To All My Readers,
I am the worst updater on the face of the planet! I promise all of you that Curve Balls will be finished. How long that will take I do not know. The past 2 years have been life changing for me. I have been rebuilding my life or rather building my life. But, now it is time to move on. As I pack the last of my things for the move in with my bestie I have been hit with a lot of feelings and memories. I have lived the past 2 years with my grandparents. I have been on hold as I build up my new life and now I am ready to start living again. I have had the worst case of writers block and a lot of that has to do with that fact that I have been in limbo. As I face this new chapter in my life I am finally ready to face the future of Curve Balls.
To help you understand where I have been, here is the letter I wrote to my grandparents. I know it doesn't make up for my lack of updates, but I hope it helps you understand why.
Dear Nana and Papa,
I want to say Thank You. Thank you for giving me a safe haven to come to when my world was falling apart. Thank you for giving me love when I didn't have any. Thank you for putting up with me when I was being hard to handle. Thank you for all your support even when you didn't like all my decisions. Thank you for your finical support. I know you are on a budget too. As I pack tonight I am bombarded with memories. The one that sticks out the most is the first night I came here. Seeing the tidy, clean room after the VERY long journey. The dark green wall and my very own bathroom. I can still remember clear as day walking around touching everything. I was too tired to really think, but that didn't matter. I was too focused on the feeling of peace. The feeling of finally being at home. That was the first time I have ever felt that. I could finally stop running. I could finally put down roots. I remember the joys of picking out things for my room. The knowledge that is was MINE. I remember my first Christmas here and the awe of seeing how much was just for me.
Thank you for making your house my home. Thank you for home cooked meals. Thank you for late night runs for ice cream. Thank you for taking the time to take me to do things I enjoy. Thank you for your time. I know first-hand how hard it is to find time. Thank you for showing me what love is. Thank you for showing me I can. That I can do anything. That I can own a car. A nice car! That I can own my own home. That marriage is my thing. That I do want a family so I can share the love you have given me.
I will always treasure the time I have spent here. This will ALWAYS be my home and you will ALWAYS be my parents.
Love,
Your VERY grateful granddaughter!