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"You've been busy, my love." He said in a sickly sweet voice.
The emotions flood and I did my best to contain all of it. "What did you expect?"
"For you to side with me. I know you feel all the love we shared. That desire and passion. Everything we shared. Even the same ideals. I know you want me."
"That might be the case Lucifer, but I no longer believe that ending the human race is right. I have people out there that I care about, I don't want them to die."
"That is only your centuries of living as them talking. If you knew yourself in all the glory you were before He cast us out… you would understand. But your human form is too weak to handle all of that, but I'm sure that you can feel it in you. Some unlocked when I gave you those memories. You could be the strongest thing in this world. You and I could take this world and make it our own. All you have to do is convince Sam to say yes to me. With him as my vessel, you and I will be unstoppable."
"And what makes you so sure I would do that?" I asked him.
He stepped closer and brushed my cheek. I closed my eyes against the familiar rising desire. "Because of that. Your human body may be bound to the Winchesters, but your true self is bound to me, for all eternity. And you know it, you can feel it." He smirked. "Even when you lie with one of them, you feel me there with you. You imagine my hands on your body, my lips against yours. You might still enjoy their touch, but your yearning for mine as well. You can have both, simply convince Sam to say yes."
We hadn't all agreed to the plan yet, but I figured I might as well start it in motion. It was the only plan we had, I just hoped I was strong enough.
"And if I do?" I said, looking into his eyes.
He smiled, "Then you will be with me, forever. You and I creating our own paradise forever." He brought his lips to mine.
I felt his touch through my entire body. I felt my body respond to his touch as desire flooded through me. I felt him touch that part of me that had awoken with those memories and draw it out.
My arms wrapped around his neck and he pulled me closer to him. In my mind I saw him as the glorious being he was before.
The difference was, my true self no longer believed humans were weak. I had seen enough in my lifetimes to know what humans were capable of. I still wanted to be with Lucifer, I certainly didn't want to see him killed. But I was willing to cage him to stop him from destroying the world I had come to care about. And the stranger part… even my true self cared for the Winchesters.
I just clung to the hope that what I felt for Lucifer wouldn't be overpowering everything else in me. But in his arms, his lips against mine… It was growing.
I pulled away. "If I'm going to do this, then I need to return."
He smiled lovingly at me, cracking my resolve slightly. But I held on. "Would you like to know what your name was, all those years ago?" I nodded. "Celeste, you were made from the stars. You were named Celeste for that. Oh you were stunning. The most beautiful I had ever seen, and you were… are mine."
I brushed his cheek, "Forever." I whispered as seductively as I could.
His smile widened, "You will be returned to that glory. Once I have the power I need. Should you wish to feel it before than… you may want to drink some of that demon blood you must convince Sam to drink in order to prepare for me."
"What will that do to me?" I asked, a bit taken aback by the suggestion.
"It will make you strong. Bring out more of your true self." He lifted up my pendant by the chain, "Stronger than this power has made you."
"Will I be able to handle it? In this human body I mean?"
"Of course it will. Regular humans can drink demon blood. You will be fine, I promise you. I would never let anything take you away from me again. Do not think that being with those boys in this lifetime is mere coincidence. I have brought you here. I have worked to get you to this point so that we could be together again."
My heart pounded in my chest. How could I look at him, knowing that everything in my life, the love, the friends, the accomplishments… were all because he had brought me to this time. "How?"
"It wasn't easy. But I knew my time was coming and I wasn't going to do it without you by my side. This was our dream."
I nodded, "Then I need to get to work. It won't be easy."
"I have faith in you, my love." He kissed me deeply as the dream faded.
I woke up on the sofa in Bobby's house. Bobby smiled at me, "Boys are outside."
I nodded and headed outside. Sam and Dean were sitting on the hood of the impala, drinking beers.
"Well, there you are, sleeping beauty. Sleep good?" Dean asked, handing me a beer.
"As good as I can with Lucifer in my dreams." I replied. "We need to talk."
Sam and Dean exchanged glances and then nodded at me. "So, talk." Dean said.
"Lucifer thinks I'm convincing you to say yes." I said looking at Sam.
"Alright, well, that kind of works with the plan." Dean said.
"So, we're doing this? Letting Lucifer take over Sam?" I asked.
"We don't really have any other plan." Dean replied.
I took a deep breath.
"Why do I have the feeling that there's more to this than I wanna hear?" Dean asked.
"You said we were going to talk." I said softly. "We need to do that before we do anything else."
"I thought we were talking." Sam said.
Dean and Sam scooted to the sides, making room for me in the middle. Sam took my hand and helped me up. I sat down between them, my knees bent and my arms resting on them as I leaned slightly forward.
"Lucifer's the reason I'm here in this lifetime with you two. I don't know how, but I know he was telling me the truth when he told me."
"How? He's the devil, he lies." Dean said flatly.
"Not to me. He's… bringing out my original self, but even that part of me has changed. I've lived too many life times in this world. I've seen too much not to have been changed by it. Even my true self no long shares Lucifer's thinking about humans being weak. He doesn't know that. What he knows is that he's reached my original self and is drawing it out. I'm not going to lie to either of you anymore, that part of me still loves him. It is what I was created for. But that part of me also cares for the two of you, while this human form is still deeply bonded and in love with you both. Saving you two means more to me than Lucifer."
"Uh, okay. So, Lucifer thinks you're on his side, but you're on ours?" Dean asked.
"Always." I replied. "But…"
"But what?" Dean kind of snapped.
"Dean, let her finish." Sam said, wrapping a hand around my leg near him.
"It won't be easy for me, and he wants me to do something else, but I'm scared to do it." I said softly.
"What's that?" Dean asked.
Castiel was walking toward us.
