A/N: Eva to answer your question yes Rollins and Christine did meet in chapter two but in this career you see so many people that you tend to forget them. I have ran into people I have dealt with just a week before and don't remember them. Like I like to say is that after 15 years everyone looks the same to me now. that is why I had them interact the way that they did. For those that are worried that Christine still holds a torch for Alex. She does and she always will. Alex is the mother of their child. As much as I hate my ex I do still love her because she is the mother of my child.

Alex made sure the apartment was locked up before stopping and checking in on the blonde who was finally asleep. She made her way to her room and stood at the door just barely making out Olivia's outline in the bed. She sighed as she walked over and, as carefully as she could, slid into the bed.

"You know, I won't break," Olivia said into the darkened room, "You can come closer."

"I don't want to hurt you," Alex said as she reached out and took Olivia by the hand and squeezed it.

"Alex, I need to feel you against me," Olivia said, her voice finally breaking, "Please."

Alex closed her eyes to the pain she heard in her lover's voice and carefully scooted over closer to her.

"I meant," Olivia said as she clenched her teeth to the pain and pulled Alex almost on top of her, "I want you close. I mean, really close."

"Honey, your ribs," Alex pointed out as she kissed Olivia's cheek and scooted off the brunette. "I will lay here next to you, okay?"

Olivia wrapped her arm around Alex and held her in place as best she could.

"The whole time he was kicking me all I saw was your face," Olivia said into the dark, "How, no matter what happened, I had to make it out. There was no way on earth I was leaving you, especially since we haven't really had a chance to talk since that night."

Alex nodded as the tears started to fall from her eyes.

"Then I heard the gunshot. I honestly thought he had shot me till I heard Amanda screaming our location and for help. That was when I realized she had shot him. I struggled to crawl to her and when I made it to her I gave her a big hug and kissed her."

" You what?" Alex asked, pulling back to look at Olivia in the dark room.

"On the cheek, woman," Olivia said with some laughter in her voice, "You're the only blonde I ever want to kiss. Hell, you're the only woman I want to kiss till the day I die. I owed her my life so, I hugged her and kissed her on the cheek. The next thing I knew, the guys were there, and we were pulled apart, and sent to the hospital in separate ambulances."

"You were scared."

"Terrified, Alex, she was shot and then no one would tell me anything. Cragen was the one who finally got them to place her in the same room as me with a curtain separating us. I wasn't happy about that, but I could hear her voice so I knew she was okay. That's all I wanted, all I needed, to know that she was alive and okay."

"I understand," Alex whispered as she settled back down next to Olivia. She did understand and know all too well from the many times before that Olivia and Elliot had been injured. Neither would ever calm down till they could physically see that the other was okay.

"Then I heard Cragen calling you, I was ready to hit the roof," Olivia went on to explain, "I didn't want him to wake you up. I didn't want him to scare you. I wanted to call you. I wanted you to be able to hear my voice because I knew you wouldn't panic as bad then."

"Hearing your voice or not, I will still panic," Alex said, "I will panic the same that you do until you can lay your eyes on the injured officer. No matter what you say or do that won't change."

"I know and then he tells me that you hung up on him. At first, I thought you weren't coming."

"Why?"

"Honey, we hadn't really talked since that night. The next time we had a chance to have a conversation, it was long enough for me to tell you that Rollins was moving into my apartment for the duration of the sting. I know you said you were okay with it, but I could still hear the hesitation in your voice."

"Allow me to clarify why I sounded the way I sounded."

"Okay."

"I wasn't doubting you or your faithfulness to me, I was mad. She would get to see you daily. She would be there when you turned out the lights. She would be the one to hear your nightmares and try to calm you down, not me. I want that to be me. Even though it was for an undercover operation, she was going to be there, comforting you when it should have been me. The thought of someone else doing that instead of me, just, I just can't take it, not when we've come as far as we have."

"It is you, honey," Olivia said rolling the best she could so she could see Alex "It has always been you and it will always be you."

"Every imaginable scenario went through my head on the ride to the hospital. I know Cragen said your injuries were minor, but on the ride there I kept picturing in my head of me arriving too late. That somewhere, somehow, they missed something and you took a turn for the worse and they couldn't save you. That when I arrived, all I would be able to do is see your body. Never be able to hold you again. Never be able to tell you how much I love you and how much I need you."

Olivia leaned forward and kissed the tears that were falling from Alex's eyes.

"Then, the nurse at the station was putting me off. She told me to have a seat. Her only saving grace was the fact that Cragen must have seen me come in because he came out into the waiting room and took me to you. Then to physically lay eyes on you, you lying in the bed, eyes closed, finally looking at peace. I knew that my worst nightmare had come true. Then I heard the best sound in the world, your voice. I wanted to hit the floor on my knees then and thank god you were okay. Then I wanted to start smacking you for scaring me so badly."

"Days like yesterday are unavoidable."

"I know," Alex said as she exhaled slowly, "I knew that the first time we dated and married just as well as I know it now. But, that doesn't make it any easier. So, until you retire, I will panic when you are at work. I will jump and hold my breath like I always do when the phone rings. I will internally freak out until I physically lay my eyes on you and I'm able to touch you. Then, at night, when you come home, to me, and I hold you in my arms as you fight the demons of the night in your sleep, I will thank god that I have been given one more day with you. Because, no matter the panic and worry I go through, the end result is more than worth it."

"I love you," Olivia choked out, pulling Alex close against her despite the pain that shot through her.

"I love you too," Alex cried as she kissed Olivia.