A/N: I really enjoyed my vacation and I so didn't want to come back and go to work. We went to Florida to Disney and Universal. Anyway I hope you enjoy this chapter and please review.

Rating: M

Disclaimer: I do not own Lost or any characters or anything that looks familiar. Natalie is my character.

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Natalie looked over at Sawyer.

"I just changed these sheets," she told him.

"Hey, you're the one that pulled me over here," he told her. "We would have been just fine in the chair."

"Well I'm glad I volunteered for button duty tonight and that you decided to stay with me tonight."

"Yeah me to," Sawyer agreed and he moved over and kissed her.

"Should we get up?" she asked.

"Probably," he told her.

"Alright," she sighed. "Lets get up."

Natalie and Sawyer got out of bed and got dressed and Natalie sat behind the computer so she could push the button.

"Do you really believe that pushing a button is going to save the world?" Natalie asked him.

"I don't know if I believe it or not but everyone else seems to," Sawyer told her as he sat down by her.

"It just sounds like some weird kind of experiment to me," Natalie told him.

"Yeah I guess it does," Sawyer agreed.

"I mean what if that is what this Dharma was," she said. "A group of people doing experiments. I mean you have polar bears, this hatch that was in the ground. I mean Desmond really believed he was saving the world and that if he didn't take shots he'd get sick," she said. "Maybe he was saving the world but I don't know," she sighed.

"No one knows and they won't ever know unless that button isn't pushed," Sawyer told her.

"Yep," she agreed.

The next morning Sawyer and Natalie walked back to the beach.

"So did everything go ok at the hatch last night?" Jack asked when he saw them.

"Better than ok," Natalie told him. "Nothing unusual happened," she told him.

"Good," Jack sighed.

"Everything's ok Jack, everything will be fine," she told him. "I'm going to go get something to eat."

"Alright," he said. "I need to ask Sawyer something anyway."

"I don't want to know," she said and walked off.

"What is it?" Sawyer asked when Natalie was gone.

"You're with Natalie all the time," Jack said. "So I was thinking with the possibility of Johnny popping up at any minute, you might need something if things get out of hand."

"Like what?" Sawyer asked sensing Jack had something in mind.

"This," Jack said pulling out one of the guns.

"You're giving me a gun?" Sawyer asked shocked.

"Yes but only to use if you need it," he said. "Can I trust you to do that?"

"Yes you can," he said and Jack handed him the gun. Sawyer took it and put it in the back of his pants.

"Here," Jack said and handed him some extra bullets. "Don't let her know I gave it to you, she'll get all mad." Jack said. "You know how she can be."

"I know," he said. "Thanks." He added and Jack nodded and walked away.

Sawyer went to his tent hoping to get the gun and bullets put away before Natalie saw it. When he went inside his tent he saw she wasn't there yet so he quickly hid it in a box and put the bullets with hit and threw some clothes and books over it. He had just walked outside when Natalie walked over with breakfast.

"Here," she said and sat down with breakfast.

"Thanks," he said and sat down by her.

"So did Jack have anything interesting to say?" Natalie asked.

"Not really," Sawyer said. "Just checking up on you."

"Because he didn't believe me when I told him I was ok," she said.

"Its not that he didn't he didn't believe you, its just that he knows you wouldn't tell him if something was wrong."

"That's not true," she yelled..

"It is Natalie," he said calmly.

"Its not James and I'm not arguing about it," she said in a final tone.

"You never tell him when something is wrong unless you have to," Sawyer pointed out.

"He has enough to deal with without having to worry about me," She told him. "And since when do you get along with Jack."

"Since I have to. To keep you safe."

"I'll be fine," Natalie said. "I don't need anyone to protect me," she told him and stood up. "And I'm going for a walk alone, don't follow me," she told him and walked off. Sawyer watched her walk away. She got a good distance away before he got the gun and followed her.

Natalie knew she shouldn't have yelled at Sawyer. He was looking out for her and she knew that but things were a little frustrating for her right now. She guessed things might be frustrating for Sawyer and Jack as well. Its just sometimes she wished they would just leave her alone. She loved Sawyer and Jack both just in different ways of course. She continued walking not really paying attention to anything around her. She stopped when she heard someone following her. She stopped and looked around but didn't see anything. She kept walking and heard something in the bushes behind her. She hoped it was just Sawyer making sure she was ok, she knew he'd be to stubborn to listen to her and not follow her. She just kept walking and heard something move again when she did. She stopped and bent down and picked up a stick and two rocks. She threw the stick first and it hit something. She heard a muffled sound. Then she threw both rocks one after the other.