"He wants me to drink demon blood too. He said it would increase my powers and draw more of my true self out." My body shivered with the fear of too many terrible outcomes.
Sam moved his arm to wrap around my side.
"He's right." Castiel said.
"What? Are you crazy? I'm not even enjoying the thought of Sam having to drink it, but he has to in order to even hold Lucifer. Dee has no reason to do it." Dean said, sliding off the hood of the car.
"Actually, she does. To convince him that she is on his side." Castiel replied.
"'Cause bringing Sam to him isn't enough?" Dean snapped.
"Because he needs to believe that I trust his words and will do as he says." I replied.
"And how do you know that it isn't going to change you? Remember Sam before?" Dean looked at me. "What are we supposed to do if the demon blood draws out more of your true self than you can handle?"
His words were my own fears.
Castiel glared at Dean, "You said you had faith in her."
"I do! But I've seen demon blood change people. She's got a whole other… personality in there that wants to be with Lucifer." Dean said.
I slid off the hood of the car. "I do not have other personalities, Dean! It's all part of me. And yes, that part of me wants to be with Lucifer, but it also knows what's at risk. But me, the real me, original and every lifetime since then… it loves you and Sam. I want to stop this, I want to stop Lucifer! Ad yeah, I've got conflicting thoughts and emotions. But you know what hurts more than anything?" I stared into his eyes, my own filling with tears. "Is that Lucifer himself shows more faith in me than you!" I walked away.
I could hear the guys arguing behind me as I walked around the house slowly.
"Damn it, Dean! What the hell is wrong with you? She's doing everything she can right now, trying to hold herself together!" Sam yelled.
"Can't you feel it, Sam? Can't you feel her slipping away from us? If we let her do this… we risk losing her forever."
"You risk losing her now." Castiel said. "Even now, you let her walk away."
I was finally out of range of hearing them. Bobby came out of the back door, meeting me in the yard. I turned and looked at him. "You were willing to shoot me, yet still you show more faith in me than Dean."
He sighed, "It's not a faith thing, darlin'. It's fear. I think you mean more to him than even Sam now, he's afraid of losing you more than anything else."
"Without both him and Sam… I'm afraid of losing myself." I shook my head. "You don't know how hard it is to look at either of them and know that a part of you loves someone else, who just happens to be the one person we're fighting against. To look in their eyes and know that they know it."
"You're right, I don't. Just like none of us know what's going on in that pretty little head of your's. We're playing a guessing game with you. We're holding on to hope that you're still on our side." Bobby replied.
"And holding onto the one thing I have to grasp: my love for Sam and Dean, and I'm hoping that they are holding onto their love for me… But Dean… I can't do this without both of them."
"Darlin', Sam needs you. Dean wants to continue to be an ass, then let him. You're gonna have to cling to Sam on this one. Rely on him, because he's relying on you."
I searched Bobby's eyes for something… all I saw was his brutal honesty. "You truly believe that Dean's lost faith in me?"
"I think Dean believes he's losing you. Granted it may be through his own stupid actions, but it's what he believes."
I was feeling torn. I felt my heart splitting in three directions and it was the most painful feeling in the universe. In all my lifetimes, all the wounds, all the deaths… This was worse, it cut to my very core of everything I was, ever had been.
"What I don't understand is his simple decision to say yes to Michael made your power begin to eat you alive. How is this not affecting you?" Bobby asked, crossing his arms.
"Because her true self is waking up." Castiel said. "Those memories did more to her than she understands yet. But she can feel it. Just as I can."
Bobby raised an eyebrow at you. "What does that mean?"
"It won't change the bond." Castiel replied. "But it means that she doesn't need to rely on the bond to survive. At least, not in a physical sense. Emotionally… mentally… that has yet to be determined."
I scoffed, "Oh great, now you think I'm gonna go bananas too!"
"No, I believe that you will surprise us all. You will prove to be the strongest of us, because you have showed it in the past. I also believe that you also have the greatest struggle of us all. Most of us are merely fighting something physical. You are fighting your very purpose for being created. Your very existence is tied to being with Lucifer. You feel it every second, and you fight it even harder. You're showing your strength with every breath. And if Dean can't see that… than he may very well lose you. But Sam… he sees it. He feels it. Let him be everything you need right now."
"And if he's not enough?" I asked, a few tears fall over my cheeks.
"Then we all die." Bobby replied putting a hand on my shoulder. "That's the truth, darlin'. We need you… and I know that we've relied on you far too much for far too long. And maybe your warrior self is wanting to throw in the towel, but you can't and you know it. I know you know it."
"And the demon blood?" I asked Castiel. Bobby looked a bit confused.
"Will be your ultimate test. It will test your very will power, the very bond that ties you with Sam and Dean. It won't be easy. But I know you can do it." Castiel said with a slight nod. "What you need isn't Dean's faith in you, but faith in yourself." He walked away.
Bobby nodded in surprise, "That I agree with. Find faith in yourself, darlin'." he walked back inside.
That was probably the best words of advice I had yet heard. I couldn't rely on the faith Dean certainly wasn't showing in me. I had to find my faith in myself. I turned and glanced toward the impala Sam and Dean were still arguing.
I took a deep breath and walked toward them. When I got closer they stopped talking and faced me.
"Dee-" Dean started but I raised my hand to stop him.
"I don't want to hear it. I'm done. I'm doing what I have to do. I don't care what you have to say. You don't have faith in me… you don't believe I can do this… you want to think that you're losing me to Lucifer, fine. You're welcome to your thoughts and lack of faith. It doesn't matter. I'm doing what I have to. You think you're the only one having negative thoughts about this whole thing? About me? You're wrong. But you used to believe I could do anything. You used to rely on me to be your strength, but when I ask for the same… you're the one turning your back on me. Think about that, let that be what keeps you warm at night." My words were beyond harsh and I knew they were cutting deep, I could see the hurt in his eyes. But I also saw him realizing what he was doing to us.
