Chapter 34 - Understanding
Jimmy didn't understand. Of course he didn't, he didn't see, hear, feel what I did. I felt my heart being crushed, in a way I couldn't quite understand I was connected to her. What if... what if somehow I was still that ... thing. Just in a different form, is that why I don't remember much? Am I even the same person? So many questions!
"Ugh!" I groaned as I fell to my knees. My head and heart throbbed to the point where I could hear it in my ears.
"Kristen?" Ben's voice was muffled, the sound of his voice made my heart quicken and it only hurt more, but in an entirely new way. I felt ... heartbroken.. why? We were still together so what do I have to be upset over? It would come back to me whatever it was. "Kristen!"
"Huh? Oh, sorry. I'm fine" I got to my feet again. These flashes were getting worse and a lot more frequent. About ten months out of school and I still know the big words! Wait, can I even spell frequent? F... R... E... Q... umm... ah, bugger it.
"You don't seem fine" Cobi looked at me worryingly.
"It's just ... a ..." I found out so hard to think "Can't think of that word... episode?"
Ben laughed "We need to get you home"
I nodded smiling and the others started walking "You coming?"
"You go, we'll catch up" Ben looked at them and then back at me.
Bailey and Cobi led Cecilia, Jimmy, Logan and Cassidy away from us and towards the base.
"Why did you tell them to go on without us?" I asked.
"You need a little time to rest and get your head together" he replied sitting on the floor.
I sat down opposite him "I'm fine"
"Kristen"
"Okay, maybe I'm a little confused and therefore I'm giving myself a headache" I chuckled "But it's no biggy"
"Come here" Ben patted the space besides him.
I shuffled myself over and layed back resting my head on Ben's arm and just stared at him basically. I had absolutely no idea what to say. I scratched the back of my head and Ben shifted his hand down the the back of my neck and leaned over me as he kissed me. My chest and ribs hurt, good hurt. Like an addictive hurt, a hurt you didn't want to end. I could feel me head start to remember something again..
(Flashback)
"Trust me" he smiled down at me. I loved this kid so much it was starting to get a bit overwhelming.
Quietly, I simply nodded and I felt so tense at first. I couldn't dance at all and I was about to make a complete idiot out of myself. Ben spun me around and smiled. I loved the song that played and just listened to it and let my natural instincts move my feet.
Maybe, you're gonna be the one who saves me,
and after all, you're my wonderwall,
today was gonna be the day but they'll never throw it back to you
By now you shoulda somehow realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
"See, it's easy" Ben smiled broadly.
I chuckled "I suppose, you can be so sweet when you want to be"
"I blame you for that" he smirked and turned the music down.
"Everything's my fault these days" I smirked back.
Ben kissed my forehead.
(Back to Reality)
That one little flashback brought back a couple of other memories and I had to laugh right in the middle of kissing Ben.
"What's so funny?" he looked self-conscious.
"Just remembered a few things that are pretty ironic"
"Which are?"
"Well, remember when you made me dance in your room to Oasis?" I slowly ran my fingers through his hair.
"Yeah what about it?" Ben brought his face so close to mine so our noses were touching.
I completely lost my train of thought "Umm.. I.. uh... Can't really think when you're this close"
Ben laughed so much "Really?"
I nodded my nails dragging down his shirt lightly.
He kissed me softly, then again and again, each time getting that bit more intense "You were saying?"
"Oh, yeah, well, the lyrics go 'Maybe you're gonna be the one to save me' right?"
"Yeah?"
"Funny enough, you did" I raised an eyebrow.
"I love how you have the most random thoughts" he shook his head and he picked me up to my feet "Up for a race?"
"Hell yeah" I smiled broadly and we got ready to run "3...2...1...Go!"
We both ran as fast as we could, I was just as fast as him this time, I didn't let that get to me. The trees were just a blur as we ran as fast as we were able to. I laughed so much as I was an inch ahead of Ben. We caught up to the others in no time and I stopped in my tracks when I noticed what must be the base. Home.
The building was big, red brick, kinda like a church in a way. It was one of those town centers like on animal crossing I used to play. A bunch of buildings surrounding a fountain in the middle. It looked amazing, I wouldn't mind living here at all.
"You sure you're ready for this?" Cecilia asked me.
I nodded "Yeah, I think I'm okay"
Ben took my hand and led me forward...
Short and sweet :D this is because I want to do the re-uniting and stuff in the next chapter :) Hope this was okay! xo