A/N: Sorry it took me so long to get these chapters up! (Darn wedding planning cutting into my writing time :P) I hope you enjoy them! Reviews are super appreciated!
The Perfect Night
The night sky reflected on the water. Nessie and I sat on the driftwood on first beach. For a change, the night was clear, and we wanted to look at the stars. The waves reached out to the sand. We ate the Chinese food out of the cartons with chop sticks.
Nessie shivered, as the wind off the water blew onto shore.
"I'm so sorry, Ness," I said, as I realized how cold she must be. I never felt the cold, and forgot that others could. In the rush to leave the restaurant, we had forgotten Nessie's sweater. We both only remembered after she stepped out of my car and the delivery boy leaving the take-out place, fainted. Poor kid.
I started to unbutton my shirt and she stopped me.
"No, don't do that."
"It's ok. I don't even feel the cold."
She moved forward on the log and pat the space behind her. "You can just sit here and hold me like you use to, when I was small. That thin button up isn't going to keep me very warm anyway."
I sat behind her. Her back was pressed against my stomach. Her creamy skin was cool against mine. It was as though silk had graced my skin. My heart rate sped. It wasn't enough to just have her like this. I wanted so much more. My arms incircled her and slid my hands on her soft arms. A fire ignited inside me. She sighed and leaned her head on my chest. The scent of her hair, wafted past my nose. Light blue glowed on her skin in the moonlight. Would her skin be just as smooth on my lips as it was under my fingers? We sat as though we were a real couple. It felt like we were.
"The tide is rising," Nessie sighed. "Do you think the water will reach us?"
"No," I said. "It will slowly go back down. The water on first beach doesn't come up that far this time of the lunar cycle."
Nessie smiled and looked up at me with surprised eyes.
I laughed, "Don't you know how the tide works? I thought that maybe you would know, being educated by your entire family."
"Oddly enough, the subject has never been relevant to my education," she giggled lightly.
"It's actually very romantic," I smiled, thinking about how it amazingly related to the both of us.
"Oh, really?" she said doubtfully.
"Yes, it is," I began. "Tides are created because the Earth and the moon are attracted to each other, just like magnets are attracted to each other." I waited to see if she was paying attention. Her large brown eyes looked up at me. "Ya see, the moon tries to pull at anything on the Earth to bring it closer. But, the Earth is able to hold onto everything except the water. The water is always moving. So, the Earth can't hold onto it, and the moon is able to pull at it. Each day, there are two high tides and two low tides. The ocean is always moving from high tide to low tide, and then back again. Depending on the lunar cycle and if the sun is in line with the moon, the magnetic pull is stronger or weaker."
She was looking out at the water with serious concentration.
"I guess I find it romantic because I think of imprinting."
"How on Earth does it remind you of that?" Ness asked me with an inquisitive look.
"The moon is permanently attracted to the Earth, and the Moon always revolves around the Earth. The Earth gives the moon direction. Without the Earth the Moon would just be another drifting object in space. With imprinting, it's like our imprint is the permanent center for us. We completely revolve around them. But the imprint doesn't revolve around us even though there is a strong connection. When the tide reaches out to the moon, it's like our imprints loving us back, being attracted to us. We would do anything to have the Earth closer to us. But that attraction to the Moon will never be as strong as the Moon to the Earth. I see low tide as an imprint not wanting to have anything to do with that wolf. But the tide is always changing, just like feelings. Even in the case of Quil and Claire. One day there might be a strong attraction between them or Claire might not want to be with him. But her feelings can change. The moon however has no choice but to revolve and pull and hope for the Earth to come closer."
Nessie abruptly threw her carton on the floor and pushed away from me.
"I get it Jacob. Isn't it enough that I know how you feel about my mother? Why do you keep bringing it up? I understand. She is the center of your world. I get it. You will always pull and want, even though she doesn't return the feeling. You have already pushed me away tonight. No need to keep doing it. I got the hint."
Tears started streaking down her face as she started stomping up the sand.
What had I done? I was working up to telling her that she was my Earth. That I had no purpose without her. And she thought I was talking about Bella. How many times would I keep making her cry? I hated myself for it.
Jumping to my feet, I grabbed Nessie's arm. She tried shaking free of my grip. Her anger boiled over again. How could I keep hurting the one person in my life that meant the most to me?
