12/15/11

I can't believe these passed few weeks have gone by so fast. We've been so focused on getting ready for our new production and I've had to be studying for finals that Erik and I have barely even seen each other. But, I've heard from the family that he is really making a lot of progress. He talks with everyone in the company giving advice and giving his opinion. Everyone really likes him; they say that he is a strict but fair boss.

I don't know what I would do with out him. If I had had to run the theater and study for these finals I think I might have killed myself. I'm barely getting three hours of sleep a night as it is.

Not only has he been putting in about 13 hours a day in the theater but he also helps me study at night. He's even been helping all the brothers and sisters but their studying, we have a study group every night.

I would never tell him this but he's actually really intimidating. I mean, he knows something about everything; he has to be the smartest person I think I've ever met. He actually makes me feel kind of… I don't know not stupid because I know I'm not stupid but he makes me feel like I'm not as smart as I think I am. Not only is he smart but he's a great teacher. I actually understand what he's helped me study in math. No teacher has ever been able to help me understand math. Erik did it within a few days. It's amazing.

But anyways, it's almost Christmas and I am so excited! This will be Erik's first Christmas. He helped us pick out a tree the weekend after Thanksgiving. We actually cut down our own tree this year. Like physically cut it down. That was a great night.

We all went out to dinner then headed out of town to a specific area of the forest where you can cut down Christmas trees. We actually ended up getting 10 trees. One for the parents apartment, one for my brothers and sisters apartment, one for my room, a big one to put in the lobby of the Opera House, several other small ones to put around the Opera House and I even convinced Erik to get one for in the catacombs.

Truthfully it wasn't even that hard to convince Erik. I just had to mention all of the quiet nights alone we could have with the beautiful tree ad a nice warm fire going in the fire place. That certainly warmed him up to the idea. Also, the fact that we would be able to decorate that tree by ourselves.

Cutting down 10 trees is a lot harder then you would think, especially when you have six grown men with you. Well, it wasn't quite as easy as you would think. Erik was actually able to cut down a few of the smaller ones by himself.

That was actually pretty…entertaining to say the least.

While Dad and the boys were working on cutting down one of the bigger trees. Erik took me by the hand and pulled me away from the group into a cluster of trees saying that he wanted to cut down a smaller tree for my apartment. Next thing I knew Erik was unbuttoning his shirt in the middle of the forest in about 20 degree weather.

Before I could ask him what the hell he was doing he threw his shirt at me to hold as he said that it was easier for him to cut down the tree if he didn't have to worry about ripping the shirt.

I stood there watching as Erik hacked away at this five foot tree like it was nothing. With his shirt off I could see the muscles in his back and arms rippling as he lifted and swung the ax. I'm guessing that he assumed that because it was pretty dark out I wouldn't be able to the scars that covered his back but I could and it killed me to them. Hundreds of them, big and small but even those couldn't distract me from having some…naughty thoughts as I watched him cut that tree down.

It took him about ten minutes to cut the tree down. But I was so engrossed in watching those muscles and in my own head that I didn't even notice that he had stopped. I don't know what kind of expression I had on my face but it must have betrayed my thoughts because next thing I knew Erik had a huge smug grin on his face.

As he realized what sort of things I was thinking about and that grin spread over his face he took my hand and pulled me to him, kissing me.

I assumed that because he was standing out in the cold with no shirt on that his skin would be cold but it wasn't. He was completely warm in fact it was like his hands and arms were radiating heat as he wrapped them around me. He was so warm and it felt so good to be pulled against his bare chest that I couldn't help but let out a small moan.

Erik chuckled as he pushed me up against the trunk of one of the trees. He put his palms flat on the tree trunk on either side of my head encircling me in his arms. As he pulled his lips away from mine, he stood there staring at me, his chest rising and falling quickly with his hard breathing.

He had this look in his eye. The only word I can think of to describe it is mischievous. It's the sort of look he had in his eyes when the Phantom took over. I couldn't help but shiver, not because I was afraid but because with that look in his eye I could imagine exactly the kind of things that were running through Erik's mind.

We hadn't really gone any farther than kissing….a lot, since Erik had come back. But with that look in his eye I knew Erik was thinking about doing a lot more than just kissing and I can't deny that he was the only one.

Erik kissed me softly before speaking. "I know that ever since I got back, we've sort of danced around this subject after everything that happened with…him. But, I have to say that right now there's nothing that I want more than I want you."

I was speechless. I didn't know what to say. I was just sort of caught up in the moment; caught up in all of the things that I was feeling, in everything that Erik was obviously feeling, caught up in the way his arms felt around me.

He chuckled softly. "Your blushing Darling and I have to say it's not making me want you any less." And with that he made this sort of growl sound and kissed me once more. But this time wasn't like our other kisses. This was hard and possessive more like the kisses I had shared with the Phantom. But this time we both wanted it, and we both knew it.

If we had continued like that, I have no doubt that Erik would have taken me right then and there.

But that didn't happen because all of a sudden we heard the rest of the group calling us and coming our way. We had to quickly pull away and Erik had to re-dress himself.