"You think you're losing me? You're right, but it's not to Lucifer. It's your own doing. I love you Dean, I always will… But I'm done with this yo-yo game of your's. Relationships have ups and downs, I get that. God knows we've had enough of both between us, but this is no longer about just us. It hasn't been for a while. You told me once that you had been dead inside and that I had come along and filled you with a reason for living and doing what we do… I don't know if you feel that way anymore. Hell, I don't know what you do feel for me anymore. One minute you're telling me you love me and you believe in me and then the next you change your mind.
"You don't think I'm not terrified of all of this? That I'm not in fear of my own thoughts and emotions? I'm terrified. I'm cowering inside. I've spent the last week searching myself for a corner to hide, hoping everything will just… go away." I paused. "I wanted Bobby to pull that trigger. I wanted him to end this for me, because I was afraid I wasn't strong enough. But you know what, he was the one that shined the light for me, showing me that I had nowhere to hide. He's the one that brought me out of the dark and showed me what I had to cling to. And yet, the one thought running through my mind, even now: is that it should have been you!" I had tears streaming down my cheeks now.
Dean stepped toward me and I stepped back. "I needed you! I don't think I realized how much I did, but I did. I still do. God, I need you so bad… Bobby and Cas are telling me to rely on myself, find faith in myself… but when you look at me like that! I feel broken! I feel lost! I feel the darkness creep in around me!" Sam had already walked back inside, giving us some privacy, and for some reason, I felt his absence and it hurt a little.
The more my emotions flowed and words spilled from my mouth, the more I felt my power flow and circling around me, wind was already blowing my hair from my shoulders. My pendant was warming against my chest and pulsing strangely.
Dean stepped toward me, his hands going to my arms. I pushed him with the palm of my hand, not using my power or even much strength.
"Dee, baby-"
"No!" the dirt around my feet was lifting up. "You don't get to do that! You don't get to call me 'baby' and hope this all goes away! I've fought through centuries worth of lifetimes only to be brought back to you and find that you aren't there for me like you once were. You've almost broken this… love, bond, whatever you wanna call it, twice now! Well, guess what, Dean? I no longer have to rely on this bond to keep me alive! You wanna run from me, go! I won't chase you this time. I've been chasing you since I first met you in this life!"
My heart was pounding erratically. I don't even think my feet were touching the ground anymore. Dean's eyes were wide as he watched my power take physical form around me, lifting me off the ground, wind blowing around me.
"I'm done chasing you. You want me, you chase me. I've proved my love to you many times over, if you still doubt me, then fine."
"Dee!" Dean yelled as the wind around me grew stronger. "Damn it, Dee!" He was reaching toward me with one hand, his other arm blocking the wind from his face. "You're right! I've been letting you chase me. I've been running from what I know I feel. I've been the one afraid. Of not being enough for you. Of seeing you growing closer to Sam as I slipped away. That was me, not you. That's not on you! I've been letting you slip away. And I'm sorry. And you're right, I saw that you needed me and I was scared that I couldn't help you. That I wasn't strong enough." He grabbed my hand and the wind began to swirl around the two of us, instead of just me. He lowered his other hand and wrapped it around my side, pulling my feet back to the ground.
"I should've been there to help you. I should've been what you needed. But, Dee, I need you. And I know you need me too. And that has nothing to do with this… bond. That's just me and you. And you know that. I know it. I'm willing to admit it!" His hand wrapped around my cheek. "Lucifer might have a part of you, but he'll never get the part that's mine. Or the part that's Sam's. You're strong, Dee. Really strong. And I'm not just talking about your power. I'm talking about you. The human part, the you I fell in love with so long ago."
The wind around us had settled. We were on our knees in the dirt. I was a pile of sobs, tears streaked with tears still falling.
Sam was behind us. I could feel him there.
Dean pulled me to him, his lips pressing against mine hard. A burst of energy pulsed out from us.
"Cas, what was that?" Dean asked him as he held me to his chest.
"Her power is growing. Combining with whatever power she had before her fall. Lucifer has unlocked something... "
"What?" Sam asked softly.
I felt my veins on fire and pushed off of Dean. My breathing was ragged and my heart was beating abnormally.
"Dee?" Dean leaned toward me.
"No! Stay back!" I yelled, using my power to push him softly.
I stood up and looked around. Castiel was stepping back, pulling Sam reluctantly back.
I ran not far, just far enough. Dean tried to follow me. I held my hand up, stopping him in his tracks.
"Dee!" He yelled.
"I don't want to hurt you!" I screamed as my veins ignited.
Flames erupted around me, engulfing me whole. I felt the power coursing through me. Both familiar and strange. It was intoxicating and wonderful. I lifted into the air, the flames surrounding me, but not harming me.
"Dee!" I heard Castiel's voice and glanced down at him.
"I can feel it, Cas! All of it!" My voice resonated with a melodious tone.
"You need to control it! If you don't… I don't know what will happen. You need to draw it in. Contain it. Don't lose control!"
"I don't know how!"
"Yes you do! You've had this power before. It wasn't as strong because you didn't have the blessing with it. But you can still control it! You have to hold on to who you are, Dee!"
"This is who I am." I said in a harsh tone.
"No! This is a part of you! Not who you are! Remember who you are, Dee! Dean, Sam!" Castiel yelled.
"Dee, baby, I know this isn't you. Remember that woman you were when we met you. Think about Ted, Lucy, Kelsey, Margaret, Heather… All of them, they wouldn't recognize you right now, they would be afraid of you." Dean yelled to me.
