Twilight and it's character were created by Stephanie Meyer.
Chapter 34: Latch
It came no surprise to me this morning of how tired I was. Even when I heard my obnoxious alarm it was very difficult to keep both my eyes open. I knew that this was going to happen partly because I was up with Edward for half the night, the other part was that I had been to excited to sleep after being with I turned of my alarm I slowly stretched my arms and legs underneath my soft sheets then made even more of a mess of them when I twisted and stretched the rest my body till I was fully on my stomach. I leaned my head back on my right arm that fell lazily off the corner of my bed. My eyes studied the curve my hand made while my ears tried to enjoy the peace and quiet morning here in Forks. I used to be so accustomed to the loud sounds of the cars that drove by my house in Miami, but now I was used to the quiet mornings. I who used to be afraid of change welcome these differences.
As I laid there with my eyes halfway open last night started to drift into my waking mind. Edward was going to pick me up at 7:00. My breathing stopped and my eyes fully opened when I remembered. My eyes went to sharply look my alarmed clock, it read 6:21 pm. With a gasped I sat straight up. I had forgot to set my alarm clock! Of course this would happen today! I pushed myself off my bed and on to the floor, but unfortunately I couldn't move as fast as I wanted to, my feet were still to weak from sleep.
I went over to my closet as quickly as I could. My eyes ran over the clothes and I quickly selected a black jacket, a white t-shirt, and blue jeans. Then I laid them out over my bed and picked out my underwear and bra before undressing myself. And then I grabbed a towel and shot into the bathroom to shower.
After I was done bathing I couldn't help but relax under the warm show for at least a minute. But every second that went by in there just increased how nervous I was. I could feel the hairs stand up on my back when I got out of the shower. I then went back into my bed bedroom and got dressed, when I was finished I looked at my clock again. It read 6:46. Now all I had to do was my hair, then tell my dad he didn't have to take me to school, and make and eat breakfast all in 14 minutes. Peace of cake.
Today I just simply straightened my hair and curved it at the ends, and also I curled my bang over my forehand. Satisfied with the way my hair was I sighed in the mirror and then I sighed again wearily because I remembered I have to speak with my father. This is going to be fun, I took a deep breath before I turned off the bathroom light and closed the door behind me. And then I walked to my parents room at the end of the hallway and opened door.
Inside the room held a dark bluish color from the Forks morning light being the only light in the room. I could make out only the shapes of everything in the room but the colors and details were lost to my eyes. I looked directly at my dad sleeping on the left side of the king sized bed heavily with the side of his pillow wrapped underneath his arm that pushed the side of his mouth up. I could hear him snoring softly in the doorway.
"Dad..." I said softly, he didn't wake up. "Dad." I said a little louder, still no reaction. "Dad." I finally said louder in my in normal voice. Then he pressed his eyelids together before opening them again with a squint.
"Hmm?" He finally responded heavily right before his right eye that was closer to his pillow then his left eye closed.
"Hey." I said softly as I leaned against the door way.
"Hey..." He said back as best as could in his tired state. After shutting his eyes for a few seconds he spoke again. "Is it time to go?" He asked.
"Almost, but you don't have to take me today." I answered.
"You know you can't miss to many days of school." He said and then he blanked his heavy eyelids.
"Oh, i'm going to school a friend of mine is taking me." I said
"Hmm." He said. I could tell by the way he said it that he was falling asleep again.
"Dad?" I said which woke him up again.
"Yeah..." He mumbled.
"You don't have to take me to school, someone else is." I said.
"You said a friend is taking you?" He asked. This was taking longer then I thought it would, I was losing my patience.
"Yes..." I said, I was careful to not let my mild frustration lace through my voice.
"A friend? What friend?" He asked and I pressed my teeth together. I was hoping that he would be to tired to pay attention to the little details.
"A friend from school..." I said and I could tell that my dad was trying to wake himself up and listen the best he could by the way he blanked his eyes and turned his head.
"Is it a girl or a boy?" He asked with his head still on the pillow. Dang it.
"Uh...a boy." I admitted shaking my head a little. My dad pulled his arm from under the pillow to put his head on his hand to lift it up more so that he would have a better look at me.
"Is it..? Do you have a boyfriend now?" He asked and I opened my eyes wider in embarrassment.
"No, he's just a friend giving me a ride to school." I said trying to sound convincing and then my dad was quiet for about three seconds.
