This chapter is out early do you know why? :D well it is for all you fans out there who just can't wait for the next one to be published!!

It is also an apology for all the late uploads the last couple of weeks so we hope you forgive us!

and don't worry, there is going to be a chapter on Thursday as well! This is mostly because I had more time than usual to write and I'm ahead of schedule :D

so enjoy!

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Sasuke was sitting in the living room that night, looking out the slightly dirty window down at the playground outside. Naruto had gone down to the store to buy some chocolate trying to cheer Sasuke up, but being alone in the apartment gave him such a bad feeling in his guts that he could hardly stand it. He had rolled over to the window as soon as Naruto left and watched him walk over the yard towards the shop. He had been watching the spot were he disappeared for almost ten minutes before being able to look away without feeling the pricks on the back of his neck.

Down there on the swings a little girl was playing with her friends and Sasuke watched how she laughed and how her friends played around her. He sighed and rolled away from the window, determined to thing about something else than his childhood, that had been almost nothing but miserable. He looked around the room with his dark eyes, feeling his chills returning as he saw all his old things he just had wanted to leave behind when moving to Narutos place. Now it all came back to him, slowly, painfully, like someone was planing to torture him to mere insanity. He wheeled over to the sofa, then over to the TV but he didn't turn it on. He did not want to see any of the lame shows on air right now, he didn't want to get out of his wheelchair cause what would happen if he needed to get out quickly and.... Oh what was he thinking? Why would he have to get out quickly from here? It was not like someone was going to show up and try to kill him... right?

He continued over to the dusty computer, wiping it slowly with the arm of his swatter. It hadn't been running for a while and he even wondered if it was still workable. He smiled a little, seeing how he had written his name on the side of it when he was younger. He remembered how angry his father had been and how he had tried to say he hadn't done it, even though it was obvious that the five-year old, who's name was written there with black ink, was the culprit. He pressed the button with "start" slowly and heard the low mumbling of the being coming to life ones more. The computer was old but it had been working all this time so why not now? The screen dazzled in a blueish colour a couple of seconds before going black and then blue again, showing the three names of the logins: Fugaku, Itachi and Sasuke.

He sighed as he looked at the names displayed on the screen. He saw the name of his father, the man he had both feared and loved. The man he had tried to impress to every extent but he had never succeeded, never been like his brother... Itachi. His heart grew cold in an instant. He turned the screen of, turning away from the name that had been haunting him for the longest of years. He didn't want to think about it again, please let it be undone. Why had it come to this? He didn't want it any more! Why had he promised he would avenge his family? He just wanted to stay happy now, happy with Naruto and still... he had promised... At that moment he wished ones again, deep in his heart that his legs would never heal so he could stay with his blond angel forever...

"I'm home!" the smoothest voice of all came from the hallway and Sasuke immediately turned the chair back, wheeling out to met him. "Missed me?" Naruto smiled and Sasuke nodded, unable to keep himself from pulling the blond down into his lap. Naruto gasped with surprise but then smiled wider and hugged him back.

"Don't be gone that long again" Sasuke whispered, not caring how childish he sounded or how much he just wanted to cry. Naruto softly stroke his head and smiled tenderly as he saw the soft side of Sasuke leak out from his perfect front.

"I won't" he whispered back and kissed Sasukes soft forehead with his slender lips, closing his eyes while softly pulling his fingertips through his dark locks. Sasuke almost never showed this vulnerable side even to Naruto and every time he did, Naruto got worried something was really wrong. He decided at that moment not to leave Sasuke alone in the apartment more than necessary, there were to many old memories here for the boy to handle, even Naruto could see it.

Naruto stood up after a little while, smiling at Sasukes childish expression and held out the chocolate in front of him. "Here" he smiled and put it in Sasukes hands. "And I rented a movie so now we are going to watch it together." He saw to his delight how his smile affected Sasuke and how the boy smiled a little too, nodding with agreement. Naruto bent down over him, and to Sasukes obvious surprise, he lifted him from the wheelchair as easily as if Sasuke was a feather.

"Ah! Naruto...?!" Sasuke gasped and griped tightly around the blond boys neck nut Naruto just smiled and carried him into the living room, putting him down softly on the sofa, kissing softly over his neck as he let go.

