Spencer's POV
"Hey Spencer, are you ready to go?" Lisa asks as she and Michelle get ready to leave for lunch.
"Yea, where are we going today?"
"We were thinking of checking out this new Italian place around the corner."
"That sounds awesome; I could really use some pasta." I respond as I grab my bag and head to the door.
While we were walking down the street to the restaurant, I noticed how they walked closely together, smiling and holding hands. I can't help but feel jealous. I really miss Ashley. I had a feeling that she would never cheat on me, but being with her kind of scares me. Before she dated Brooke, she would get with any girl she wanted. I feel like one day she will just leave me for someone else, and I don't want to get hurt. So of course, I broke up with her so I could protect myself. In the end, I just ended up hurting both of us. It's been almost two weeks since we broke up, and every day we text constantly and she calls me right before she goes to sleep. And every day she makes me fall more in love with her, but I still have this fear that if I start dating her again, she will get bored and leave.
"Spencer!" Michelle yells, effectively stopping my thoughts.
"Yea, what's up?"
"You were walking right past the restaurant, we're here." She said motioning towards the small Italian restaurant.
"Oh, sorry" I said shyly.
After I ordered, I felt my phone vibrate. I opened the message and saw a picture of Ashley smiling into the camera. The text said 'I hope you have nice lunch, I wish I could eat with you or just eat you. Either way I'd be satisfied.' I couldn't help the blush that formed on my face. I can just picture her smirking as she wrote that.
"What's making you blush like that Spencer?" Lisa says.
"N-Nothing." I stuttered.
"Right, I bet it has something to do with Ashley." Michelle said with a smirk.
"What makes you think that?" I argued with a raised eyebrow.
"Well maybe it's the fact that you have been texting her non-stop for the past two weeks!" she replies.
I sent a quick reply that said 'Which would you prefer?' before turning to Michelle and Lisa saying "I don't know what you're talking about."
"OK fine, don't tell us." Lisa said forcing a frown.
The waitress came with our food, and we ate in silence. My phone vibrated again and it was another text from Ashley. 'Is that a serious question?' I smiled wide. 'Dead serious.'
"There it is again. What's going on with you two?" Lisa asks.
"Nothing."
"Babe, she's not going to tell us so we should stop trying." Michelle says. I knew I liked her.
"You should listen to her." I said looking at Lisa.
"Fine, but how have you been since?"
"I've been ok. I miss her a lot." I said frowning.
"It gets easier as time goes on. You should do something so that you aren't thinking about it all the time." Michelle offered.
"I guess, but what can I do?"
"You should go to L.A. and visit your family; you haven't been there since you've been here. That would be a good distraction." Lisa said quickly.
Just as I was about to reply, I received a text. 'I don't think anything would taste better than you.' She is on a roll today. I smirk and reply 'Not even the one thing you can't resist: chocolate covered strawberries?'
I look up to see Michelle and Lisa staring at me. "I'm sorry, what were we talking about again?"
Michelle shakes her head and laughs. "Lisa suggested that you go to L.A. to see your family for the weekend."
"I do miss them, and it would be a good distraction." I thought aloud.
"Exactly!" Lisa exclaims, a little too loud for my taste.
"I'll see when I can plan my trip." I took another bite of my food.
"Well what's wrong with this weekend?" Michelle questioned.
"I guess nothing, it just seems so soon."
"Just do it, what's the worst that could happen?" She says.
"Nothing, I guess. I will think about it. Why are you so determined to get me to go see my family?"
"I just think that your family would cheer you up." Michelle replied.
"I will go, but this weekend is not definite." I reply just as my phone vibrates again. 'What would taste even better is you covered in chocolate syrup, right after we feed each other the strawberries.' Cue blush. I cannot go back into work horny, but it seems that way. 'You can put chocolate syrup on me right after I lick every drop off of you.'
"Whatever, are you ready to head back to set?" Lisa says standing up.
"Yea let's go." I put some money down for my bill, and followed Michelle and Lisa out of the store.
Right as I was entering the set, I receive a text 'I like the way you think Spencer Carlin.' I laugh as I shake my head. 'I'm sure you would like other things I do as well.' I shut my phone off and went to work.
After work, I found a cab and headed straight home. I would have taken the offered ride from Lily, but ever since the club incident, I have been keeping my distance from her.
As soon as I opened my door, I started striping. I needed a nice long shower. As I was getting out of the shower, I heard someone knocking on my door. Who the hell is it? I don't know anyone here.
I opened the door and looked into a set of familiar eyes.
"Hey what are you doing here?"
"I left my sweater here. Have you seen it?'
"Oh yea, I put it in my closet. I was going to give it to Aiden to give to you but I kept forgetting." I say walking to my room. "I'm just going to throw some clothes on; I'll be out in a minute." I yelled over my shoulder.
When I came out, she was sitting on the couch. I sat next to her handing her the sweater. "Thanks." She replied.
"No problem. So how are you and Aiden?" She smiled at the mention of his name.
