Later on Jax and Valerie went back to St. Matt's with Fiona and Kerrianne. The siblings wanted to talk to Kallen and find out what happened with Abel. Their nephew/son. Little did they know they had a shock coming their way.
"Come on in you two. We have some things to discuss. Valerie someone wants to see you. Jax you are with me." said Kellan.
"I think my sister should stay with me. She doesn't have her fiance or the club to protect her." said Jax.
"I will be fine. Fiona says this is a bloody fortress so I feel safe enough. Plus I have my gun." said Valerie. Jax didn't like it, but he didn't argue. He wanted to get down to business about his son.
"Valerie Christine?" turning around she swore she saw a ghost. Staring her right in the eyes was a person who could be her father. Was he her father? Only her mom, Jax, and Happy, and her dad knew what Valerie's middle name was.
"Dad, is that you?"
"I want to know where my son is." said Jax.
"He's safe for the moment, but we have bigger issues. The army needs proof that Jimmy has gone rogue and that he is more about himself and the amount of money he makes than the cause. The kings need proof, and if you get it for me I promise you that Abel will be in the arms of his loving family. There is something else I need to talk to you about. Valerie." Kellan said."
"What about her?" Jax asked.
"She's vulnerable. She has a good heart and she is very trusting and she is a very giving person. The wrong person would take advantage of that and use her. Listen your father said that he didn't want his sons in the club. Though Valerie on the other hand needs the club for her protection. Problem is I don't believe that her father's club is it, and if she isn't careful she'll end up getting hurt." said Kellan.
"What do you mean?" Jax asked.
"We'll talk about that later. For now you need to get proof that Jimmy has gone rogue." said Kellan.
"Yes Val it's me." said John Teller.
"But how? I was at your death bed and you told me that you had many regrets, and that you didn't want me in this life, and that your daughters were not regrets. Just miracles that happened despite mistakes. Then it looked like that you flatlined." said Valerie.
"No it was a computer, and good acting. I faked my death and came here to Belfast, and sort of hid out in the rectory helping out Moureen's brother, and trying to keep the fires Clay keeps starting from getting out of control. No one but you, Kellan, his right hand, and Moureen know that I'm alive. Also I don't want to let another secret out. It will crush someone who is dear to me. Gemma already knows about me and Moureen, but she doesn't know about our daughter Trinity just yet, and finally my youngest daughter. I betrayed Fillip Telford and well he can't father children, but he doesn't know it. If I told him the truth it would crush him. Jimmy already took his wife from him and if he finds out that Kerrianne isn't his it would crush him." said John.
"Yea well mom married that selfish bastard Clay not long after you were so called buried. I moved out as soon as I turned eighteen. You want to know why I got my own place as soon as I could? Ever since I was either thirteen or fourteen Clay would sexually abuse me, and he told me that once I turned eighteen he was going to fuck me and make sure he was my first. I've had issues ever since. It's really hard for me to be around males, and I don't like it when I'm touched by someone I barely know and don't trust." said Valerie.
"That piece of shit! Stupid mother fucker! Baby I'm so so sorry for all you went through. How are you doing now? I see that you have a ring on your finger." said John.
"I met him when I went away to College. Washington State Collage in Tacoma. His dorm was two dorms down from mine, and well we sort of hit it off. He was my first everything. He doesn't know about my past of being abused. I have no idea how to even broach that subject. The only people that know are my fiance's sister and brother in law, Jax's best friend Opie, and my friends Tara, Jax's Old' Lady, Candy, and Lyla. Fuck dad come home! I need you. My dream was to have you walk me down the isle at my wedding, and now that you are alive, please come back to California with us!" Valerie begged.
"I'm sorry, but I can't. Please don't tell anyone that I'm alive." said John as he left the room. Valerie put her head in her hands and cried. She begged her dad to come home when she found out the truth. She told him her darkest secret, and then begged him to be there to walked her down the isle, but he didn't.
Walking out she met Jax. "How was your meeting?" he asked her.
"Another dissappointment adding on to many in my life. I need a drink." said Valerie.
"Lets head back to SAMBEL" said Jax putting an arm around his little sister while struggling with what was asked of him to do. First sniff out a rat and then get Abel, and finally head home. Oh nobody, except the club, knew his play on Stahl.
The night before was pretty eventful if you counted you, Moureen, and your mom walking in on your old brother Jax coming dangerously close to Tig territory. Moureen explained to Trinity, but didn't tell her that he was still alive and in hiding and Valerie and Gemma explained to Jax, and Valerie said that John told her on his death bed. That was the truth, and as much as she was hurting she respected his wishes. Mamma's boys verses daddy's girl.
