Four Letters She Threw Away and the One that She Sent.
You asked me for a goodbye note, so here it is. It's not on scented paper or anything stupid like that, but look, if you're going to Paris and leaving me here for a month, then you don't really deserve anything like pressed flowers or sparkly gel pens, ok?
Stop asking for the S.W.A.K. stamp, I don't even know what that is. So shut up.
If you lean over my shoulder and say something stupid, like you are right now, I'm going to tell you that I'm working on my homework and go away, slacker, do your own work for once. And you're going to smile in that stupid distracted way, wrinkling the corners of your eyes like you are right now, and pat my shoulder and tell me to work on that goodbye note as you wander off to play video games or something.
And I will. Once you leave me alone, idiot.
Akiyama, why in the world did you decide to leave now, of all times, when whatever mess we have is finally starting to fall into place and finally work out without all the awkward silences and clumsy moments, even if it is for some life-changing college interview, you don't have to go a continent away, do you? The moment I'm actually going to miss you is when you decide to go, you pack up your bags and say guess what, Ruki, I'm going to France, isn't that great and other things that ruin everything like that. You're a stupid hero-boy that doesn't think about anything or the people you're leaving behind, aren't you. Just rushing into whatever is out there with a big grin on your face, forgetting to look back at the people waiting behind you.
Go.
See if I care.
Look.
I've been to Paris with my mom, and I know the type of people that are there and I know exactly what kind of people they are, and more importantly, I know the type of person you are and--
If you end up flirting with any of those stupid air headed Parisian girls, I'm going to end this.
And then I'm going to end you.
When you leave, I'm going to miss you.
It's not going to be anything earthshaking or heartbreaking. It won't be the sun blinking out of my life or the air sucked out of my lungs. It'll be more like losing the smell of the ramen shop we pass on the way to school, or the taste of those really bad muffins you keep trying to bake or the sound of birds singing in the park when the sun sets.
It's not like they're amazing or anything.
I'd just miss them a lot.
Don't do anything stupid until you come home.
Have a good trip, Ryou.
-Ruki.
I'm horribly busy.
Hello reviewers, if you're still out there. Did you miss me?