Living with Jedi

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Sabine:

Rex, Zeb, Hera, and I were all sitting on the Ghost just waiting.

"You think there on their way back yet?" Zeb ask.

"I hope so. I can't wait to see Ahsoka and the Kid again." Rex says.

"What about Kanan?" Zeb ask.

"Him too, but I don't think we'll ever be close. I don't blame him for not trusting me." Rex replies.

"Hera? Can I talk to you in private?" I ask.

"Now what can possibly be so important you can't talk about it in front of me?" Zeb ask.

"Well I'm sure we can talk about girl things like boys, nails, makeup, and other girl things like that in front of you and Rex, Zeb." Hera says. "Sure we can talk in the cockpit, Sabine."

The boys look at each other. Hera and I get up and walk into the other room. Hera locks the door behind us.

"So, what do you want to talk about?" Hera ask.

"What did Kanan tell you before they left?" I ask.

"He promised me that we'd see each other again." She replied.

"Does that include Ezra too?"

"I hope. Why?"

"I talked to Ezra shortly after Ahsoka got back."

"What he say?"

"Nothing really. He had to leave before we finished talking."

"I'm sure you can talk to him once there back."

"If they come back."

"They will come back Sabine."

"I just have this feeling like something happened. Like even if they do it's not going to be the same."

"What makes you think that?"

"Not sure. Hera, when did you realize that you and Kanan were more than friends and crew mates?"

"I don't really remember. We spend so much time together. We became friends immediately. I guess it just evolved from there. He had a crush on me. Eventually I fell in love with him. I'm not sure when though." Hera replied. "Why?"

"Was it like how Ezra flirts with me?" I ask.

"If Ezra was drunk and constantly getting into fights maybe. After he joined me it was less frequently."

"So by the time you met Zeb?"

"We were going out by then. Zaluna said we were like a mom and dad. She was the grandma. She called Chopper my pet. Kanan and I joke about it all the time. That's why we call the three of you the Kids." Hera says.

"So others saw it before you did?"

"Zaluna did. Ahsoka thinks there's something between you and Ezra. Is that what this is about?"

"Kind of. Was there ever a mission that you knew that Kanan wasn't going to be the same when he came back from it?"

"Not really. There was a series of missions I knew that once they were over he wasn't going to be the same Kanan I had come to know."

"Did he change?"

"What do you think. Since we met Ezra has Kanan changed?"

"I guess. Wait that's when you felt like that?"

"Yes. Kanan was so reckless and carefree when I met him. I watched him change into a man who really cares about others. I knew he was a Jedi. Most of the time he didn't seem like one. Once Ezra came along that changed. Kanan was a Jedi again. The Jedi I knew he was. The Jedi that saved you and Zeb. The Jedi that saved me. That's when he became himself."

Just then we both heard a beep from the Ghost panels. It was the Phantoms locator picking up the that the small transport ship was in range of the Ghost again.

"Their back!" We both exclaimed as we looked at each other. Hera immediately jumped to the com.

"Incoming ship please identify yourself for security purposes." One of the members of the rebellion said to them over the com as we waited to respond.

Any of us would just let the Phantom land without question. This was our family on our ship. We'd know that better than anyone, but Sato had insisted on double checking just to be sure. We expected either Kanan or Ahsoka to respond.

"This is Spector six of reporting from the Phantom. Clearance code 121616. Requesting permission to land." Ezra responded much to everyone's shock. What was going? Not only was it Ezra to respond, which was a bad sign in the first place, but he requested permission to land instead of dock with the Ghost.

"Granted, welcome back Jedi." The rebel said.

"Spector 6, this is Spectors 2 & 5. Why are you not docking to the Ghost, and where is Fulcrum and Spector 1?" Hera asked.

"Spector 1 is with Spector 3 and I. Just have the crew meet us as soon as we land." Ezra clarified.

"Will do Ghost out." Hera said. She cuts off the com and stands up. I was already standing. We both rushed out of the cockpit.

"Come on their back." I holler at Rex and Zeb. They join us as we leave the Ghost and head for the landing platform.

"What's going on?" Zeb asked as the Phantom landed. "Is something wrong?"

Chopper landed the phantom carefully without a word. The back of the phantom slowly opens. We all look at the two figures inside. Ahsoka isn't there, but that's not the only thing wrong. Ezra is helping Kanan off the ship. Kanan must be injured, but where's Ahsoka? As the two get closer we see a white gauze over Kanan's eyes.

No, he can't be blind. Jedi are supposed to have the force protecting them from stuff like that. Right? But Judi aren't indestructible, they can still get hurt I had to remind myself.

Everyone is speechless. Kanan and Ezra take a few steps closer. Hera runs over to them and take Kanan's face in her hands. Kanan wraps his arms around her in response. Ezra still not letting go of him. Ezra looks Rex in the eyes with an apologetic look. A look that says I'm sorry for your loss. My hand covers my mouth. Zeb grabs Rex's shoulder in a consulting gesture.

Finally Kanan and Hera break from their embrace. Hera and Ezra guide Kanan to the bases med bay. I follow the three. Chopper goes to dock the Phantom to the Ghost. Zeb goes off with Rex somewhere. Everyone else just goes back to their everyday lives. Our family's entire world just changed, not to mention that we just loss a leader of the rebellion and a Jedi. Still the Galaxy moves along even though nothing will ever be the same.

Once inside the med bay Hera finally got Ezra to break away from Kanan. Kanan and Hera were with a medical droid in another room. Ezra was sitting on a chair outside holding his hand.

"May I see your hand?" I ask him.

"It's fine." He says in a mad tone.

"No it's not, you wouldn't be holding it like that if it was." I say.

"I just got niched. I've had a lot worse." He said.

"Then let me see and maybe we can talk about what happened." I say.

"I just want to be left alone. Hera said she'd have the med droid look at it before we left ok!" He yelled at me.

"Fine,I was just trying to help." I say back annoyed by his tone. "You don't have to yell."

"I don't deserve help." He mumbled. "Not after what I did."

"I can't judge that for myself unless you tell me what you did, Ezra."

"Tr… You don't want to know. It's all my fault. Everything's my fault."

"I don't believe that Ezra."

"What would you know? You where not there!"

"I wish I was. Maybe then I'd know what to do. What happened?"

"I'm glad you weren't. You would have been hurt just like Kanan or dead like Ahsoka. Everyone that cares for me always gets hurt or killed."

"I care about you Ezra. So does the rest of the crew and Rex."

"Then stop I don't want you guys getting hurt too."

"We can't just stop caring for you. It doesn't work like that."

"Just leave me alone. Ok, Sabine? That's all I want. Surly the ice queen of Mandolor can understand that."

"Fine. Don't talk." I say before storming out. Did he really just call me an ice queen?

I left the med bay. Once the others got back everything was quite again. Each of us doing our own things. Ezra locked himself in his cabin and wouldn't even let Zeb in. Kanan told us all to give him some space.

The Ghost grew cold. Kanan felt his way to Ezra's cabin. Even without eyes his face reflected worry and concern. Something else was wrong. Had Ezra been more injured than he had let on? What kinda scars did he have?