"Okay, but call me if anything happens." He said while giving me a fatherly look, most likely to see if I was sure or not about my decision. Thankfully I did look responsible.
"Thank you dad." I said coming over by his bed bed side and then I give him a side hug.
"Mhm." He murmured.
"I love you." I said after I got and then I walked to the door.
"Love you too, be safe." He mumbled before laying his head down on his pillow.
"Okay later." I whispered since he was going back to sleep and then I quietly closed his door behind me. When I walked away from his room I blew out a breath of relief for getting that over with. I walked back into my room and grabbed my book bag before I turned off my lights and headed down stairs and then I went into the kitchen. Today I made myself some oatmeal and toast, not because they taste the best which they don't but so my breath wouldn't smell afterwards.
As I sat at the the table finishing off my water I looked through the window waiting to see Edwards car pull up. And then I looked down at my phone I saw that the time had just turned from 6:59 to 7 o'clock, and just then from the side of my eye I saw his silver Volvo pull up in front of my house and so I smiled. I hoped to myself that I wouldn't act weird because of of how giddy he made me feel.
I got up and took a breath to calm my heart, it was already racing. What was wrong with me? There was no need to be nervous, i'm just going to school with guy I love who happens to be not human and can hear my heart rate. No reason at all...
I turned away from the window and I placed the dishes into the sink. And then I slid into my jacket, grabbed my book bag and walked to my front door. I looked at the door knob for a couple of seconds before I took another breath and opened it. When I looked up through the doorway I saw Edward laying casually against the door of the car and he looked up from the grass and gave me a handsome crooked smile that made me feel as if something was lightly touching my skin giving me goosebumps all over. All I could do was give him a shy smile before I closed my front door and walked over the lawn to him.
"Good morning Jessica." He said looking down standing up straight.
"Morning Edward." I said trying to seem not so affected by him.
"Ready to go?" He asked as he opened the door for me.
"Of course." I said before I walked passed him to the car.
"Good, because i'm ready to ask you some questions, after your three of course." He said with a smug smile and I turned around to face him. I only meant to respond but I guess I was feeling as bold by how close we were. So in that moment as I did last night I tilted my head and leaned in close to him as if I was going to kiss him.
"I haven't forgotten." Was the only thing I said before I got into the car and sat down. Edward stared at me for a second longer then he needed to before he shut the door. My heard thudded several times as he went around and got into the drivers seat. As soon as he was in the car he started it and sped off. While we rode in silence I noticed how his car smelled like him, it had a sweet but masculine aroma. It was only just noticeable enough to fill my senses pleasantly and it wasn't at all overpowering. I felt a little embarrassed at myself because I started breathing slowly just for the sake of smelling his scent, yup it's official i'm turning into a freak...and I like it. Oh god.
"So no questions today Jessica?" Edward said scaring me badly enough to make jump and stop breathing for a second. "Sorry, did I scare you?" He said with a grin as if he liked it.
"No, it's fine. You didn't scare me." I said after I blew out enough air to calm my startled heart. in a way that anyone could tell that he in fact did. He wouldn't have been able to if I hadn't been breathing in his scent, he's unknowingly setting me up!
"Are you sure?" He asked chuckling.
"Yes." I said still a little embarrassed and I could feel him looking at me as I stared out of windshield.
"Hmm...Alright, whatever you say. Anyway back to the questions, I can't ask mine if you don't ask yours." He said amused.
"Yes the questions..." I agreed. What to ask..? "So...what are you're hobbies, besides camping I mean?" I asked. Edward let out a light laugh. "What? I know that it isn't very original but I don't know what to ask you really." I said a little embarrassed.
"I don't have many other hobbies than that I guess." He said.
"Mm...Oh I got one, do you play any musical instruments?" I asked.
"Yes I do. I play the piano." He said. Now of course I knew this already but I just had to bring it up.
"Really? The sound of a piano is beautiful, I have to hear you play something." I said
"Have you ever played the piano before?" He asked.
"Me? No, not at all. I would love to have that talent. But I don't." I said.
"I could teach you." He said.
"I think it's too late for me." I said with a smiled.
"I think you underestimate my skills as a teacher." He said.
"I'm not. I just don't want to get my hopes up for something I know that I will fail horribly at." I said.
"How do you know?"
"I just do." I said.
