Okay so here is the next chapter hope you enjoy....prolly my longest chapter for this story so far. Tried to keep this realistic as possible.....hope you argree that everything is plasuible and not over done ENJO Y and as always thaks for reading and thanks so much for the reviews if i didn't tell you already

Chapter 35

"Don't you think we should let her cool off until morning?" I hear Phil's voice as I start to wake up. My face is pressed firmly into my pillow and the bare mattress is digging into my skin.

"No, I don't think we should let this go until tomorrow, I already agreed with you that we shouldn't drag Edward's name through the mud, but I will not go another hour without knowing what happened in that house. I trusted that…that man with my little girl and look how he repays me. I want answers and I want them now, I know Bella and she would never even think about dating let alone having S-E-X with a boy. She knows that she has to wait until her schooling is done before she starts getting involved in all that nonsense."

"Renee listen to yourself for just a second, do you even remember what it is like to be 17? Let alone a young girl in love." I listen quietly as they discuss me wondering where this whole discussion will end up.

"Yes, in fact I do and the next week I was pregnant and wondering why my mother wasn't stricter with me. I don't want my mistakes to be hers. I don't want her to throw her life away just for a simple act for what she believes is true love."

"Just hear her out, let her explain herself without jumping to conclusions. You ripped her away from him like one more second and you would see her turn to dust. I don't want this to affect her negatively, Renee she will be 18 next year do you really want her leaving this house at the stroke of midnight the eve of her birthday?"

"No, she would never…I mean she wouldn't would she?" Her voice for the first time sounds stricken and full of doubt.

I hear a few whispers before footsteps start to come up the stairs towards me. I take a deep breath wondering which one is going to confront me first. The slight rap of knuckles on my door has me rolling over to peer up at Phil's forced smile.

"How ya doing?" He asks well at least he asks instead of assumes that I feel like a rape victim like my ignorant mother.

"How's Edward?" I murmur as I shrug in answer to his question.

"He'll survive I'm sure." He says joining me on my bed as I pull myself into an upright position. "Your mother would like a word with you." He says with a slight frown.

"I heard."

"She does love you, ya know, we both do." Phil replies as he helps me to my feet.

I follow him down the stairs and eye my bags at the bottom of the staircase with disdain. I take a seat on the couch, which is still angled badly and in the middle of what could possibly be a dinning room. My arms cross in front of my chest, defensive posture I know but I can't help it.

My mother and Phil join me, both sitting across from me on a couple of boxes. The third degree at least I will get a chance to explain my side of the story.

"Okay, why don't you start by telling us how long you and Edward have been…uh dating?" Phil's calm voice settles over me and I am thankful it is a question I can actually answer.

"No," my mother cuts me off before I even open my mouth to speak, "I want to know how long she has been having sex with the boy and if I need to make her a doctors appointment for a pregnancy test."

"Mother!" I shout appalled at her question and the bluntness of it.

"Well, answer the question, Bella, and don't even think about lying to me cause I will know." I narrow my eyes at her and swallow down the acidic response I want to throw back at her.

"If you must know about my sex life, mother, I am still a virgin. Edward in no way ever pressured me to change that fact either. He has been nothing but a gentleman the entire time."

"Gentlemen sure do not start to get naked on their own front lawn, nor do they perform sexual acts with individuals under the age of 18."

"One year, gosh…does it even matter to you that I wanted it, that I wanted him to touch me, to kiss me, hell mother, I even wanted to have sex with him, but no, you don't care that it was consensual. You would be acting this way even if it was a boy my own age so don't throw the whole age thing in my face. You have done nothing but discourage me from talking to the opposite sex since you noticed the guys looked more at me than you."

"Bella, I have only done what is best for you." She all but whispers, "And I will continue to do what is best for you until you are no longer a child."

"What is best for me is Edward? I love him and he sure as hell loves me." I shout at her standing up thus forcing them both to rise to their own feet.

"Love," she laughs, "What do you know about love? If he loved you he wouldn't be leaving town tomorrow on the first flight he could get." She sneers at me and I instantly look to Phil.

"Renee that isn't why…"

"Shut up, all that matters is that Edward is leaving town, without saying goodbye or…" My mother cuts him off.

"Is she right? He's leaving?" I question around the lump in my throat, I look at Phil and he only nods in confirmation. A deep breath and a few silent tears later and the front door is the first place I run to. Out into the night air, out into the cool freedom that is Forks, I just run.

I hear Phil's voice call after me, but I just keep running down the street and away from them. I am almost certain Phil wanted to explain why Edward is leaving but my mother just wants me to believe that he nothing more than horny man who wanted in my pants. That sounds about like her description of him. I start to slow my pace as I reach the end of town, I have no clue where I am and no clue where the house is that my mom moved into so I just keep walking. Out of town on the highway, the name is irrelevant and my destination is anywhere but here.

There are few headlights on the road as I start get further from town; I just hope that Phil and my mother don't come looking for me down this road. The reasonable and responsible Bella they both know would have stayed in town, probably more like the next house over or something.

As I walk, my mind starts telling me things I would rather not dwell on, things that sound similar to my mother's way of thinking, similar in voice and in content. I look around me as I stop along the road, darkness everywhere I look. Exhaustion takes over and I sink into the ground…sitting silently watchful that I am a good distance from the ever present white line along the pavement.

I know I shouldn't be sitting here in the dark along a road I have never been on, but I don't know where else to turn. The grass is wet and cool as it starts to soak through my jeans but it is a small price to pay for having a little freedom. I forgot how oppressive my mother can be.

My eyes flash up as a lone car approaches and dread washes over me 'great they found me'. Please let it be Phil and not my mother I pray as the car comes to a halt. I don't recognize it, I know it could be a rental, but I don't think so.

