Yesterday was a full on day and my baby didn't feel right. I was hurting and she was too and this morning I don't feel so good as well. I feel sick but not like morning sickness but pain In my lower back and stomach. It could just be growing or Ally I'm not sure but I'm worried. I turn to my side to see Jughead just staring at me "staring is creepy" I say "no it's not especially if I'm staring at you" he answers "what are you doing today" I ask "I was going to go around and see Archie as we haven't really seen much of each other what about you baby" he says. It's a good thing he wants to see Archie again I need my friends back together "I was going to see if Toni wanted a girls day" I say. I just want to get out before all I do is mothering stuff. "How about you get ready and I'll make breakfast" Jug suggest "mmm yes please" I answer. We get out of bed and do exactly what he says.
When he leaves the room I shut the door but when I'm standing straight the pain increases in my stomach. Something isn't right. I hunch over and grab some loose but ok clothes and them on. I brush out my hair and tie it up and put on a jacket. I go to the dining and table and wait for the food that smells amazing.
Jughead made me breakfast and now has left. I called Toni asking for a girls day and she is coming over to pick me up as I'm not allowed to dive apparently but I don't think I can.
It takes not long until she arrives. I let her inside and she sits down. "Hey how you feeling because your not looking so good Betty maybe we can have a stay in girls day" she makes sure I'm ok "I'm ok just feeling a bit unwell today, let's go to Pop's" I say. I grab my usual day stuff and we take her bike to Pop's.
We order and are sitting in a booth but my eyes feel like there going to close. When our food comes I feel like I've never ate before. Toni is starting at me with a strange look "Betty your baby stomach is looking a bit low today is everything alright" I hesitate for a moment as I didn't notice. "I'll be back in a second Toni" I rise out of the booth but my back hurts really bad. I put one hand on the edge and on on my back. Toni stands up and helps me for support "I've got you" she says helping me to the bathroom.
As I go to the bathroom with Toni waiting outside I feel so sick. I have looked at my underwear which has shed of blood and blood tissue. I'm sitting on the floor crying because I think I know what this all means but I don't want to believe it. The pains and now this. I opened the door to Toni now standing up the tears came faster "Oh honey" she pulled me into a hug. "Toni I need to get a test or ultrasound" I try to say "it's ok we will do that now I'm not leaving you, do you want me to call Jughead" she says "No I just can't" I answer "it's ok" we walk back to her bike and she drives to where she needs to take me.
We pull up at the ultrasound place and wait in the waiting room. When my usual nurse calls me in Toni comes in with me and I lay on the bed.
She does the gel and all, I explain to her about what I was feeling today but when the screen is on there is Ally but something is wrong "can you please turn up the sound I can't hear her" I ask "Betty it's all the way it can go" I look to the screen and there is Ally just lying there in my womb. This can't be real "I'm sorry Betty but you have had a miscarriage I'm so sorry but we do now need to get you into the next stage with you should be ASAP" I have to get my baby taken away, my baby girl has died "how, how" I question "it can be either from stress and a lot of commotion going on for you it happens easily" she says "how soon can we get her removed I just can't have her in me if she is no longer alive" I ask "I can get you transported right away but you should have your partner" she answers. "Toni Call Jughead I want this done and I can't wait I'm hurting".
It's an hour later or so and I'm in the hospital getting ready to go in for the procedure. Jughead is not here and I'm so nervous. When the nurses and doctors start to wheel me away I hear "BETTY" I know the voice. "Juggie" I shout back. He comes racing over to me and by my side. Tears streaming down his face "I'm so sorry baby but I will be here when this is all over I promise baby this is going to be ok" he comforts. I let go of his hand and close my eyes and try and forget what is about to happen.
It's a been a while and I'm now lying down in a bed that looks like Jughead's. I should be in the hospital. I fully open my eyes. Jughead and the rest of the crew are out in the main room. I try and move out of bed feeling really sore. I grab one of my bags and put a couple pair of clothes and stuff in it. I walk back out to the others with my bag on my back. "Oh B" Roni says and Archie "No you are not going to apologise" I demand "can we help" Toni says "yes, yes one of you can" I say "what do you need anything Betts" Sweet-Pea says "cousin I'm here for you whenever" Cheryl speaks. "I need my own space at the moment, I was going to stay in the spare room in the Wyrm I just need someone to drive me there as I'm sore" I explain. The expressions on their faces are shocked "no baby you need to be in your bed or one of your own beds, you can't do there is your old house you can stay in or I'll move out when I want to be with you but" Jughead stutters. "Jug are you listening to yourself Betty is tired she isn't thinking straight" Cheryl says "Cher I'm right here who ever will I want to be in my old house or somewhere" I say "I'll take you, this way you will next to Archie If you need help" Jughead Answer "Jug I can do it like you said I'm right next to her" "Arch do argue with me on this one I'm taking her" they argue "Jug please I need to be in my other house please" I walk out the door and to his bike ignoring all of them. He gets on his bike and drives me to the house.
We get there and he walks me inside. "Archie will be right next to you I'm sorry baby I want to be with you even if it's just for tonight please don't shut me out baby, she was going to be my little girl too ok it hurts I knkw but this isn't your fault don't beat yourself up over it" he holds my hands in his. "Juggie I just need time please I'm sorry, I forced this on you I was drunk and upset this is my fault falling pregnant was a mistake I should of got it removed when we found out" I debate "now please go" I bluntly speak. I kiss him until I pull away "I love you" he says leaving and closing the door behind him.
I go over to the kitchen and open a cabinet that I thought I wouldn't open until I was messed up, I pull out the liquor and walk up to my room!