"Don't worry we could start slow. You could have your hands on top of mine to get the flow and feel of the keys while I play." He said and then he reached across with his hand and slid his hand underneath my palm. My hand was smaller compared to his but they lined up against each other perfectly, he moved his fingers like he was playing a piano and my fingers followed. "See." He said. I felt a thump in my heart as I watched our fingers move, and then I looked at Edward and he stared directly into my eyes.
"I guess a lesson or two couldn't hurt." I said.
"Hopefully not." Edward said.
"Okay so we're making a little progress." I said.
"Progress?" He asked.
"You using hope in any fashion other than negative, that was literally the first time I heard you do that. Even if it was really small. I may not pay attention to as many things as you do but I try." I said. Edward stared straight ahead at the road brought his eyebrows close together in thought.
"Hope is a concept that people who aren't able to take much control in what happens in their lives use. I'm sure i'm in control." He said.
"I'm positive that you are not as in control as you'd like to be and I like that." I said and he looked at me.
"Why?" He asked.
"I wouldn't be sitting right beside you if either of us had total control. You're not alone in that frustration Edward, but a little advice it was hope that helped me to give in so we could be like this. " I said rubbing the top of his hand with my thumb as I held it. He looked down at our hands and intertwined them.
"So there has been hope even with all the control i've had?...More hope might be a good thing then." He said.
"Now that you're more open to more positive things can I sneak in your room?" I asked and Edward let out a laugh.
"You could but you would fail." He said and I gave him a hurt and surprised look. "Where did this even come from?" He asked.
"I've never been in a guys room who wasn't related to me and I never sneak out anywhere it will make it more cool to combine them!" I said.
"You know i'm not completely throwing out caution, not yet. I do enjoy being around you and as much as I would like for you to be farther from reach I still want to have you with me as long as I can." He said.
"I don't know, I think that you would like being more carefree. It's more enjoyable." I said as leaned back into the seat and looked at him. We had already pulled into the school's parking lot, after Edward parked he took the keys out of the ignition and looked at me.
"Are you ready to go?" He asked me.
"No, I would like to stay with you a little longer." I said.
"We could go somewhere else but considering that your father let me take you to school, I don't think that would be a good idea." He said. I sighed.
"Yeah I guess." I said and then I heard Edward chuckle.
"You don't have to pout Jessica. I would like spending more time with you too." He said getting out of the car.
"I'm not pouting." I said a little embarrassed. Edward opened my door for me and I grabbed my book bag and got out. And I can't believe that I forgot that there was the possibility of me getting stared out like I was being put on display. As Edward and I walked side by side through the crowd of students a lot of them were turning their heads our way.
"This is very uncomfortable." I said.
"Just ignore them that's what I do." Edward said.
After we parted ways on my way to my first class I was stopped in the hall by Jessica who had a very expectant look on her face. We stood there quietly for a moment before she said something.
"So you're not going to tell me how you got another ride with him this morning?" She said and I took a couple of steps forward indicating that I was leaving.
"How about I tell you later I don't want to be late for class Jess." I said.
"Okay tell me at lunch." She said.
"I'll tell you at lunch!" I said jogging away from her.
"You better!" She said.
~Lunch Time~
I walked into the lunch room casually and it didn't take long before saw Edward waiting for me, he was the only one at the table. When I started to walk over to him I saw to my right Jessica waving me over to her table. I mounted to Edward and gestured with my hand just for him to give me a minute, when he gave a nod I mouthed thank you.
When I made it over to my friends I was met with faces that said that they had a lot to say to me. Tyler, Eric, and Mike looked a little peeved, Lauren looked angry as always, sweet Angela still looked, and of course Jess looked like she was really to swoop in for some dirt. This was going to be so much fun.
"So..." Jessica started.
"He offered to take me to school today." I told her.
"And..." She pushed.
"I don't know what else you want me to say." I said.
"She wants to know how you got him to bring you to drive you genius." Lauren said.
"He offered."
"Yeah but how did he offer?!" Jess asked.
"He asked would I like a ride to school and I excepted." I said. Although I saw a little disappointment in her eyes she still smiled.
"I saw him open the door for you this morning." Angela said. Angela who side are you on!
"Yes, who ever said chivalry was dead obvious never met him. He's really sweet." I said thoughtfully.
