(Ashley p.o.v)
I walked out of the bathroom. Kyla was sitting on the bed. "Kyla are you about ready." I said looking for some clothes in my suitcase.
"yeah I going to jump in the shower real quick." kyla said getting up off the bed. "sis I need some clothes." Kyla said turning around.
"alright" I said not to load. I am so out of it today. I don't know what I am doing from here. I have to stay strong for kyla even I though I don't know if I can.
I set on the bed waiting on kyla. I look at my phone hoping there is a text from Spencer but nothing. I text her 'hey Spence I'm sorry. I love you I'll text you when I get my new phone.' I sent it and waited for her to text me back but nothing.
kyla got out of the shower. "hey sis are you okay." kyla said walking over to me.
"yep never been better." I said looking at my phone one last time. still no text from Spencer. "you ready." I said with no feeling at all in my voice.
"yeah." Kyla said walking out the door and grabbing my suitcase on her way.
I look down at my phone on last time. nothing still nothing not no I love you or I hate you because as of right now I would hate me too.
I get up off the bed. I walk outside and get into the car.
(Spencer p.o.v)
Ashley is such an ass. I can't believe her. why the fuck would she just leave like that. I got her text and you best believe she is not getting one back from me.
I walk downstairs and go into the kitchen. I get a water bottle out of the frigerator. I set at the table and I grab my notebook and a pen.
I just start writing.
I've thrown away too much of my life
Holding you late at night
Just to catch you slippin' out the door
I'm over you it's gone to far
Girls like me are just to smart
Sayin sorry wont work anymore
The one thing worse than being alone
Is being in love on your own
If I cant have your heart than I'm through
Wasting kisses all of them on you
Theres always something wrong with you
Today its me tomorrow too
Complain at how you never catch a brake
Well its too late you'll never see
The kind of girl i thought you'd be
Cuz your too busy counting your mistakes
Like me
The one thing worse than being alone
Is being in love on your own
If I cant have your heart than I'm through
Wasting kisses
One day fool your gunna see
The big mistake was losing me
And when you call me up I'm gunna say
The one thing worse than being alone
Was being in love on my own
No you cant have my heart cuz its through
Wasting time on you
The one thing worse than being alone
Was being in love on my own
No you cant have my heart cuz its through
Wasting time on you
I'm wasting kisses
I'm wasting kisses
I'm wasting kisses
No you cant have my heart cuz its through
Wasting time on you
I know its harsh but that is how I feel right now. I feel like my whole relationship with her was just a waste of my time and hers.
I fell in love with her way to fast. alright I really need to get my mind of her. I going to get dressed and go for a jog after. then take a shower and go to school.
"glen, clay I'm going for a run!" I yelled. I walked out the door and closed it behind me it's like six in the morning.
I just take off running. I get the the park near the school witch is to miles away from my brother's house.
I walked over to the swing and just started swinging.
"I've thrown away too much of my life
Holding you late at night
Just to catch you slippin' out the door
I'm over you it's gone to far
Girls like me are just to smart
sayin sorry wont work anymore" I sing the the top of my lungs.
"What's with the sad song." someone said from behind me.
I jumped off the swing and turned around. there stood Madison.
"I don't really want to talk bout it." I said looking down at my feet.
" do you need a hug." Madison said walking over to me.
"yeah that would be nice." I said falling into her. I just let it all out. tears falling so fast I couldn't stop them.
"it's okay Spencer. Ashley will come back." Madison said rubbing my back.
"it's not that..." that is I got out before I kissed her I don't know why I did but I wanted to.
Madison just stood there still as fuck just letting kiss her with so much force and need.
I pushed her up against the back of the slide. I pick her up and wrapped her legs around me.
I stopped kissing her lips and started on her neck. "Spencer...you..you...need...to...stop..." Madison said out of breath. she pulled my head up pulling my lips off the neck. so now I am looking her in the face.
"I want this." I said plan as day trying to kiss her again.
