A/N: To the person who brought up that boy/girl twins can't actually be identical, for the sake of this fic let's just pretend that they can be. :) Shout out to my beta Swankkyy for being awesome and going over this crazy fic with me! If you have not then go and check out her fics, they're awesome! Enjoy this chapter as much I did writing it!

Chapter 34

On Monday, the day before Valentine's Day, Lia pulls up to school on her motorcycle again. She struts to her locker in a leather motorcycle jacket, a Beatle's band tee underneath, skinny jeans, and a pair of converse, like a complete BAMF. She hangs her jacket up and grabs her first period book then starts to head to class.

At the end of the hall, Finn is with his jock friends, staring down at the slushie cup in his hands.

"Come on dude, you gotta do it, you know you want to!" one jock pats him on the back.

"I don't know, guys, I don't think it's a good idea." Finn nervously says.

"Don't be such a little bitch! Here she comes, you can do it."

"Are you sure she won't do anything? I don't, you know, wanna have to kick her ass if she hits me or something." Finn tries to act tough.

"She won't, we've been doing this all last week and she just walks away."

"Ok, I'm gonna do it." He straightens up and walks toward her.

Lia has been brooding since Kaleb left the day before. All the feelings she's been pushing down have finally popped up to the surface and she's just a ticking time bomb. She's so caught up in her thoughts and feelings that she doesn't notice Finn approaching her with a slushie, so when it hits her, she freezes. Finn laughs a little nervously, unsure if she'll do something, but when she just stands there, he grows a little confident and beams at his jock friends who are cheering him on. When he turns back to the girl covered in corn syrup, she slowly opens her eyes and looks at him. He swallows thickly at the dark look she's giving him. It's so fiery that he swears he sees actual flames dancing in her eyes.

Lia doesn't blink or move to wipe the sticky ice away. She continues to stare Finn down as she brings her knee up to her chest and kicks the boy so hard he goes flying down the hall. Everyone in the hallway watches with rapt attention, half expecting Lia to yell 'This is Sparta' with that kick she landed. She turns on her heel, throws her book back in her locker and yanks out her jacket as she angrily makes her way out of the building. Everyone can hear the roar of her bike as she peels out of the parking lot.

By the end of the day, the entire glee club hears about what happened and glares at Finn as he limps into the choir room. Of course Mr. Schue isn't there yet, so they take this opportunity to confront Finn.

"Dude, what you did was a dick move!" Puck huffs and crosses his arms over his chest.

"Yea man, what the hell is your problem?" Sam adds.

"Talk about kicking a person when they're down." Lauren murmurs.

"Are you guys seriously going to defend her, I have bruised ribs, they're probably broken! And we've been friends way before she even came to this school!"

"She was nothing but nice to you when she came here, but of course you're a dick and ruined that for yourself. So you deserve whatever you get, especially after throwing a slushie in the face of someone whose parents just died! What is wrong with you!?" Quinn seethes.

"I think it's best you just leave, Finn. And don't bother coming back." Rachel says.

"I can't believe you guys are picking that dy–"

"Don't you dare finish that sentence!" Puck says through gritted teeth.

"Whatever, you'll all want me back, but don't expect me to still be around when you do."

"Don't worry, that'll never happen." And with that Finn is gone.

Lia gets home just in time for the rain to start. After she left school, she just rode around trying to calm down, but it was no use. She's still angry when she walks in the front door, and at seeing the pictures of her family and how everything is still the same as before they left, she just loses it. She starts kicking the furniture, throwing picture frames across the room, and flipping tables. There's broken glass and wood, shredded papers, and pieces of furniture everywhere. She rips open the front door and runs out into the rain as she finally breaks down in the front yard, letting out a heart wrenching sob.

