Having left the Med-tent Julia headed away from where the bulk of the colonists had assembled, not wanting to talk to anyone. As she headed to the far side of the camp she saw True sitting on some boxes by herself. Julia slowly made her way over, trying to make some noise so not to startle the young girl.
"Hey True. What are you doing over here by yourself? Why aren't you playing with Uly?"
"I didn't want to talk to anyone." True answered all the while staring at her feet.
Interpreting the statement as a hint Julia said. "Ok I will leave you to it." As she began to turn True called out.
"Julia wait. I didn't mean you. You can sit next to me." She finished as she shuffled over, making more room on the boxes.
As Julia sat she said, "Your dad will be fine."
"I know." True responded and then remained quiet. Although Julia felt she should probably say something, she had no idea what, so just sat in silence until True said.
"It is all my fault."
"It's not your fault True."
"Yes it is. Firstly the was the Koba, then there was Gaal and then this. I was responsible for all of them."
"True listen to me. None of those were your fault." Julia said trying to sound as firm as possible.
"Yes they were. I brought the Koba into the camp. I became Gaal's friend. I ignored you and ran straight into them. All of them were my fault. It is because I am a bad person isn't it."
"What? True, no." Julia started shocked that True was feeling like this and unsure how best to put the girl at ease. "No one blames you for any of those events because they were not your fault. The Koba was an accident and it all turned out ok. Gaal was evil and he tricked you. Not because you are a bad person, but because you are a good person. You wanted to see the good in him and he used that. But in the end it was your smart thinking that tipped of your dad and the others as well as saving the Terrians. This time round it was my fault for not checking the area better and ultimately you saved me twice. It was not your fault."
"Then why am I being punished?"
"Punished? How are you being punished?" Julia asked. Her voice laced with confusion and concern.
"Dad getting shot, the nightmares."
"What are the nightmares about?"
"When we were captured. When they came into the camp. Dad lying there loosing all that blood."
"Have you told anyone about them?"
True silently shook her head then said. "I don't want dad to worry about me. I just want him to get better. He will do that faster if he puts all of his energy into resting and not worrying won't he?"
"Well –"
"You have to promise not to tell him. I don't want to make him worse."
"He would want to know True. Besides talking about them will help them go away quicker."
"What if I promised to talk to someone other than dad? Would he have to know then?"
"Talking to anyone will help. But your dad will want to know at the very least that you are having nightmares."
Before True could respond, Devon approached and said, "True your supper is ready."
"Ok." True replied, before looking at Julia and asking, "Are you coming?"
Julia looked at Devon and sensing she wanted a private conversation said, "I will be there in a bit. I just need to talk to Devon."
After True had left Julia said, "If you are about to defend Alonzo I don't want to hear it."
"Wasn't going to mention him." Devon said, causing Julia to quirk an eyebrow. "Well not much anyway. I was going to suggest that I should change the dressings on your back. I have the supplies in my tent already."
Nodding in agreement Julia followed Devon to her tent and carefully removed her shirt, before lying on the bed.
"How is the area feeling?" Devon asked as she removed the old dressing.
"Sore." Julia responded before hissing as Devon cleaned the ripped flesh.
"Sorry." Devon said, "They are all looking clean, and better than they were the last time I saw them." When Julia said nothing, taking advantage of the situation Devon said, "He did not mean to hurt you. He only went because Bess and Yale convinced him it was the right thing to do."
"Then why did he not tell me?"
"Why won't you talk to him about what happened?" Devon countered. "Trust goes both ways. Being in a relationship involves sharing the good and bad. He loves you Julia and wants to help. Yes he shouldn't have gone without telling you, but you are not blameless." Devon stuck the final part of the new dressing down and asked, "How does that feel?"
"Fine." Julia responded.
"Good. Well think about what I have said. It is a long journey to New Pacifica."
As Julia silently replaced her shirt Devon asked, "Are you coming tonight?"
"Yes, I'll be there." She turned to face Devon and with a hint of a smile she said, "Someone needs to keep an eye on John."
"Someone always needs to keep an eye on him. His ability to find trouble never ceases to amaze me. Come on lets go get something to eat."