"You know I just find it hard to believe that you who didn't like Edward more than anyone else did all of sudden starts riding to school with him." Mike pointed out.
"What can I say, he really changed the way I thought about him." I said.
"But you really really hated him. So what did he do to get your attention?" Mike asked.
"He just always seemed to be in the right place at the right time...Does that make sense?" I said trying to ignore his obvious frustration.
"So you mean it's not because he has a great car but it's because he saved your life?" He said and nodded as if he gained some ironic understanding, he was getting on my nerves.
"It's not that simple." I said.
"Well I couldn't think of anything else other then all the times he has taken you for ride after the accident." He said and something in the way he said that made it sound like he was hinting at something else.
"It's none of your business Mike!" I said. Our table was left in silence before Mike got up and exited the cafeteria and I covered my face with my hand. "That escalated way to quickly...I just thought that he would have gotten the message by now." I said.
"Well he obliviously didn't." Lauren said.
"I'll talk to him at P.E." I said.
"Jessica that wasn't your fault he started the whole thing." Eric said and I nodded.
"I'll see you guys later." I said standing to go.
"Sorry Jessica." Angela said.
"Thanks Angela." I said before I walked to the table where Edward was and sat down.
"I saw Mike get up and storm off. Are you alright?" Edward asked me and I smiled him.
"I'm fine, I just haven't made myself clear enough about where his and I relationship stands." I said.
"And where does it stand?" He asked.
"It doesn't go beyond friendship but I do value it a lot." I said.
"Are you sure that you're alright?"
"Yeah." I said nodding. After that lunch carried on as it normally did and so did our next class.
When P.E. came around I was collected enough to face Mike. I walked into the gym and looked around to see if Mike was there yet, which he was and it looked like a sub was there so one was dressing out bu sitting on the bleachers. Mike was sitting with Eric and Jessica and they seemed to talking to him but he looked like he wasn't responding as much as they would have liked. I took a deep breath and walked over to them.
"Hi guys." I said and Jessica and Eric said hi back to me, Mike just mumbled and stared forward with his hands on his knees. "Eric, Jess can we have a minute alone please?" I asked them.
"Sure." Eric said.
"Yeah." Jessica said and then they went and sat on the other side of the bleachers and thankfully gave us privacy because they were out of earshot. I sat down a next to Mike.
"Mike we need to talk about what happened. But first I would like to apologize for yelling at you, i'm sorry." I said and Mike gave me the honor of turning his eyes and his head towards me and then he sighed and hung his head.
"No, you don't have to apologize I wound you up more then enough to do it." He said and then he sighed.
"Well, yeah you kinda did but still." I said and then I looked down at my hands for a moment before I spoke again. "Mike there's something that I should tell you, and I have been avoiding it for a long time..." I said. I hate this.
"I know, you're not in to me. I get the message now." He said looking down at his hands.
"I'm really sorry Mike." I said. I felt terrible, I have never full on rejected someone before.
"No I should've gotten the message but I was being too damn optimistic." He said scrunching his eyebrows and then several moments passed us by as we avoided looking at each other.
"Mike do you hate me?" I asked him.
"No, no I couldn't hate you." He said looking at me.
"So we're still friends?" I asked.
"Of course we are."He said with a small smile and I smiled back at him.
"Good." I said.
"Can I ask you a question?" Mike asked. Since he was taking rejection so well I didn't want to deny him any answers that would keep us from having closure.
"Sure." I said. I'm not going to lie but I was feeling both curious and fearful of what his question might be considering we already talked about things I would have rather avoided forever.
"Did you ever once think about me more than just a friend?" He asked looking straight at me and I shook my head. Shit! This is why avoid talking like this with people because of stuff like that right there! "Can I ask why?" He said and I sighed.
"I have always had this thing about not getting into relationships, it's just something that has always seemed foreign to me, until recently of course. People our age date all the time but I always just preferred to have friends because that was easy and fun and made more sense. It's not that I didn't get those feeling ever but rather just ignored them until they went away and after awhile doing that got easier and easier. So almost all of the time I wouldn't have feelings for someone...I know i'm weird." I said.
"Wow. That is weird." He said looking at me.
"Thanks." I said. I have been called weird so many times in my life I don't even take it as an insult anymore.
"Not in a bad way...Can I just ask you one more question?" Mike asked and I gave him an exhausted look. "Last one I promise."
"Okay." I reluctantly said.