"I'm with Kyla and your with Ashley." she said.
I let her. "FUCK!" i yell falling to the ground crying even more.
"what is it Spencer." Madison said kneeling down beside me.
"Ashley a fucking ass." I say crying even more.
"what happened." she said rubbing my back.
"I think we broke up last night. i told her she was an ass and shhh...she just left..telling me it was dumb for her to fall in love with me." I said crying even more.
" what the fuck." madison said getting out her phone and call Ashley.
' the number you have dail has been changed disconnected or is no longer in severe.' Madison hung her phone and looked at me with a blank look.
"I'll call ky." she said.
'the number you have dail...' she hung up her phone.
" fuck them both" she said helping me up off the ground. I know I should tell her but I couldn't find the words to right now.
after school tonight we are going to party. now let's get you inside and changed for class." she said. it is Friday.
we walk back to the room. Madison hands me an school girl outfit that was still left in my drawer.
I walk into the bathroom. I get undressed and get in the shower. I let the water hit my body trying to get my thoughts together.
I don't know what came over me. why the I kissed Madison. I didn't want to I just didn't want to hurt anymore.
I wash my hair and my body and get out of the shower. I get ready for school. I walk back into the room and get in my drawer. I get out my makeup I left here and put some on.
I don't want anyone to ask me what is wrong. am I okay nothing like that. I can't deal with that right now.
I just want to scream but I know I can't. I walk to class with the other girls not saying a word.
I set down in my set next to Madison. I look down at my desk and I look up and see Ashley. I know it is just my mind playing tricks on me. as of right now I don't care.
I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I know it had to be Ashley.
"Spencer Carlin." I looked around and the was the teacher standing in front of my desk.
"yeah." I said in a whisper.
"go up to the board and tell me what the answer is." the lady said. I walk up to the board and just look at it.
I have no clue what it says I just keep thinking about anything that has happened in the last few hours.
I just write seven on the board. that is how many years there is between me and Ashley. wow I am so much younger than her.
" that is correct. you may have a seat." the teacher said and I got set back down.
the bell rings I walk out of class and pull out my phone. it was a miss call and I have a voicemail.
I call my voicemail. 'hey Spence it's this is my new number save it if you want to. if not it fine. I am so sorry for everything the other night. I want you back as my girl. wow fuck I didn't know it was going to be this hard. I love you with every inch of my being. please Spence call me back. god...Spence...please...' the I heard crying and she hung up.
I just looked off into space. honestly I don't know what to go right now.
"Spencer are you alright." Madison said walking up behind me.
"yeah I'm good never been better." I said walking away.
Madison grabs my hand and pulls me into the bathroom.
"talk. what the fuck is going on with you." Madison said pushing me in the bathroom.
"you already know." I said crying.
"Spencer that was her on the phone wasn't it." Madison said
"yes. she want me to call her back." I said just looking at myself in the mirror.
"the call her. I will stay right here if you want me to." Madison said rubbing my back.
"thanks mads but I really need to talk to her when I'm not upset." I said wiping the tears off my face.
we walk out of the bathroom and to our next class.
(Ashley p.o.v)
so we got new phone. I got a Samsung galaxy s5 and Kyla got a iPhone 6 plus. I think that is what hers is call. we are at a restaurant call Scaddy's.
"Kyla I will be right back." I said walking into the bathroom.
I call Spencer and she doesn't pick up she must be in class.
'hey Spence it's this is my new number save it if you want to. if not it fine. I am so sorry for everything the other night. I want you back as my girl. wow fuck I didn't know it was going to be this hard. I love you with every inch of my being. please Spence call me back. god...Spence...please...' the I start crying and hung up.
I just really want to hear her voice right now. I want to see her tell and show her how sorry I am. no I can't I have to stay strong for kyla. I know I shouldn't have called her but I wanted to I needed to.
I waited for a few more minutes. still no call from Spencer. class is over by now why isn't she calling me.
I shove my phone back in my pocket and walk out of the bathroom.