Bobby stepped forward with a shotgun. "Bobby! What the hell?" Dean yelled.
"Bobby, don't!" Sam yelled.
"I promised her I would." Bobby said, taking aim and firing.
"Bobby, no!" Dean yelled.
I stopped the bullets easily and pulled the gun from his hand, not harming him. I tossed it aside. My body shaking in an effort to control my powers.
"I have faith in myself." I whispered. "I am stronger than this."
I closed my eyes and then looked up. I flew higher and let a burst of flames out around me, releasing some of the pent up energy in my veins. The flames around me dissipated.
I fell, exhausted and my body shaking from the effort of containing so much power. I landed on my feet and fell to my knees.
"Damn it, Bobby!" Dean yelled. "You could've killed her!"
Sam was at my side, helping me to my feet. I tried to walk with him, but stumbled and he lifted me into his arms. "I think I need a drink." I said softly and he chuckled.
"You still wanna put demon blood in her now, Cas?!" Dean yelled.
"Dean!" I snapped. "Knock it off. I'm fine now."
I wasn't sure if I was. I wasn't even sure what I was anymore. I knew I had more power than ever before and I knew I needed to control it. I also knew that demon blood would increase it, and that was terrifying.
"Uh, I'm sorry, was I the only one that just saw something like that?!" Dean yelled walking toward me.
I took a deep breath and felt myself gathering my nerves. I pushed from Sam's arms gently and he set me down.
"Bobby…" I said, letting my nerves finish gathering, containing the power in my veins. I focused it like I knew how to with the other power. I let the powers mingle inside and felt myself gaining control.
"I'm sorry, darlin'. I promised you I would."
"Thank you." I said, surprising everyone. "But I'm fine." This time I meant it.
Castiel smiled at me. "I believe you are. Perhaps now would be a good time to familiarize yourself with these new powers."
"You think now's the time to play with them?" Dean asked in surprise.
"He's right. We can't go walking to Lucifer without me knowing what I can do." I replied. "But I don't know what I can do."
"You lived in heaven, you must have powers similar to that of an angel's." Castiel replied.
"So, teleporting?" I asked and Castiel nodded.
I closed my eyes and thought of my apartment in Montana. When I opened my eyes I was there.
"Okay, that's awesome!" I squealed, feeling a rush of adrenalin followed by a thrill of delight.
Without closing my eyes I thought of Bobby's junkyard and reappeared there.
Dean smiled, "Where'd you go?"
"My apartment." I replied with a grin.
"So, does that mean that she can teleport with others too?" Sam asked.
I held my hand out to him, "Trust me?"
He smiled softly, "Always." And took my hand.
I zapped us back to my apartment.
"Okay, I think you're enjoying this too much." Sam said as he looked at me smiling. "Should we be worried that you're going power crazy?" He asked jokingly.
In truth, I already was. I loved the flow of the power through me. I relished in it. And I wanted… more. But I wouldn't admit that.
"No." I said softly. "I just need to know what I can do."
"Well, right now, all we need to know is that you can draw me out when Lucifer is in me."
I felt a rush of emotions at the mere mention of his name. I shoved them down. "Then let me draw you to me now." I whispered as I stepped closer to him.
Sam wrapped a hand around my cheek and kissed me hungrily. I wrapped my arms around his neck and his arms wrapped around me tightly. Our lips clashing in a desperate need for each other.
"Maybe we should go somewhere… people won't be hearing us." He smirked.
I nodded and teleported us to Ted's house in one of the guest bedrooms.
"Better?" I asked and he nodded as he brought his lips back to mine.
We quickly removed each other's clothes and I pushed him onto the bed gently and straddled him. I wasn't gentle. I was desperate for him. I was clinging to him as I tried to fight something inside me that I didn't understand.
He enjoyed the way I moved my hips against him. Every thrust made him moan loudly. Until he wrapped his arms around me and rolled me onto my back.
He started to thrust harder in desperation for me. Both of us loudly moaning in bliss. More power coursing through me and I loved it.
HIs hands ran over my body, his lips trailing kisses over my chest and neck. Then he grabbed my hips and thrust harder until we both shuddered in pleasure.
We got up and I showered quickly, teleporting back to my apartment for clean clothes and then we went back to the junkyard.
Dean was sitting on the impala. I glanced at Sam and he nodded, heading into the house after kissing my cheek.
"Where'd you two go?" He asked me when I teleported to sit beside him.
"Ted's house. You're afraid of me." I said flatly. Feeling his fear of me come off him in waves.
"No, why would I be afraid of you, Dee? I'm afraid for you." He looked at me.
I searched his eyes and knew he was telling the truth. "Why?"
"Dee, you have more power now. What's gonna happen when you drink demon blood?"
"Honestly? I don't know." I said looking at my hands. "But we're gonna find out soon. We don't have much time."
"That's what scares me, Dee." He slid off the hood of the impala and stood in front of me.
I slid down slighting until he was between my legs. "Do you trust me?"
He searched my eyes and then nodded. "I do. You know that."
"Then trust that when the time comes I will do what I need to. No matter what happens before that, please?"
"What do you mean, 'what happens before that'?" Dean asked in concern.
"Lucifer has to believe I'm siding with him. It has to be convincing. But I need you to believe in me." I didn't know who I was trying to fool anymore.
I didn't even know what I wanted anymore. I slid off the hood and stood up.
"Dee, tell me what you're thinking." Dean said softly.
"I'm thinking that tomorrow we go demon hunting." I replied flatly.
"Not about that. Tell me what's going on in your head… in your heart." His eyes pleaded with me.
My heartbeat quickened. "I'm thinking that the sooner we get this done, the better."
"And what are you feeling? Because right now… the way that you're looking at me… it's not you."
