"Um are you here for Agent DiNozzo?" the surgeon asked as he came to a stop in front of Gibbs.

"Yes," Gibbs replied straightening up "How is he?"

The surgeon looked down at the ground and didn't make eye contact with Gibbs, this made Gibbs fear the worst as from what he could make out it did the same for the rest of his team.

"He's not…." Gibbs started to say but was cut off by the surgeon replying quickly "No"

"Then how is he?" Gibbs asked a little more forcefully this time.

"Well," the surgeon explained "his injuries were very extensive and I have to say he was lucky he even survived this far"

"Will he be ok?" Gibbs snapped getting sick of the surgeon dodging around his question.

"That's hard to say Agent Gibbs," the surgeon replied "We won't know the extent of the damage until he wakes up and to be frank with you I don't think he will"

"What do you mean" Gibbs exclaimed not believing what he was hearing.

"As I already said Agent Gibbs," the surgeon answered and Gibbs could tell he was getting frustrated "Agent DiNozzo's injuries were extensive and as a result he went into cardiac arrest at the scene, more than once I might add"

Before the surgeon could explain any further he was interrupted by Kate storming up to Gibbs with anger in her eyes.

"What do you mean more than once," Kate exclaimed "Gibbs you were meant to tell me everything"

"I know," Gibbs sighed "I didn't want to worry you"

"I WAS ALREADY WORRIED;" Kate yelled earning dirty looks from the other people occupying the hospital so she dropped her voice "you should have told me"

Gibbs tried to defend himself but after the surgeon cleared his throat ending his disagreement with Kate, Kate stormed back to her seat and refused to look at him. Taking this as he cue to find out more Gibbs turned back to the surgeon and said "What does that have to do with him waking up or not?"

"His brain was deprived of oxygen," the surgeon replied "this could have caused brain damage and depending on the extent of the brain damage, he may not wake up"

Gibbs was trying hard not to let his feelings out, after all Tony was here fighting for his life all because Gibbs hadn't waited for back up.

"Ah doctor can I speak with you?" Ducky asked from his spot in the corner.

The surgeon rolled his eyes and motioned for Ducky to follow him into one of the vacant rooms.

Once Ducky was sure that Gibbs and the rest of the team were out of earshot he asked "What exactly are his injuries?"

"Well the most obvious one is the gunshot wound to his upper torso, the surgeon explained "the bullet pierced his lung causing a pneumothorax before it tore a small hole in his thoracic artery, he also has a bullet fragment lodged between his T4 and T5 vertebrate"

Ducky held his breath as the surgeon rattled off the many of Tony's injuries and Ducky himself was surprised that Tony wasn't already dead.

"Anything else" Ducky asked hoping the answer would be no.

"Nothing extensive," the surgeon replied "just some bruising and a fractured cheek bone from the beatings he sustained"

"Thank you" Ducky sighed and even though it wasn't really his thing he said a small prayer in his head for Tony.

"Would you like me to explain this to Agent Gibbs?" the surgeon asked breaking Ducky's thoughts.

"No that's fine," Ducky replied "I can do that"

The surgeon shrugged and walked out of the room. After gathering his thoughts for a while Ducky also walked out of the room.

When Ducky arrived back in the waiting room he was greeted by looks from every single one of the NCIS team.

"What's going on Duck?" Gibbs asked knowing that Ducky would give him a straight answer.

"Well it's definitely not good," Ducky replied "I too am surprised how he has survived this long"

"DUCK" Gibbs exclaimed not needing to hear that statement again.

"Young Anthony has several potentially life threatening injuries," Ducky explained "First of all the bullet pierced his lung which caused it to collapse, that's why he stopped breathing, secondly the bullet also tore a whole in one of his major artery's which is why Tony lost so much blood and probably the reason why his heart stopped"

Ducky took a breath before continuing "A fragment of the bullet has become lodged between two of the bones in Tony's back and that is probably why the surgery took so long, it would have been a very complicated procedure"

Ducky stopped and looked around at the faces of his team, Gibbs was trying not to show his emotions but Ducky had known him to long and knew exactly how he was feeling. Kate and Abby were both crying in the corner while Ziva and McGee were exchanging shocked and worried glances.