This is the first time she's cried since finding out everything. All her suppressed feelings are bubbling out of her and she can't handle it. It's all overwhelming her, so she hops to her feet and starts sprinting down the street. She's completely numb as the freezing cold rain hits her face and bare arms, and her bare feet hit the hard concrete. The tears and rain make it hard for her to see, but she doesn't care, she keeps running. She almost gets hit by a car a couple times, but that doesn't stop her from getting to a destination in which she had no intention of going.

Soaking wet from head to toe, Lia knocks hard on the Berry's door. Her heart is pumping, her chest heaving, tears mixing with the rain, her feet sore and swollen, and she doesn't really remember how she ends up here. But as soon as Leroy opens the door, she collapses in his arms from pure exhaustion. She vaguely hears him yell over his shoulder for Hiram to get a blanket as he picks her up bridal style and carries her to the living room. They wrap her up in a warm blanket and cradle her on the couch between the both of them for extra heat.

Hiram then calls Rachel downstairs and tells her to make some tea and something light to eat. When she sees the shivering broken girl between them she panics and starts to ramble off questions, but Hiram gives her a stern look and firmly tells her to do what he asked. As she scurries to the kitchen, Leroy and Hiram continue to rub Lia's arms and back, trying to warm her up as much as possible so she doesn't get sick.

By the time Rachel comes back with the tea and some soup, the brunette is fast asleep. She sets the cup and bowl on the table, and trades places with her daddy. She runs her fingers through damp locks and looks up at her father with sad eyes.

"How did she get here?" Rachel whispers.

"From the condition of her feet and how soaking wet she is, I'm guessing she ran." Hiram answers and tears spring to Rachel's eyes.

"She's been so…numb since she came back to school, I can't imagine the emotional build up that led her to run all the way here in the rain with no jacket or shoes." She looks down at her best friend and wipes her own tears away. "Do you think we should call Quinn?"

"No." Lia croaks out. "Please. I-I cant."

"Shh it's ok. I won't call her." Rachel assures her and kisses her forehead.

After a while, Rachel gives Lia warm clothes to change into and they curl up in Rachel's bed to watch a movie. Lia is silent the whole time while Rachel is trying so hard not to push the other girl to open up. There are so many questions she wants to ask, but she knows her best friend will eventually tell her when the time is right. So she clamps her mouth shut and spoons Lia from behind as they continue to watch whatever movie is on. Rachel eventually falls asleep.

When she wakes up the next morning, Lia is gone. She figures the girl went home to get ready for school and doesn't think anything of it. Until she gets to school to find out that the other brunette isn't there. She tries calling and texting the girl, but they all go unanswered. Finally she finds Quinn and tells her what happened the night before. How her girlfriend was a complete mess and ran all the way to her house in the pouring rain with no shoes on, and then begged her not to call the blonde. Quinn is pretty pissed that they didn't call her anyway, but she gets over it and leaves school to go find her girlfriend. She's done being kept at arm's length.

Lia is sitting in front of the fireplace surrounded by the mess she made the day before. A glass of whatever alcohol she could find in the house rests in her hands as the flames from the fire reflect off her face and the music from her iPod plays in her ears. There are heavy bags and dark circles under her eyes from a sleepless night at Rachel's. She snuck out as soon as everyone was asleep and has been nursing glass after glass since then. The alcohol is getting to her and the tears make their way down her face.

Why did I have to break? I was ok being numb.

It was bound to happen sooner or later.

Why couldn't it be later? I can't handle how much my chest hurts.

It'll get better.

WHEN? It's been over a month!

It takes time, you know that.

No! It hurts too much. I ache all over.

I'm sorry. I don't know what to say.

Now, of all times, you have nothing to say. You're such a big help!

…

Just go. Leave me, like everyone else does.

A suitable song plays through her iPod speakers and she chuckles dryly. She stands on wobbly legs and takes a sip from her drink as the lyrics engulf her.

"It might take too long to turn the lights back on, I guess I lay awake, I guess I lay here and break…" she grips her glass in her hand then throws it in the fire.