I wrapped a hand around his neck and closed my eyes as I clung to the energy flowing between us. I shoved everything else down. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes.
Dean looked at me and then smiled softly before kissing me briefly. "That's better. Let's get some food."
We walked inside, but I didn't eat. I wasn't hungry. I had a growing desire to find Lucifer and I didn't think it was to lock him in a cage.
It got dark and everyone, but me fell asleep. I wasn't tired. I walked around outside. I didn't feel like myself. I didn't feel like Dee. I felt like… Celeste. Dee was still there… somewhere. But Celeste was emerging more and more.
I had a sudden urge to teleport somewhere… I didn't know where, but I clung to the desire and it brought me to a warehouse.
"Hello?" I called out.
"Oh, good. I was worried you'd fight it." A woman stepped forward her eyes black, a demon.
I didn't even draw my daggers. I made no attempt to attack and neither did she.
"Lucifer can feel you." She said softly.
I drew her toward me, my hand wrapping around her neck. She smiled. "If you want my blood you're welcome to have it."
"We will need more than just you to prepare Lucifer's vessel." I replied in a tone not my own.
"When you are ready, come here. You will know what to do to summon your followers to you."
"My followers?" I raised an eyebrow at her.
"You are Lucifer's queen, Celeste. We follow you just as we do him. Your bidding is our command and we will follow."
"Then tell Lucifer that his vessel will be ready soon and I will return to him." I replied releasing her.
"Is that all?" She smirked.
I tilted my head, "What more would there be?"
She slit her wrist with a knife from her pocket, "Perhaps a taste?"
I looked at the blood and the most terrifying thing was that I wanted to taste it. I wanted to feel the power. I swallowed hard as she stepped closer and held her wrist out to me. I wasn't strong enough to say no. I didn't step back.
My hand reached out and grabbed her wrist and pulled it to my mouth. The warm liquid filled my mouth and hit my veins like a rocket.
I quickly pushed her away, throwing her into the brick wall across the warehouse.
"Go! Tell Lucifer I will be coming to him soon with his vessel." I yelled at her as the power corsed through me.
"Of course, my queen. He will await you eagerly." She disappeared.
I turned and walked out of the warehouse. Power coursed through me, stronger than ever. I teleported to a different state, outside a bar. I stopped and looked at my jeans and t-shirt. Not good enough. I snapped my fingers.
My clothes changed to a stunning deep red halter dress with a very short skirt and a pair of black heels. Even the pendant was red… changed by the demon blood coursing through my veins.
A part of me… the Dee part was trying to fight. I shoved it down as I walked into the bar. The doors flying open before me.
Everyone stopped and looked at me. I smiled and scanned the bar for the most attractive guy there as I walked in. When my eyes landed on a handsome blond I motioned him toward me.
He looked surprised, but smiled and walked toward me, freely of his own will. The music started back up and I danced. The most provocative I had ever danced in a bar before. My hands were all over the guy and I let his hands roam freely over me.
The demon blood was running through my system quickly and beginning to fade. After a while I left, leaving the guy panting after me.
I changed back into the jeans and shirt with the boots. I slipped the pendant into my shirt. It was slowly returning to it's amethyst color. I returned to the junkyard and played with fire in the yard. I made it form in circles around me and forming designs in the dirt as I let the demon blood run it's course.
I felt Lucifer's call for me, like a strong desire and I knew I would be with him soon. I yearned to be by his side, feel his lips upon mine and his hands over my body. There was too much desire and I needed a small fix.
I checked the pendant first… no longer any hint of red. As I extinguished the flames and turned around Dean was stepping outside.
"Can't sleep, babe?" He asked me softly.
"I don't think I do sleep anymore." I replied, my voice back to normal.
"Must be the angel-like powers." He walked toward me.
I wrapped my hands around his neck. "I need you." I whispered seductively.
He smirked, "I'm here for whatever you need, babe."
I brought my lips to his, teleporting us to my apartment, knowing no one would be nearby at that time. I pushed him down to the bed.
"How?" He said looking at what I now wore.
I had changed to a very provocative red lingerie set, complete with nylons to my thighs and clipped with a garter belt over the thong underwear.
"Do you like?" I asked sensually.
His eyes widened, "Very much."
I looked at the stereo on the dresser and it turned on to music with a very sensual beat. I started to dance for him. Moving my hips sexually and running my hands over my body.
He moved back against the headboard after removing his shirts and folded his arms behind his head and enjoying the show. Desire flaring clearly in his eyes.
I got onto the bed, turning my back toward him. I grabbed the straps on my shoulders and made the clasp unhook with my power and tossed the bra aside. I snapped my fingers and the garter belt disappeared.
I pulled Dean down the bed with my power until he was under my spread legs and flat on his back. His hands trailed sensually up my legs. I turned around faced him. I unbuttoned his pants with my thoughts and pulled them down. He chuckled enjoying every second of it.
I straddled him and he ran his hands up my thighs and around my back side. "I think you're enjoying these powers too much." He smirked.
"I think you're the one enjoying them right now." I whispered before I met his lips eagerly.
He wrapped his arms around me and flipped me over onto my back. He smirked. "You gonna take these off?" He asked playfully as he pulled the strap on my hip to the thong.
I snapped and they disappeared. I pulled him back to my lips and he moved his hips toward me, entering me hard and eagerly. I moaned loudly with every thrust of sweet pleasure.
When we were done we got dressed. I changed the t-shirt into a black blouse, leaving it unbuttoned at the top to my bra line, it hugged my waistline and feel just slightly short of the top of the jeans.
The sun was rising. Dean wrapped an arm around my waist. "Ready?" He asked.
"Yes." I brought us back to the junkyard.
