10 Things Katie Bell is Ashamed of
1. She'd never sat for her N.E.W.T.S. The idea of returning to Hogwarts after all that had happened was too overwhelming. Luckily for her though, whether or not she made the reserve team for the Appleby Arrows had nothing to do with test scores.
2. To this day she hasn't gone into the Three Broomsticks since her 'accident'.
3. Once during the middle of a Quidditch match she'd suddenly wondered if it was possible to have sex on a broom and not fall off, and she'd been so distracted by the thought that when Alicia had passed her the quaffle she'd missed it, earning her a look of supreme disappointment from Oliver.
4. At the Yule Ball she'd been too depressed to have a good time. The only girl on the Gryffindor Quidditch team without a date, she'd glowered at the dance-floor from her table and had hardly paid attention to the Weird Sisters, her favorite band, all because Oliver was all over some girl from Beauxbatons, or more importantly some girl that wasn't her.
5. Once her mum had asked her if she remembered being put under the Imperious curse or touching the necklace. She had told her mum no, that all she could summon up was a black void. While this was not true, something within her couldn't let anyone know that, not even her mum.
6. The post accident Katie never went without her wand and constantly thought about defensive spells she could use should she ever run into Dark magic again. Sometimes she would go out trying to find trouble, just so she could prove to herself that she would be all right.
7. On her and Oliver's first date she mistook a man walking toward them for Malfoy and had immediately jumped and hid behind Oliver. Confused he'd asked her what she was doing, but she couldn't answer because even she didn't know herself.
8. She was a well-adjusted adult. So why did she still think about paying Malfoy back for what he did to her?
9. Sometimes she wished that the curse had left a hideous scar, because then people would know from the beginning that something bad had happened to her, instead of suddenly giving her looks of sympathy after they'd found out later.
10. She would've had to return to the Death Eater run Hogwarts the year after her 'accident', but because of her injury she'd been exempt from having to go by St. Mungo's. And while she ate her home-cooked meals and played Exploding Snap, her friends wrote her letters about witnessing torture first hand, sometimes even receiving it.
The reason she ran from her house to join the battle as soon as she'd gotten word that Hogwarts was being attacked wasn't because she wanted to fight Death Eaters, but because she wanted to fight herself.