Hello everyone. Just a small little announcememt of my brief disappearance.

Things are taking a big shift in my life (for the better, so no worries), but I have now been engaged by my partner, whom is a very supportive and sweet guy. I'm going to be using the new year to take advantage of this new chapter in my life; and I'm pretty sure I'll be using these new emotions in this story, lol.

But please bare with me if I take a while to update. School is school, work is work, but I still don't want to leave my stories unfinished no matter what. I procrastinate to update my other stories because I'm too stuck on "realistic" scenarios. Maybe because I'm in my 20's now, Idk. But I really connect with this story the most because I am gay, I do struggle with old-school family members acting like dicks, and I sure as hell have a "Kaito" in my life lmao.

Yaoi isn't about two guys screwing or being cute; but to me it's a chance to expose some real-life ideas of how it's like for two guys to be together. Love, hardship, and overcoming.

Thank you for your patience.

Chapter: 34

Lens P.O.V.

The two of us spent the rest of the time eating and laughing about the small stuff. And in all honesty, this is the element that reminds me of our friendship before we got together; just smiling and laughing at stupid things.

"Len, remember when your mom gave you that bowl-cut hair when you were six? That shit was hilarious!" the bluenette smacked his hand against the table as he began another series of laughter ;making me laugh alongside with him. "You looked like the kid from the Toaster-Stroodle commercial" he cackled. "An amish farmboy!"

Right when he said that, I reached over and smacked his arm, "Oh shut the hell up! Says the boy who pissed on himself when his brother scared him on halloween!" I sassed back through the laughter. I watched as he slowly went down on the table, face turning red the harder he laughed. It was getting bad to the point he wasn't emitting any sounds anymore.

`Wow, this is the hardest I've seen him laugh like this in such a long time´. I quietly thought to myself as I continued to enjoy his company. `He was right, though. The bowl-cut looked weird when I was a child. It was funny, but he never made me feel bad about it.´ "Mm, Kaito" I started, grabbing his attention once more. "I'm really having a good time. Just being able to sit down and laugh is enough to get me through whatever that is to come, you know?"

He took a deep breath and smiled at me, nodding his head; wiping the tear away from his eye.

"I'm really glad to know that, babe. Besides; I enjoy watching you enjoy yourself. ... When you laugh, you look adorable as fuck. When you smile, you're beautiful. When you're sad, I never want to let you go. When you're mad ..., well. I never seen you mad-mad, but I bet you're mad sexy." He explained. I rose a brow at the last bit, catching his pervertedness. "I mean, having angry sex would probably be hardcore. Like imagine you talking shit to me, then I have you against the wall and rip your pants off. I'd ram you with no warning like, "That's what I thought! Ain't talking shit with my coc-""

"Kaito!" I whispered loud to him so he could stop. Although the people nearby were too busy minding their own business; I still couldn't stop my heart from racing with his openess. "Y-You're getting really into the thought..." I breathed out as I held onto my chest.

With a click to the tongue he leaned back in his chair and began to smirk. "I mean I'm pretty sure you can take a hard screwing without anger being involved. Maybe tie your hands behind your back, bend you over this table, and have everyone watch me tongue-fuck that ass. Maybe videotape me screwing you and force you to watch it another day."

`His raunchiness is so bold at times; ... But he's so quick to imagine doing that to me in front of the people here´ My lips slightly parted to inhale a shaky breath as my legs tightly closed, trying to surpress the tightness forming around my pants. `It doesn't make me any better if I'm getting a reaction just from listening to him. Him wanting to do something so dirty and be loosely okay with it-´ The heat in my face began to rise, but my train of though broke once I felt my phone buzz in my pocket.

Quickly shaking my head, I nervously smiled and crossed my legs underneath the table. "... It always surprises me to hear the things you think about towards me." I admitted to the bluenette. "But you must watch a lot of porn" I indirectly questioned.

He shrugged his shoulders lightly and responded with, "Well, I used to watch porn here and there, but my mind is too focused on what you would look like in certain scenario's. It's a sign that I think of you in many ways. I'm pretty sure you have some crazy thoughts as well, but you're not the type to expose them out in the public like that. Anyway, I love thinking about you in every way possible. It's like a form of art, almost. ... A beautiful sculpture in different poses, backgrounds. I mean there's different forms of it. Making love, screwing, then fucking.

"... That's actually beautiful" I said with pure astonishment. I was more happy to hear him say something like that. "Um, I actually wouldn't mind; you know, posing for you again. ... For your art, Kaito" I shyly lowered my gaze as I felt my heart picking up its pace.

"So is it safe to say it's time for us to leave the resturaunt? The bill has already been paid for, and if I paint, we'd both end up in the shower again." He calmly told me, causing me to eye and see him giving me the sweetest expression god has to offer.

"... I'm ready. But kaito"

"Yes, Len?" He responded.

Taking a slow, deep breath; I reached back over and grabbed his hand. "C-Can we keep holding hands and kiss as we walk back home? I don't care if we get stared at anymore" I lowly told him.

`I honestly don't care anymore. Maybe I've been influenced by him? But all I know is that it just doesn't matter to me anymore, after experiencing being with him. What everyone says or their looks, won't really harm neither me nor him. ... What are these people going to do? Nothing that'll stop us, really. But if there's one thing I realize is that this, right here, is the confidence given in love.´

The bluenette rose from his seat, tightening his grip onto my hand, giving me the hint to stand as well.

It took me a matter of seconds for me to stand back up, dusting off my pants with my free hand. Once that was done, I caught Kaito with the corner of my eye stepping closer to me, swiftly grabbing my chin to tilt it upwards, and surprised me with his lips crashing against my own.

My body stiffened for a moment, but easily began to relax off of the tenderness of his touch.

The air. The atmosphere. They all felt like it belonged to us in that moment, and my heart couldn't refuse that feeling. But the emotions that were going on inside me made me want to either cry or scream in happiness. And it surprised me how much this happiness can overpower my previous negative feelings.

Kaito is my happiness, and I'm going to remind him that everyday for the rest of our lives together.

We slowly parted, opening our eyes to gaze at one another in silence. His eyes always told me I was his, and it never made me want to look at anything else.

"Len, I love you." He whispered to me right before he dove in for another quick kiss.

With him saying that, I inhaled deeply and smiled before deciding to scream back, "I love you too!" Causing his eyes to widen on what I assumed to be shock.

The two of us looked around and noticed how almost everyone in the room was staring at us, but it didn't matter. We both began to laugh amongst ourselves and started to walk towards the exit.

"Mhm, that's right! My love-chubs care for my bitch ass" There he goes with the nickname again. I bit back a laugh with his last comment before we opened the door to step out the resturaunt.