Penelope and Mac enjoyed lunch by the boardwalk. After many weeks of being apart it was nice to have a conversation face to face. Mac had missed Penelope more than he was willing to admit to her, knowing that she would only worry about him.
"So…"
She prompted.
"So???" he mirrored,
"Mackenzie Taylor."
Penelope warned as he laughed out loud,
"It sure is fun
stirring you Mags."
"I miss you too Kenz. Now tell me what's
going on with you." She admitted before proceeding to prod,
"I
asked Stella out." Penelope's jaw dropped as Mac watched her
reaction in amusement
"I take it you approve," He said dryly.
"Ugh, yes. What happened? What did I miss? How long has this
been going on?"
"Calm down, we were just hanging out the
other day as per usual and I don't know we were sitting at my
apartment watching some random old movie, and I was just looking at
her and I knew I was ready. I will always love Sarah, and I know that
I have always had her blessing, but in my heart I was never ready to
let her go, which is why despite what I was feeling for Stella I
couldn't pursue it because I didn't want to go into it half
heartedly and hurt her in the end, she means too much to me to take
that kind of risk with her without knowing for sure you know."
Penelope nodded and silently prodded him to go on,
Stella could feel that Mac had a lot on his mind, he had barely said a word all evening, and though they had never had an uncomfortable silence between them she was beginning to worry. She knew that he was missing Penelope, in fact they all were. It just wasn't the same without her, but she sensed it was more than that. She turned and caught him looking at her,
"Mac,
are you okay?" she asked worriedly, as he hesitated
"Stell, I
want
to say something, and I need you to hear me okay."
"Okay,"
Stella said slowly encouraging him to go on.
"I know we've
been dancing around our feelings for years now, well more me than
anything. I know you've stood by patiently allowing me to go my own
pace, and I really appreciate that. I care about you Stella, I really
do. Not only as one of my best friends, but as someone who's in
love with you. Throughout the years I've just tried to brush it off
because I wasn't ready, and I didn't ever want to do anything to
jeopardize our relationship and friendship. When Sarah came into my
life, I didn't think it was possible to love anything or anyone
outside her. She was my whole world, and when I lost her, it felt
like I lost myself. Penelope got me off the ground, and she has been
a consistent force in driving me out of that hole I fell in, as you
have been. I don't remember a time when you weren't there Stell.
I am who I am today because of who you have been in my life. You've
not only allowed me to be my own person, but you encouraged and
demanded nothing less. You've never pushed but just stood there and
let me be. In the last couple of months, watching Pen take a risk in
the name of True Love challenged me. I know I love you, I've always
known, and I know I've taken my time, and I am hoping I'm not too
late, but I really love you Stell and was hoping you'd give this,
us a chance." Stella sat there for a moment in a state of shock
waiting for her mind to process so she can react appropriately,
"Mac, I don't know what to say." She whispered clearly
taken by surprise. Mac cupped her face with his hand as he drew his
lips to hers softly but definitively. With tears in her eyes Stella
found herself responding to his kiss matching the years of bottled up
emotions that bubbled beneath them both.
"Wow…so
that's why little Miss has been very evasive and quick on the
phone."
"We drew straws on who got to tell you. If she won
she would have driven up." Penelope laughed knowing that Stella
would be bursting to tell her,
"She's going to tell Liv when
they get in next weekend."
"Is she going to last that long?"
Penelope asked doubtfully
"Well now that you know it the tally
of the people who know just went up to three and you'd be the one
she'd want to bounce off to the most so I think she'll be fine."
"Wow. I'm really happy for you Kenz. Stella is great. She
brings out the best in you and she allows you to be you. She never
pushes, well in an intrusive way."
"She's amazing. I can't
believe she's willing to give me a chance."
"She loves you.
She would rather wait for you than settle for something less than
what she wants. She has always wanted you and she was never going to
compromise with that."
"And I am so grateful."
"So
she's your reason to drive back early huh?" Penelope asked with a
cheeky grin while Mac Taylor blushed,
"Yeah, we're heading to
the cabin this weekend."
"Then you have my blessing to leave
early Friday so you have time to get ready."
"You sure?" he
asked
"Yeah, I'm not one to deny my brother of a romantic
weekend with his girlfriend."
"Aww, see that's why I love
you," Penelope rolled her eyes and gave him a playful shove with
her shoulder. Mac draped an arm around her shoulders and pulled her
close, dropping a kiss on her temple.
"I want you to know, this
doesn't change anything Mags. We're family and nothing can ever
change that."
"I know,"
"But?" he said catching a
look in her eye,
"There's just so many changes, with your life
and my life, what's to say a day won't come and we're no longer
us. I like us Kenz."
"Oh Kiddo, things will inevitably
change, and they already have but it doesn't have to be for the
worst. You know what you mean to me in my life, and I know my place
in yours. Will it become harder, I'm sure it will be, but I don't
need to see you and you don't need to see me to know that if you
need me, I'm only a phone call away."
"I know, it's silly
and it's selfish, but I've been spoiled. I've had you to myself
for so many years that even though it's Stella and I love her and
can't imagine you being with anyone but her, I just, I'm going to
miss you more, if that makes sense?"
"Perfect sense." He
said knowingly, and it hit Penelope what he meant.
"I'm sorry
if I abandoned you Kenz."
"You never abandoned me Mags. I
always knew you were there. Admittedly it was a little different
after you were gone, but it forced me to reassess and realise I
needed to go after what I want and let go of what I've been so
scared to let go of."
"She'd be happy you're moving
forward Kenz. Both of them."