"Ouch! Damn It!" someone yelled and Sawyer came walking out.

"I knew it was you, I told you not to follow me," Natalie said angrily.

"If you knew it was me why did you throw rocks at me?" he asked.

"Serves you right for following me," she said crossing her arms. Sawyer looked down at her.

"I wanted to make sure you were ok," he said and Natalie looked up at him.

"And that makes it ok?" she asked.

"I love you," Sawyer said she smiled.

"Yeah I know," she sighed. "I love you to," she said and took a step closer to him and laid her head on his chest and wrapped her arms around him. He hugged her back. "Did I hurt you?" she asked.

"I'm fine but I can't believe you threw rocks at me," he said and she pulled away and looked at him.

"Well believe it," she said smiling. "You shouldn't have followed me, I asked you not to."

"No you told me not to," he corrected her. "You know how much I hate being told what to do."

"Almost as much as I hate being told what to do," she said. "I'll be fine, you don't have to follow me everywhere."

"You don't think I know you can take care of yourself and that you don't really need me," He sighed.

"James," she said touching his face. "Just because I can take care of myself doesn't mean I don't need you," she said softly. "I still need you and want you." She whispered gently taking his hands in hers. "I love you to much to ever let you go," she told him and he smiled and kissed her.

"Lets go," he said and she nodded and they walked back to the beach.

Sawyer and Natalie walked back to the beach and sat outside their tent. Sawyer looked over at her.

"So," he said. "Are you the type of girl who would have settled down and got married if you hadn't crashed here?"

"Yeah I think so," she said. "If a guy would have wanted to marry me," she added. "A lot of guys want children and I can't give them that," she said and looked at Sawyer. "Plus most of the guys I dated were not the marrying type anyway."

"Like who?"

"Johnny, definitely not. Boone maybe he would have gotten married, maybe he wouldn't," she said. "And you."

"Me," he said.

"Yeah of course, you seem like the type of guy who would never get married."

"Never," he said raising his eyebrows.

"Well unless it was part of a con," she said.

"You're right," he said. "I probably wouldn't have gotten married," he sighed. "But if I did marry someone it would be you."

"Even though you would never get a kid out of it?" she asked.

"Kids are not a big deal for me, I don't have to have a kid," he told her. "Why is it such a big deal for you?"

"Because that's what women do, have children," she said. "And I don't say that like its all women do because its not," she said holding her hands out. "Women do great things, have great jobs and careers and all that," she sighed. "But God gave women the ability to have children, that's something men can't do. Women have the ability to give birth to children and I can't even do that," she said upset.

"Hey," Sawyer said. "It doesn't mean anyone thinks any less of you or anything," he told her. "Would you think any less of me if I couldn't get a woman pregnant?"

"No, that would be ridiculous," she said.

"Ok and no one here thinks any less of you because you can't have kids."

"You and Jack are the only ones who know," she told him.

"Still you know what I'm saying."

"Yeah I do," she said. "And thanks."

"We're going to figure out how to end this with Johnny," Sawyer told her and she looked over at him. "I'm a lot like him you know. When I see the way he acted I can see myself in him." He sighed.

"I don't," Natalie said. "I may have said you and Johnny were similar a long time ago but you're really not."

"You don't think so?" he asked.

"No," she told him.

"Why?"

"Because Johnny would have bailed on me a long time ago and you're still here," she said.

"And I'm not going anywhere," he told her and she looked at him and smiled.

"Uh-oh," she said.

"What is it?" he asked.

"You're getting a little bump on your head from where the rock hit you," she told him moving his hair away from his forehead.

"Are you serious?" he asked.

"Yeah," she said running her fingers gently across his forehead. "I'm sorry."

"Its ok, I shouldn't have followed you when you told me not to," he said.

"No you shouldn't have but I understand why you did," she told him. "I would have done the same thing."

"Because you're stubborn," Sawyer said.

"Ok I'm stubborn but so are you," She told him.

"My best quality don't you think?" he asked and she looked at him.

"Hardly," she said. "I can think of plenty of other better qualities," she said and leaned over and kissed his lips. "You're a wonderful guy," she said and kissed his neck. "A great kisser," she added and kissed his lips. "You're good in bed," she said kissing his neck. "Do I need to go on?"

"No," he said. "I get it," he added and leaned over and kissed her.