Dean kissed me and headed inside. I followed him. Sam saw me and grabbed my hand and took me outside. For a brief moment I thought he knew about my having already drank demon blood.
"Dee… I need you to do something for me." Sam said.
"What?"
"You know once Lucifer's in me and I lock him in the cage… I won't be coming back."
I felt a pain in my chest, "What? Why?"
"I'll be locked in the cage as well. There's no getting me back."
Tears fell over my cheeks lightly. He brushed them away. "Dean's gonna need you take care of him. You have to be there for him. You have to promise me that. Take Dean and go back to Montana. Have a life there. You two can be happy together."
I shook my head, "I need you, Sam."
He brought his lips to mine and I felt the Dee inside clinging to him hard and I knew he felt it too. Dee and Celeste were merging into something. A confusion of thoughts and emotions.
"I love you, Dee. More than you know." Sam said softly his forehead leaning against mine.
Sam pulled away and went back inside. I stayed outside, panic setting in within me. I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't know what I was going to do. How was I supposed to face Lucifer in Sam… I wasn't strong enough… My head began to pound.
Castiel came out. "You're going to him aren't you?"
"What?"
"Lucifer, you have to go to him and set this… charade up. Right?" Castiel asked.
"Um… I know where demons will be for the blood Sam needs. And I know where Lucifer is." I said, feeling the pull of him and his desire for me.
"Then go." I wasn't even able to focus on Castiel's face.
My thoughts were spinning.
Bobby came out and joined us. "You ready for this, darlin'?" Then he stopped and eyed me. "You don't look so good… you feeling alright?"
"If Sam locks Lucifer in that cage, will he be in there too?" I asked him, tears in my eyes.
"I think that's how it works, hun." Bobby replied.
I ran my hands through my hair, my thoughts searching for something. Dean and Sam came out. "Let's get going." Dean said.
We got in the impala and I directed them to the warehouse. I summoned the demons easily. Sam and Dean thinking they were there. The demons pretended to fight, but ended up in a demon trap.
They collected the blood. Castiel handing me a small jar full. "You shouldn't need much." He said. "Drink it and go to him."
I looked at Sam and he nodded.
"Wait, why is she just gonna go off on her own? Shouldn't she stay with us?" Dean said.
Sam grabbed his arm and pulled him outside, Castiel behind him. I looked at the demon blood, the desire to down it overpowering the mix of thoughts and emotions. I downed it.
Feeling the power course through me… feeling Celeste take over…
I looked down at my outfit… "So, not good enough for my love." I snapped my fingers and a daring red dress appeared on me. Short, plunging neckline showing off my now red pendant. A pair of red platform heels on my feet.
"Much better." I walked outside where everyone waited.
"Dee?" Dean turned and looked at me. Shock, pleasure and delight, then fear. "Dee, are you still in there?"
"Oh, Dee, Nereida, Celeste… we're all the same person. That's something I didn't understand before."
"I told you this was a bad idea!" Dean said.
Sam stepped toward me, "Dee, you know the plan?"
"Yes, I know the plan." I replied with a smile. Bobby was reaching for a gun. "Bobby a guns not going to help you, and you know it. Besides, then who would help pull Sam out when Lucifer's inside?"
"So, you're still gonna help us?" Dean asked.
"Of course. Maybe not right when you want me to. The moment has to be right. I have to know that Sam is strong enough to hold him back." I replied with a strange sense of… resolve.
"Then why the theatrics here?" Dean asked gesturing to my outfit.
"I'm going to see Lucifer, he deserves to be pleased after so many centuries. You know, even all that love in here for you two… Lucifer is still my first. You know the saying, you never really forget your first love."
"I'm really confused right now." Dean said, pulling out the demon killing blade.
"Would you really kill me, Dean." I stepped toward him and brushed his cheek, send a wave of the familiar energy through him.
"Dee, we need this to work." He said softly.
"Oh, I know. I know what's at stake here. The difference is I know that Lucifer knows about the rings."
"What?!" Dean yelled. "Did you-"
I shook my head, "No, I never did. But even if he didn't already know… he would the moment he was in Sam." I walked over to Sam and wrapped my arms around his shoulders. "The time has to be right. I have to feel your strength strong enough. Then I will draw you out. And you will lock Lucifer in his cage."
"And you would do that to your first love?" Sam eyed me.
I leaned closer and whispered to him, "I would do that for you and Dean. You do not know the amount of love I have for the two of you." His arms wrapped around me. "You must drag Michael with you. If you do not… Michael will release him again. You cannot truly fight against him until you are on the battlefield."
I pulled away slightly and he kissed me.
"Do you understand?" I asked and he nodded.
I stepped away from him. "Well, it's time boys."
"Dee…" Dean said.
"I know. I love you both too. Hell, I love all of you. Even the one aiming a gun at me right now. Good luck, boys. See you in Detroit." I snapped my fingers and disappeared in a burst of flames.
I reappeared outside a building and smiled as demons came forward, blocking the doorway. "I can either go through you or you can move."
The doors burst open and Lucifer came out smiling widely at me. I still saw him in all his glory, even with his current vessel falling apart. "Celeste, my love. You look ravishing. Love the look."
"You like it? I thought you might." I walked toward him and wrapped my arms around his neck.
"You've unlocked all of your powers… how?" He asked softly, his hands running up and down my back igniting desire so strong.
This was my first love. My very reason for having been created.
"All those memories you gave me, unlocked the door. I… merely opened it. Now are you going to kiss me, or keep talking?"
He smirked and brought his lips to mine in a delicious embrace. He lifted me into his arms and carried me into the building. He set me down and I looked around.
"Certainly not the golden palace we had envisioned together." I said.
He wrapped his arms around my waist from behind me. "You will get your palace, my love. Now… where's my vessel?"