"You get what you need Jackson and bring Abel back to us!" said Valerie. She was staying at Moureen's while the guys went to find Jimmy and figure out if O'Niel was working for him or not and to find out all the rats.
"Are you okay baby?" Gemma asked her youngest.
"I've just been feeling a bit off. It's probably the jetlag still kicking my ass." said Valerie.
Later on Jax came back, and explained that McGee, and, O'Niell were rats working for Jimmy and Jimmy was the one that went rogue. Now the Kings wanted Jax to kill Jimmy in return for the Son's getting their entire arsonal for distribution and selling. Problem Jax needed to get Jimmy to Stahl alive and he had no idea how he was going to do that.
"Look mom," Jax tried to explain. "We are not all innocent. The reason that Abel was kidnapped is because we deal arms for the IRA, and that's what put us in this boat. We are not the victums here." he added.
"I don't know where this shit is coming from, but you bottle all that rage up into killing everyone you have to to get to your son." said Gemma.
"Mom dad saw this shit coming and he wanted out. He didn't want to sell guns." said Jax.
"CAN WE NOT FUCKING DO THIS!" Valerie exploded. "Lets get Abel back home and then decide where you want the club to go and then work it out at the table!"
"What do you mean by that? What you want our club out of guns?" Gemma asked her youngest.
"It's not OUR CLUB! Let Jax, shithead Clay, and the other club MEMBERS work it out. Don't forget your place Gemma. You are just an Old Lady!" Neither Teller sibling expected what came next as Gemma hauled off and backhanding her youngest as hard as she could causing her to fall into the coffee table brusing her ribs.
"Shit Val. I'm so sorry." said Gemma.
"Shut up! I love you so much mom, but you are constantly hurting me in some way. Why do you think I spend most of my time in Bakersfield or Oakland? Why do you think I spend all my time with Happy's mom, aunt, and sister? FUCK! Jax lets go see the priest!" said Valerie. She was hoping to see her father again and beg once again to come home.
Valerie was unable to see John again so she decided to take a nap with Kerrianne in her room while Jax spoke with Kellan.
"Where is my son. I got you want you wanted and now I want my son." said Jax.
"Son listen to me. Your father never wanted this life for you. I was unable to save you, and Valerie needs the club for protection. Though I was able to save my niece, and the grandson." said Kellan speaking of Trinity and Abel.
"What are you talking about?" asked Jax.
"Abel is in the arms of a loving family. Jax listen." said Kellen.
"ADOPTION! YOU GAVE AWAY MY KID!" Jax exploded.
"You're telling me you want to subject him to this violence? This entire week has been violence. Give your son a chance." said Kellan.
"And Val? What about her? Shouldn't she get away from this violence also?" Jax asked.
"She is vulnerable without the club. Ironic isn't it. She needs it and you will be able to florish without it. Though I worry about Val. She is too soft for this life in some ways, and the man that she is to marry has a darkness inside of him. I worry that it wil carry over to her." said Kellan.
"No my sister's fiance would never hurt her. If anything she'd be the one who hurts him. I want the address where my son is!" said Jax.
Valerie was so tired that her brother had carried her all the way back to the flophouse, and that she slept through the afternoon. Waking up she heard her mom and Jax arguing. Walking into the kitchen she was surprised at the looks on their faces.
"What's going on?" Val asked.
"You tell her or I will." said Gemma.
"Just like I told mom I let Abel go. He is with a father who didn't torture and kill a man today." said Jax.
"I don't care if you have killed a thousand men. Abel is your son!" Gemma snapped.
"No he's not. Listen we are not supposed to be here. You, me, Val sort of, Abel. Dad didn't want this life for us, and I sure as shit don't want it for my son." said Jax.
"What's sort of, What? And what do you mean that we are not supposed to be here?" Valerie asked.
"What are you going to tell your other son then? What happned to his brother?" Gemma asked dropping another bomb.
"What?" Jax asked.
"Tara's pregnant!" said Gemma.
"And I might be! Fuck I just figured it out today, but they have no home tests here. Maybe it's just horrible jetlag, I don't know. I love you Jax, and I don't believe in letting others raise your kids. You love Abel. Make it right!" said Valerie.
"Get an abortion." Jax snapped Kellan's works ringing in his ears.
"What the fuck!" Valerie asked glaring at her brother wondering what the hell was up with him.
"Time out you two!" Gemma snapped.
"I'm tired of listening to a dead man. John didn't give a shit about this family at all!" Jax said as he stormed off. Moureen was in her bedroom listening to the conversation and crying as she was reading the love letters John sent to her when he was in Charming before the accident.
A/N: Hope you enjoy. I'm just building for future chapters. Lots of confessions. John is such a jerk! Enjoy!