Chapter 36: Simply Give In

In the time of a single moment, I found myself up again a wall. Nik's lips were devouring mine as I kissed him back. His hands roamed my body as mine ran through his hair. I was completely and utterly consumed by him.

What kind of passion was this? Lust or love? Either I had been suffering the need to be touched by a man for the last five hundred years or I truly loved him and needed his touch.

I was in no condition to be making decisions that could have a lasting effect over me. I wanted his touch, I craved his touch, and I shivered under it. After each kiss, I was left panting and as he trailed kiss down my neck, I gasped. He was kissing me with such passion and began to wrap my legs around his waist. He was going to move me and I knew exactly where that would lead. Up the secret passage in the room and to "our" master bedroom, if he could make it that far. It was funny, he had never slept in "our" room. I guess he was waiting for me. Afraid to be alone, he wouldn't allow himself to be in a room or bed that big by himself.

I couldn't allow myself to fall. I couldn't allow myself to be weak. And so, with all the strength and willpower I possessed, I threw him off of me and into a near by wall. All it took was a single moment. In the blink of an eye, I had fled at top speed as far away from that man as possible.

In the backyard, there stood a garden. It possessed an intricate maze leading toward the center. The perimeter was a square and at each corner, one could enter. The lush green maze was divided into four identical sections that met in the middle with an extravagant streamed down my face and no amount of fighting could hold them back. My hair was ruined, my makeup ran down my face, and I was a mess. I wasn't two minutes into sobbing when I felt the presence of another.

"Go away, Niklaus!" I yelled with what strength I had left as I sat with my back against the fountain. "I can't. I-I just can't do this anymore," I sobbed as I curled into my body with my head on my knees.

He didn't say anything, He simply sat down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. That's when I knew it wasn't Klaus, it was Kol. He somehow pulled me into his lap. I cried into his brand new shirt, my makeup even rubbed onto it, but he never complained and he never protested. What he did was stroke my hair and try to sooth me. "Shhh. It's okay. It's okay. Everything is going to be fine," he repeated over and over again in an attempt to be my hero. He never need to try though. He had always been my hero. I never asked him to be, he simply always was.

I looked up at him. "N-n-no it-it's not, Kol," I stated with deep breath in between the sobbing.

"You don't know that."

"Ye-yes I do! Look around, Kol because all I see are black and white roses in this gar-garden. That's death, purity, secrecy, silence, innocence, and charm. None of those are a good combination. Nothing good is ever coming!" I moved my sobs back to his shirt and he resumed trying to sooth me.

After I had cried myself dry, I fell into a state of sleep from exhaustion. I remembered feeling as if he was carrying me in his arms to my room. In a drone state, I changed and he tucked me into bed. Gently, he brushed my hair out of the way and placed a chaste kiss on my forehead. As he began to leave me, I grabbed it hand and said, "Stay. Please. I can't sleep alone. I just can't." Swiftly and with ease, he moved to the other side of the bed, took of all his clothes, folded them neatly, and left them on the chair. He was left only in his boxers as he got into bed and wrapped his arms around me. His body seemed warm, his arms secure, and I was able to drift off into a deep sleep.

He was my hero, my knight in shining armor. Not because he picked up the pieces through hugs and soothing words. It was because he was always there for me. When I need him, he was there. Even when he was daggered and I needed him the most, he was in my heart and in my revenge. The goal of freeing him from his coffin after he had sacrificed himself for me was what kept me sane. No matter what I needed or needed him to be, he always came through. Kol was the one constant in my thick and thin, he was right beside me.

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