"On his way as we speak. Two demons drained." I replied softly.
"Oh, you always did bring me the best gifts."
I turned in his arms and looked at him with all the desire I felt. "This vessel isn't strong enough for us to have fun, is it?"
"No, but once I have Sam… I will have you." He smiled longingly at me, my heart pounding erratically.
"And you will meet Michael on the battlefield." I smiled.
"And won't he be surprised to see you by my side."
"Especially, since he tried to kill me once already." I said as I walked away and sat down in a chair, crossing my legs and tapping my foot.
"Why didn't you just zap the whole brigade here with you?" Lucifer asked.
"Oh, you know them, attached to that impala. Have to ride their steel horse into battle."
"But Sam's coming willingly?" Lucifer asked me again, eyeing me.
"Yes, my love. I promise."
Lucifer smiled widely. "It is good to have you back, Celeste. I have waited too long for you and I to be reunited."
"Can't we have some fun while we wait?" I asked standing up and circling him.
"What did you have in mind?" He asked teasingly.
I looked at a pretty blond demon, her hair wavy and long. I pointed over his shoulder at her.
He motioned her forward and she walked toward me willingly.
I wasn't only playing a part anymore. Celeste herself… she was a true vixen as Gabriel had called her a true sex Goddess.
I walked toward her and wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her toward me. The scent of her demon blood drew me in first and I went to her neck, and dragged my nail deeply along her throat, cutting her not too deeply. I licked the trailing blood and drained her halfway as Lucifer stepped forward and drained her the rest of the way.
He let her slump to the floor and wrapped an arm around me, "I have missed you, my love."
I felt Sam and Dean's presence. "They're here, my love."
His smirk widened. "So, they are. Bring them to me."
I nodded and headed outside, waving my hand at the doors. I walked outside, two demons had a hold of them.
"That's not necessary." I said with a smile.
One demon glared at me, "They are for Lucifer."
I brought my hand up and pulled him toward me, wrapping my hand around his throat. "Do not defy me!" I yelled, my voice changing slightly.
The demon burst into flames in my hand. I sighed as I dusted my hands off and then my dress. I turned to the other demon who quickly let go of Dean and walked back inside.
"Welcome, boys. You found it at last. We were getting… impatient." I walked toward them and looped and arm through one of each of their arms. "Shall we?"
I could feel the power from Sam and it was intoxicating. We all walked into the building.
"Darling, our guests have arrived." I said as we entered.
I left the guys and walked toward Lucifer, he wrapped an arm around my waist.
"Celeste tells me that you're here to say yes, Sam." Lucifer said.
"Look, Judgment Day's a runaway train. We get it now. We just want off." Sam said.
"Meaning?" Lucifer asked.
"Deal of the century. I give you a free ride, but when it's all over, I live, he lives, you bring our parents back-"
"Okay, can we please drop the telenova? I know you have the rings, Sam. And you know I know. It's okay, I'm not mad. A wrestling match inside your noggin… I like the idea. Just you and me, one round, no tricks. You win, you jump in the hold. I win… well, then I win. What do you say, Sam? A fiddle of gold against your soul says I'm better than you." Lucifer said, saying the exact thing I needed him to say.
"Yes." Sam replied.
Lucifer kissed my cheek and stepped away from me. A blinding bright light illuminated the room and when it was gone Sam was on the floor.
Dean pulled the horsemen's rings out of his pocket and threw them at the wall where they stuck. He said the chant and then looked at me expecting me to do something.
I put my finger to my lips and he tilted his head in confusion. He looked at Sam, "Sammy!"
"Dean!" Lucifer teased.
"Sammy!" Dean looked relieved, clearly unable to tell them apart… that was interesting.
"I can feel him. Oh, god!" Lucifer continued to tease.
"You got to go now! Come on." Dean helped Lucifer to his feet. "Go now, Sammy. Now!"
Lucifer walked toward the hole that appeared by the little chat. He took a few deep breaths. Then he smiled at me and turned back to Dean. "I was just messing with you. Sammy's long gone."
Lucifer chanted and closed the hole with another chant and took the rings from the wall. He walked over to me and wrapped an arm around me. We disappeared, leaving Dean on his knees, alone and more than likely afraid that he had just lost both Sam and I.
"Sam. Come on. I can feel you… scratching away in there." Lucifer looked in a mirror once we were in the building. "Look… I'll take the gag off, okay? You got me all wrong, kiddo. I'm not the bad guy here." Lucifer said.
I leaned against the wall.
"I'm gonna rip you apart from the inside out. Do you understand me?" Sam said angrily.
"Such anger… Young Skywalker. Who are really angry with? Me? Or that face in the mirror?" Lucifer asked him.
"I'm sure this is all a big joke to you, huh?" Sam said.
"Not at all. I've been waiting for you… for a long, long time. Come on, Sam. You have to admit- you can feel it, right?" Lucifer said. "And it's not just the pull of Celeste either. You and I… we're two halves made whole."
"This feels pretty damn far from good." Sam replied.
Lucifer looked at me, "Does she look bored to you? Maybe we should have a little fun."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Sam asked.
Lucifer looked at a circle of people. "Look closely. None of those little devils look familiar to you?"
"That's Mr. Bensman… one of my grade-school teachers." Sam said.
"And that's your friend Doug from that time in East Lansing. And Rachel… your prom date. Sam Winchester, this is your life. Azazel's gang- watching you since you were a rugrat, jerking you around like a dog on a leash. I know how you feel about them. Me too. So, what do you say you and I blow off a little steam?"
Lucifer blasted up the reunion of the five people I sat in a chair, bidding my time.
When he was done, Lucifer walked up to me. "Sorry, Sam. Gag's going back on. Celeste and I need a reunion of our own."