"There we are" he said while almost smirking and in a flash Sasuke realized he was in quite a vulnerable state, lying stretched out on the sofa with no chance of escaping if Naruto was to try something perverted. Naruto just smiled and put the film in the VCR (this being the TV Sasukes family had had his entire life, therefore the old system) then he turned back to Sasuke.

"What?" He asked and laughed a little as Sasuke realized his face had shown his discomfort. Sasuke blushed and looked away but Naruto walked over to him with those irresistible eyes and Sasukes eyes met them again. "Sasuke I'm not gonna do anything you know that" he smiled and Sasuke felt bad for even thinking like that.

Naruto shook his head with his smile growing and climbed up atop the dark boy, not letting his eyes go for a second. Their eyes were intense as they both realized the thought of finally being completely alone, finally together only the two of them in their own apartment and all Sasukes bad feelings disappeared in an instant. His arms were around Narutos neck pulling him down, their lips met in a moment of intense pleasure and as their tongues touched in a sweet battle for dominance, Sasukes had travelled down Narutos abdomen, sending jolts of adrenaline through the blond, making him moan with longing already.

Sasukes fingertips skilfully opened the blond boys pants and Naruto wined, feeling his arms already buckling to the pressure of his own weight. The slender fingers slipped inside the fly, stroking down over the boxer, making Naruto moan again with pleasure written all over his beautiful features. Sasuke kissed softly down over Narutos sweet neckline, feeling the goosebumps form under his lips, letting his fingers crawl around the bundle of his hardness and to his satisfaction there were more sweet moans coming out of the blond ones slender lips. There were sensations rushing through Sasukes body, holding emotions he never thought he would feel in his life. Naruto moved against his fingers, his blue eyes making Sasuke drown and his moans giving him a painfully hard erection.

"Naruto..." he moaned, longing more than ever for the blond boy and still he couldn't do it on his own. Naruto smiled with his cheeks all red and his fingers shaking as he slowly pulled the fly down on Sasukes pants, reaching inside them and pulling it out, letting his soft fingertips run over it leaving Sasuke in total pleasure.

"Do you want me...?" he whispered and Sasuke could feel how he was slowly going insane, hearing that voice whisper that wonderful question but he couldn't answer. He felt Narutos soft fingers around his aching erection and his mind wondered of to the most wonderful place in the world. He was in heaven again for the first time in a long while.

Narutos pants fell to the floor with a soft sound that made Sasukes mind tremble with temptation. He opened his eyes again and looked up straight into those sky blue ones. He felt how Naruto was moving his hip slowly, he didn't really think about it that much but he could actually fell how Naruto was touching his legs even though it had to be impossible with him being paralysed. Narutos warm body gave him goosebumps and the blond took his hands as he lowered himself atop Sasukes hip. Their eyes met in the final second and Sasuke thought he was going to die with pleasure as he felt the pressure tighten around his harness. Their hands gripped each other, their breaths quickening, soft moans filling the air as the blond, gorgeous boy moved ever so slowly. Sasukes mind was going berserk, his heart almost breaking out of its ribcage and as he looked at Naruto in this room, the apartment he had hated since the moment he moved here, he felt total relaxation for the first time ever. There was something about that boy, something he had never seen or found in another man nor woman in his entire life. He felt his heart being bulled in, so fast by those curved lips, those smooth fingers, that sweet voice... He was caught and had been for such a long time he could not even remember if he had ever been without his love to this boy. The sweet release came softly for both of them even though it had been so long and Sasuke put his strong arms around the blond, slightly shaking boy as he lay down atop him. The moment was so quiet in a way he had never experienced it before. The only thing he could hear was the soft sound of Narutos panting breath and his own heart, still beating so hard for this love. He took a deep breath and felt the sweet smell of this one boy that had changed his life forever.

He closed his eyes in peace and saw before him the blond little boy on the playground that he had fallen for already when he was little. There had always been only Naruto on his mind. That little lonely boy, sitting there on the swing after all the children had already gone home for dinner. Sasuke remembered that he had left his teddy there before going home just to be able to have a reason to go back, and every time Naruto had still been there, alone in the dim street light. Sasuke sighed and smiled as he stroke the blond ones sweaty back with his soft fingertips.

