, "servire te rogamus, audi nos." I finished and Lisa screams as the demon is expelled from her body then she falls to the ground.
"Mom!"
"Lisa!" Me and Ben yelled and rushed to her side, "Lisa. Here, put pressure on that, okay?" I tell her giving her a cloth and put her hand over it groaning in pain, "I know, honey, I know." I said and pulled out my phone dialing Lexi's number, "That's it, it's okay."
"This is Lexi, leave a message."
"Lexi where are you, dammit?!" I asked and hun up, "Alright, Ben, we gotta get her out of here, okay? Ben. Ben?" I asked him but he was frozen with fear, "Ben." I said again and slapped him, "Hey! Listen to me, I need you to pull it together, okay? You gotta be strong. Your mom needs you right now. Go open that duffel bag, grab the salt gun. I gotta carry your mom out so if anything comes at us, you shoot it."
"But -"
"Go, now!" I tell him and Ben gets the gun as I pick Lisa up and she groans, "Okay. The knife. Get the knife." I said and we make our way out the room walking slow but quickly, "Alright, Ben. Keep your elbow in, gun tight to your shoulder and watch for the kick," I and a demon came towards us, "Ben!" I yell and he shoots it then stands there, "Ben? Ben!"
"Dean -"
"Come on, pull it together, do you want your mom to die? Let's go." I said and we walk a little faster and he shoots a couple more then we hear pounding.
"Dean!" I hear Lexi yell from behind the door
"Lexi?"
"I'm in here!" She tells me and I gently put Lisa down and shot the lock off the door then Lexi comes out.
"Come on, we gotta get to a hospital. Ben, give the gun to her. Lexi, we need a ride." I said and Ben handed her the gun and we leave the building. Lexi went ahead of us and drove up in a car, I get Lisa in the back as Ben climbed up front, "Go, go, go, go." I tell her and she takes off, I look at the blood on my hand as Ben looked back at us, "She's fine, Ben. She's fine. She's gonna be just fine. Almost there." I reassured him and looked at Lisa, "Hey, hey. Stay with me. Lexi, you gotta go faster!" I said and she speeds up more, "You're gonna be fine. You're gonna be just fine." I tell Lisa as my heart raced.
Lisa is lying unconscious in her hospital bed hooked up to several breathing tubes and monitors. Me and Ben sit on either side of the bed and I looked at him, "Ben, I'm sorry." I say to him but he gets up and leaves, "Ben." I said and I see Cas standing there, "What do you want?" I asked him
"Dean, listen..."
"What do you want me to say? She'll be dead by midnight." I point out to him
"I'm sorry."
"I don't care. It's too little, too late." I tell him
"Okay. Well, regardless, I didn't come for you."
"Meaning?" I asked him and he walks over to Lisa placing his hand on her forehead, healing her
"She's fine now. She'll wake soon. Dean, I said I'm sorry and I meant it."
"Thank you. I wish this changed anything." I say to him
"I know. So do I. All else aside, I just wanted to fix what I could." He tells me and starts to walk away
"There's one more thing you could do for me." I say to him and he looked at me.
"Hi." I said to Lisa and Ben and they looked at me confused.
"Who're you?" Ben asked me
"I..I'm Dean. Uh, I'm the guy who hit you."
"Oh." Lisa says and I looked at her
"I just, uh, I lost control for a minute, and I just wanted to say that I'm sorry. I'm real happy you two are both okay. And uh, I'm just - I'm glad your life can get back to normal now."
"We're okay, so - so that's what's important, right?" Lisa asked looking at Ben
"Yeah. Anyway, uh, I'll leave you two alone. You take care of your mom." I said to Ben and walked away.
Lexi POV...
I sat in the car looking at the hospital when I hear a fluttering sound, "Alexis." I heard Cas say and I sighed closing my eyes but I didn't look at him.
"What do you want?" I asked him looking at the hospital still
"I just...I wanted to say, that I'm.."
"What? Sorry?" I asked and looked at him, "Sorry for what Cas? Lying to us? Betraying us? Causing Lisa and Ben to get hurt in the process?"
"I fixed them."
"So what? You think that's gonna make everything better?" I asked him and he looked at me, it took everything in me not to forgive him because I...I had to fight it.
"Alexis I didn't...out of all of you, the person I regret hurting the most is you." He tells me and I looked at him trying to fight the tears, Damn it why does he have to make this so hard?
"Well you did Cas, and now I don't even know what to do, or say for that matter." I said and looked back at the hospital seeing Dean walk towards the car and Cas disappeared then Dean gets in, "Well?" I asked him
"Well nothing."
"Dean, you know, you've pulled some shady crap before, but this has got to be the worst. Whitewashing their memories?" I asked and he looked at me
"If you or Sam ever mention Lisa and Ben to me again, I will break both your guys nose." He told me and I looked at him in shock
"Dean."
"I'm not kidding." He said and I looked at him seeing the tears in his eyes, so I nod shutting my mouth and he drives off.