A/N: Hey guys! I want to give thanks to ALL of the readers out there who have left reviews and made this whole first Instant Star Fanfic a great experience! Sadly though, I hate to say that this story is coming to an end. I think I've slightly ended it abruptly, but all loose ends will be tied in the sequel that should be up by next week at the latest. Thanks again to everyone who has read this!
Weeks have passed, and Georgia spent the whole week with them to help with Jude. The tour had been cancelled, only to be scheduled for another time for all who had bought tickets to just come to the concert at a later date with the same ticket. Jude seemed to be fine, nothing had triggered her memory to return, so there was no possible way for her to not seem ok. Tommy, Sadie, Nate, and everyone else acted as if Jude was a broken China doll that was only held together by weak glue.
One day, while Jude was at the studio, playing a tune she couldn't find words to fit it, when Kwest knocked at the door. Jude smiled unemotionally at him and he walked in.
"What's on your mind?" Kwest asked as he pulled the swivel chair in front of her.
"Nothing at the moment, just a little frustrated with getting some lyrics out for this tune,"
"Something clouding your mind?" Kwest said, his eye brows slightly raised and Jude realized where he was getting at.
"Kwest, I'm fine, ok? It's not because of that. I'm just having a normal writer's mental block," Jude said a little attitude in her voice, everyone had been acting this way around her.
"Jude it's not healthy to bottle this up-"
"I'M NOT BOTTLING ANYTHING UP!" Jude yelled standing up from where she was sitting. Jude inhaled deeply to try and calm her nerves, but she was still angry with the way people have been treating her.
"Calm down Jude, we're just all worried that's all. Usually you tell us what's on your mind and now you are acting like nothing has happened," Kwest said standing up to face her.
"How do you expect me to act? I DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING! Am I supposed to walk around here using this as my crutch or something? I can't act like I was assaulted when I have no recollection of it! So I'm in pain a little but that's expected from the 3 broken ribs I have! I can't go around faking fear when I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE THAT SCARED!" Jude vented, she grabbed her guitar and notebook.
"Where are you going!" Kwest shouted after her, but she just kept walking out to the parking lot until Georgia stopped her.
"Jude, what's wrong? Something happen?" Georgia asked.
"I'm just sick of you all walking on egg shells around me!" Jude snapped in her face and pushed her way through the doors and drove away. She called Jay and told him to meet her at the rehearsal space.
Jude arrived at her rehearsal space where Jay already was, he was the only person who didn't act like she was going to crack. Jude couldn't hold her frustrations inside anymore, she had to vent.
"I'm sick of them all! They keep an eye on me like I'm about to fall to my knees and sob telling them how badly it all hurts! THERE'S NOTHING THAT'S HURTING WHEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED!" Jude yelled her face turning red.
"Tell them then. Jude, they aren't going to stop worrying until you convince them that you aight," Jay said eating gummy worms.
"And how do I tell them that? I already yelled at Sadie the other night and she thought it was a cover up!" And suddenly, Jude's saw flashes of her dressing room of that night. She tasted the foul taste of a sedative, and felt her lungs close up and a sudden pain in her abdomen. She crouched down clutching her neck with one hand and her stomach with the other. Jay immediately threw the bag of candy on the ground and went to Jude's side.
"Jude! Jude! Snap out of it! Jude!" Jude looked up at him, her face started to turn it's normal color and she had let go of her neck and stomach.
"Oh my god…Jay, I just remembered a small bit of that night," Jude said in an whisper, almost close to tears, but she held it in.
"It's ok girl, the amnesia was only temporary, what did you remember?"
"I tasted the rag, it was so foul. And then I felt and saw his arms gripping my neck so tightly I could barely breathe. And then, then he just started kicking me," Jude finally cried a little while Jay held her.
"It's alright, let it out, it's a lot to take in at once," Jay said rubbing her back in comforting circles.
"Yeah, I just, I can't believe that's what happened. Not to mention, that's not even all of it," Jude said wiping her eyes.
"Look girl, maybe you should talk to Tommy about all of this, I mean he is your boyfriend. Not to mention, he's worried about you like no other, if you're going to assure someone that you are and will be alright, you gotta convince him first," Jay said giving Jude a hug.