"You're not alone any more Naruto..." he whispered as he heard the boys breath soften as he was drifting into sleep in Sasukes arms. The dark one smiled softly and yet again closed his eyes, that beautiful boy smiling back at him through his dreams. "I'll never be alone now... Naruto..."

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Sasuke slowly opened his eyes, blinking a little and finally getting his eyes used to the dim light. He drew in a deep breath, realizing he was lying alone on the sofa with no weight on his chest as Naruto had gone of to some where else. Panic gripped his heart almost immediately. What if this had been all a dream?! What if he was alone again and Naruto had never been here at all?! What if he had just had the most wonderful dream of his life and now had woken up to his reality again, on his sofa, in his living room... without Naruto. He felt his eyes fill up with tears, felt his hands shaking as his fingers reached his mouth. He tried to call for the blond but he was so scared to face the truth he couldn't even wine. He was crying again... like always in this apartment.

"Sasuke you're awake?" That smooth voice suddenly said and Sasuke opened his eyes again, his breath uneven as he looked towards the door were his love was standing, looking down at him. "Sasuke are you all right?"

The blond hurried to him, pulling him into his arms, hugging him sweetly as Sasuke felt his tears rolling down over the blond ones back. He was so relieved he couldn't stop crying and he gripped Narutos swatter hard in desperation to get as close as possible. Naruto slowly stroke his head, pulling his fingertips through the dark locks, trying to softly calm him down and in a while Sasuke did so but still with his fingers deeply buried in Narutos swatter.

"Did you have a bad dream Sasuke..?" Naruto asked, softly kissing his forehead to calm him a little more. He shook his head and looked into those blue eyes, feeling the panic fading bit by bit.

"I woke up and I thought it had all been a dream..." he whispered, knowing that he was being childish crying over it all but Naruto was the only one allowed to see his tears and even though he wasn't used to it, maybe it was best to just let them out. "I though you had never... I though we never got together and that all I still had was my own foolishness and my dreams of a life with you by my side...as always"

Naruto sighed and pulled him even closer, warming him with his body. "But we are together my love..." he smiled and bit his lip as he stroke the dark ones back. "And you were never foolish dreaming of me... cause I was always doing the same remember?" He knew himself he was blushing while saying that. He as well had wanted a life with Sasuke for so long and now when it was finally happening, every morning waking up he was afraid it would all be just a beautiful dream. But he always turned to the side, seeing the face of the one he loved lying there beside him under the blankets and by now he had grown used to it, and it always made him the happiest he had ever felt, every morning. He hadn't realized though that Sasuke felt the same and now he felt bad for leaving him on the sofa like that, when he knew Sasuke hated this place.

The dark one gripped tighter around his body and Naruto hugged him tighter again, feeling the boy still shaking slightly. "Sasuke..." he whispered again and kissed his head with his finger softly stroking through his hair. "I love you and I'm here... I'm not gong any were and I promise you that every time you wake up I'll be there by your side."

Sasuke looked up again, his tears still falling but now he was slightly smiling. He knew Narutos words were true and he knew he would always have him there if he needed him. He just wished he could say the same with that sincerity. He love Naruto with all his heart and there was nothing he wouldn't do for him, but still he could not give his heart fully to him because of what he had done... He wanted to stay with Naruto forever but he couldn't because of his own foolish selfishness. He had been so worked up over it all and by the time Naruto confessed to him, the deal had already been made... There was no going back...

He looked into those eyes with both happiness and remorse. He would hurt him now, more than ever... And if it hadn't been for his own selfishness he would never had done that. If he hadn't confessed so late he would never have had to hurt him... The love he felt for this boy was so unbelievable strong his heart ached just to be in the same room, just to be close. He smiled again, that sad smile he knew he had when he could not decide between his own happiness and the happiness of Naruto. He had thought it over so many times and still he could not find the way out... 'I'm sorry Naruto...' he thought and stroke the blond ones tender cheek with his soft smile growing as the tears refilled his eyes. 'But even though I love you this much... I can not gibe myself to you fully... No matter how much I want it...'

"I love you Sasuke" the blond smiled and kissed his tears away with his smooth lips, soft kisses cascading over his skin.

"I love you... Naruto"

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oh... what was all that about? :O first it was all sweet and then..? What exactly is going on in the mind of the young Uchiha?! Find out in next chapter: "deep water" out this Thursday! Hope you'll stay with us!

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