The flames roar with the added fuel. Anger fills her again as she kicks around the ruble on the floor. She yanks open the door and it's raining again. How fitting for this lovely Valentine's Day. She steps out onto the porch and looks up to the sky, letting the rain wash over her face as she continues to speak the lyrics.

"Could you pour me one more drink? A glass of gasoline, help me burn my pain, light me up in the rain, my so-called life is so good." a particular sharp pain hits her in the chest as she collapses to her knees and screams the chorus. "Why do we die? Why do we die? Slow down…"

Hard sobs wrack her body as she clutches her chest and the rain beats down on her body. If she wasn't crying so hard, she might have noticed Quinn jump out of her car and call her name. She barely registers the blonde dragging her to her feet and helping her inside. Quinn sets her on the couch she manages to flip back over and runs to get a blanket. She wraps her in it and pulls her close.

"You must really want to contract pneumonia." Quinn says as she rubs Lia's arms.

The brunette continues to cry into Quinn's chest as the blonde lies down and wraps her arms around the girl. Another fitting song comes on and Quinn whispers it to her girlfriend.

"Oh, I just want to hold you, I just want to hold you, oh, yeah. Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind? Well, I don't care...You're here tonight." Lia grips Quinn's shirt tighter and cries a little harder at the lyrics. "I can be your hero, baby. I can kiss away the pain, oh, yeah. I will stand by you forever. You can take my breath away."

A couple tears escape Quinn's eyes as Lia starts to shake with how hard she's crying. The broken girl pulls away slightly and looks up at the blonde through thick tears. She opens her mouth to say something, but only a loud sob comes out. Quinn tries to shush her, but she shakes her head and tries to speak again.

"I-I'm s-s-so s-sorry." Lia stutters. "I-I'm sor-ry. I l-l-love yo-ou."

"Shh, it's ok. I love you too, so much. It's ok, I got you." Quinn holds her tighter to her body and silently cries.

Eventually they fall asleep in each other's arms with dried tears on their cheeks.

When Quinn wakes up, she's alone. She sits up and looks around, the sun went down and it's completely dark in the house, except for a light down the hall. The blonde gets up and quietly makes her way to the source. When she gets to the doorway, she spots Lia standing at her mother's dresser, hands skimming the items on it. Quinn just stands there and watches her girlfriend with sad eyes.

"They're really gone." The brunette whispers. "They died on my birthday you know. Some present that was."

Quinn wants to cry again because that's horrible to find out that your parents died on your birthday. She also feels guilty that they were doing the things they were doing while her parents were fighting for their lives.

"One second my life is the best it's been in years then the next it's…gone. It's all gone, all that progress to fill a void only to create another one." Lia turns around teary eyed and looks at Quinn. "Why am I being punished? What did I do that was so horrible to deserve all this pain? I can't take it anymore, Quinn. It hurts too much."

Quinn rushes to her girlfriend's side and holds her as she breaks down again. It hurts Quinn to see Lia hurt this much; she wishes she could take it all away. They go back to the couch and hold each other like before. Lia calms down faster than before and she pulls away from Quinn. She wipes her face and takes deep breaths before staring at the mess on the floor.

"I can't do this, Quinn. I just can't. I'm not good with these kinds of feelings. I have to turn it off. I need to make it go away." Lia says in her monotone voice.

"No. You are not shutting down! You're not shutting me out anymore." Quinn grabs her hands and forces her gaze to hers. "I've been in the dark for too long already, you have to let me in." Lia shakes her head.

"I can't. I have to–"

"No! I'm not letting you do this, not anymore. It's time to open everything up, Lia. I love you and I know you love me too, so please, just talk to me." Quinn pleads.

"I–"

"Please."

Lia looks at Quinn's distraught face and sighs heavily. The tears threaten to spill again so she clenches her jaw and runs her hands through her hair.

"This is so frustrating! I can't do anything without crying or-or-or getting angry!" she hits her fist against her knee for emphasis. "Everyone leaves. Eventually everyone I care about leaves me."