"If you felt like that about relationships why did you choose Edward?" He asked seriously and I sighed. Oh god when will it end?
"Well, when I first saw Edward I immediately felt very strongly about him, I guess you can call it chemistry. I was so frustrated all of the time because of how much I liked hi, it was the reason that I hated him so much. I mean I have had crushes before but not like this, this is something different. But the more he talked to me and the closer he got I just...I don't know. If only I knew that I lost the fight the moment I saw him I would have given in sooner, it would have saved me a lot of frustration." I said. I can't believe I just said that to Mike.
"That's intense, no wonder you stutter when the other's ask you about him." He said.
"Yeah.."
"I wish I had a girl that felt that way about me." He said.
"Well maybe someone already does." I said pointing to where Jessica and Eric were talking and giving us glances.
"Eric?" Mike asked with a confused expression.
"Okay let me rephrase that. Maybe a girl already feels that way about you." I said.
"Jessica?"
"Yes..." I said with an obvious tone. Lord help this child. He looked at Jessica and she turned around and looked at him and then she waved and smiled at him and he did the same. "You mean you never noticed?"
"A little...but we went to elementary school together. I just thought she was being...I don't know." Mike said.
"Maybe you should ask her out on a date?" I suggested.
"I don't know, you think I should?" He asked.
"Hey you two have known each other for a very long time why not?"
"I'll think about it." He said.
"Okay. So are you ready to invite them back?" I asked.
"Yeah i'll do it." He said and he stood and waved them over. "Eric, Jess come sit with us!" He said loud enough for more than Jessica and Eric to hear and they started to walked other to us.
"Oh yeah Mike please don't tell anyone what I said about Edward." I whispered and Mike nodded in understanding.
"Hey guys is everything alright?" Jessica asked when she came over and looked between the two of us.
"Yeah everything's okay and we're still friends." Mike said looking down at me and I nodded.
"Yeah we're cool." I said and they looked relieved.
"Good." Eric said with a nod. And then we all sat down and talked until the period was over.
I entered the school's crowded parking lot outside and walked to where I remembered Edward parked. Almost as soon as I spotted it I saw him as well, he looked really happy. Why? Oh yeah he heard everything I said about him. As I made my why over to him my heart seemed to pound just as hard as my footsteps did against the pavement.
When I stood in front of him he smirked before opening the door for me.
"So how'd it go?" He asked as if he didn't already know.
"I think I did a did a pretty good job." I said confidently. He lifted a dark eyebrow at me and smiled before he closed my door and went around to his.
"We'll see." He said before driving off. As we drove to my house we were both very silent and his last words to me swam in my head.
"Hey..." I said catching his attention so he glanced at me. "What did you mean by 'we'll see'? You don't think that what I might have said to him did any good?" I said little bothered.
"Let's just say I know how people's minds work." He said.
"So, is that a yes or no?" I asked him.
"Men don't give up easily he most likely will run your conversation over later and decide what he will do tonight. So you really won't know until tomorrow and of course i'm just assuming this." He said smirking and I narrowed my eyes at him.
"I think you do really know you just don't want me to know." I said.
"I might..." He teased. With a small smile I sighed and then I looked through the window at the greenery that quickly passed by, within two more minutes we were at my house. I saw that my dad's car was still in front, he must have taken the day off.
"My dad's still here, you can't come in." I said before turning to look at Edward.
"Why not?" He asked.
"Why not!? Well I just don't think my dad would like a boy he never officially met in his daughters room. He's gonna get the impression that you've been up there before." I said paranoid.
"How would he jump to that conclusion?" Edward asked me.
"I don't know maybe because we're both teenagers and teenagers have the tendency to sneak around like that." I said. Edward tilted his head to the side.
"Are you sure that you haven't gotten in trouble with that before?" He asked looking down at me.
"No! No, I just...No!" I said frustrated. Edward started laughing.
"I have never seen you this nervous before, does your father always have this affect on you?" He asked.
"No." I said stubbornly and Edward gave me another chuckle. "Are you finished?" I asked him.
"Yes, I am." He said with a grin.
"Good." I said before I started to get out the car myself. I had push pushed the door open a little before Edward was there to pull it the rest of the way. "Whoa." I almost forgot how fast he could be. When I was out of the car I looked back up at Edward.
"I guess i'll see you later?" I asked him.
