After my interesting meeting with Chris in the Garden, I had searched everywhere for Rose and Sarah. But I couldn't find them. When I finally found them, in my room, they didn't give me a chance to speak, just handed me a piece of paper and told me to sing. It was by Delta Goodrem, Sarah knew I loved this song. I didn't even need the paper to read off, I knew it already.

A new beginning.
A new chapter of my life.
Started the day,
When I thought,
It could be my last.
My eyes were wide shut,
but I hadn't given up.
Just thought I'd be walking the world alone.

Out of the blue,
There I met you.
You showed me a life
I can't see without you.
There's just no way,
That I can fight these emotions.
Your energy running through me.
Nobody can renew me like you.

As I looked over at Rose and Sarah, I noticed they were looking behind me at something. Or someone. I turned and saw Chris leaning against the door. Had they planned for that to happen?

Out of the blue,
Can this be true?

This was a fix up. They knew Chris would appear right now while I was singing. Sarah knew how much the song meant to me. She also knew that music was the only way I ever expressed myself properly-she could always tell what mood I was in by the music I was listening to or singing. If I was happy I would listen to something bubbly, something I could dance to. If I was sad I would listen to something loud. Every song I listened to or sang around people had a meaning, something I wanted them to know that I wouldn't just say. Sarah knew that. That's why she picked it.

This was a love song.

Family and friends they were my life,
I wasn't one for butterflies,
But you gave me love that I can't disguise.
And there will be times when we're apart,
I want you to know you're in my heart,
Growing into a beautiful garden.

I stopped and stared at Sarah, who in turn stared straight back at me. Without having to say a word we both headed across to the other side of the room, towards my bathroom. There were so many things I wanted to shout, but with Rose and Chris on the other side of the door I didn't think most of them would be good things to say right now.

I was so angry. I had never been this angry with Sarah before, but then again she had never done anything like this before. To someone else it would seem like a stupid thing to be getting angry about, but I had my reasons. She had picked this song knowing completely what it meant to me before I even met Chris, but now when I ran the song through in my head it was exactly how I was feeling about is now. For me, singing this song in front of Chris would be opening my heart out to him, and for me that was a very dangerous game to play. Ive had my heart broken once before, and once was definitely enough. I wouldn't let it happen again. I couldn't let it happen again. Never.

But I knew it was already happening. That lump that had been in my throat was slowly working its way down to my heart. When it got there, I didn't know what would happen. But I knew it wouldn't be nice.

"Sarah, what the hell are you playing at?" I said as quietly as I could, willing my angry not to rise and bubble out.

"What?" Sarah asked innocently. Se knew though. I could tell from the way she was looking at me that she knew.

"That song."

"What about it?"

"Im not singing it at the party. Its too…personal. You know what Im like Sarah. Ill pick a different song." I turned to leave the room, although I knew that wouldn't be the end of the conversation.

"But Rose was so happy about picking the song!" Sarah almost shouted, grabbing my arm and turning me to face her again. She studied me for a moment, her brow furrowed in confusion. "What's wrong?"

I looked away from her, breaking the eye contact she was trying so hard to hold. "Nothing. Im fine. Im just tired." I turned back to her and smiled briefly before walking towards the door again. Before I got there, Sarah had run around me and blocked my way.

"Don't lie Luce. Seriously, what's wrong?"

"Nothing. Im fine. Im ju…"

"Lucy!" She shouted my name and I couldn't help wondering if Rose and Chris were still on the other side, if they could hear us.

"Sarah!"

She pulled herself away from the door but before I had chance to move towards it, she had pushed me backwards to sit on the edge of the bath. "You say you are fine but your eyes betray you. They always have, and always will."

"If you know that something's wrong then you should know what's wrong." I can already feel tears waiting to push their way out, but I wouldn't let them. Id never been the sort of person to cry about a guy, and I wasn't about to start now!

"This is about Chris isn't it?"

There was sarcasm bubbling inside me, dying to get out. "Wow! Your so intuitive Sarah!"

Sarah had always been one to fight back, and now was no exception. "Don't start Luce, we were only trying to help."

"By making me feel like a complete idiot? Nice one! Thank a lot!" Ok so maybe my sarcasm was bubbling overboard right now, but I couldn't help it! It just came naturally to me. "Its exactly what I needed today, to feel like nothing. So thank you for making me feel worthless once again."

"Whoa! Back it up, what the hell are you on about?"

"You got it wrong Sarah. Your not as clued in as you like to think you always are. Chris doesn't love me. He might like me, but only because Im Rose's Mom, like I told you. He might love the fact that Im here with them, but that's it. Nothing more. I cant believe that I fell for it, but I suppose I should be used to it by now, you always do this; just burst into my life and turn things upside-down, things that don't need your input at all! So from now on, stay out of my personal life. I mess up enough on my own, I don't need your help with that!"

Before she had the chance to say anything, to break down my whole argument as she was always able to do, I left. I stormed out of the bathroom like a child who's just been told of, ignoring the awkward looks that were being shot at me from Chris and Rose. I ran right out of the room, feeling more stupid than I had felt in my entire life.

How could today have gone so wrong? This morning I had been feeling brilliant, and so happy about just being me. Sarah was right. I had everything I could ever want. So why was it falling apart now? I didn't need Chris to love me for my life to be good. But now Sarah had opened me up to my own feelings, to how I truly felt about Chris. And knowing he didn't feel the same was killing me.

I ran out into the garden until I was sure no one was following behind me. I tried to just let everything fade away like I always did. But nothing seemed to work. It was too much to handle all at once.

"Lucy!" I heard Chris shouting my name through the garden and quickly wiped my face of the few tears that had managed to break free. "There you are. What's happened, Sarah is really upset about something and Im guessing from your little tantrum that you are too." He stopped in front of me, his hands in his pocket, like he always did when he was waiting for an answer from me. "You wanna talk about it?" He was probing. He did that a lot I noticed.

I didn't look up, afraid that my eyes would give me away again. "Did you hear our conversation? Any of it I mean."

He shuffled his feet uncomfortably which actually made me smile a little. Most likely, he had heard every word, and now he would claim he heard only part of it. "Part of it." See!

"Then you should have heard that I had a massive argument with her, that's why she's upset. I spoke my mind, and she didn't like it."

"Is that why your upset too?"

"No." This was the part I was definitely not looking forward to. The part where I was about to break his word. I looked up finally, looked right into his eyes and tried not to focus on how they glittered against the night sky. "Im leaving."

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Sorry to leave you on a Cliffy there but there will be 2 more chapters me thinks, definitely 1 more anyway! XD