"Anything else' Gibbs said with a little strain in his voice.

"Um not really," Ducky replied "just some bruising and a fractured cheek bone from the beating he took"

Gibbs nodded and tried to make it look as though he didn't feel anything, but he was really broken on the inside, even if Tony did live there was a strong chance that he would never be the same and that it was all his fault.

"So how is he?" Kate asked, prying herself away from Abby.

"Uh," Gibbs said, trying to think of the right thing to say "he's been better"

"I wasn't talking to you Special Agent Gibbs" Kate snapped and she turned to Ducky "so how is he?"

Ducky was a little surprised at Kate snapping at Gibbs. She had never done that before and he was a little lost for words.

"He's not to good Caitlin" Ducky said "we'll have to give him time to recover"

Kate nodded, gave Gibbs a nasty glare and turned back to Abby.

Gibbs was just about ready to punch a wall. Everything was going wrong and he blamed himself. It was his fault that Tony was lying in ICU fighting for his life, it was his fault that the director had been hurt and admitted to a ward because Ari wanted to make him suffer and now Kate was shitty at him because he broke his promise to tell her everything. Everything was spiralling out of control and there was nothing he could do about it.

Suddenly, a gurney was wheeled into emergency with a body bag on it. Everyone turned and looked at it in complete silence.

"I have a body for the morgue" said one of the medics.

"Name" the nurse at the desk asked casually without looking up from her paper work, as if she saw this sort of thing all the time and this was nothing special.

"Matthew Fergon" the medic said, reading off the name tag that was tied to the bag.

Gibbs, Kate, Ziva, McGee and Ducky all sympathetically turned to Fornell, who was staring silently at the floor. Even though it sounded bad, they had all forgotten about Ari shooting Fergon because they were worried about Kate, Tony and the director.

Fornell looked up from the floor and slowly made his way over to Fergon's body. The medic turned to Fornell and handed him a bag.

"I'm sorry for your loss" he said sympathetically and began to wheel the gurney away. Fornell walked over to an empty seat and emptied the contents onto it. Out fell Fergon's badge and his weapon, covered in his blood. Fornell just stared at the seat. Gibbs walked over to him and placed a sympathetic hand on his shoulder.

"We're all sorry" he said.

"It's my fault" Fornell said quietly.

"No it's not" Gibbs disagreed.

"Yeah it is" Fornell argued "I'm the one who wanted to get Ari. I thought if I could bring him down, then I would have been considered for the promotion that was being offered. I sent Fergon in undercover. I'm the one who thought up his cover story. I'm the one who kept him in there, even though something was telling me that it wasn't going to end well. I'm the one who…" Fornell would have kept going but Kate walked up to him and gave him a hug.
"You did the right thing" she whispered in his ear "if it wasn't for you and Fergon, I might not be here now. He helped save my life and so did you"

This made Fornell feel slightly better but only very slightly. He still blamed himself for Fergon's death and Gibbs knew exactly how he felt.

And then it happened. A second gurney was wheeled into emergency. Everyone turned and looked at the body bag. They all knew who was in it and it was quite obvious that they were all glad he was dead.

"Another body for the morgue" said the medic.

The nurse at the station rolled her eyes. "Name" she said again.

"Uh," he said, reaching for the tag "Ari Haswari" he answered.

A shiver went down everyone's spines when they heard Ari's name, it was something they never wanted to hear again.

Gibbs walked over to the medic and looked down at the body bag.

"Uh I've got nothing to give you" the medic said confused as to why Gibbs was standing there.

"I know" Gibbs said and turned to the medic "can I look at the body?"

"Why would you want to?" the medic asked. He was well informed about what Ari did to Gibbs and his team.

"Because I want to make sure the bastard is really dead this time" Gibbs explained.

The medic nodded and slowly opened the bag. As soon as Gibbs saw Ari's face, his stomach turned into a million knots. Just the look of him made him sick.

"How sure are you that he's dead?" Gibbs asked, not taking his eyes off the terrorist.

"He can't get any deader" the medic answered "can I take his body down to the morgue now?"

Gibbs nodded and walked back to his team as they watched as Ari's body was wheeled away, never to be seen again.