"How about sooner then later?" He said.
"What..? Are still planning on coming up?" I asked him.
"Yeah, don't worry about your dad he won't catch me sneaking in." He said with a smirk. Even though I knew what he could do the mere thought of getting caught made me a little nervous, I hate getting into trouble.
"Am I involved with a delinquent?" I teased him as he want around to the drivers seat.
"Well I am as bad as they come." He said and I couldn't help but smile. "Give me eleven minutes."
"Okay." I said and I turned around and went to my front door. After I opened the door I heard Edward's car speed off.
I went straight into the living room where I heard the t.v. on and saw my dad's head peaking over the chair.
"Hey dad." I said cheerfully in way that could make anyone suspicious, crap I look guilty, I knew this but I couldn't help but smile.
"Oh hey, what's going on sweetie?" He asked as he turned back to look at me.
"Nothing, i'm just going to go take a nap." I said.
"School tired you out?"
"Yup...So i'm just going to go up stairs now." I said backing up towards the stairs.
"Oh hold. Aren't you hungry?" He asked me.
"No..." I said shaking my head.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah i'm sure." I said.
"Oh..." He said turning back to the television and I just got what he was doing.
"Dad do you want something to eat?" I asked.
"Well...I would appreciate if could you fix your father a sandwich..." He said.
"Sure dad." I said with a laugh and then I went into the kitchen to fix him a sandwich. When I was done I went into the living room and gave it to him.
"Thank you daughter." He said and then he took a bite of his sandwich.
"You're welcome see ya." I said and I was halfway up the stairs when he said something again.
"You know your sister and your mom will be back home tomorrow." He said.
"Yeah I heard from mom." I said.
"Oh when did you speak to her?" He asked.
"Yesterday."
"Oh." He said before he turned his full attention to the television.
"Okay i'm just gonna go..." I whispered and then I climbed the rest of the way up the stairs. When I got into my room Edward was just shutting my window.
"Hey..." I said with a smile.
"Hey." He said and smiled at me.
"Um i'm just going to get out of these clothes, you can sit down anywhere." I said and he sat down on my bed. I went into my closet and put on a spaghetti strap and a gym capri. After I was done I came out and sat on my bed next to him and... and we looked each other in the eyes for one breath holding moment and he tilted his head before giving me a brilliant crooked smirk. When I wanted to stay away from him before I always had to force my eyes off of him. Now what reason do I have not to stare back. I wonder if he was feeling up to doing something weird?
"Okay. I have an idea." I said and he looked interested." Feel free to say no because its kind of weird but effective. It's a well-known fact that if you stare into someone's eyes for longer than 5 minutes you'll break down deeper barriers than communication and emotional and the two people become closer. I was wondering if we could try that." I said.
"Alright." He said.
"Really?" I said.
"Yeah i'm curious how could this will effect us." He said. I nodded and than sat up crisscrossed my legs. He sat on the edge on my bed in front of me. I turned around and set my phones timer to 5 minutes and set it down.
"Okay lets do this." I said and we started to stare in each other's eyes. I felt so strange, why did I think was a good idea again? Oh yes because i'm sitting across from the person that will spend the rest of my life with. Wow, that's a strange thought to have. As another minute ticked by we both laughed because of the tensity that stated to build. Looking into his eyes as he stared back at mine and it was like a part of him was coming into me and vice versa.
I couldn't help what happened next but it just did. We were leaning in closer to each other while our eyes were still locked, for the first time I could see everything that he was feeling and I know that he could with me as well. Just as our noses were touching- BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! I shut my eyes and pulled away before I turned and shut off the alarm. Dang I wish that I didn't set that thing. I ran my hand through my hair and gave a exhale.
"Wow that was really intense..." I said. When I looked at Edward I saw that his eyes were even a little darker than they were before. "Edward?"
"Jess..." He said smoothly. Him saying my name was like tying an invisible to my chest and tugging at it.
"Yes..." I answered. He gave me a curious look with his eyes before biting his lower lip and then he chuckled and shook his head.
"Never mind." He said. I pulled my eyebrows together ever so slightly and wondered what was he about to ask.
"No I really want to know." I said and then I sat down on my bed. Edward gave me a thoughtful look before he brought his face closer to mine.