"Ness listen to me-"
"Jacob, I love you. I love you so much, I can't think straight without you. To hear you talk about my own mother that way, and know you couldn't ever be in love with me, makes me sick inside. If only you would love me back. I'm so pathetic, I was even willing to be your second best. Jacob, whatever part of you I can have, I will take it, just to be close to you. But you keep pushing me away."
The elation consumed me completely. She loved me. All her life I had waited for this moment. And hearing her say it was even better than I had ever thought it would be.
"Ness," I said, breathless. "I never imprinted on Bella."
Her face gradually changed from the hard scowl she was giving me.
"Then who is it Jacob? Why do you keep taunting me, with all the guessing?"
"Ness, can't you tell?"
I pulled her close to me and she complied. I placed my hand on her back, on her bareback, nothing keeping me from touching her skin. My fingers brushed up her spine and I saw her close her eyes. A sigh escaped her lips. My other hand ran up her elbow and across her shoulder. My finger tips burned with eagerness to touch her more. I leaned in close. I felt her breath on my lips. Her eyes opened, looking deep into mine. Her heart beat like a drum. Her breath quickened. The temperature of her body rose, just as it had done before.
"I imprinted years ago, on the most beautiful creature I had ever laid eyes on." I brought my hand up her neck and touched the thick locks of her copper hair. "As soon as she was born and I looked into her chocolate brown eyes, I was forever bond, to only her. I would never love anyone else. And I have done nothing but love her and wait for her."
Her hands ran up my stomach over the shirt and to my chest. Her eyes closed as she continued to move her small hands to my shoulders. My heart beat fast. Her right hand moved to the back of my neck. Just like the magnetic force between the moon and the Earth, I needed to be closer to her. I leaned down to her slightly parted lips. I closed my eyes and finally pressed her soft, smooth, lips to mine. The feeling was better than electricity. My mind was swimming. Her lips moved eagerly. I kissed her back, greedy. Mine. The depths of my soul cried. Mine. I embraced her tighter so her small frame pressed against me. Both our mouths opened a little wider. She was breathing heavy. Slight sighing was escaping her mouth. Mine. A guttural moan emanated from my tongue touched mine. It was like liquid heat. Like a drug, it went straight to my brain. I was spinning, not knowing where I was, other than in ecstasy. Her small hands moved their way under my collar, and she touched my skin just under the collar enthusiastically. My cells came alive under her touch. My skin boiled as she touched me.
She was mine. Only mine. Flashes of pictures exploded in my mind of the things I wanted to do. I wanted to kiss her neck, her shoulders, her arms. I kissed under her jaw, and she gasped. Her skin was so much better under my lips than my fingers. More flashes of thoughts. I couldn't stop them.
I realized very suddenly that this wasn't just my mind. Those pictures were coming from Ness. She was having these thoughts. Did she know she was projecting her thoughts? More flashes of pictures that weren't my own. Me laughing and smiling at her on first beach. Us snuggling on my couch watching movies and eating pizza. Me getting on one knee holding up a diamond ring. Her in a white dress. Edward walking her down an isle. Me in a tux smiling back at her. I see us lying next to each other under a starry sky, surrounded by trees. We sit on a small porch in a house on the reservation. Small, dark, children run around the Cullen house, as Bella and Edward hold a toddler with pink ribbons. Emmett and Jasper chase three young boys with raven hair. Esme is cradling a dark haired baby girl as Rosalie and Alice coo sweet nothings to her.
Our kisses turned tenderer, slower. I didn't want her to stop showing me these wonderful things.
"Show me more, Nessie." I whispered between kisses.
Quickly she jumped back from me, casting her eyes down and blushing. I guess she hadn't known that she was projecting.
"What did you see?" Her eyes were enormous with worry.
"I saw the wedding that you wanted. I saw the house you thought we would live in. I saw the children you thought we would have. Do you really want five?"
She wrapped her arms around her and sunk in on herself, "I didn't mean to show you that. You probably think I'm some psycho girl, taking things too fast now."
"You are my Nessie," I said cautiously, going to her. "That was the last thing on my mind. I didn't want you to stop showing me all those wonderful things. I want to give you all of that and more, if you want me."
She looked as though her ears were playing tricks on her, and those words just didn't come out of my mouth. I kissed her again. She smiled, kissing me back. This time there were no pictures just the tidal waves of her joy.
