Reid

Everyone was laughing and talking. Words about Hogwarts were thrown about along with gentle baby language to Eura. I looked at my angelic daughter, her rosy cherub cheeks perked with darling giggles that emitted from her pucker coral lips, her sapphire eye danced with laughter whilst her emerald eye frolicked with cheer, when she laughed too hard she'd shut her eyelids tight having her blond lashes kiss her fleshy cheeks and would wave her stout infant arms around frantically, it was a very adorable scene, in fact it was so precious that everyone at the table would perform a simultaneous 'aw' , and then Marley would reach over and plant thousands of kisses all over Eura's sweet cheeks as John ruffled her golden ringlets. She really does look like the all mighty child descended from heaven, she was always laughing and bringing radiance with her as she did silly things and made funny faces to impress everyone, it's hard to believe that when July 4th approaches she will become a werewolf and change once a month, inheriting the same abhorrent pain that her father carries. My beloved treasure, my sweet baby girl is going to have to be in pain, and there's nothing I can do about it.

"Reid can you pass me the mash?"

Remus' voice interrupted my intense thinking, and the moment I looked at him I became angry. My stomach unsettled, my fists clenched, my jaw locked, and I'm pretty sure I was giving the stink-eye. I couldn't help it I'm just so enraged! Eura our daughter has been here for 4 or 5 months and he still hasn't proposed! Even Nell and Sirius are engaged before us and I'm pretty sure James and Lily are getting there and they don't even have a child! Does he love as much as he said he does?

Stupid, irritating, foolish, witless jack wagon! Is he really that thick?

I don't know what made me do it; perhaps it was because I was so blinded by hurt that I didn't think.

"You want some mash? I'll give you some blooming mash!"

I stood up, picked up the bowl of mash and poured it all over his chestnut curls. Gasps were heard and Eura giggled and clapped her hands. I threw the bowl down and felt my eyes burn with tears.

"You just don't get it!" My voice was thick with tears.

I ran to our room and slammed the door. I fell onto the bed and started to sob. I heard panicked voices from the other room, but I was too grieved to actually listen.

I know what I did was completely immature, but I couldn't help it, I'm tired of not speaking my feelings to spare someone else's, and I had enough of it.

"Reid?"

Remus' soothing voice rang throughout the box room, I could hear his footsteps getting closer, he was wearing his orange converses they're his favorite pair. I felt him sit on the bed and sink because of the cheap quality. He sighed and laid his hand on my back, and even though I didn't want to I shrugged it off.

"Darling, what happened in there?"

I felt all my emotions rush to my head and sat up now facing him, my face red and sea eyes filled with both shed and unshed tears. Remus was most shocked by my unhappy appearance and I watched his honeyed eyes grow by width and worry, his face looked very sorry.

"What did I do wrong?" I shouted.

He was taken aback.

"What?"

"Am I not pretty enough? Am I a terrible cook? Am I not clean? Am I not proper? Am I not anything you want?" I sobbed harder.

Remus' face crinkled in confusion and he inched closer to me.

"Ree." He put his arms around me and pulled me into his chest.

"My sweet little Ree, what on Earth are you going on about? You're perfect; you're all of those things and more!"

He ran his fingers tenderly through my hair and kissed my head, I suddenly became warm despite the November snow coming from outside.

"Then why won't you marry me?" I demanded.

You

"You heard me Remus Lupin, everyone else is getting married and we're not and we have a child together."

"Wait, do you only want to marry me because we have a baby?"

"NO! That's only part of it, mainly it's because I love you and only want to be with you, but do you not want to be with me?"

Remus readjusted us so we were both looking at one another.

"Reid Aubree Maxwell, you are ridiculous! Of course I love you, I always have! To be perfectly honest the only reason why I didn't ask your hand is because I think you're way too good for me and don't want you to be shunned because you're married to a monster."

"No, no you are not a monster and neither is Eura, remember what I told you last Christmas? Believe in those words, because if you don't then how is Eura supposed to feel about herself? I don't want our daughter hating herself for something she can't control, and I am not too good for you so stop that, and one last thing."

"What?"

"Remus John Lupin will you propose to me?"

He laughed heartedly and laid his lips on mine, they smashed together fervidly and he wound his right arm around my waist as his other hand cradled the back of my neck. I licked his lips and immediately his tongue latched onto mine causing me to moan. Remus then disattatched his mouth from mine and I whined, but then he started to kiss down my jaw to my neck and then sank his teeth into my neck having me yelp and then giggle, he nibbled and gnawed like an animal and I could feel myself become very turned on, he must've loved my reaction because he then sucked on that very same spot and finished up with a kiss. That's definitely going to leave a bruise.

He then pulled off my pink jumper and unhooked my teal bra and possessively handled my breasts before sucking on my hard nipple while twisting and teasing the other. He gave a lick before pausing to stare into my eyes with heated vehemence.

"No sooner met but they looked;
No sooner looked but they loved;
No sooner loved but they sighed;
No sooner signed but they asked one another the reason;
No sooner knew the reason but they sought the remedy;
And in these degrees have they made a pair of stairs to marriage..."

"Ree, I love you with all my body, mind, and soul and there isn't any reasonable reason for us not to be husband and wife, so what I'm asking is if it would be perfectly alright for you to marry me on August 21st?"

I cried but this time with immense happiness and threw my arms around his neck sending us both falling clumsily to the ground, my bare chest pushed up against his striped jumper and I laughed. Then covered him with thousands of butterfly kisses before planting a big, fat, loving, snog on his mouth.

"Can it be the 20th?"

He laughed and kissed my nose and played with a strand of my hair.

"Any day you want love, just know that I will be there."

I squealed and hugged him tight.

"I love you!"

"And I you."

I then got dressed and pulled Remus with me to his living room and told John and Marley the news. They were of course more than thrilled. We all celebrated the next night with music, food, and wine.

A few days after that, Remus and I sadly said goodbye to our little princess and went back to Hogwarts.

Our friends were very glad to see us, Alice filled me in with Frank and how much of a gentleman he is and I could tell that for once, she was actually in love. Lily and James were now the golden couple of Hogwarts "Jilly", and of course Nell and Sirius were as barmy as ever. For Nell's birthday we all just had a birthday dinner at Hagrid's, and even her sister and Regulus showed. But oddly enough, Peter did not. For some reason looking at Persephone and Regulus' face told me that they knew, but I wasn't entirely sure and I didn't want to ruin Nell's party.

We told everyone that we were to be married on the 20th of August and as to be expected they all said "It was about bloody time". And couldn't agree more.

Everything was going well, John and Marley would bring over Eura every Hogsmeade weekend, until one week they didn't show up and Remus and I grew very worried and our questions were answered when Dumbledore called us to his office….

I can't calm down at all
panic is what panic feels like
can't we just stay silent?
speaking now seems far too violent

why are you asking me this?
can't you see I'm trying?
I don't like it like this
no I think I'm dying