The two weeks between Brittany's intrauterine insemination procedure and when she could take a home pregnancy test were two of the longest weeks in Santana and Brittany's relationship. Santana wanted so much for Brittany to be pregnant but at the same time she was worried about the miscarriage Brittany had suffered six months earlier. The miscarriage was devastating for both of them but Santana knew it was a different kind of sorrow for Brittany because she was the one who physically lost the baby.
The morning had finally arrived when they could find out if Brittany was pregnant or not. She hadn't gotten her period so that was a good sign. Santana woke up when her body missed Brittany laying beside her. She looked at the alarm clock which read 6 AM. Brittany only got up this early when she was going for a jog which she did about three times a week. Santana had noticed Brittany hadn't gone jogging since the in vitro but she didn't say anything to Brittany about it. She knew Brittany was afraid after the miscarriage about it happening again if she was pregnant. Santana decided to wait and talk to Brittany about her fear after they found out if she was pregnant or not.
Santana got out of bed to go and look for Brittany when she noticed their bathroom light was on. Santana walked into the bathroom and saw Brittany sitting on the edge of the tub so she sat down beside. Brittany was holding the pregnancy test box in her hand staring at it. Santana put her hand on Brittany's back and started gently rubbing it.
"I can't do it." Brittany said barely above a whisper.
"What can't you do sweetie?" Santana said as she laid her head on Brittany's shoulder.
"I can't take this test." One single tear ran down Brittany's cheek.
"You don't have to take it right now. Let's go back to bed and cuddle." Santana continued to rub Brittany's back.
"No you don't understand. I can't take this test not here. I know taking it here is private and if I'm pregnant we can celebrate together, and if I'm not pregnant we can cry together but I just can't do it." Brittany had tears streaming down her face now.
"Ok, your doctor's appointment isn't until 10 AM so you can take it anytime before we leave." Santana was confused and concerned by Brittany's behavior.
"I can't take the test at home at all. I want to wait and find out if we're pregnant when they do the test at the doctor's office. I know you are going to think I'm crazy but something inside keeps telling me if we wait and do the test at doctor's it will be positive. I just want to wait." Brittany was crying harder.
Santana pulled Brittany into a hug. "You're not crazy and it's ok with me if we wait and find out at the doctor's office. Since we both aren't working today we've got a couple of hours before we need to wake Collin up so how about we go cuddle and just relax." Santana stood up and held out her hand for Brittany to take. Brittany laid the pregnancy test on the tub before taking Santana's hand and standing up.
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Brittany was sitting on the exam table in one of those horrible paper gowns. She was hanging tightly onto Santana's hand. Santana sat in a chair beside the exam table trying not to let her nerves show but couldn't help it as she bounced her right knee up and down. They were waiting for Dr. Stephen's to return with the results of Brittany's pregnancy test.
Dr. Stephens seemed surprised when they told him they hadn't done a pregnancy test at home but it wasn't a problem because Brittany needed to take one at the doctor's office anyway.
The door opened and both women jumped. Dr. Stephen's sat down on his stool with wheels. "Well ladies congratulations Brittany is pregnant."
Brittany took in a deep breath and let it out before starting to cry uncontrollably. Santana stood up and held her while they both cried. "I love you so much Britt." She whispered in Brittany's ear. Brittany was crying so hard she couldn't speak she nodded her head which Santana knew meant she loved her too.
Dr. Stephen's waited for Santana and Brittany to calm down before he spoke again. "Your due date is around August 24th. I'm going to give you a prescription for prenatal vitamins. I want to see you again in two weeks and I'm going to do an ultrasound. You can continue to do your normal daily routine. I know you are thinking about the miscarriage but that doesn't mean it will happen again. I want you to think positively. If you have any questions before your next appointment give me a call. The nurse will be in to take some blood for the formal pregnancy test and then you can go home. We will call in a couple of days with the result of the blood test to confirm the pregnancy and to see how you are feeling. Do either of you have any questions?"
Brittany still couldn't speak so she just shook her head. "No we don't have any questions right now but we will call if we have any. Thank you Dr. Stephens." Santana felt the need to give him a hug which surprised both him and her. He had been there for her when she got pregnant with Collin and he had been there for Brittany during all of her failed pregnancy attempts and her miscarriage.
When they left the doctor's office Santana and Brittany walked to the car hand in hand. Once they got in the car Santana looked over at Brittany who was sitting in the passenger seat and gave her a huge smile. At first Brittany didn't smile back which concerned Santana but then a smile appeared on Brittany's face too.
"Britt, I know the miscarriage is going to be on your mind for awhile until you get far enough along in your pregnancy that a miscarriage isn't likely to happen. I want you to promise me that when you get scared or worried you will talk to me about it so I can help you deal with it. At the same time I want you to be happy about being pregnant and not worry all of the time. We both need to stay positive for this baby growing inside you." Santana reached over and put her hand on Brittany's stomach.
"I promise I'll talk to you when get scared or worried and not shut you out but I want you to promise me that you will talk to me too. Don't worry about upsetting me because if you're scared I want to know. Ok?" Brittany put her hand on top of Santana's hand on her stomach.
"Ok. What about telling our families and Quinn and Puck? Do you want to wait? Last time we had to tell them as soon as we found out because they knew you had the in vitro procedure but since this time we decided not to tell them we were trying again we can wait and tell them later if you want to." Santana leaned over and kissed Brittany's temple.
"Christmas is a couple of weeks away let's tell them then. I don't want to wait. I want to us to be positive about this pregnancy and the first step is sharing it with the people we love." Brittany blue eyes sparkled which let Santana know Brittany was truly happy and for the moment not worrying.
"It will be a great Christmas gift for everyone. How about we go out for a nice lunch just the two of us? My mom said she would watch Collin all day." Santana finally took her hand off from Brittany's stomach, buckled her seat belt and started the car.
Santana and Brittany had just pulled into the restaurant parking lot when Brittany's phone rang.
"Hi Puck what's going on ? We'll be right there!" Brittany's voice got louder.
Santana scowled at her. "We'll be right where?"
"The hospital, Quinn's in labor." Brittany squealed.
Didn't want you to think I forgot about this story. This is a shorter chapter than I usually like to write but I wanted to prepare you for what's coming. Surprise! Quinn and Puck are having a baby! Just so you know Brittany will not have a miscarriage this time. I wouldn't do that to them. Doesn't mean things won't get interesting though along the way.