"I'm not going anywhere. I promise you."

"Don't make promises you can't keep, Quinn. My parents didn't think they were going anywhere either, but look what happened. Hell, Julian isn't even coming back. His grandparents are making him stay in Connecticut. Ha! They even kept the dog, Quinn."

"Well I promise you as long as it is in my power, I will not leave you. I will never leave you alone. You might even get sick of me because I'll always be around, but even then you won't be able to get rid of me." Lia gives her a watery chuckle and they hug.

"I love you so much, Quinn." Lia whispers.

"I love you too. Now can you please tell me where you've been for the past month?"

They settle comfortably on the couch and Lia begins with the call after Quinn left that fateful morning.

"Hello?" Lia answered.

"Lia, oh thank goodness! You have to come to Connecticut as soon as you can. It's your parents…"

Lia got this gut wrenching feeling hearing her aunt's panicked voice. She knew it was something bad. She was rooted to her spot in the living room as her aunt continued to talk, but she only caught some of it.

"Parents…car accident…hospital…a drunk driver…please hurry…"

Lia's phone slipped through her hand and crashed to the floor. Her heart beat was the loudest thing in the room, and her hands were shaky. Finally, she snapped out of it and grabbed her keys, sprinting to her car.

"So that's why you weren't answering your phone." Lia nods.

"By the time I got to the hospital, it was too late, they were gone. After that we all went back to my aunt's house and that's where I met Kaleb."

When Lia stepped into her aunt's living room and saw herself sitting on the couch, she froze. It was like looking into a mirror. Her aunt then introduced him as Kaleb, her twin brother. Lia completely freaked and ran out the house. She went to New York and roamed around the city for a while. Eventually she went back to her aunt's house when she knew that everyone would be gone. That's when she found out about her parent's will. Apparently they had a ton of money that was left to her and her brothers.

The will explains that ten million dollars will be split up amongst the three kids. Since Kaleb wasn't really a part of their lives, but still Michelle's child, he'll receive two million while Lia and Julian receive four each. They also left Lia the house, and Julian the cars. Her aunt explained that Justin worked for the Board of Education as a cover and that he really worked for the government, something extremely top secret. Apparently he was very good at his job, hence the money, plus Michelle contributed with her savings from being a lawyer.

All this information completely overwhelmed Lia and she took off again, this time not going back. She sold her car and bought a motorcycle, riding from state to state until she was ready to go home. She didn't even go to the funeral, something she will most definitely regret one day. She just couldn't handle saying goodbye to them; she didn't want to believe they were really gone.

"So if Justin wasn't your real father then how come you have his last name?" Quinn asks curiously.

"Funny thing actually. My real father's last name is also James. I guess my mother has a thing for men with that last name." Lia chuckles dryly.

"And Kaleb, he knew this whole time about you, but didn't try to contact you in any way?"

"Yep. What a lovely brother I have." The brunette deadpans.

"There must be a reason–"

"Of course there's a reason, there's always a reason, right? I mean what possible reason could there be to not find your sister!? Other than not wanting to know them? I get that my father is a piece of shit and that my mother did the best she could for us, but I have a twin, there is another person in this world that looks exactly like me, that I'm connected to, and I had no idea."

"Lia–"

"I think that's enough talking for one night, I'm really exhausted."

"Of course. Should I go or…?"

"No, I want you to stay, please."

Quinn nods and they head upstairs. They cuddle under the blankets, facing each other. Quinn looks over Lia's bruised knuckles and wonders what other injuries she's inflicted on herself in her rage. She kisses the battered flesh all the way up her arms and back down again. She runs her hands over her girlfriend's back and down over her legs, massaging as she goes. Then whispers of I love you meet their ears and they share a kiss before drifting off.

A/N: How did you guys like it? Let me know in a review!

Songs in this chapter:

Limp Bizkit - Why

Enrique Iglesias - Hero