Jude knew he was right, once everyone saw that Tommy believed her, everyone else would.
"Well, I have to meet Tommy at my place for our date, so I'll see you tomorrow," Jude said giving him a kiss on the cheek as they said their byes and Jude drove home to see that Tommy was already there.
"Hey babe, where were you?" Tommy asked kissing Jude on the cheek.
"I was at the rehearsal space with Jay. My mom was going insane and kept indirectly questioning me if I had gotten my memory back yet," Jude said as they got in his viper.
"Did you?"
"Don't be mad, but while I was talking or venting to Jay at the rehearsal space, some of it did," Jude said while Tommy slammed on the breaks.
"Are you ok? What were they of?" Tommy immediately started shouting out answers.
"See! This is why I don't like talking to you guys about what happened because you immediately start shooting off questions! This is why I lock myself at my rehearsal space and only letting Jay in! He doesn't bombard me like you all do!" Jude shouted sitting back in the passenger's seat.
"Well I'm sorry that we're all worried about you Jude! But you keep shutting everyone out and not talking about anything!" Tommy yelled back.
"BECAUSE I'M SICK OF YOU ALL ACTING LIKE I'M GOING TO BREAK EVERY 10 SECONDS!" Jude yelled, she unlocked her side door and jumped out of the car walking home.
"Jude! Jude! Where are you going!" Tommy asked.
"Away from you! I'm so sick of everything right now I don't want to look at you!" Jude shouted as she got into her car and drove off back to the rehearsal space.
Tommy slammed on his hood and got back inside his car. He drove furiously back to G Major where he found Kwest mixing a song for Riley.
"Kwest! You have a couple minutes!" He shouted through clenched teeth.
"Uh, sure," Kwest put down the head phones and walked outside with Tommy.
If it were at all humanly possible, Tommy would have steam blowing out his ears right now. Kwest saw the anger in his eyes and immediately asked.
"Something go wrong with Jude?"
"Wrong? Ha! Things didn't just go wrong, she exploded. Not the way we all expected either, she exploded from anger. She's pissed off and frustrated with us all except for Jay because 'he doesn't bombard' her like we do!" Tommy vented, he looked ready to punch something.
"Hey, bro, calm down now, alright? We've all been worried about her and have been expecting her to crack any moment now with memories. You need to breathe and relax alright?" Kwest said trying to rationalize with Tommy.
"She did remember. She remembered some of it today while at the rehearsal space with Jay," Tommy mentioned.
"Ok, so, I'm assuming you immediately jumped down her throat and started asking her what happened?" Kwest said.
"You- how do you manage to know all these things?" Tommy asked surprised.
"I've known you over ten years now, you're very predictable now. I'm telling you now, give her some space, let her breathe, we are all worried and scared for her, but the best way to let her heal is to let her figure out she needs us," Kwest said.
"How come you know all the Dr. Phil like advice?" Tommy asked.
"What can I say? Never underestimate the mind of Kwest," and they walked back inside G Major.
Jude had just finished finally putting the lyrics to a tune she had been working on for quite some time now. Her fight with Tommy gave her the inspiration she needed to write the song. Just as she was about to play the song through one more time, the last flash of memories of what happened flooded her mind and she had immediately dropped her acoustic guitar.
:flashback:
Jude's eyes fluttered open and she found her attacker on top of her, kissing her neck and him reaching for belt buckle until she started to feel her sense of touch return and her paralysis leave. Her legs immediately started to feel stronger than usual, and when she felt the buckle almost completely off, she immediately bit him in the ear and kneed him in the groin. The man stifled his loud roar, he quickly got up and stepped right on Jude's ankle, she almost screamed but her voice was hoarse from the paralysis. Tears began to drip down her face when she felt the pain all over her body and when she saw the blue vase hit her on the side of her head. And then everything returned to black.
:end of flashback:
Jude returned with short breaths and her arms wrapped around herself. She cried what seemed like rivers for only a few minutes before she finally stopped herself. She wasn't going to allow this guy to take over her. As much as he had hurt her, and all that he has and will put her through, she won't let him become afraid of everything. She wiped her tears and grabbed her phone.
"Sadie? Call everyone up and tell them to meet me at the rehearsal space, it's important,"