Chapter 34

Lena watched as the woman she loved fly from her balcony, her knees felt weak, her hands shaking as she slide to the floor, sobs racking her body. She didn't even hear the high heels making their way towards her, forgetting her mother's presence until she spoke

"Yet again you have let a deceiver into your life" she said matter of factly "When will you learn Lena that you can't have a normal life, not with our last name"

"Just shut up" Lena spat, she stood, turning on her mother "You just couldn't wait to tell me about her, I haven't forgotten that you are the reason my life is constantly falling apart, in some half baked plan to get me to join you in your crusade against aliens"

Lillian look slightly shocked at the sudden outburst but she covered it well "And yet I am the one who always comes back… because I want what's left of my family to be with me"

Lena shot daggers at the older woman "You're not my family, my mother died when I was young, you may have raised me, but I am not your daughter and we are anything but family"

Lillian looked like she wanted to say something but instead she took a moment before answering in a level tone

"When you finally come to your senses, give me a call, I will be waiting" she left without another word, leaving Lena alone once more

She melted back to her position on the floor, wrapping her arms around herself, trying to hold the last shred of herself together. How could she have been so foolish, how could she have not seen this coming, she started to recall all of the things that Kara had done that no normal person could do.

The way she had lifted her effortlessly when helping her to bathe, when Lena fell and almost hit her head, Kara had caught her in the nick of time when she had been on the other side of the closed door. All the times that she had disappeared just as Supergirl would come flying into view.

Lena had become close with both, how had she not seen the similarities between the two…

Lena wiped away the wetness on her cheeks and stood she walked straight over to her liquor cabinet, swing the doors open wildly, grabbing the first bottle that came to hand. She got a glass out of habit and made her way to the sofa in the middle of the now cold empty room and began to drink, she did not care if she was on powerful pain meds or not.

She began to spiral down fast, she made a point not to let anyone in, she thought that Kara was different, the blonde had believed in her and fought for her when others had already decided she was guilty. And how many times had Supergirl saved her, was it all just a ploy to get close to her?

Lena didn't know what to think, the woman she loved had lied to her, betrayed her trust after everything that had happened between them, Kara still didn't come clean. And it broke Lena, who took another long drink from the glass.

Meanwhile across town Kara was curled up on the floor in her apartment, she hadn't even changed out of her Supergirl outfit, she couldn't, she felt as if she couldn't move. Was it really only one hour ago that she woke up next to Lena, perfectly happy, spending the night in her warm embrace, being able to kiss her as her own and now… now she felt as her world had been ripped from her

The door to her apartment opened slowly, Kara didn't even care about anyone seeing her as Supergirl, but as she looked up she saw her sister coming towards her, concern in her eyes as she knelt down and took Kara in for a comforting hug

She didn't say anything for a long time, she just held her little sister in her arms, allowing her top to be drenched with tears. Only when Kara's breathing slowed did she speak

"I'm so sorry" she said, stroking a gently hand through Kara's messy hair

Kara shook her head and used her sleeve to wipe away the tears that stained her cheeks "I should have told her… she's right to hate me"

"It's hard to tell one person everything Kara" Alex soothed "Especially someone you love"

Kara looked up into Alex's eyes

"I'm not blind Kara, I've noticed for a long time and the past couple of weeks have just proven me right"

"You're not mad?" Kara asked confused, she knew that Alex wasn't a fan of any of the Luthors

"No I'm not angry, I know people can't help who they fall in love with" she placed a kiss on her sister's forehead "It's just the way we are and I wouldn't change you"

"I never felt anything like what I had with Lena before… she made me feel so alive and special" Kara dropped her head in her hands "And now I have lost her"

Alex looked down at the floor as she spoke "If she truly loves you the way you love her then nothing is ever truly lost Kara, she is hurt right now, all you can do now is be there when she needs you"

Kara looked up into her sisters eyes and saw that she really meant every word that she said

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but I didn't know until…" her words trailed off as she tried to think of when she knew that she loved Lena Luthor

"Sometimes it sneaks up on you" Alex finished for her "Come on, let's put on a crappy film and eat as much ice cream as we can manage"

Kara nodded, thankful she had a sister like Alex as she was helped to her feet and guided towards the sofa, a blanket was draped over her.