So, due to overwhelming demand and me really not feeling super satisfied with the ending either, I decided to pop in an epilogue or 2, hope it satisfies all those who were left unsatisfied :)

Also thank you again for the love, sooo super sweet! (I also enjoyed the hate mail at ending it there, endearing in a kinda scary way, made me hammer out this prologue super quick ;) )

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Epilogue; part 1

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Eight months later

Staring at the sea had always had a calming effect on Brittany, it may have been one of the large factors in Santana moving out to Malibu. The Latina said it was because she wanted to try and get away from the rat race, but really, Brittany knew better, besides, the Lopez Estate was completely tucked away up in the hills, so far removed from any form of rat race, Brittany knew she was only doing it to give her a change of scenery, somewhere that she loved to be.

Brittany watched the waves come in and out from the bay window of their lounge room, she loved standing there and just watching the tide move in and out, the gulls swoop down for fish and the occasional surfer or dog walker going about their daily lives, she felt connected.

Their townhouse was tucked away at the end of the beach, the last on a row of only several houses, it was very discreet and incredibly beautiful, Brittany adored the location, even if it was a pretty big trek back to her office where she had been doing desk duties since the incident, it was without a doubt worth it.

Beiste had said she could go back to being Santana's bodyguard after a break if she wished, but Brittany knew she was in no place to protect somebody's life at the moment, especially the women she loved. So Zises and Puckerman had been taking turns as Santana's bodyguard whenever she left their house, Brittany was glad Santana had protection, even if she couldn't give it to her, she felt slightly more at ease sitting at her desk every day knowing someone was looking out for Santana.

Brittany stared back out at the water, letting the sound of the waves slow her fast beating heart. Whatever the reason they had moved out here, she was really glad they had done it, Santana's house really had far too many memories attached to it, she wanted to move forward and in Brittany's mind the move was the best way for that process to start.

She could tell it had had a positive effect on Quinn too, once she was able to come back to work, she could see the sadness in the blondes eyes any time she walked into the Lopez Estate, dredging up old memories of happier times for the girl.

Brittany heard Santana enter the room noisily, for which she was grateful, ever since the incident, as Brittany had come to call it, her nerves weren't amazing. Santana had recognised this and made a conscious effort to announce herself when she entered a room, even if it did make her seem like a klutz, it meant the world to Brittany.

Hands slid around her waist and Brittany made a cognizant effort not to flinch at the contact, letting out a puff of air that fogged up the glass in front of her, making the sea look like a blurry mass of greyish blue.

"Are you ready to go baby?" Santana asked quietly, her chin resting on Brittany's shoulder.

Brittany nodded and turned in Santana's arms, pulling her in for a tight hug.

When they pulled out of the hug a huge smile graced Santana's face, which in turn made Brittany smile just as widely.

"Thank you so much for coming today, I know you had to miss work for it and with the last few weeks being so crazy and in amongst that having the trial, I'm sure all you want to do is go back and keep filming, I know how far behind the movie is and if..." Brittany trailed off her rambling when Santana put her lips gently onto Brittany's.

"Of course I'm coming, you're the most important part of my life, I want to be there whenever you need me, so shush," Santana stated, giving Brittany's nose a tap and sliding her hand down the blondes arm, taking Brittany's hand.

Brittany gave a small head nod, following Santana as she pulled them outside and into the awaiting car where Blaine was sitting in the driver's seat, he gave them a smile in the revision mirror before pulling out and driving back towards the city.

Santana sat in the middle, her hand resting softly on Brittany's leg as Brittany stared out at the coast line as they weaved their way to their destination.

Brittany's leg started to bounce from nerves as they drew closer to their destination, Santana grabbed a hold of Brittany's hand, trying to calm the blonde down.

"It's ok baby, I love you, nothing said today or in the past in this room will change that, I just want you to be completely genuine with yourself, say exactly what you're feeling, vulnerability and honesty with the person you love are not a weakness, it's a strength, we will get through this together, I promise," Santana finished confidently, staring Brittany in the eye to show her sincerity.

Brittany nodded and smiled at the Latina, "Thank you sweety, I know it will be fine, it's just our first session as a couple, I'm so use to it just being Holly and I, It's silly me being nervous, I know, I'm doing my best to let down my walls again Sanny, I am, you're the only one I trust to do that around, I promise I'll get there, I'll really try, I love you and nothing will change that either," Brittany stated honestly, leaning forward and giving the brunette a soft kiss.