And that was what I needed. Not for me, but for Sam. It would give him the strength he needed to fight against Lucifer when the time came. Lucifer wrapped me in his arms and teleported us to a bed, where… I didn't know.
"I have waited so long to be with you again." He smirked at me.
I smiled and snapped my fingers, making my dress disappear, leaving me naked under Lucifer. He ran his hands over my whole body, igniting desire I hadn't felt in centuries. I had missed his touch. I relished in it.
When he finally lowered himself between my legs and thrust in me, it was euphoric. And I felt the energy Sam needed flowing into him. And he knew it, we could both feel it through the bond we shared.
I let Lucifer have me. I welcomed it. Who wouldn't return to their first love, just once more if they could?
When we were done, Lucifer dressed me in the usual assortment of jeans, boots, and a shirt. He wrapped an arm around me and we teleported to a cemetery.
I heard the sound of angel wings and I knew that Michael was coming. He landed.
"It's good to see you, Michael." Lucifer said.
"You too. It's been too long. Can you believe it's finally here?" Michael said.
"No. Not really." Lucifer replied.
"Are you ready?" Michael asked.
"As I'll ever be. A part of me wishes we didn't have to do this."
"Yeah. Me too." Michael replied.
"Then why are we?" Lucifer asked, letting his arm slip from my waist.
"Oh, you know why! I have no choice, after what you did." Michael said. "After what she made you do!"
"She had nothing to do with it and you know it." Lucifer replied.
I swallowed hard, taking deep breaths to calm my nerves.
"What is that supposed to mean?" Michael asked.
"Think about it. Dad made everything. Which means he made me who I am! God wanted the Devil."
"So?" Michael replied.
"So why? And why make us fight? I just can't figure out the point." Lucifer said.
"What's your point?"
They bickered over mindless points I failed to listen to. Until Michael caught my attention.
"You're a monster, Lucifer. And I have to kill you."
"If that's the way it's got to be… then I'd like to see you try." Lucifer said.
They circled each other, I stepped back. Why wasn't Sam fighting him now?
The impala drove up and my heart sank.
Dean stepped out. "Howdy, boys…" He eyed me. "Celeste." The name was harsh on his lips and sent a wave of pain through me. "Sorry. Am I interrupting something?"
Dean walked over to Lucifer. "Hey. We need to talk."
"Dean. Even for you, this is a whole new mountain of stupid." Lucifer said.
"I'm not talking to you. I'm talking to Sam." Dean said.
Michael was stepping closer toward me. "You're no longer the vessel, Dean. You got no right to be here."
"Adam, if you're in there somewhere, I am so sorry." Dean said.
"Adam isn't home right now." Michael replied.
"Well, then you're next on my list, buttercup. But right now, I need five minutes with him." Dean said.
"You little maggot. You are no longer a part of this story!" He turned to me. "Just like her!"
"Hey, ass-butt!" Castiel said from behind us. He threw something toward Michela and he went up in flames.
"Ass-butt?" Dean mocked.
"He'll be back- and upset- but you got your five minutes." Castiel said.
Then things happened too fast, Castiel exploded. Dean was thrown into the car. And then Lucifer snapped Bobby's neck.
"Stop!" I yelled. "You promised Sam they would be safe if he said yes!"
"Oh, darling, they're just humans." He eyed me and then walked over to Dean and pulled him off the car and punched him.
I ran to him and grabbed his arm, "Stop! Please! For me!"
He turned and looked at me, then he grabbed my throat. "You little whore! You've been lying to me? You would side with them over me?"
"I'm not the same, Lucifer. I still love you, I always will. But I care for this world, for these people." Tears streamed down my cheeks and he squeezed my throat harder.
"Too long as a human has made you weak."
"Sam! Now! Please! Sam…" I cried hard. I bundled all the energy I could and pressed my palm against Lucifer's chest and let it flow to Sam.
"You bitch!" Lucifer slammed his fist through my middle and dropped me.
I crumpled on the ground. Then Sam leaned over me. "You risked everything for this…" He lifted my head gently.
"I… had no choice."
"You could've left. You could've run."
"No…" I closed my eyes. "Sam… he bet your soul that you wouldn't be strong enough… you won't be locked in the cage with him." My breath slowed.
"How do you know that?" His voice was soft.
I didn't have the strength to talk, my power, my blood was all seeping out on to the ground.
"Dee… I love you." He kissed my forehead and walked away.
I felt the ground shift. I heard Michael's wings and knew Sam was taking him to the cage with Lucifer.
A hand grabbed mine, Dean's. "Dee, oh, God. I'm sorry. I thought you had betrayed us… I didn't know." Then he paused. "Cas, you're alive?"
"I'm better than that." Castiel said.
"Cas, are you God?" Dean asked, letting my hand go. "Wait, Cas, what about Dee?"
I felt Castiel rip the pendant from my neck. "She'll return to you later. Minus Celeste. She'll need that when you find her."
"What are you talking about? She right there! She's dying, Cas!"
"I'm well aware." Castiel said.
"Then save her! You healed me, you brought Bobby back. Save her!" Dean yelled.
"There's a lot that is going to happen, Dean. She will return to you. You will have to find her once she is returned to Earth. She will be everything she was before as your warrior. But Celeste… she be burned from her."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Dean asked.
I felt Castiel's hand on my forehead. "This will hurt, like nothing ever before. I know you can hear me. You will return to them and finish this life the way you were supposed to. You have done well."
"Cas, please don't take her! I've got nothing left." Dean pleaded.
"Then I suggest you start looking. When she returns, Dee...she will need that pendant."
Castiel sent a wave of fire through me and I screamed in torment. It felt like it lasted forever and I felt Celeste and those memories of Lucifer being burned from every part of me.