"I wanna try something and if you want me to stop just tell me." He said. I gave him a confused look before he took my face in his hand and laid me down with the other and he began to kissed me tenderly. After a while it became more a little more serious, he wasn't a careful but he tasted sweeter. His torso was just brushing mine as he leaned over me. Now I have never allowed myself to get very far or even this far with any guy but this was Edward and there wasn't ANYTHING that he was doing that I didn't want so BELIEVE ME when I tell you pushing him back was VERY a hard thing to do.
He immediately was off of me and when I opened my eyes I saw that he was leaning against the wall on the other side of the room. His eyes were still closed and he looked like he was trying to compose himself, when he finally opened his eyes I think I saw a hint of regret.
"I'm sorry Jessica." He said. I had to find the strength to sit up again because my whole body was weak from all the kissing. Was my body this hot before?
"Don't ever apologize for that, because that was amazing. I'm a little ashamed of myself though." I said.
"What? You didn't do anything wrong." He said straightening himself up a bit.
"Yes I did. I didn't tell you something about me." I said patting the spot in front of me.
"Alright i'm listening." He said sitting down.
"And its something that I have seriously thought about even when I was twelve. And when I first told someone this they were skeptical and apparently to others I look like I would be easier because of my big boobs which is not true at all." Edward looked like he wanted to laugh but he was holding it in. "I know you wouldn't say that because you're really nice and I trust you. But I always promised myself that if I was ever like this with someone I will tell them before anything happened. I really don't know why i'm so nervous to tell you though i'm sure you'd understand. It's just that a lot girls aren't like this and a lot of people think it's crazy-" Before I could finish my rambling Edward took my hands in his.
"Jessica what are you trying to tell me?" He asked me, and I took a deep breath before I told him.
"I'm a virgin and I don't want to have sex until i'm married. Plus that was my first kiss ever." I said seriously. There was a moment of silence before Edward broke out into laughter.
"Edward are you seriously laughing at me right now, i'm being serious." I said. Maybe my sister was right when she said I had the tendency to over react. After he put himself together he looked me in the eyes.
"I'm really sorry I didn't expect that. The way you were saying things was leading me to believe what you were going to tell me would be something terrible. But it's not. Look Jessica, I believe in the seem thing as you. I choose not to have sex before marriage, even if there comes times like this where it looks like I will get carried away, I won't. So you don't have to be afraid of that." He said honestly, he still had mirth in his eyes.
I knew his views on marriage but it was just something I wasn't comfortable to bring up, and also it wasn't him I was afraid of getting carried away, it was me. I never allowed myself to feel or be like this with anyone because I was afraid that if I told them I wanted to not have sex, they would leave me, or the both of us would get carried away and wind up having sex anyway. I smiled at Edward.
As the day turned into the night we gave up taking turns with asking questions and we just talked...about anything and nearly everything. I don't know when we will tell each other everything but right now I don't care, I am satisfied and insanely happy.
"So can I sneak in your room or not?" I asked him as I played with his fingers and he laughed.
"You really want to see my place." He said.
"Yup."
"I'll invite you over when I can get my family out of the house." He said.
"Why does your family need to be out of the house?" I asked. I'm sure there were numerous vampire related reasons but which one?
"They're very nosy." He said.
"Oh." I said and Edward bent down and gave me a kiss, i'm sure I was smiling like a idiot.
"I have to go." He said.
"Really?" I asked but then I noticed that his eyes were really dark, almost black. Well when you gotta eat, you gotta eat.
"Yeah I have to help my brothers with something." He said. Or do they have to help you have fun while you hunt?
"Okay, I guess i'll see you later." I said.
"See you." He said standing up and then he jumped out of the window first landing on a branch and then the ground gracefully. As if he needed that bran I thought with a smile. After he left the spot were the light from my window shined I couldn't see him anymore son I closed the window. And just then my dad came opened my door.
"Hey, whatcha doing?" He asked.
"I was just looking out the window." I said.
"It's pitch black outside." My dad said. I turned towards the window.
"No...there's a crescent moon out tonight and it shows really nice through the tree outside." I said folding my arms.
"Okay my artistic daughter goodnight."
"Goodnight dad." I said and then he closed the door. When I turned back to the window I thought about how was I going to make myself sleep tonight and in the next thirty minutes I had taken a shower got dressed and drunk a really big cup of chamomile tea. Tonight I was out like a light and had a complication of make out dreams with Edward. What has he down to me?
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