The passenger's side door swings open, "Do you need help, miss?" A deep voice asks and I look up into the car, which isn't a car but a beat up old pick up truck. The face I see reminds me of my lunchroom friends yet older, a warm smile is upon his face and for some reason I want to trust this man. My mother's voice rings in my ears not to get into cars with strangers, but I am mad at my mother, at the moment.

"I'm lost." I say loud enough for him to hear over the noisy engine and I pull myself up to my feet.

"I haven't seen you around here, are you from Forks? I myself live over on the Rez, but I might know your folks." He smiles.

I frown at the folks part and his words kick into my brain…the rez isn't that precisely where Jake is from. "Umm, do you know a umm Jacob Black?" I mumble out unsure of what he will say to my question.

"Yeah, sure do…do you go to school with the kid?"

"Yeah, he's a friend of mine do you think you could give me a ride to his house?"

"I don't know…sure I can't just give you a lift home." He looks at me warily.

"I don't want to go home, plus I have no clue where it is…we just moved here and I don't know my address."

"Look kid, I don't feel right about taking you anywhere but home, how about I take you into town to the police station and they can call your folks?"

"No thanks, I'll just walk." I mutter shutting the door to the truck, escape that way is not gonna happen.

The driver looks at me one more time before driving off probably to call the police and to tell them where I am. Why did I tell him I was lost? I beat myself up over the whole thing a little longer before I turn off the road at the next crossing. I'm not gonna find myself in the back of a police cruiser anytime this century. Hmmm, would this be considered running away from home, no, I just don't want to go home, I want Edward he is my home.

I let out a deep breath as I look up at the cloudy sky, how long has it been since I left? An hour maybe…I wonder if they called in the calvary yet. I look around me, trees line both sides of the road that I am on making it seem a little scary now that I think about it. Since I have been here, I have yet, to venture out into the wilderness much less jump in with both feet first. I'll have to stick to the roads, but it wouldn't hurt to take a break.

Not making the same mistake about the locale of where said break will be taken I head over to the tree line and sink down next to a rather large tree. I won't be seen here from the road…well at least not easily. Before I know it my eyes are getting heavy and all thoughts of getting back up are null and void as my chin bobs and rest on my shoulder.

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Bright light, blindingly bright, I might say is shinning in my eyes. I hold my hand up to shield them from what I now recognize as an ordinary flash light.

"Bella, thank God I found you." I hear a voice that takes me a moment to recognize and I almost smile when I realize that it belongs to Jasper.

"Jasper? Why were you even looking for me?" I mumble as the flashlight beam drops from my face and to his feet as he walks closer to me. The dome light in his car is on and I see that he is alone, alone is good.

"I'm looking for you because I get a desperate phone call from Edward two hours ago saying that you are lost and the rest of the story of the reasons why. C'mon let me help you up." He extends his hand towards me and as I grasp it I realize how wet and cold I really am. My arms almost instantly wrap around my bare arms trying to seek any warmth I can find.

Jasper helps me to his car without any more questions and it isn't until he starts the car back up that he says something. "What on earth were you thinking, I don't care what your parents said…do you know they said some guy from the reservation phoned the police stating that a lost child was seen sitting on the highway. It didn't take the cops long to figure out who you were, but that was over an hour ago."

"I didn't plan it, I really just got lost, and…I couldn't go back there." I mumble leaning gently against the seatbelt across my shoulder.

"Bella, I'm gonna take you home now, I know you don't want to be there, but…" He sighs audibly, "It is out of my hands."

"I know, I'm glad you found me instead of someone else." I murmur as I pull my hands through my hair silently wishing this horrible day was over. "What time is it?"

"It's nearly one in the morning?"

"Uhhgn, and you're out here looking for me who else did I drag out of bed for no good reason?"

"Relax, nobody is gonna care that they came out looking for you as long as you are safe."

A long pause occurs as I turn to stare out into the night.

"Jasper, can I ask you something?"

"Sure, what ever you want just go ahead."

"You know Edward very well; do you think he cares about me even though he is leaving?" I ask and I know all my insecurities are out there in the open for Jasper to see and hear.

He pauses for what feels like eternity, "What ever Edward does he does for a reason and what ever Edward has told you I know he would not lie to you. From my perspective, yeah I would say he cares a great deal, but he is in a tough situation right now, emotionally and physically in many ways. What is best for the both of you may not be what either of you want, but sometimes that's what life is all about making decisions that in the long run bring about the best result for all parties involved."

The silence is thick as just then we turn into the driveway, I know cause the u-haul truck is still sitting there. We both just sit in the car for a moment staring at the house.

"Do you want me to walk you in? They already know I found you, it should just be your mother inside."

Crap.

"Do you mind? If it isn't too much of a hassle I mean..I know it is late and all but do you think you could run interference until Phil gets home…If you don't want to I'm sure she won't yell at me too long…"

"Bella, it's no problem, really," He gives me a weak smile before we get out of the car.

I open the door and walk into the house. My mother is standing by the door as we walk inside her mouth opens briefly, before she closes it probably upon seeing Jasper follow me inside.

"Thank God, you found her." My mother exclaims pulling me into a hug, "What has gotten into you young lady?" Her voice much less harsh than it would have been were I alone.

"Thanks, Jasper; you are such a good friend." I smile at him, "If you don't mind mother I am going to take a hot shower and head to bed."

"Goodnight, Bella, I'm sure I'll see you around." Jasper's optimism makes me even more depressed, he or any male would not be on my approved friends list. My mind seethes at the thought of living with my mother once again, before I moved here I would never have thought I would care, but my eyes are open now.