AN: OK this chapter didn't really want to come out. I own nothing… This may be the last update of the year. I leave town late Thursday and won't be back till Sunday. I won't have my computer with me, though my cell has net access. I hope you like it all the same.

Well Enjoy.

~35~

EPOV-

Tuesday when I attended my therapy sessions I explained what had happened that weekend. I don't know what made her suggest it but by the time I was leaving for the day I had an appointment Wednesday night to attend group counseling. She said it would be good for me, that I would learn to talk about what had happened and by talking about it I should start to heal. She also thought it would help me to know I wasn't alone, that others have suffered much like me.

Wednesday came and I couldn't help the way my hand was shaking as I entered the building. I had a twenty minute drive to attempt to calm down; apparently I was just not going to be calm. The building was nice and I could see a few people standing around talking quietly together.

"Hey, never seen you before." A guy said as he and another male approached me. I could feel myself starting to freak out as I attempted to contain my fears. "I'm Jack, this here is Peter. Who are you?"

He didn't hold his hand out for me to shake like most people would do and I was grateful for that as I answered. "Edward, it's nice to meet you." There were five people in the room when the man that I assumed to be the doctor walked in.

"Good evening young people, please everyone have a seat in the circle. Edward, I'm glad you were able to join us, please have a seat next to me and I will introduce you to the group."

I quickly learned that the man was called Doctor or Doc by everyone. The other people in the group were Lisa, Kelly, and Matthew. These people we indeed like me. Lisa talked about her fathers constant drinking and how it has affected her for 15 years of her life especially when he would join her at night in her bed. Peter's father has been raping his since he was five. Kelly and Mathew are twins who were living with parents who were druggies and have in the past been rented them out in order to get their drugs. Jack didn't talk much though I knew in some way he had been sexually abused. We are all safe now and I could tell that some of them where doing better than others, some were living with other members of their families, some lived in group homes and one has been adopted. None of them asked me what I had been though, all understanding that I would talk in time. Our group time passed quickly and I found before leaving that I wanted to come back.

"Well Edward I bet that was different than anything you've ever been to." Jack said as the meeting dispersed. "The group normally goes to this small diner one the corner down the street after our meeting. You are welcome to come with us if you want."

I was slightly tempted to take him up on his offer.

"I would like to but I have plans with my boyfriend tonight." I say before it even registers what I am saying.

"Ok, maybe next time then." His smile didn't falter. "He's welcome to come with you another time, assuming that you come back. My first time was about a month ago, I almost didn't come back. But it's been helpful, even when I don't talk about stuff, hearing others talk reminded me that I am not alone. Well I hope to see you next week, bye Edward." With that he runs off to join the others at the diner and I go to my car to start the drive back home, back to Jasper.

I ran right into Jaspers arms when I walked into the house.

"Baby, why are you crying?" I hadn't even realized that I had been crying until he asked about it. Taking one of my hands from his body I wiped my face.

"Group was harder than I would have thought." I say as I notice the rest of the family looking at me. Jasper must have noticed that I didn't want to talk to everyone because he thoughtfully grabs my hand and a box of pizza and leads me to the entertainment room.

"Are you going to go back next week?" He asks as I start to dig into the pizza.

"I think I might, hearing them talk was difficult. But they were all nice to me and I think going may help." I was unsure about how Jasper would take me attending these meetings.

"Edward, I'm glad you're going to go back if it will help you. But you have to go back for yourself. We all love you Edward." I was quickly learning that Jasper always knew what to say. The pizza was soon consumed and I found myself curled into Jaspers side as we watched some random movie.

I wasn't paying much attention to the movie as the hand Jasper had resting on my hip slowly moved downward, I felt my body immediately reacting the his touch. I tried but failed at keeping the moan that left me quiet as his hand touched my thigh. My reaction must have startled him because his hand was suddenly removed from my thigh. "Sorry." I hear him whisper before he starts to move his body away from mine.

I bite my lip as I think of how to tell him that I liked it.

Deciding not to over think it I grab his hand and pull him back towards me before settling into his side and placing his hand just where it had been. "Don't be sorry for wanting to touch me love." I kiss him to stop him from saying anything. "I want to touch you Jazz." I say in-between kisses as I move my lips to his neck. I hear him gasp out as yes as I lightly suck on a sensitive part of his neck. That's all the permission I needed to move my hands from the sofa to his body, unsure of what I was doing I just let my hands move slowly first up his arms feeling the muscle he had there and then down his torso all the while we continued to kiss.

"Mmm, I like that." Jasper says as his head falls back exposing his neck to me as I smile.

"Tell me what you like Jazz." I say as I bring my lips back to his neck.

"I like the feel of your lips on my skin love; I like the feel of your touch on my body." Is all he says before he pulls my lips back to his. "I love you Edward." I feel myself growing hard as we continue to kiss.

And just like always my brother has "perfect" timing as my phone rings.

"Hello?" I answer annoyed.

"Sorry brother but I think you and Jazz should come down now. Mom keeps saying how late it is and I think in ten minutes she's going to come up there." That's all Emmett says before hanging up on me.

"That was Em, guess mom is coming up in ten minutes." We kiss for a few more minutes before we clean ourselves up and head downstairs.

"You can touch me anytime you want." Jasper tells me as we walk hand in hand down the stairs.

I kiss him as we reach the front door. Rose was already in the car waiting for Jasper.

"You can touch me anytime you want." I say into his ear as I hug him and kiss him goodbye.

That night I lay in bed with a big smile on my face as I think about everything that had been happening.

AN: Please review and let me know what you thought. Until next time, Happy New Year.