"We are awesome. I can't believe that after all these years, we are still so in love. He is still so patient, sweet, and caring. And the sex-"
And this is where I cut her off. "Ok you can stop there. I can do without that information. But I am glad that you are happy, Ky."
"Thanks. What about you?" She said looking in my eyes.
"I'm fine."
"Yea ok, I don't believe you at all. What's going on between you and Ash?"
"She told you?"
"Yea she called me crying last week. She said that you broke up with her."
"Oh gosh! I feel awful about that."
"Why did you do it?"
"I thought she was cheating on me. And then I started thinking about how she was before she was with Brooke and it scared me. I don't want to be fully committed to her, just to have her get bored with me and go looking for someone else." I said honestly.
"I honestly doubt that would happen. I know how she feels about you. She would do anything for you Spencer."
"I know but it doesn't help my fears."
"You can't push her away because you are scared. Have you told her any of this?"
"No." I said hanging my head.
"You should talk to her. Let her know what's going on in your head. She deserves at least that." She said getting up and heading towards the door.
"I will, I just need time." I said following her.
"Just don't take too long. I waited too long with Aiden. I'm just glad it wasn't too late." She smiled. "I'll see you later. We should hang out sometime since we are both in the same area."
"Yea I'll call you sometime. Later." I locked the door after she left.
I went back to my couch to think about everything that has happened today. After about a half hour of just sitting and thinking, my phone brought me back to earth.
"Hey dad!"
"Hey sweetie, how are you?"
"I'm alright, I love work though!"
"That's good now tell me what's wrong."
"I can't ever get anything past you now can I dad?"
"Never. Now tell me what's been bothering you."
I sigh. "It's just that I don't know what to do about Ashley."
"What's wrong with her? Are you guys arguing?"
"No not really. It's complicated."
"The last time I spoke to you, she was there and you two were finally together and happy."
"Yea I know. Funny how things change."
"So tell me what happened."
After about twenty minutes, I finished telling him everything. "So you love her, right?"
"More than anything."
"And you want to be with her?"
"Correct."
"But you're scared?"
"Yes."
"Have you told her?"
"No."
"Do you think that's fair?"
"Not really, but I'm not sure how to."
"You will think of something."
"I guess so."
"So on a better note, when do you think you will come visit your old man?"
"I was just thinking about that today. I was thinking of flying out this weekend."
"That would be great. Everyone would love to see you. Chelsea is getting bigger. I can't wait for my grandchild to be here already. And believe it or not but Glen is still with Debbie. I'm so proud of everyone."
"I really miss everyone. It's decided, I'm going there this weekend."
"That's great sweetie. I can't wait to see you."
"Me either. I will call you with all of the information later tonight. I just need you to pick me up at the airport."
"Not a problem."
"Thanks dad. I love you."
"Love you to honey. Bye."
"Bye."
I set my phone on the couch and started to get lost in my thoughts again. I'm really excited to see my family. I can't believe Glen is still with Debbie, she must be a keeper. And I'm so excited to see how big Chelsea got. I hope she has a girl. I would spoil her rotten. I wonder if I will have kids one day. Ashley seems to be good with children. I miss Ashley. Shit! She's going to be in L.A. and I know I will see her; I'm just not sure if I will be able to handle it. Maybe I will stay at my dad's just for the visit. What if she's seeing someone? She would have told me, right? Once again my ringing phone knocks me out of my thoughts. I look to see who it is, speaking of the devil.
"Hey Ash."
"Hi Spence. What are you doing?"
"Nothing, just thinking."
"Try not to hurt yourself." She laughed.
"Haha very funny." I said sarcastically as I got up and headed for my room.
"I know, it's one of my many talents."
"And there goes that ego again."
"One of the many things you love about me." I know she's grinning.
"Right, I will let you believe that." I said as I lie down in my bed.
"So how was your day?"
"Good, we were able to shoot a lot of scenes, even though I was a little distracted." I say with a smile.
"That's good about the scenes. Why were you distracted though?" I can hear the smile through her words.
"Oh I don't know, maybe it was because you sent me all of those dirty texts."
She laughed. I love her laugh, it's so cute. "I'm sorry that I distracted you."
"No you aren't"
"You're right. I had a lot of fun doing it."
"I'm sure you did."
"You aren't so innocent either Miss 'I'm sure you would like other things I can do as well.' That's all I could think about today."
It was my turn to laugh. "I'm so sorry."
"No you aren't, but it's ok because it just gave me more fantasies to dream about."
"You are ridiculous."
"Yet another thing you love about me."
"And the ego is back again."
"It never left, babe."
"What's new? Anyways, I've had a long day so I'm going to sleep. I'll talk to you tomorrow. And try to keep the dirty texts to a minimum."
She laughs "I'll try, but no promises. Good night Spence. I love you."
"Good night Ash, I love you too."
I put my phone down on my nightstand. I went to lie down so I could sleep. I tried for ten minutes but I couldn't get the picture of Ashley covered in chocolate out of my head, and I started to get wet. I reached over to my night stand, opened the drawer, and grabbed my vibrating friend. Tonight is going to end on a high note.
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