Brittany couldn't help it though, she was nervous, Rachel's trial, which had only finished a few days ago left them both exhausted, Rachel may have gotten ten years behind bars, but even so, the whole process had opened up old wounds for the couple. Not to mention Santana trying to fit in her busy shooting schedule around it, alongside all the hampering from the press, they barely had any time together and when they were together, they usually fought over stupid things or were too tired to even attempt to make conversation.

It also didn't help that Brittany was completely blocked off and sexual intimacy was non-existent between the couple. Brittany was only just allowing Santana to kiss and cuddle her, Brittany knew Santana was a sexual being and the sexual frustration was almost killing her. But she also knew Santana loved her dearly, so she wasn't pressuring her, but the blonde knew, Santana wasn't coping well without sex in her life, things that wouldn't have affected her before were suddenly incomprehensible, she stressed more and was constantly short tempered with everyone but Brittany.

Pulling up in front of the office, Brittany and Santana thanked Blaine and hopped out of the car and moved quickly into the Therapists office, with the hope of avoiding any press attention in the busy city centre.

Brittany had been seeing Holly Holliday since the event, originally Beiste had told Brittany it was a necessity that the company pay for her to talk to someone for a minimum of three months after going through the trauma she had been through. Although no one outside Santana and now Holly knew about what Rachel had truly done to Brittany, what everyone knew Brittany had gone through was enough to dignify seeing a therapist alone.

Brittany at first had declined, insisting there was no need, when Santana heard about it she insisted Brittany go, they argued for more than a week over the matter, but Santana wouldn't take no for an answer. So with the proviso that Santana would also see a different therapist, Brittany insisting due to Santana's occasional night terrors, Brittany agreed to go.

Santana went for close to three months and said she had found it very helpful, but had managed, so she said, to put the incidents behind her, but insisted Brittany continue to go, as it was evident the bodyguard was still suffering from what Rachel had put her and Santana through.

Brittany agreed, only because she really did enjoy her sessions with Holly and as much as she didn't want to admit it, she felt they were helping her, she could see how much it had helped Santana, who's night terrors had stopped, she was determined to get the same results and be the girlfriend Santana deserved again.

Up until this point Brittany had been going by herself, but Holly had insisted that Santana come in at least once so she could really get to know Brittany and help her with her continuing intimacy problems.

Walking into the reception area the receptionist nodded a hello to Brittany as they took a seat to wait to see Holly, who had come highly recommended by Beiste for trauma therapy. Brittany had to agree, the blonde had seen straight through her exterior and cut through her deflections in the first few sessions.

When Brittany had first arrived at Miss Holliday's office, she had been cynical, therapy was for the weak, that's what she had always been lead to believe, anything could be forgotten in time and she just had to get over it.

But after a few weeks, Holly had started to crack her walls, she had finally confessed to the woman about what Rachel had really done to her and how this was affecting her relationship with Santana.

Since the incident, Brittany's struggle with intimacy made her beyond mad, she didn't understand it, she had always been a really intimate person, loving hugs and kisses almost as much as she loved sex, especially from someone she loved as much as Santana, but for some reason she just couldn't cope with it anymore. Any time Santana tried to simply give her a hug her first instinct was to flinch away from the touch, but she had been trying and over time she had been able to start to deflect the automatic instinct to flinch away from the brunette, it was getting easier to control, but still very much a difficult part of their relationship.

Brittany bit her bottom lip as she stared at Miss holiday's door, waiting for the woman to enter the waiting room and usher them both in, she had been looking forward to her therapist meeting Santana up until they had gotten into the car to come here, then all of a sudden all of her nerves and trepidations had hit her. Brittany took deep breaths to try and control her nerves, this was Santana, she meant the world to her and she was going to do everything possible to fix her issues, to try and bring down the barrier around herself that had grown so high and so strong.

She had started to feel the walls coming down slowly over the weeks, but the trial and seeing Rachel's smiling face in the courtroom had thrown all the walls back up thicker than ever and it was Holly's hope that working with them both together would start to pull them back down again more effectively.

Brittany, more than anything, missed the intimacy Santana and herself had once shared, the easy flirting, the way Santana's touch would make her relax, the way her kiss would go straight to her heart or straight between her legs, the way the brunettes hands could make her feel like every part of her body was on fire. She missed those feelings more than anything else in the world and somehow she was going to get them back.

The door opened and the blonde came towards them with welcome, opening arms, "You must be Santana, Brittany has told me so many wonderful things about you, please, both of you, come in," Miss Holiday stated as the two women preceded her into her office.

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So I think I'll just do a few epilogues, have no idea how many, just to polish off the story a little better, make me and all of you happier :)

Let me know what you think, I'll try and get the next one up asap

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